Damon: Even if I wanted to apologize, you couldn’t hear me.. so I won’t. Elena: Please don’t leave me. Damon: I don’t have a choice, baby. You are, by far, the greatest thing that ever happened to me in my 173 years on this Earth. I get to die knowing I was loved not just by anyone, but you, Elena Gilbert. It’s the epitome of a fulfilled life. It’s never gonna get any better than this. I peaked. I love you, Elena.
for elena gilbert, the worst day of loving someone is the day she loses them, and damon dying (along with bonnie) is just more people that she’s loved and lost. it doesn’t matter how hard she fights to keep people, they keep dying or leaving her, and all she can do is break down alone and beg for him not to leave her.
people die around elena, and the price of surviving at the expense of loved ones is learning to cope with abandonment and grief that never seems to end.