The Moon indicates our emotional style. But equally important, it indicates how
we experienced our mother and our early environment and how that affected us psychologically.
Our early environment and the type and degree of nurturing we received are critical in shaping our
psychology and establishing a sense of security and trust. In this culture and in most others, the
father teaches the ways of the world and how to function in it. The mother’s role, on the other hand,
is to build the foundation of security, trust, and love necessary for healthy feelings about others and
ourselves. If this foundation is cracked or insufficient, we will not have the emotional resources to
face our task as an adult of providing for our own survival and that of others.
Our family and our early environment are selected by the soul before life and can, therefore, be
read in the chart. The Moon and its aspects, the ruler of the fourth house and its aspects, and the
planets in the fourth house and their aspects describe our early environment. They also describe the
mother and her attention to us. More accurately, they describe our experience of her and our early
environment. Although these aspects describe both the early environment and the mother, the
planets within the fourth house seem to describe the environment more than they do the mother.
And the houses of the fourth house ruler and the Moon describe the mother’s interests and where she
puts her energy. If we have been more influenced in our early years by our father or another
caretaker, the Moon and the fourth house will describe that individual.
Moon in Aries
The early environment of this Moon sign is likely to be colored by competition and conflict. The
conflict may be between the parents, the siblings, or any combination of family members. This
Moon sign also may signify animosity or anger on the part of the mother toward her family or spouse or in general. In any case, the home environment is often tense and competitive, and the
individual who grows up in it may be tense and angry as well. On a more positive note, the mother
may be strong, independent, assertive, and possibly athletic and encourages these traits in her child.
Some with this Moon sign have families who are involved in the military or athletics. In general, the
environment is more masculine and encourages the development of masculine traits even in its
Moon in Taurus
Unless the Moon is afflicted, the Taurus Moon’s early environment is likely to be peaceful and
stable and meet the child’s physical needs. The home is likely to be comfortable. The family may
even be well-off financially. The mother is often affectionate, dependable, and a good cook.
However, little attention may be given to emotional and intellectual needs. With this Moon sign,
security and material comforts often supersede emotional needs. Consequently, many with this
Moon sign repress or are unaware of their feelings. Children in such families often follow the model
presented them by finding comfort and satisfaction in material things rather than in people. Love
becomes equated with food and gifts. As a result, their relationships may be with toys, food, or
Moon in Gemini
Gemini Moons are likely to be bright and intellectually inclined, and the mother fosters this. The
mother usually plays an educative role and happily meets the child’s intellectual needs. This is a
home where education is valued and reading and schoolwork are emphasized. However, the child’s
emotional and physical needs may not be attended to as enthusiastically. Although the mother may
be an intellectual role model, she may be less helpful in modeling other skills, such as intimacy and
managing in the world. She may not be very affectionate or emotionally demonstrative. In some
cases, the mother feels more like a friend, a peer, or an aunt.
Moon in Cancer
This Moon sign is ideal for establishing a solid foundation for adulthood. Unless the Moon is
afflicted, the mother probably enjoyed being mother and homemaker. She is likely to have met the
child’s physical and emotional needs. When our physical needs are met, we feel valued and
recognized; when our emotional needs are met, we learn to value and trust our feelings. Feelings are
important because they point to our needs, and only by having our needs met can we grow
physically, emotionally, intellectually, and spiritually. So, recognition of our feelings is crucial in our early years. It is how self-worth is built and tantamount to being validated as an individual. The
Cancer Moon’s mother is someone who attends to her child’s feelings and makes herself available
physically and emotionally, which supports the development of self-esteem. On the other hand, the
ties with the mother can be too close. The mother is identified with her children and may be
possessive, smothering, and overly protective. This may make it difficult for the child to grow up
and establish an independent identity.
