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DEAR FRIENDS

AS I AM SURE YOU HAVE NOTICED. MY PRESENCE HERE HAS BECOME LIMITED OVER THE PAST WEEKS. 

I WISH I COULD EXPLAIN TO YOU THE WONDROUS THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN HAPPENING IN MY LIFE, BUT YOU WILL HER ABOUT THEM SOON ENOUGH IN THE NEXT FILMS, I AM SURE. 

I AM BUSY WITH NEW FRIENDS, EXPLORING NEW PLACES, AND EVEN NEW GALAXIES! OF COURSE, THERE HAVE BEEN HARDSHIPS TOO, BUT I AM FORTUNATE TO SAY THAT IS HAS BEEN SO AMAZING OVERALL.

THIS IS NOT GOODBYE–THIS IS SIMPLY AN EXPLANATION OF MY LIMITED TIME TO DEVOTE TO MY REALM HERE. QUESTIONS WILL STILL BE ANSWERED, BUT SIMPLY NOT AS REGULARLY. 

I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME FOR THIS CHANGE, AS I AM SO VERY FOND OF ALL OF YOU–I COULD NEVER LEAVE THIS REALM FOR GOOD!

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Steve Rogers x Reader

Title: Never Stop Fighting

Summary: You love Steve, but you believe you’re not the one for him.


 “I’ll never stop fighting for him, Pegs… I promise.” Tears flowed down your cheeks as you held onto Peggy’s cold hands. She just gave you a weak smile as she gently patted your hand. You couldn’t help it – the tears kept falling and falling. Tiny drops fell onto the sweet woman’s hand as she tried to wipe them away. “For you…”

 “Oh, (Y/N)… You need to stop that…” Peggy said softly. “Do it for you…Not for me.”

 “Pegs…”

 “Make him happy…” Peggy touched my cheek softly before pulling back with wide eyes. I froze when I saw confusion written all over her face followed by shock. “(Y/N)… You’re…You’re alive…! Oh, (Y/N)!”

 Biting down the bottom of your lips, you forced a weak smile before nodding. You heart broke when she forgot again for the fourth time you visited her after you found out she was still alive and hanging on. The first time you visited her, Peggy expressed the same shock – you could clearly remember how happy she was to see you. She told you all about how she met Steve as well and about her family. After that was when you found out that she had Alzheimer’s. The same thing happened with Steve, Peggy had trouble taking in all the news at once and she started to forget.

 Closing the door of the retirement home behind you, more tears fell. You stifled a sob as you covered your mouth, trying to walk away from the building. Hiccups left your lips as you bent over at the corner of the street, trying to calm yourself down. The pain in your heart was too much to bear.

 Every time you try not to think about it, you think about it even more – there was no way you could even imagine living a life without your best friend. You and Peggy grew up with one another. You guys grew up on the same street, went to the same school, followed almost the same path, and ended up falling for the same guy. She was your other half.

 It didn’t seem fair that you had to watch her grow old and wither away while you still have plenty of years left in front of you.  Peggy was the better half – at least that was what you thought. It wasn’t fair that she had to be the one to go first.

 This was exactly why your rage and hatred for HYDRA was so strong – they took everything from you.


 “You’re Elsa!” a little girl pointed at you in awe when you stood in front of your memorial in the Captain America exhibit. Your eyes widened as you pulled the cap down to cover your face. You just smiled and pressed a finger to your lips. Her eyes widened and she nodded before pretending to zip her lips and locking it. The little girl tossed the key to you and you caught it before putting it away into your pocket with a grin.

 At first you were a little confused when she called you ‘Elsa’, but then you remembered that it was a character from Disney that controlled ice and snow power like you. Pepper had you sit down and watch the entire ‘Frozen’ movie just so you could get the reference if anyone called you ‘Elsa’. You caught up with most of the Disney movies since it was on your ‘catch up’ list – Steve had told you that it was good to keep around and that it would help you get caught up on the twenty-first century.

 You looked up at your memorial to see yourself wearing baggy army pants with a black tank top. Your hair was tied up and there were gloves over your hands. The description they wrote about you left a smile lingering on your face.

