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As always I’m late for everything as I quickly put my heelson in the car “only you would be late for the Fendi fashion show” my stylist said behind me as he made sure my dress didn’t look a mess from the back, I swear it was not my fault I was just busy considering where I would want my birthday party this year and mind you I am turning 34 with nothing to show for, not even a boyfriend. My mom is thinking what the hell am I doing but my last boyfriend was just not me, I was bored of him he didn’t really spark a flame with me just his looks that attracted me to him. The car came to a halt outside the fashion show red carpet, the door flew open and then Rihanna is in action “let’s go” I mouthed to myself sliding out the back “Rihanna!!!” everyone screamed, plastering a smile on my face and waved to everyone “look over here Rihanna, look at this camera” I kept on walking just because I am actually really late and I don’t want it to start “I am so sorry” I shouted waving at the paparazzi “I have to go in” I pointed at the door, my bodyguard motioned me inside.

Sitting front row with Melissa everyone just glared at me but then they realized it’s me and I am late for everything, even The Grammys. Looking down at my nails and then my shoes I just can’t believe I’m going to be 34 and I don’t even have a child, I guess this is what I get for being famous. I am so deflated about my birthday that I don’t want to do anything besides lay in my bed and eat “least look like you want to be here” Melissa whispered in my ear, I gasped looking at her “do I really look like that?” the music started playing in the background, Melissa bought her head closer to mine so I could hear her “you telling me you have not noticed Chris across us” my face instantly turned into a frown slowly looking across the runway still frowning, he wasn’t looking as he started talking to Mijo. Surprised he don’t have his tramp with him. Looking back at Melissa “you made me look at him now, people are going to think I like him” her head snapped back “oh bitch” I saw her mouth because I could not hear her for shit, I ended bursting into a fit of laughter because the facial expression was everything.

I kept my head down for a while because I didn’t want him to think I am looking at him because for all I know Melissa could just be playing me, she knows that I will always have feelings for him. He is my first love and always will be that. I looked up as the models started walking out “oooohhhh I can see myself in that” I pointing at the first model, Melissa was not paying attention she was just ignoring me as always. As I placed my hand back on my leg I ended up looking in his direction because I could not just swerve his face because he is literally sat across me “damn” I said to myself, Chris is actually looking at me. We stared at each other but we both didn’t shift our stare even as the models got in our eye view we were still looking till I couldn’t take it anymore and looked away, what the hell is he doing staring as I stared at the ground looking for answers like I’m getting anything from that.

The fashion show soon ended and so is me sitting here under Chris’ watchful eyes, I have never got up so quick to leave a fashion show in my life, and I just need air I felt so hot even sweat is starting to form on my forehead. I felt so rude just walking out and not meeting the designer or the models hopefully they won’t feel offended “could you walk any faster” Melissa complained behind me. Lele and my stylist came of nowhere blocking my way out “where you going robz?” Lele questioned like they knew I am about to run out of here “yeah you can’t just leave, you’re Rihanna” My stylist said, I closed my eyes, they have a point just leaving like that people will talk and say I ran out because of him and everything else on top of that because the amount of stories I am link to with him is ridiculous.

I ended up backstage which I did not want but of course all I to do need is plaster a smile on my face and everything will be fine and I can leave quickly “oh my god you’re so beautiful” one of the female models said “I want your outfit!” I half shouted hugging her close “you’re beautiful” she shrieked in excitement, it’s funny having that kind of effect on people “can we take a picture” I smiled nodding “of course” standing back as Melissa took the camera from her, placing my arms around her ready to take the picture, Melissa froze looking behind me “bitch hurry ya ass up!” I snapped at her “you better not be taking a video” making me frown at her “my bad” his Virginian accent rang through my ears causing me to freeze and my eyes opened so wide and that is when Melissa’ dumbass took the picture, the poor girl at the side of me did not know what was happening but I did and I did not like it. I won’t let him back in “erm” looking at the ground searching for answers “take that again” smiling nervously, he was so behind me and I refused to look back. Taking in a deep breath smiling and the camera flashed “okay I think we need to go” running at Melissa “we do?” she is still holding the damn camera too “yes” walking passed her. I got to the other side of the room and Lele is just smirking so hard “running away from ya ex huh” worst person to ever take anywhere is this bitch “oh shut up” she better stop smiling before I slap the smile from her face “he is single ya know, he left his little tramp” I don’t even know why she is telling me this bullshit because I don’t care.

