edge rambles

I WENT TO THE TORONTO DIAMOND EDGE CONCERT AND THIS WAS MY EXPERIENCE
  • ok first of all it honestly didn’t even hit me that this was ACTUALLY HAPPENING
  • then the lights dimmed & svt was thERE and i realized holy fucking shit this was real i’m seeing them in reAL LIFE HOLY SHIT
  • let me tell you, they are all fucking STUNNING. they look like they do in all the pictures/music videos except IN PERSON and it was incredible, they all had perfect skin and looked absolutely gorgeous
  • my friends and i had seats pretty up close (in row F) but on the far right so we saw everything from a weird angle, luckily we had aisle seats so i had some space to see, but i mostly ended up focusing on the members dancing closer to our side of the stage
  • they introduced themselves and i lost my shit at every single one of them
  • hoshi was so hyper god bless him he was jumping all over the place and fooling around and had so much energy i was so happy to see that, he did the whole “what time is it” and everyone shrieked “10:10″ it was amazing
  • IF YOU DIDN’T THINK I WAS LOSING MY SHIT SEEING WOOZI IRL WITH THAT GORGEOUS LOWKEY FADING RED HAIR YOU THOUGHT WRONG, HE WAS SMALL BUT BREATHTAKING
  • they were definitely pretty tired, though. seokmin was laughing and having fun on stage but he was pretty subdued at some parts, and jun and wonwoo were too. i think jun had a headache or something, poor thing
  • ok but the songs tho
  • it was so insane?? like they just went song after song and barely had time to take a breath except for when they changed into different outfits
  • vocal unit’s songs were performed in snazzy suits and they were lounging on thrones and shit with lightning and bats in the background i never would have thought their stage would be a BROODING VAMPIRE CONCEPT but here it is and i want to draw the shit outta that
  • hip hop unit was so fucking good, i didn’t film a single second of their mixtapes bc me and my friend nush were too busy jamming tf out. it was so funny, everyone around us was just kinda screaming and filming it but you see us assholes by the aisle getting hyped
  • seungcheol was being a rude ass motherfucker the ENTIRE time, running his hands through his hair and having it all messy and shit, holy crap he was so hot i lost my entire soul when he went close to our side of the stage
  • VERNON’S STAGE PRESENCE THO, LIKE BOTH HE AND HOSHI HAD THE BEST STAGE PRESENCE
  • wonwoo is SO SKINNY, i don’t think i can call minghao a scarecrow anymore bc at least he’s buffing up his arms, wonwoo was a fucking beanpole and i probably could lift him over my head
  • performance unit was sO good!!! they performed everything i ever wanted to hear. they started off with oh my god & i lost it, then proceeded to lose it further with swimming fool, highlight, and my i
  • holy shit, my i. holy shIT
  • this probably isn’t in order, by the way, the entire night is a blur
  • they had a brief intermission of sorts where they showed us pictures of svt as kids and it was sO CUTE. i was dying at seokmin’s though bc they just had that pic of him in like middle school or smth with that dumb hair and dumb glasses but they shoWED IT TWICE JUST WITH DIFFERENT FILTERS I WAS CRYING
  • anyways they said they’d give us a “hot stage” and i was immediately like yes yes yes yes yes idc what you’re giving us i WANT IT
  • and they perfORMED ROCK I WAS LOSING IT I COULDN’T BELIEVE ITTTT
  • they also performed chuck and it was so cute bc afterwards soonyoung was trying to teach us the “CHUCK CHUCK BRRRRR CHUCK” move and it was absolutely adorable
  • anyways when vernon started to say “it’s the end of the concert” i got so shook bc it literally felt like the concert just started??? the entire concert itself was like 2 hours but it didn’t feel like it at all!
  • but they performed don’t wanna cry and then an encore of shining diamond and healing and it was lovely
  • we had a special project where during healing we held up banners and shit and they looked genuinely so surprised and touched
  • like vernon and josh kept repeating how touched they were, and mingyu looked like he might start crying, and seungkwan was really close to my side of the stage and you could see how his eyes were shining and how bright his smile is, like they were all so heartfelt and humble and kept talking about how much they enjoyed the concert and how happy they were to be here and how they want to come back to toronto as soon as possible
  • it was that exact moment where i realized i fucking love svt so much and i sold my entire life to them
  • this was supposed to be one concert i can splurge on and then never again, but after seeing that i decided my wallet can fucking deal with it
  • anyways the hi touch went by so fast i was a little disappointed, like u rlly didn’t have time to do anything but maybe blurt out an “i love you” to every member and give them a hi five
  • like honestly, unless it was like the kcon hi touch where you actually HELD their hands and got a couple seconds with each of them them, i don’t think i can believe anybody who says they managed to utter out even a sentence and get a response back from them, our security kept pushing us through and shouting to us that “it’s a high five not a handshake” 
  • they were all even more gorgeous up close!!! the first one was chan and he had the sweetest smile but you could tell the poor baby was tired
  • and then not in order bc i can’t remember SHIT, but i remember jun and mingyu looking tall and gorgeous, and seungcheol smiled and touched my hand sO softly with his hair falling into his eyes jesus christ
  • ok but seungkwan??? actual angel. everyone says you can tell how much he loves and appreciates all of us carats and they’re all absolutely fucking right.
  • i’m so sad that i didn’t get the chance to say anything more to even josh or vernon who might understand me, i was so overwhelmed and rushed i could only say “thank you” to all of them dfgpaegpe i should have told them how much i loved them
  • ANYWAYS WHEN I GOT TO WOOZI I WANTED TO DIE, I COMMITTED EVERY FEATURE TO MEMORY, HIS EYE MAKEUP MADE HIM LOOK SO SOFT AND HE SMILED AT ME WHEN I THANKED HIM AND I WAS SO SHOOK
  • seokmin and jeonghan were right after him and i completely forgot about them both bc i was so shook by jihoon, i’m so sorry seokmin i’m so sad i can’t remember you (i think he was really tired too tho)
  • minghao was last and he gave me that adorable smile with his cute ass button nose and i WANTED TO CRY
  • so yeah my left hand touched all of their hands and one day i want to go to a concert that has an event where i can really talk to them all for a couple of seconds, i just want to be able to tell them how much i appreciate them for everything they do for us

