Biology dictates reality. On the one hand, it helps me blame myself less for what I am. The first and oft-repeated step of the program is admitting one’s powerlessness. I’m not responsible for her drug use, nor for any of the proclivities I may have inherited from her. On the other hand, I really am no fan of abdicating personal responsibility. Hence the repetition of the step.
My name is Alfredo, and I’m an addict. Wow, um, first time I said those words, I was 33 and didn’t think I’d make it to see 34. If you told me then that I’d be getting my five-year chip now, I’d have thought you were high. Honestly. But, here I am. And it’s because of people in this room. You guys gave me my life back’ people like Libby, Tom, Sherlock. You’re the reason I made it five years clean, and the reason that I got my sights set on ten.
Kitty: Thank you for coming. It’s like I said on the phone, he just won’t stop. You got any ideas? Joan (to Sherlock): You’re not planning to destroy the computer, are you? Sherlock: No, I’m not planning to destroy the bloody computer. Joan (to Kitty): Just ride it out. If he starts hitting things, use the fire extinguisher on him.
How you feel shouldn’t be her problem. After everything that happened to me, all my relationships were different. My family and my friends, they were just trying to help but the look on their faces it— it just reminded me that it had happened. It’s one of the reasons that I wanted to start over. I know I haven’t been here very long but I do know that perception matters. If she doesn’t want to look weak than she shouldn’t have to.