 (Y/N)(L/N), or ‘The Ice Queen’ fought alongside Captain America and Bucky Barnes during the war. The trio was known for their extraordinary teamwork and leadership. Many of the soldiers looked up to them and adored (Y/N). She was Peggy Carter’s best friend and one of the respected females during that time. (Y/N) and Peggy were like sisters – they were inseparable.

 Then the slide changed to a picture of you and Steve smiling like old buddies.

 “I remember that picture,” a deep, low voice spoke softly beside you. Your eyes widened and you looked up to see Steve smiling at you slightly. “-both of us were trying to find a penny in the mud and Bucky made a bet to see which one of us would find it first.”

 “We were ridiculous,” you chuckled a little as the slide changed to another photo. Bucky had given you a piggyback ride when you had decided to climb a tree and twisted your ankle. “I still think that cat was toying with me. It wanted me to fall off.”

 “I remember that Bucky was so worried about you that he wouldn’t leave your side for any reason,” Steve replied with a nostalgic expression on his face. “-he wouldn’t even let me see you…”

 “I heard you were pouting the entire time. Did you really want to see me that badly?” you laughed as both of you started walking around the exhibits.

 “Of course… I was worried about you.” The look in Steve’s eyes when he said that made your heart skip a beat. Almost everything he did set your heart running at a hundred miles an hour.

 You two walked around for a while until Steve said something that confused you.

 “I’m sorry…”

 You blinked and turned to him, puzzled. He avoided your eyes and was staring straight ahead at Bucky’s memorial as pictures of the Sergeant flipped through in the slideshow.

 “Bucky was going to ask you to be his girlfriend,” Steve confessed and your eyes widened. His eyes were filled with sadness and regret. “He was in love with you, (Y/N). I’d never seen him look at another girl like the way he looked at you.”

 You were quiet and just listened as a part of you ached. You and Bucky were close, but…he wasn’t the one you had feelings for. You wished that he was so your heart didn’t have to go through the trouble and pain of unrequited love.

 “I…don’t know if I would’ve said yes if he did…” you murmured softly, hoping that Steve didn’t hear it.

 “What do you mean?” Oh, he did hear it. Now it was your turn to avoid eye contact with him.

 “I do like Bucky… but there’s someone else I like a lot more…maybe even love…” Your heart hurt when you said that. You couldn’t imagine what expression Steve was making as you told him you didn’t have those kinds of feelings for his best friend.

 “Oh…I see.”

 You glanced at him and was taken aback at the expression he had. He almost looked relieved… but sad at the same time. Steve wasn’t angry or anything like that.

  But why?


 After that day, you and Steve started to hang out a lot. You guys went to the local café often (the one that had a pretty good view of the Stark Tower) and you helped one another cross off things to catch up on on your lists. But there was one thing both of you decided not to do together. When it came to visiting Peggy, you guys went separately. You were afraid that it would be too much for her to see the two of you in one place.

 You met Sharon Carter who had happened to be an undercover agent for SHIELD and Peggy’s niece – when you went over to Steve’s apartment you had no idea it was her. She looked almost like Peggy but you didn’t ask. You could tell that she had a crush on Steve though – who wouldn’t?

 It made you a bit envious… but you understood. It was in no way your part to be involved in it though. Steve seemed interested in Sharon, but Peggy was always and will always be his first girl. You knew you were going to lose in the end – what chance did you exactly have against it?

 If you weren’t meant to be with Steve… then that was that.


 You were not ready for what came after.

 There was a HYDRA assassin running around causing trouble and killing people – the media called him The Winter Soldier. You eventually found out that you personally knew the assassin yourself.

 But it wasn’t the same person you knew back in the 1940s. He was brainwashed and changed into a different person.

 You hoped that he would’ve at least remembered Steve or even you, but… that wasn’t the case at all.

 The feelings Bucky previously had for you were gone – what he actually felt for you when you encountered him was the urge to kill anything and anyone that got in the way of him fulfilling his mission. You were no exception.

 So you did what you needed to do – you fought. It was the same with Steve. But at least for him, he believed Bucky was still there inside the Winter Soldier.

 Bucky disappeared right after that incident, leaving Steve and I to wonder if he still had a part of him in there that remembered.


 Remember when you thought living without a person you loved was impossible?

 You were right.