SOME HIGHLIGHTS OF THE NIGHT

  • there’s some drama going around on twitter right now where soonyoung apparently threw shade at the fans mobbing them at pearson airport but idk if it’s actually true or not, it was hard for me to hear where i was standing but i knew for a fact that the translator was pretty terrible lmao he couldn’t keep up with svt at all
  • there was a disabled fan in a wheelchair up in the front on our side of the stage and they were all so sweet, they always smiled and waved at her, especially seungkwan and soonyoung
  • they really made sure that everyone felt noticed, they made sure to look around and wave at everyone in the balconies and shit too
  • jeonghan was an absolute angel???? he really made sure us carats on the far right of the stage felt appreciated, he took a lot of time to come close to our side and wave at all of us i wanted to cry
  • mingyu was really good with waving at us too, he’s tall and skinnier than i expected but an actual darling. my pal nush has a video where they were all lined up and he looked almost rIGHT AT HER and waved just as she was moving the camera to film her man junhui she was dying on the train this morning when she found out lmao
  • seungkwan too!!!
  • i blew a kiss at seungkwan when he was kinda looking in our direction and he smiled and wagged his finger and i thINK IT WAS IN RESPONSE TO ME??? IDK IF IT WAS REALLY BECAUSE OF ME BUT I WAS DEAD ANYWAY BOO SHOT UP MY BIAS LIST SO FUCKING FAST BECAUSE OF THAT
  • anyways i can’t believe that happened and i’m emotionally exhausted and dead, it was such a fantastic experience and i can’t wait to do it again someday

Astrid stepped up this season and I’m thrilled about that.

I touched on this subject a bit in my review for the season but it deserves its own post. 
We all know that the writers haven’t really made any effort in her character. I don’t know why but it seems like they took the warrior part of her too seriously. She barley got to show any emotions, she didn’t took her teammates seriously (Meaning: Snotlout and the twins) and that’s just… not how I picture her.

But this season; man. I loved her. She was fearless, brave and kind. In many scenes, when they usually had her being mad, she was kind and thoughtful instead. I liked how she and Snotlout got a lot of scenes together that talked about it. I’m also so emotional over the fact that she cried. We’ve never seen her cry… but she was and I loved it. (Not her crying but that they finally showed her doing it.) (Ruffnut comforting her was a A+ too)

But she levelled up in terms of her warrior side too. She ran through the forest, punched a poisonous dragon and ran half dead back. She didn’t hesitate when she followed K on his dragon when he escaped and thanks to that she realised that Viggo was alive. Also, her outrage when Throck wanted to marry Ruffnut proved what a strong, independent woman she is.

I just… loved her this season. I don’t want to give credit to a man based on her development but somehow I think that being with Hiccup brought out the best in both of them. They became the best versions of themselves, which is what a healthy relationship is all about. 

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The Edge of Seventeen Tag

Thanks for tagging me @cookiesimslp967!

Here’s the original tag post by @alwaysimming

rules: reimagine your founder (or a sim you made as an adult) as a teen! maybe even on prom night?


For this tag, we have my dearest Amara, a sim for a story im writing (which I haven’t updated in over a month). I won’t reveal too much about teen Amara because she’ll actually make an appearance in my story at some point. But, for the sake of this tag, i’ll throw in a few things. 

As a teen, I would say that Amara was sort of dependent on others in the sense that she would make decisions based on the opinions of others. For example, most of Amara’s fashion choices were heavily influenced by her ‘friends’ opinions, like trading in her ‘dorky’ glasses for contacts. She’s grown out of this for the most part, but when faced with difficult or important choices to make, she’ll still tend to lean on others a little. 

Pretty sure my DM gave me a jet-black sentient greatsword last session and this is not the kind of power that should be in my big dumb hands. The first thing it did when I picked it up was whisper “Kill…”

We then proceeded to almost party-wipe fighting four sea lions. Like… wow. Worst part was that the whole time all I could think about was how hard my sword must be judging me right now.

The Break Up
  • Me: We tried ok, we really did, but we are just so damn different and you never listen to me. You go on your own way doing what you want and this is not a one-side relationship and if it is, then I want no part of it. I can't go on any longer. I think...I think we need to erase all of our past together and just move on.
  • Fic Draft:
  • Me: WELL SAY SOMETHING YOU MOTHER FUC ---