‘Let’s do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Let’s do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry When you’re soaked in tears for years, it never airs out When you make pain look this good it never wears out This dirty laundry, this dirty laundry’ The radio station played as I laid across my bed.
I hadn’t really moved from this spot since the party. All I wanted to do was drink my pain away. I lied to everyone and I ended with no one. No Trey, No twins and especially no August.
“Fuck!” I cried out as the sun’s rays beamed through the blinds heightening the degree of my hangover.
“What am I doing to myself? ” I questioned looking under my bed for another full bottle of Hennessey or ciroc or grey goose or whatever else I’d bought.
“Baby girl go take care of AJ and I’ll take care of the dishes and stuff.” Mama said attempting to pull the dish rag from my fingers.
“Mama I got it. Can you just go run him some water, please?’ I giggled taking off AJ’S chocolate stained Spider-Man costume.
"Mommy my tummy hurts!” AJ whined grabbing my leg.
“I know baby. GiGi’s gonna give you a bath and ill be right up to put you to bed, okay?” I replied kissing his forehead.
“Here baby come on!” Mama cooed taking him from my arms. “You too girls lets get you all dressed for bed.”
“Is he gonna be okay?’ Ny asked eating the rest of her cake.
"Yeah … he just ate WAAAAAY to much! ” I giggled.
“Trey needs to hurry the fuck up or imma-”
“You gon do what?” He asked cutting his eyes at her.
I really hadn’t spoke to Trey after he called me asking about August. I squashed the beef with Ny why not be squash it with Trey.
“What’s going on med school?” He asked reaching for a hug.
“Nun really! Why are you so late?” I chuckled cleaning the rest of the counter.
“Got caught up!” He shrugged.
“Mommy! Mommy! Look! Uncle friend I wanna tell bout!’ Seppie yelled running around the kitchen’s island pointing.
I was prepared to smile at this man who grabbed the twins attention every time they went to the studio with Trey.
"CoCo?” His face in full shock and disbelief.
I didn’t know what to say. ‘Run AirRen! Run!” My mind thought. My legs felt like jelly and I shaking uncontrollably.
“I know you hear me!” He growled balling up his fist.
I bent down reaching Seppie’s height. Look baby can you go upstairs for mommy?” I asked politely.
“Mommy you don’t like my friend?” She asked wiping a tear from my cheek.
“Yes baby. Mommy loves him!” I said looking towards August. “But mommy has to talk to the grown ups tell GiGi to come after she finishes, okay? ” she shook her head abd skipped up the stairs.
“I … I can explain.” I managed to get out.
“Im listening …”
The lump in my throat limited my talking ability. I hadn’t felt this way since I found out i was gonna be a mother.
“Youn wanna talk ma? You hard of hearing?” He asked stepping into my face.
I still couldn’t let out any words. I was scared.
“Are they mine, AirRen?” He asked looking down into my eyes.
I looked around the kitchen. Going from face to face. I looked at Trey and cried. His face read sorrow. I felt Aug’s hand grip my chin tightly forcing me to look at him.
“They not gon fuckin help you! TELL ME! ” He yelled into my face.
I was stuck. My teeth felt like they were shattering against his grip. I maneuvered myself out only to run a short distance before I felt my hair ripping from my scalp.
“August let het hair go!” Nyla called trying to loosen his grip.
“Nyla stay outta this shit!” He barked.
“Your …. your hurting me!” I cried out.
“FUCK YOU! Are they my kids AirRen!? And I want you to lie cuz I got sum fah you ma!”
“AirRen just tell him!” Trey yelled as he watched my squirm.
“YEEEES AUG-hhh!” Before I could finish I felt his strong hands wrap around my neck. My throat was caving in and I couldn’t catch any air. I tried to fight him off only to make him angrier and tighten his grip.
“Dude let her go!” Chris yelled attempting to pull him off.
“No fuck her! She wanna lie to me and she got MY kids calling another niggah dad!”
I could fell my body become weaker under his hands. My eyes fell close and I only heard the commotion faintly.
“Let GO of my mommy!” I heard AJ call pulling at my dress.
Within seconds I was on the floor gasping for air. I opened my eyes to see AJ and everyone staring at me. “Mommy’s fine baby. Go to Ny-Ny.” I whispered holding my bruised neck.
“August! ” I yelled as he walked out of the house.
I ran behind him in tears. ‘What had I done?’ I thought.
“August! PLEASE!” I cried out pulling at his hoodie.
“What!” He yelled backing me up against my truck.
“I’m … I’m sorry I lied.”
“No your not! Your sorry yo ass got caught. Now my fuckin son thinks im a monster! Thank you!”
'Let’s do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Let’s do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry’
“Girl I don’t know why you keep jumpin’ fah that sorry ass niggah!” Lola said rolling here eyes.
“Because I love him. He’s mine regardless.”
