You stared at the decorated baby room you and your husband worked on for the past month now. Your husband, Ji-yong walked in placing an arm around your shoulders and a hand on your, now, large stomach. The room had been painted pastel pink with baby blue flooring and it had a large painted yellow sun on the ceiling. The door had her name on it, spelled with white letters. Jiyong started to rub your stomach feeling your little peanut kick. You smiled and Ji-yong returned the gesture. The 9 months flashed by remembering all the morning sickness, the mood swings, and money spent, but it was all worth it. There was a living being inside of you. It was the love of your life’s child, how could you not be happy?
“I love you and peanut” he says kissing you.
-1 week later-
You were rushed into the hospital. Nurses and Doctors rushed to you in a hurry. They placed you on to the stretcher and wheeled you away. They gave you a oxygen mask to steady your breathing as they dragged you across the hall.
“Are you sure you want to do this Mrs.Kwon?” Dr. Wang asked you with sorrow in his eyes.
You barely nodded as the people dragged you across to the operating room.
I rushed out of the studio door of YG, my shoes scratching the asphalt. I ran past the raging fans outside, not caring about my image. I got in my car and started the engine. My knuckles are white from gripping the steering wheel so tight. My mind is going a hundred miles an hour. With every single thing running through my mind is about her, my baby, our new baby girl. The car isn’t going fast enough for me, but getting pulled over at the moment isn’t something I wanted to deal with. My patience is wearing thin.
I finally pulled up to the hospital, I ran out of the car and into the automatic doors.
I went up to the reception counter where the receptionist was typing on the computer.
“Do you know where Kwon Y/n is?” I asked as I fidget around with my fingers, with worry in my voice.
“Yes, but no one is allowed to go inside for the time being” she said with a dull voice, not even sparing a glance at me.
I walked towards the rows of dull chairs sitting down on one near the window. I looked out into the blue sky, imagining our new future together… A new member to our family. The bandmates we’re stoked that they were gonna get a niece to play with and dress up. I laughed at the thought as people stared at me.
-12 hours later-
I woke up to someone tapping me on my shoulders. I rubbed my eyes and saw Dr.Wang looking down at me. I immediately stood up.
“Congratulations Mr.Kwon, your baby girl is very healthy and is in the infirmary” Dr. Wang said.
“That’s great Doctor but, Can I visit my wife first?” I asked with a smile plastered on my face.
“S-she didn’t tell you did she…” Dr. Wang said with his head dropping low and his voice filled with a hint of melancholy.
“Tell me what…?” I asked with confusion on my face.
“She gave her life, to save the baby” he said. My smile on my face disappeared instantly.
-two months ago-
You stared at the white sheet of paper in front of you. Tears threatening to fall any moment. You had came home from Dr. Wang’s appointment and the he had told you that if you give birth of your little peanut inside of you, you would die. You agreed. You thought about it and decided it would be best if Ji-yong didn’t know of this. You were gonna die, but at least your child would live on with the love of your life. You knew this was the right choice. You tried to hold onto your tears, but once that first tear broke free, the rest followed in an unbroken stream.
“She left this for you” Dr. Wand held out a piece of paper.
‘My dear hubby,
I am sorry that I didn’t tell you… by the time you are reading this I am already dead. Just know that I am always watching over peanut and you in the skies above. Know that I will always love you no matter what happens. Go and take care of peanut for me.
There was a wet spot on the page. Go find new love and be happy… that is all I want. You don’t need me. I know this is gonna be hard on you, but please do it for me. If only I could have survived… I’ll love you forever jagi…
I fell to my knees, I couldn’t move. It was as if I was paralyzed. Memories flashed through my head, the day we met, our first date, our anniversaries, our wedding, and now this. My sunshine and happiness left… She made my life 1,000x brighter and now she’s gone. As I thought just a few months ago that this was just the beginning of our happily ever after, but it was the end of her’s. My body shook at the thought, but she gave up her life for my happiness… I had always wanted a daughter… but with the love of my life too. I guess some people need to sacrifice themselves for the happiness of others.
“Can I see Yoonji?” i asked head still down with tears threatening to fall.
-6 years later-
“Happy Birthday baby girl!” I sang as my beautiful daughter blew out her swirled candles.
The guests cheered and start to cut pieces of the cake. I smiled as she was jumping around happily eating her blue and pink cake with her princess gown on.
‘I found my new sunshine’ I said in my head as I looked outside into the blue sky…