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Dear A, you´re my oldest friend and even though I never tell you, you mean so much to me and I´m glad to have you in my life.

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Dear C, you´re the best friend I´ve ever had and I love you so much, please never give up and start to believe in yourself. You´re amazing!

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Dear H, mum, we never talk about feelings and stuff but I love you so much and I´m thankful for everything you´ve ever done for me.

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Dear J, you´re like a little brother and you´re so important to me. I love you so much.

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Dear K, we don`t talk anymore and to be honest, I´m glad about that, but you were my best friend for many years and you´ll always have a place in my heart.

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Dear L, I would say in some way you´re my first real love. I mean, I don´t think I´ve ever loved someone the way I love you. I know we´ll never be a thing but thank you for being in my life and making me happy. I know you have no idea what kind of impact you have on me and how much you mean to me but I can never tell you because things would just get screwed up and I couldn´t deal with that. But still, I love you so much and thank you for always making me laugh.

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Dear M, I know I often say you annoy me and honestly you do so much, but you still mean a lot to me and I really like you.

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Dear N, you meant so much to me, but you also screwed so many things up. I still feel ashamed for what I did but it was kinda your fault that it came out. I forgave you because you were so important to me but you believed the others and we stopped talking. Later you were so mean which wasn´t necessary because I´ve never done you anything. But still, I´m glad we could talk about it and I hope you´re doing well.

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Dear P, at some point you were really important to me and I was actually pretty hurt when we slowly stopped talking but thank you for being a part of my life.

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Dear R, dad, our relationship is complicated because we´re too different, but I´m still thankful for everything you´ve ever done for me even though i can´t really show you.

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Dear S, you were my best friend for a while and you meant a lot to me. I think it´s actually pretty sad that we never spoke again but I hope you´re doing well.

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Dear Z, your character is a bit complicated but you also meant a lot to me. I don´t really care that we don´t talk anymore but I still hope you´re happy.

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You and all the others I didn´t write about made me the person I am today and I´m glad that I met all of you. Thank you for being a part of my life even though I´ve lost contact with most of you.

~someone who never says enough to others.  

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I haven’t slept in 2 days so excuse my cheesiness and incoherence, but - I had never seen harry so up close before yesterday. we’re talking centimetres in some cases to no more than a couple of metres in others (!!!!!!!). when I got into the studio and realised how close he would be I thought I would freak out once he came out, but then he did and for those 4 hours the feeling I got is that I had seen him a million times before. he has this quality about him. he makes you feel as if you’ve known him your entire life, and as if that person on stage is nothing but a close friend chasing his dreams who you are very proud and fond of. I had felt similarly at the garage gig back in may, but I guess yesterday’s intimate venue and relaxed general mood hightened it 10000x. he was so, so charming. laughing and interacting with everybody - he made it feel like a gathering of friends rather than a tv special to be aired on national tv. what the people that get to meet and work with him say is true: he has a star quality about him, and you FEEL how very special he is, but you also feel as if you could easily text him ‘ice cream?’ 5 minutes later and he would reply 'yes, see you in 10’ as if it were a common occurrence.

this probably doesn’t make much sense, but I don’t know if and how his magic will translate in the edited version of the show so I wanted to write it here in case it won’t. ❤️

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