Moon in Leo
When it is not afflicted, the gift of this Moon sign is a firm sense of self and self-worth. Confidence
can go a long way in life. This gift of confidence instilled by the mother establishes a foundation for
the Leo Moon’s future successes. The mother’s warm, expressive nurturing style lends confidence to
her child. She is likely to have showered her Leo Moon child with attention and affection, so the
child comes to expect this from others. This may, in part, be a self-promoting act in that she views
her child as an extension of her own ego and love flows from this place of pride. Her child can do
no wrong because it is her child. She is likely to encourage her child’s creativity and self-expression
and may be creative herself. She is dramatic, forceful, and a show-stealer. The child learns to get her
attention by doing the same.
Moon in Virgo
The early nurturing that Virgo Moons receive may be dedicated but dry. The mother is likely to be
efficient, orderly, hardworking, and responsible but emotionally inexpressive. She is educated and
thorough in her approach to motherhood, studying all the latest manuals about raising children. This
care and attention is noticed by the child and makes up in many ways for the mother’s lack of
warmth and playfulness. Nevertheless, Virgo Moons may struggle with expressing their emotions,
having not had a model for this. Although they may not learn to be emotionally expressive, the
dedicated care given to them is often sufficient to build their self-esteem. They, in turn, make
dedicated and efficient mothers. On the other hand, the child’s self-esteem might be undermined if
the mother is hypercritical and fussy, as is often the case with this Moon sign. In that case, the
individual is likely to become self-critical or critical of others too.
Moon in Libra
When not afflicted, this Moon sign represents a beneficial home environment. The early home life
is likely to be harmonious and peaceful, and the mother takes pride in providing a home that is both
aesthetically pleasing and emotionally supportive. The absence of conflict and argument in the home is often apparent with Libra Moons, for they mirror this non-confrontational style in their
relationships. They are likely to have learned how to negotiate and compromise in this early
atmosphere, which can later serve them well in their own family relationships and work. The
mother might be artistically inclined, refined, and well-versed in social etiquette. Culture and the
arts might be emphasized in the home.
Moon in Scorpio
The early environment of Scorpio Moons is often difficult and intensely emotional. Abuse or
misuse of power and authority are a possibility, leaving the individual angry or repressed. The
mother or another family member may be domineering, manipulative, possessive, or controlling.
There is often an undercurrent of hostility and resentment in the home and a sense of deep, dark
secrets that no one is allowed to speak about. The secrets could include such things as violence,
sexual abuse, addiction, criminality, psychological problems, or illegitimate children. On the other
hand, the mother may have been highly attentive to the child’s emotional needs and bonded deeply
with him or her. This is fine for the infant, who needs this bonding, but as the child matures, this can
feel overbearing and possessive. Since identification by both parent and child is so strong, Scorpio
Moons often have difficulty breaking the tie with their mothers as adults. The emotional intensity of
this relationship often continues over the years. This deep psychic connection between the mother
and child may, in fact, originate in a former lifetime.
Moon in Sagittarius
This Moon sign often represents a less traditional nurturing experience. The mother’s nurturing style
is easygoing and liberal. Freedom is important to her and this attitude is conveyed to the child by
allowing him or her freedom to explore, ask questions, and investigate life. However, there may be
too little responsibility expected from the child and too few rules to allow the child to develop the
inner discipline necessary for adulthood. Or, the mother may be off having her own adventure. So,
although the mother may be a model of independent action and adventure, she may not be available
to provide the security and stability that a child needs. She might lack responsibility and behave
more like a friend than a parent. It is common for those with this Moon sign to live in a foreign
country or be influenced by foreigners when they are growing up, perhaps by traveling a lot. The
military family is an example of this. The family values freedom more than they do stability. They
often move or travel a lot.
Moon in Capricorn
With this Moon sign, something may be lacking in the early environment. The mother may be ill
and unable to care for the child, absent from the child’s life, depressed, repressed emotionally, over-
worked, or unable to cope with the duties of motherhood. Sometimes the mother dies. Harshness is
another possibility. The mother may be unloving, overbearing, strict, rigid, and restrictive, allowing
little leeway for the child to act like a child or express his or her emotions. In any case, the child
receives insufficient mothering. On the other hand, the early home life may be stable, secure,
orderly, and attentive to responsibilities, supplying the child with the structure and discipline needed
to function effectively in the world as an adult.