 Standing in the back of the church, you gripped your purse tightly as Peggy’s casket was placed gently on the ground. Holding in your tears, you bit the bottom of your lips when the priest started talking. The entire time, you were looking at either the casket or the picture of a smiling Peggy. If the wall wasn’t behind you, you were sure that your legs would give up.

 Your best friend was lying in there. You were supposed to be there when she announced her engagement to her fiancé… You were supposed to be there when she asked you to be her maid of honor… You were supposed to be there when she tried on her wedding dress and when she walked down the aisle… You were supposed to be there when she found out she was pregnant… You were supposed to be there for the birth of her first child…

 You were supposed to be there for your best friend… but you weren’t.

 So much angry…guilt…regret…rage and agony bottled up inside of you as you stood there, trying not to believe Peggy was really gone.

 Once Sharon started speaking, your eyes landed on Steve and Sam who were watching her. There was still a brightly lit light in his eyes… and you thought you knew the reason behind why it was still so bright.

 She was standing at the podium, wasn’t she?

 You understood why Steve would choose Sharon over someone like you. There was a bit of Peggy in the blonde that made you understand. There was some familiarity in Sharon that made you understand it all.

 You weren’t the one for Steve.

 Once it was over, you left the church along with everyone else while Steve stayed behind. You isolated yourself far from everyone else and leaned against a tree as everything you kept bottled up inside decided it wouldn’t be trapped in anymore. Sobs left your lips and before you knew it a scream came echoing out. Ice was formed under your feet as the ground around you started to become frozen. Snow started to fall from the sky and there was a harsh wind that stirred up a storm.

 You couldn’t help it.

 Pillars of ice grew out of the ground, surrounding you like a fortress. You wanted to make it stop, but you couldn’t. It hurt too much to even try. It wasn’t as easy as twisting a cap over a water bottle – It was like you unleashed a never ending fury from a glass bottle without a cork.

 “(Y/N)! (Y/N), it’s Sam!” you heard someone pounding on the other side of the ice wall. “You need to stop this! It’s going to be okay!”

 “I…I-I can’t, Sam!” You wailed, doubling over in pain as your chest started to get heavy. “It hurts!”

 “Hey, Cap! It’s (Y/N)! She’s inside!”

 “(Y/N)!!” Steve appeared and tried to break the ice, but couldn’t. “Please let me in! You don’t have to do this alone! Let us help you!”

 You grunted in agony as you clutched handfuls of snow under your palm. Taking deep breaths, you lowered a pillar of ice back into the ground and a pair of warm arms wrapped around your body immediately.

 “It’s okay…” Steve whispered as he pressed your face into his chest. You cried loudly in his embrace while the ice started to disappear, along with the snow. “I’m here, (Y/N)…It’s okay…”


 “How is she?” Steve asked Tony as they were monitoring your condition. You were sitting in a chair while Natasha and Wanda were keeping you company.

 “Unstable,” the billionaire replied, crossing his arms. “-she’s like Elsa, you know. She could run away and make a huge ice castle if she wanted but she doesn’t want to. Unlike Elsa, (Y/N) has all the people she needs running after her, trying to bring her back from whatever she’s battling inside of her. Sadly, they’re all the wrong people trying to help her.”

 “What do you mean?” the Captain frowned, not understanding what he meant.

 “There’s one person who she wants to help her… but in a way can’t.”

 “Tony, you’re not making sense.”

 “Okay, I’ll put it into words that you’ll understand, Cap,” Tony turned to the blue-eyed Avenger with a serious expression. “-do you love her, or do you not?”

 “What…? What does that have to do with-“

 “Answer the goddamn question.”

 Steve didn’t know what to say. He looked at you as you were smiling at something Natasha and Wanda said behind the glass viewing window.

 “I do love her…” the look in his eyes was filled with pain and regret. It hurt him to admit the truth. “But…”

 “There’s no buts, Cap,” Tony shook his head.

 “There is…” Steve sighed softly and tore his eyes away from you.

 “Why?”

“Because it’s the only way it’ll hurt less… I do love her… a lot. But…it hurts to take her away from Bucky,” the Captain admitted as he turned away. “-the only reason I didn’t go after her…is because I made a promise.”

“I promised to never stop fighting for her… for him.”