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Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there.
I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autum rain.

And when you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there.
I did not die.

                          - Mary Elizabeth Frye

Being a Cullen Sibling Would Include
  • ●Being the youngest
  • ●Being changed by Carlisle
  • ●Having a completely different style from your siblings (less fancy and less standoutish)
  • ●Having a car of your own
  • ●Always blasting metal to drive Edward's classical to the grave
  • ●Singing the Tralala song in your head to make Edward uncomfortable
  • ●Hunting with Jasper and Alice because you too have a hard time controlling your thirst at times
  • ●Going out to parties and events because you are modernly involved unlike your siblings
  • ●Alice supporting your modern style and always accompanying you when you go to surrounding cities to shop
  • ●Rosalie acting as your elder sister and you two having a sisterly connection
  • ●Emmett always trying to teach you about sports always orcing you to watch games with him
  • ●Emmett kinda posses off that you like soccer and gymnastics more than football
  • ●Esme teaching you how to cook for your home ec. class
  • ●Carlisle getting you a volunteer position at the hospital to help you adjust to the presence of human blood

Jacob would have been so good if he had just been Bella’s friend. The one human friend who actually knows what’s going on because he’s involved in the supernatural world, because he’s torn between these two worlds too. Who loves her - loves her, but isn’t in love with her - who loves her enough to be a voice of reason, to step up, to say Please think about this- you’re making these decisions too fast, the consequences are too enormous to take this lightly, Bella, please don’t die. The one who is influenced by his heritage, and by common sense, who stands up and fights for his friend, who fights for her life as hard as he can- but who loves her enough to step down once he sees this is really what she wants, who loves her enough to recognize that we love people even if we don’t agree with their decisions. Jacob who is there for her during her pregnancy, because Edward is right when he says that Jacob gets Bella on levels he never will understand. Give me Jacob who is terrified for two days when Bella is transforming, because he doesn’t know if his best friend just vanished. Who is shaken by relief when she cracks a joke the first time she sees him then, and despite her red eyes and freakish beauty, Bella is still there. Jacob, who knows she’d never forgive herself for hurting anyone, let alone her own child- who volunteers to be the test for Bella’s restraint- not because he’s imprinted on Ness, but because he still loves Bella, because she’s still the most important person to him, because she’s still his best friend, despite their different choices, and Jacob will be there for her however he can.
Jacob, who is the only anchor to her old self, the only thing that represents normalcy for Bella when she has to let Charlie go ( because no matter how it plays out, at some point she has to). Jacob who also tells her off when she’s wrong or selfish-because that’s love too.

Give me a Jacob who truly loves Bella, but who’s not in love with her. Give me this friendship that is healthy for both of them, because it’s what a friendship should be: support, love, acceptance.
Jacob who doesn’t force kisses or gaslights her and makes her feel guilty about not loving him like he needs it. Who doesn’t think it’s funny that she breaks her hand because she punched him in the face after he forced a kiss on her.
Give me real unease between Jacob and Edward because they’re natural enemies, not because they’re rivals for Bella’s affection. Explore the mistrust, the prejudices, let me see them overcome these for Bella, let Bella be the active part in showing these two that their preconceived notions do not need to be true.
Give me Edward and Jacob slowly starting to trust each other- Edward who tentatively gets invited to bonfire night over time.
Edward who can get over himself and respect Jacob because once he spends time with him he sees that he loves Bella, and that he doesn’t necessarily wants them to be apart, as long as Edward is in control of the “monster inside” - which is something that Edward can agree with, because he wants the same thing. Let them draw solace from each other because if worse comes to worst, she’ll still have the other one. Let them be important to her in their own ways.

Kill the stupid love triangle.