Mysteriousness doesn’t preclude
Warmth–this is what you prove.
You exude kindliness,
An admirable generosity of spirit;
You offer encouragement freely,
Lending a listening ear
Should one be lacking
(Or understanding eyes,
In the case of typing);
And you put up with lame jokes
Sportingly (I know this firsthand!)
Though your striking words
Weave a wondrous
Web of intrigue,
It’s your warmth that makes
Us not want to leave.
Summary: “Hi, you’ve reached the voicemail of Steven Universe. Sorry I missed you, I’m probably out on a mission. Leave a message, and uh, I’ll get back to you soon. Love you, bye!”
After he was taken, Connie would call Steven, if only to hear his voice one more time. Sometimes, she left messages.
[Also on AO3, under the username: timeisweird]
Chapter 1: Denial
Connie held the phone to her ear, listening to the tones as it searched for a connection. It wouldn’t find one, of course. Everyday human technology couldn’t travel past the solar system, let alone an entire galaxy.
“I figured out that I’m better off not explaining how and why I do the
things that I do. If people can only read the surface of what you are,
and that’s all they want to see, let them see just what they need to
see. Everything more is just something to keep and share only with the
people that desire and are ready to receive that information. Words
wasted on ears that do not listen and eyes that do not see are just
seeds thrown on rocky ground. Prepare your ground first and then ask for
The past few days without Peter felt like the start of a new chapter in Clementine’s life. For the first time in a long time, her heart and her head felt clear, and not bogged down by negative emotions. She was finally making the right choices, it seemed. And she couldn’t ignore the bubbling excitement in her stomach as she considered the thought of living with her best friend.
She never would have guessed her and Colby would become so close, after meeting her in a club so many years ago.
But they did. And Clementine admired her so much. She was strong, independent, and didn’t take crap from anyone. She was a great mom, and always put Margot first. Aside from being her best friend and always offering a listening ear (and a carton of ice cream to binge), she had also become a mentor of sorts.
I was at the concert. I'm 21 and was with my Mum luckily and not alone. I know how lucky I am and people keep reminding me so. But I don't think people understand how truly traumatizing it was and I have nobody to talk to. I can't stop crying
xxxxxxx Take care of yourself right now, your health is the most important. And all of us here at this blog support you and love you. There was someone I posted earlier who offered an ear to listen. Of course you can IM me, and if people want they can offer in the replies to this post.
You are loved and we are so glad you’re safe xxxxxxxxx
during every stage of my life, I want to be the woman whose door is always open ~ there will always be hot tea and homemade jams for friends and loved ones; whether they’re stayin the weekend or only in to drop off a misplaced blouse ~ n’ I will always lend an ear to listen ~ I am here to make you feel warm and loved
ARIES: I heard that somebody with icicles in their chest once told you that spring was only for people that know how to be wanted but they were lying. Hardly anybody takes care of honesty the way that you do and somehow that’s still a surprise. Take the weight of your insecurities and lay them to rest underneath a gravestone. When wildflowers grow from what you buried don’t bother to pick them. They’ll always be there. Don’t you know what it’s like to come back to things?
TAURUS: The peach pit on your dresser has been sitting there for years and it’s okay that you can’t throw it out yet. Okay that you can’t put it back into the fruit and unbite all of the soft and the sweet and the “maybe this time it’ll be different” that leaked out onto your fingers on the nights that your teeth feel too used to be desired. Wash your sheets and dry them outside. Lay underneath the clothes line and listen. Unclench your fists. Rewrite the grocery list.
GEMINI: It isn’t your fault that not everyone can swallow the parts of you that have sharp edges. You’ve been spending too much time forcing yourself down the linen aisle when you should be finding the nearest comic book store. There’s a reason superman is nicknamed “man of steel” and you deserve all of the iron-throated hearts that you can find. Invest in a metal detector. Don’t be ashamed of what you find.
CANCER: The way you bare your chest to the world is terribly brave and I don’t want you to continue feeling responsible for the people you’ve kissed that have taken advantage of that. Skin-deep damage does not make you unlovable, it gives you new perspectives. Don’t apologize for the ways you have tried to survive this. You’re better than the fires you’ve walked through and the storms you’ve caused. Suck on a peppermint until it loses its flavor. Name the taste after your last heartbreak. Now spit it out.
LEO: Your chest caves in whenever you think about the past and nobody’s ever told you that everything is temporary. Well, honey, I have some news for you. Start checking the mailbox again before the neighbors start to worry. People still want to stain paper with your name and martyring yourself over words is something you’ve become too talented at. Take a break, now and again. Burn the television set if that’s what it takes. Air out the smoke and look into a mirror, admire how powerful you seem as you step out of the haze of what’s gone.
VIRGO: Oh, baby, you’ve made mistakes and you’ve drained the bottles but you’re not the only one who’s felt like this. I know that it’s hard to let yourself feel these things but you have to try, you have to let the light in. It’s so dark in the room you’ve been using to store your regrets and your pallor has become a reflection of the ghosts you’ve been taking orders from. You were made for the sun. Let it kiss you without repercussion. Allow yourself to kiss it back.
LIBRA: So maybe you dropped too many pennies down the wishing well and now your wallet is nothing more than negative space. So maybe you forgot who gave you that good advice that one time and you’re still beating yourself up over it. Go ahead, admit to your faults. Set a place for them at the table and scold them for being late. Eat their portion and kick them out. Being familiar with every side to your geometric personality is not something to be ashamed of. Remember the angles, and keep moving. People like you are not meant to stand still.
