Small Note on Julian

I told myself I would stay out of the whole Julian discourse for the sake of my patience and mental stability, but I just want to say something real quick*

*Please know beforehand that I am, in absolutely no way, condoning Julian’s actions. I acknowledge that he has said and done pretty shitty stuff and he’s been possessive and obsessive and overall… dark. Know that I am very aware of this and have it in mind as you read.

Y’all are out there calling Julian out, listing all of the shit he’s done, saying how he’s manipulative and selfish and obsessive and creepy— but you have to remember what made him that way.

I’m re reading City of Lost Souls and I just read the scene where they introduce Helen and Julian, and Julian was 10 years old and eating wax and laughing about it. Not knowing where Ty and Livvy were and not minding because it wasn’t his job to know.

He wasn’t born dark. He wasn’t born selfish or ruthless or anything of what we know him to be now. Circumstances made him that way. Losing his father to the Dark War made him that way. Losing his brother and sister because of a political war for power made him that way. Nearly losing his youngest brother made him that way. Being in love with the one person he cannot have made him that way. Having to be a full-grown adult at the age of twelve made him that way.

Sure, there are people who have gone through worse and come out as good-natured as before (idk, Harry Potter and Will Herondale, etc), but, dude, not everyone is as strong-minded and strong-willed. Some minds are weak and succumb a lot easier. So yeah, he made awful choices and everything come downs to the decisions he could’ve made but didn’t, and the ones he could’ve avoided but didn’t.

Sure, he’s the anti hero. Sure, he should not be so easily redeemed by those who say “idc what he did he’s still a cinnamon roll” ‘cause he’s not.

But the enemy isn’t Julian. The enemy is the Clave and injustice and war. Which I’m (notice the emphasis in “I’m”) guessing is something Cassie is trying to say— that sometimes life fucks you up beyond your control. And sometimes shitty people make shitty decisions because life was… well, shit.

So before you start wishing Julian was dead and listing all the way in which he has fucked up and how his family would be better off without him, please remember this. Thank you.

(And please notice I was being absolutely polite so if you’re gonna argue please be polite too).

In QoAaD, I want to see Maryse call Magnus her son-in-law (possibly in front of the Cohort or the Clave), firstly because he basically is her son-in-law even if Magnus and Alec aren’t married yet, but also because how fucking incredible would it be to see this woman who used to be in Valentine’s Circle, who used to openly despise and distrust Downworlders, publicly acknowledging a warlock as part of her family, as good as her son??


Endless list of favorite characters // Julian Atticus Blackthorn 

 “When you love someone, they become a part of who you are. They’re in everything you do. They’re in the air you breathe and the water you drink and the blood in your veins. Their touch stays on your skin and their voice stays in your ears and their thoughts stay in your mind. You know their dreams because their nightmares pierce your heart and their good dreams are your dreams too. And you don’t think they’re perfect, but you know their flaws, the deep-down truth of them, and the shadows of all their secrets, and they don’t frighten you away; in fact you love them more for it, because you don’t want perfect. You want them. You want—"

LoS character summary

Julian: Oh, Emma couldn’t possibly love me as much as I love her, I’m in torment

Emma:  Oh, Julian couldn’t possibly love me as much as I love him, I’m in torment

Mark: Oh no there’s a really hot girl I’m bonded to and I really want to kiss her, but Kieran.. and not to mention I’m supposed to be dating Emma ?

Ty: Its too loud, btw I think I know how to fix everything

Cristina: Oh no there’s a really hot boy I’m bonded to and I really want to kiss him, but Kieran.. and not to mention I’m supposed to be in love with perfect Diego?


Kit: *literally anyone walking by* omg they’re really hot

Livvy: Ty has been more attentive since Kit has joined us…  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Kieran: Why does Mark hate me? And why don’t I hate Cristina?

Diana: Does that faerie hunter dude with the antlers have a thing for me?? Do I have a thing for him??

Gwyn: Diana hawt ;)

Alec: Oh no the children woke up 

Zara: I will lead the REVOLUTION

Magnus: Why are all the shadowhunter’s I’m ever surrounded by crazy