I loved Aug a lot and I knew a little part of him loved me just as much. It had been two days since I seen him and he really wasn’t doing so good. He told me about how that bitch stuck him with two snot nose kids.
“You hear me ho!” Lola laughed sparking up her blunt.
“I SAID what about that ho that he got kids by?”
“What about her? She’s a trifling ass ho AND I doubt them kids even his!”
Truth was I wanted to have Aug’s kids. I would always try and seduce him into not using condoms but he said the only girl he fuck raw was bitches he loved and the ONLY bitch he loved was that AirRen ho.
“Well he pretty upset abou-”
My phone started to ring cutting her off.
“Hey baby. ” I cooed into the phone.
“Whea the fuck you at?” He barked in his slurred tone.
“August have you been drinking again? ”
I knew the answer but I just wanted to know. Ever since that bitch told him abouf those kids all he wanted to do was smoke, drink, go out and fuck me.
“You … you know the answer to that shit. You still coming or what?”
“August I told you I’m hangin wit my girl to-”
“Fuck Lola ass … you FUCKIN ha?”
“Baby stop I’ll be over in a minute.” I said hanging up looking towards Lola roll her eyes and pack up her stuff.
“Im sorry.” I pouted.
“Save it.” She said walking out the door.
“So how do you wanna handle your baby mother and kids August?” One of the publicist from Def Jam asked.
I rolled my eyes towards the phone like he could see me, “I don’t know … ain’t that yall job? I ain’t tryna have this shit out. I don’t even know them.”
Ever since I found out about the twins being mine I wasn’t myself. All I wanted to do was smoke and drink. ‘I hate her. ’ I thought to myself as Mike kept talking.
“Look can yall handle it? I don’t want shit changing for them. I want them to live normal lives even if they dad famous, cool?” I asked getting a little emotional.
“We can’t make any promises August but we’ll do our best.”
“Thanks Mike. Ill see you up in New York tomorrow.”
I was looking forward to getting away from all this drama in Atlanta. I hated AirRen and I deserved better. I loved her with everything in me and she kept my kids away from me.
“Selfish ass bitch!” I yelled opening up another bottle of ciroc.
“Stop thinking about her baby. Im here for you.” Nikkei walked in wrapping her arms around me.
I didn’t want Nikkei here but she was the closest thing to having a girl so I made her feel special.
“Aug it takes 30 minutes to get here from my new pla-”
“Shouldn’t have moved so far then ma.” I said taking a swig of the liquor.
“Shouldn’t have kicked me out for that bit-”
“Cut it the fuck out! Come hea.”
I watched her strip away each piece of clothing before she reached me. Nikkei knew I didn’t love her and she was just a good fuck.
“Take these off.” She said pulling at the zipper of my pants.
“Go ah head baby.” I said gripping her hair pushing her head towards my dick letting her mouth wrap around it.
“You ready to see mama?” I asked the twins as I turned the key to Ren’s house.
“Yes! Yes! Yes!” Screamed running into her room.
'God I hope she’s descent. ’ I thought. After August left that night I decided to stay with her and help her take care of the twins. All she wanted to do was sleep and drink even on her birthday.
“Haaay babies.” She faintly said in between yawns.
“Mommy whats wrong?” AJ asked looking at AirRen’s swollen face.
“Did Aug-g hurt you?” Seppie asked.
“No baby, DADDY didn’t hurt me.” She smiled kissing her forehead.
“He not my daddy mommy! He hurt you.” AJ pouted.
“Baby mommy told a lie to daddy and he was mad at me. Daddy loves you, okay?”
They shook their tiny heads.
“Seppie … AJ Lemme talk to mommy. Can you guys go play for a moment?” I asked pushing an empty bottle of Hennessey under the bed. They ran out laughing.
“How you feeling?” I asked looking at her.
“Mmmh… lets see! Im a horrible person, my boyfriend left me because I didn’t want to have his kids, I’ve downgraded to baby mama status AND lets not forget my kids are afraid of their father.” She sobbed taking a sip of the vodka from a flask.
“Look your gonna get out of this funky ass funk! So what if Burke left … FUCK HIM! Aug will come around and once the kids really get to know Aug they’ll love him just like you do!”
“I fucked up Ny! ” she cried holding the tear stained pillow.
“We all do sis but if he really loves you … yall will get back on good terms. Now lemme take you OUT since we’ve totally missed your birthday! ”
“Where are you tryna take me?” She slightly giggled.
“Trey and Chris are performing in New York … come with me pleeeeaase! ” I pouted.
“Uhh isn’t he gonna be there? I … I don’t want to see-”
“No Trey already let me know… so you down?”
She sat there for a moment in silence, “sure im down.” She smiled.
“GOOD!” I hopped on her hugging her.
I pulled out my phone searching for his name:
Me: She agreed Hubby: Good … they gon talk this shit out Me: Exactly … see u 2mrrw ♡ Hubby: ♡