that moment of jace hugging a soaked unconscious alec with a heartbroken expression on his face that just. killed me off i can’t even describe how much THINGS i felt while watching those two seconds i don’t know how i’ll get through the full thing i just. dont
You know, sometimes I want to be able to use the force to do cool shit. Save lives, see the future, wield a lightsaber without cutting my hands off.
Then other times I’m just “Damn, my phone is in my room and I’m gonna be on the toilet a while” :/
So, tonight is a night of mellow, sober thoughts that sound like drunk thoughts. I’ll likely delete this later, but I’ve been thinking a lot about writing and what I’m going to do with it and what I’m worth to it. I write a lot of fanfiction, but I feel like I’ve not…done…enough or been good enough for what my ambitions are and what my age is.
Conflicted feelings exist because I feel like I have grown thanks to my fanfic writing, but I’m afraid that there is nothing beyond that, and there is nothing in the far tomorrow once the fandom dwindles because I’ve not worked hard enough to promote and polish myself for work that’s originally mine.
I kinda sorta almost cried about this during my mid-year conference with my vice principal today, worrying that my job is keeping me from pursuing other things that are important to me. My average work day is 9 hours now, and I’m exhausted because of the lack of breaks as the teachers are being expected to cover duties for others who are sick (one 25 minute break in 9 hours will make anyone cranky two days in a row).
But all that to say, I’m exhausted when I come home and I’m not working as hard on my writing or my hobbies. Mostly I just veg out-that’s all I can make myself do. I’m not trying to better myself, I’m just so exhausted and I feel like crap when I look at the things I’ve accomplished. So, my dreams are further off than I’d like. Maybe that’s where they’ll stay, but…idk…I’m just trying to survive some days.
What turned you onto vore? Do you have various fetishes? Have you ever tried BDSM? What's something you could never get into? How is your s/o doing?
Haha, this is a loaded ask. And Oh my god, I got like 16 fetishes, most are very specific situations tho…
I have not tried BDSM but I am very interested in certain BDSM tasks, humiliation is really good aspect of it I find!
Hmm the vore thing is certainly complicated, I got into it when I first got onto the internet, like, when I was 11, I was like whoa what the heck is this??? Through the web I found vore was a way to express my teenage angst at the world (especially drawing gorey stuff). I crudely animated some scenes (Long lost to history). Back then it had no correlation to anything sexual, it was just a way to express myself. Nowadays I can’t stand the thought of death in vore, so cruel and scary to me. But if it’s like consensual where no characters get hurt, or, full tour, what have you, I can dig those.
(I assume you mean this part sexually but) I can never get into the Adventure Zone podcast, everyone loves it but I get bored easily, and I LOVE Mcleroy bros products. Idk why this one stumps me, I even enjoy playing dnd occasionally.
My s/o Ken is doing well! He’s writing for a show he designed, which is amazing! We’re planning to go on a trip over the holiday break to somewhere local just to get away from life stress.
My mom’s friend got a breast lift which is a procedure that I’ve wanted since my senior year of high school when I learned that it existed and my mom (who’s taking care of her) said “well I knew you wanted this procedure so now I’ll have practice for when I care for you” bless my mom