do do i do this? why do i? like honestly why and for how long i do its just
honestly its not going to last long and i say that with no haste although there should be theres just not even an urgent feeling in me i just know its bad i just know that i mean obviously? wanting to stab yourself in the leg repeatedly/thinking its a genuinely good idea or smash your ankle with a hammer or drink aa non letheal amount of bleach is not a Good thing but theres a dull pull an Instinct?yeah thts a satisfyng word is instinct to do it i m honestly not urgent to do it or freaking out its just such an instinct that s only stopped that i dont have the energy or something like that and all the numbness woud make it really easy to be stupid i guess idk