Lele turned around with her back towards me with her drink in hand “hey Robyn” with no warning or anything from the people I trust, they allowed him to come behind me and then all left me, his hand firmly placed on my back. He moved around me to get in my eye view “Chris…” well this is awkward, I couldn’t even look at his face “you been running away from me or some shit?” I need to get myself together, seriously I look like a little girl with a crush. I finally looked up and he had his shades on, now he can stare into my eyes and look at me how he likes without me knowing, bastard. I laughed it off “oh no, I just thought you wouldn’t want to speak to me” his lips curved into a smile “oh nah you always dodge me and stuff but I just wanted to know if you’re good” oh my god this is awkward “you know me I’m always good” placing his hands in his pockets “you look beautiful” I giggled like a little girl, oh stupid me “you look good yourself, I’m sure your girl looks after you well” that slipped out of my mouth, sounding like some jealous ex. Lele’ face when I said that “why?” she mouthed behind Chris “girl? Oh nah that has ended” I swear this is so bad “erm, you know like maybe we could chill outside of here sometime. You changed your number on me” he does not waste any time “you know me I uhm change numbers all the time” he got his phone out, I am nervous and just chatting a lot of shit “I’ll uhm drop you a text” he stood waiting, I blinked at him “you know what Chris I will give you her number” Lele has had enough of me, Chris started laughing, how embarrassing.

Driving back to the hotel I couldn’t stop smiling to myself, I did not expect her to talk to me because she has been trying to run away from me for so long and has changed her number so many times so I just gave up “you look so happy with yourself nigga, I told you to just do it and now look you have her number” Mijo kept pressuring to just said get on with it, I mean she broke up with that fuck nigga so I was happy as shit. That no named European nigga, some soccer shit I have no idea but I ain’t like him and I thought she would have married him but I guess not “she was legit stuttering though, she still loves me I can see it” I mumbled smiling even more, she would never allow me to get too close to her and would run but this time I got her and when I saw her across me I knew it was my time but I won’t get my hopes up, just taking it slow.

Couple of weeks had passed and Robyn and I have been texting each other which is a start and I’m not going in strong, just being friends as she would say. I haven’t seen her or spoke to her just text but she always responds quickly when I do text. I looked at my phone “you know Keeis, it’s her birthday” Keeis continued to smoke his blunt without even looking at me “wait who?” shaking my head, I feel like I talk to myself all the time because nobody listens “nothing” opening my messages.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

Where you at? You still in NY?

Pressing send and sighing to myself “no, tell me bro who?” Keeis finally gave me his attention “shawty it’s her birthday” his high ass started nodding his head “oohhhh I got you, so is that why you been all ninja style lowkey and shit” my phone vibrated in my hand “I am trying to get on her good side” looking down at my phone.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

Nope! I’m in LA why?

I love how quick she texts me back, it lowkey makes me happy because that mean no other nigga is occupying her besides me.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

Just asking, what you doing for your birthday? You old as shit now, must have cobwebs between yo legs!

I laughed to myself, she probably about to cuss me out but that shit is hilarious “if like she want to get back with your stank ass again, she ignored you like you had a virus for so long” Keeis passed me the blunt but I declined “true but maybe because she probably worried about my reputation you know everything that has happened, she ain’t ever settled down and neither have I so you know” I know they think I’m wasting my time but I don’t think I am.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

I don’t know Chris probably cry at my life for the whole day, I’m actually doing nothing. Just stay at home… Lmfao! I honestly hate you so much, you old as shit like me so shut ya damn mouth boy! And I keep the cobwebs away don’t worry asshole!

To: Robyn

From: Chris

Cry? Oh nah don’t cry, why cry when you have done so much with your life. Have a party or some shit like a low key party…. Lol aight! We both lonely and old, I’m about to give up looking for love…

From: Robyn

To: Chris

Have a party but you’re not invited to it, thanks for the idea sir Lmao! I gave up a long time ago chubby.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

That is so mean but fine by me because nobody wanna be at your dry ass party with Lele burnt face there and Mel’ high ass there and then you just fronting… You gave up because you found your love and he is living in the Hollywood hills just sitting looking pretty as fuck, coconut head.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

You butt hurt really so don’t front Lol!! Look at them harsh words in that text I can hear you typing all the way here, the anger!! HAHAHA!! Ooohhhh you talking about Drake?

To: Robyn

From: Chris

Forget you!

She is so annoying, ruined the whole text conversation even though she has texted me back I’m not replying to her because she is childish for that “y’all want to go shopping? Actually why am I asking because I need to go anyway” getting up from the couch, I felt my phone vibrate again but I am not giving her my attention after that reply “what kind of shopping we talking nigga?” Hood shouted with his fat ass “it ain’t food shopping so you can sit your sloppy ass back down” he put a finger up at me, I need to buy some things for myself and of course Robyn too.