SCORPIO: I think that your ears were made for listening to things that break. The shattering of a vase. The cracking of a heart. Does it ever get exhausting to be so awfully aware of how things sound when they forget to function? Nobody expects you to take every smashed hope and piece it together on your own. You are not a bottle of glue no matter how much you feel disaster sticks to you. I promise. You don’t have to carry that toolbox around, anymore. It looks heavy. Set it down.
SAGITTARIUS: You have your father’s mouth and consequently have dreams where you’re ripping it from your face. Somebody told you once that you were inadequate and now there’s a bruise on your ego and you can’t seem to stop touching it. Why are you so obsessed with how long it takes to heal? Why are you so afraid of letting people see you cry? Take off your armor and let your skin breathe. There’s still time to be okay with the idea of loss. You’re not too late. You’re not too late.
CAPRICORN: Stop using the word pathetic whenever anybody asks you to describe yourself. The people that hold you accountable for the abuse you’ve endured are the ones that turn away whenever they see it. You don’t need them, you never did. Can you feel that prickling sensation running up your arms? It’s tomorrow knocking and it wants to show you something beautiful. Let it. You’ve handled tragedy, surely you can handle tenderness.
AQUARIUS: You’ve been fucked over so many times it’s hard not to see yourself as a hotel room on the outskirts of town. Dark red bedsheets and rusty doorknobs and a lampshade that hasn’t been touched in a decade or two, this is where you lie and try to erase the memories from your naked body. You don’t want to belong to anybody almost as much as you don’t want people to believe they’ve changed you. They haven’t, you know that right? No matter how many people hike up mount everest it’s still a mountain. It’s still bigger than what’s stepping on it. It still keeps its name.
PISCES: You’ve become so good at sacrificing yourself for the possibility of something worthwhile that your body looks more like an altar than an assortment of bones. If this is your church I hope that your god looks like your nine year old face whenever somebody asked what you wanted to be when you grew up. I hope your prayer sounds like an exhale and that your choir sings in harmony and that every donation tastes like honey. Don’t forget to bow your head every once in a while. Remind yourself of your feet. Of how fast you’re able to run.
- Aries: Tell them you’ll stay even when they push away. Tell them you love them just the way they are and they don’t have to change for you. Give them a sense of self and freedom. Give them a place to return to at the end of the day.
- Taurus: Tell them you want a home with them. Tell them that a future with them is brighter than the sun and that you’ve never felt as secure as you do with them in your arms. Give them a sense of comfort and safety. Give them your all.
- Gemini: Tell them…wait no, shhh. Let them tell you their thoughts and feelings. Let them tell you all the beautiful things on their mind and pour their heart out through eloquent speeches. Give them a sense of curiosity and freedom to ramble. Give them your attention and listening ears.
- Cancer: Tell them they don’t have to worry about you leaving. Tell them they’re safe from anything and everything and that you’ll protect them. Give them a sense of love and loyalty. Give them your heart and soul.
- Leo: Tell them how beautiful and amazing they are. Tell them you’ve never seen a star that shined nearly as bright. Give them a sense of adoration and wonder. Give them your praise and acceptance.
- Virgo: Tell them thank you for everything they do. Tell them you’ve never met someone so reliable and dependable. Give them a sense of self worth and satisfaction. Give them your gratitude and appreciation.
- Libra: Tell them how beautiful their spirit is. Tell them how their charm and intelligence intrigues you. Give them a sense of self love and endless support. Give them your open heart and mind.
- Scorpio: Tell them you’ll never abandon them. Tell them your deepest fear is a life without them in it and that you’d cross the earth to be close to them. Give them a sense of dedication and intensity. Give them your entire being.
- Sagittarius: Tell them you want to see the world with them. Tell them when you look into their eyes…you do. Give them a sense of adventure and freedom. Give them a home away from home.
- Capricorn: Tell them you won’t betray them or use them. Tell them they can depend on someone other than themselves finally. Give them a sense of support and trust. Give them a foundation that will never crumble.
- Aquarius: Tell them you love how different and unique they are. Tell them you’ve never met anyone like them and they’ve made your world better. Give them a sense of identity and belonging. Give them your world.
- Pisces: Tell them they’re a dream come true. Tell them they make flowers bloom in the darkest of times. Give them a sense of purpose and care. Give them an escape from reality.
I just explained my issues with executive dysfunction to my dad and holy shit he gets it!
I described it like this:
Imagine you’re back at AllPro(where he worked) with fifty phones and they’re all ringing. You want to answer them all because they’re all equal priority. That’s an environmental cue– phones are generally a ‘respond immediately’ cue.
Picking up a phone is a simple thing. You know it’s as easy as deciding which phone to answer and reaching out to pick it up, but your brain is saying “I must answer all of them!” The phones are ringing, and you can’t make your body reach out to pick one up because you don’t have fifty arms to reach out, you don’t have fifty ears to listen with, you don’t have a brain that can process and respond to fifty conversations and you don’t have fifty mouths that can all say different things all at the same time.
Either you do it all simultaneously or nothing will happen. You can want to do it so bad it makes you cry, and you can’t make a decision because no choice seems like the right one. So the task stays unfinished and you get frustrated every time somebody reminds you to “just do it, it’s not that hard!” Because yes, it really IS that hard.
Now, if you had somebody who could point to which phone to answer, you can do it fine. That’s a prompt. Prompting removes the ‘middle man’ thought that says ‘do it all at once’ and gets you to focus on tasks one at a time instead of seeing them as some towering insurmountable mess.
Dad looked at me for a couple of seconds and said something to the effect of, “I didn’t know doing things were that hard for you.”
This is a major, major, major breakthrough between us because dad had it in his head that I left things messy because I didn’t care. While that’s crappy of him to assume, teaching him how that’s not the case and having him really understand it is a huge deal.