with all this recent exposure to mental illness in kpop, i’ve really been thinking. i’ve realized that in a lot of these cases, idols suffering from mental illness isn’t made aware until a certain breaking point is attained. they could harbor all these destructive thoughts and feelings for who knows how long, but still look at their fans with the brightest, most beautiful smiles on their faces, more or less pretending that everything is peachy. this is despite the public scrutiny they constantly face, despite the hateful comments they’re constantly receiving, and despite whatever other tribulation they may be facing in their personal lives. so, it’s dejecting to know that since mental illness is so stigamized in their society, that they’re too terrified to say anything publicly for the longest period of time. this could most likely be attributed to the fear of feeling ostracized, but maybe they are just simply aren’t allowed to say anything in the first place. i really don’t know. either way, it honestly breaks my fucking heart that more often than not mental illness isn’t really given a second thought until it is thrown explicitly in our faces.