Sitting in the Lamborghini listening to some old songs as I was stuck in LA traffic “you reminiscing nigga” Mijo laughed at me, he can laugh all he wants but I can’t believe I’m this age and I still act like a teenager but I need to gather my life together like my mom says. Keeis is married, Mijo is married, Red is married, Robb is married and these niggas have kids and then there is me and hood like nobody wanna be in his category “just thinking how long it took me to grow up” everyone grew up while I just stayed messing up and now look I’m old like Robyn “I think I actually do want to you know settle down” looking down at my phone “you said that many times but good luck” Mijo does not believe me, I laughed at the caller I.D. “yo” placing the phone between my shoulder and my head as I started driving slowly “hey” Robyn said in the smallest voice ever, she didn’t say anything else. We both stayed silent but the silence was not awkward it was actually soothing. I was such a fool to be messing her around just to be around other hoes “sorry” she broke the silence between us “you wasn’t lying though, I was just stating the obvious” I said, I will drag this on just make her feel bad “that I love Drake!?” she said in shock but her accent became so thick while saying that it made me smile “yeah what else” it’s so weird because there is so much more we want to say but we won’t say it “I know you’re not that stupid” she has a point, I sighed as the traffic started moving “where are you?” my car engine roared as I started picking up speed “coming to pick you up girl” I started laughing “When we ride we ride It’s till the day that we die” I started singing, I could feel Mijo’ eyes on me “Nobody else can do it quite like I do, all my kisses and my loving, but ain’t nobody better than us yeeaahhh” Robyn was screaming on the phone to shut me up “we riidddeeeee” all I could hear was her laughing her head off while telling me to shut up “if you don’t stop singing my old songs” she spat, made me happy to hear her laugh so much on the phone, she finally calmed down and cleared her throat “I wish that you come hold me when I’m lonely, when I need someone to talk to you would phone me just like everything you told me” she sang back to me which threw me off “I’m sorry” I said in a low tone, I do feel like I messed it up by wanting two lives “come to my house for my birthday, it’s low key only a few people will be here” I gasped “I’m invited?” I knew she couldn’t just leave me out like that “I guess you are, see you then and I think you might want to reply to the text. Bye” she quickly put the phone down, I put the car in park as we arrived at the mall. I quickly looked at my texts she sent “she didn’t..” closing my eyes and sighing.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

You still got our sex tape?

She told me she got rid of everything of mine because she hates me so much.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

How else I keep the cobwebs away ;)

My mouth hung open, she is so sneaky. Wait till I see her.

Eu vou parar de me importar, quer ficar, fica, não quer foda-se, acho que fui idiota demais, movia o mundo pela pessoa, saia do meu canto para poder entrar no dela, mas... fazia isso por mim? Não. Chega, não quero sofrer, não quero sentir. Só digo uma coisa, perdeu a pessoa que fazia tudo por você.
Stoic Breaking, Chapter 6.

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Levi’s eyes went to the left and scowled as if the door wasn’t inanimate. He turned back to Mikasa. Her breathing was mostly even and calm now, and his stoic face stared at hers breifly. Her eyes were hooded slightly as they stared at the offending door, the irises expanded in caused anticipation, mouth open and she was furrowing her slender eyebrows. He blinked and diverted his gaze down to the ground to gather his thoughts.

Exhaling, Levi ignored the irritation he felt at himself and walked to the door; opening it slightly, just enough to see out, but not enough so the intruder could see in.

Mikasa watched as Levi opened the door, careful not to allow the perpertrator’s eyes entry into the pristine clean office. She lifted her hand softly to her lips, the skin still tingled lightly as if his lips were still present. Lowering her head, causing her coal coloured hair to shield her eyes, she let out a shaky breath and clenched her fist into a ball.

After a few quite mumbles between the two at the entryway, Levi nodded and closed the door to without clicking it shut, keeping it open slightly, only to turn and face Mikasa once again, “I am required elsewhere.” He stated plainly, eyes hooded and dull - back to his usual self.

Mikasa said nothing, she was already on her way towards the door, head still facing down, hair hiding her features from his scrutinising gaze. She slid past him fluidly, and gripped the door handle he had just released; she hesitated as if she wanted to say something, but nothing left her mouth, the only sound that followed was the door creaking open, and then clicking shut. Subsequently, silence engulfed the room.

Levi inhaled and turned to glance at the door, a passive look clouded his eyes

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