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Truthful.. Thursday?

So I missed truthful Tuesday but I had something I wanted to unload tonight so whatever.

You know what I miss? Guy friends.
This is the first time in my life that I don’t really have any guy friends.
When everything went down with Jeff last year, not only did I lose my closest guy friend in him but I lost the rest of my guy friends because I quit my softball team.
And Jenna says I’m not allowed to miss him and that I shouldn’t miss him.
But I do. I miss how things were before. I miss my team. I miss my guys.
I had a dream about it the other night and it’s been on my mind for days now.
I’ve always always had guy friends. In fact for a good chunk of my life I had all guy friends and struggled to make girl friends. Just how I’ve always been.
And I know when you get married things change. But for a brief moment I sorta had it all.
I had my girl friends and my guy friends and a happy relationship.
I guess I should feel lucky that I still have two outta three but I dunno. Guy friendships were just always easier for me.
I dunno, I don’t really have a point here. I think I just needed to get it all out of my head.