Moon in Aquarius
The Aquarius Moon’s early home life and mother are likely to be unique or unusual in some way.
The individual may grow up in a household with progressive ideas about child rearing and
considerably more freedom than most children. This free and tolerant atmosphere exposes the child
to ideas that other children might not encounter. However, although this is an advantage
intellectually, the child may have difficulty getting his or her need for closeness met. Aquarius,
although tolerant and altruistic, is not known for its emotional warmth. Young children, however,
do need close emotional interactions with adults to form a solid foundation of trust and a sturdy
sense of self. As a result, Aquarius Moons may learn at an early age not to expect others to meet
their emotional needs. Consequently, as adults, they may have trouble addressing the emotional
needs of others. When afflicted, this Moon sign may indicate a chaotic home, inconsistent nurturing,
divorce, or a disrupted home life, which can leave emotional scars and affect the individual’s ability
to form intimate relationships later on. Several moves or changes in the early years are common.
These can either cause insecurity or teach the individual to make the best of change.
Moon in Pisces
Pisces Moons may undergo some loss or hardship in relation to the mother. She may be
psychologically incapable of caring for her child, mentally ill, addicted to drugs or alcohol, or
neglectful. On the other hand, she may be artistic or musical. She is often religious, kind, and
selfless. Religious or spiritual activities may be carried out in the home. In either case, Pisces Moons
learn compassion, either through their own suffering or their mother’s compassionate care. When
they are cared for lovingly, they learn to care lovingly for others. If they have been neglected,
however, they may grow up with the same psychological damage as their mother and be prone to
drug abuse and mental illness.
Hubble Sees the Beautiful Side of Galaxy IC 335: This new NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope image shows the galaxy IC 335 in front of a backdrop of distant galaxies. IC 335 is part of a galaxy group containing three other galaxies, and located in the Fornax Galaxy Cluster 60 million light-years away.
As seen in this image, the disk of IC 335 appears edge-on from the vantage point of Earth. This makes it harder for astronomers to classify it, as most of the characteristics of a galaxys morphology the arms of a spiral or the bar across the center are only visible on its face. Still, the 45000 light-year-long galaxy could be classified as an S0 type.
These lenticular galaxies are an intermediate state in galaxy morphological classification schemes between true spiral and elliptical galaxies. They have a thin stellar disk and a bulge, like spiral galaxies, but in contrast to typical spiral galaxies they have used up most of the interstellar medium. Only a few new stars can be created out of the material that is left and the star formation rate is very low. Hence, the population of stars in S0 galaxies consists mainly of aging stars, very similar to the star population in elliptical galaxies.
As S0 galaxies have only ill-defined spiral arms they are easily mistaken for elliptical galaxies if they are seen inclined face-on or edge-on as IC 335 here. And indeed, despite the morphological differences between S0 and elliptical class galaxies, they share some common characteristics, like typical sizes and spectral features.
Both classes are also deemed early-type galaxies, because they are evolving passively. However, while elliptical galaxies may be passively evolving when we observe them, they have usually had violent interactions with other galaxies in their past. In contrast, S0 galaxies are either aging and fading spiral galaxies, which never had any interactions with other galaxies, or they are the aging result of a single merger between two spiral galaxies in the past. The exact nature of these galaxies is still a matter of debate.
A page of Willem ’s Gravesande’s 1720 book Physices Elementa Mathematica with Jan van Musschenbroek’s magic lantern, an early type of image projector, projecting a monster. The depicted lantern is one of the oldest known to be preserved and is in the collection of Museum Boerhaave, Leiden.
Neil does not know a world without Andrew at his back. He’s always been there, a constant, reassuring presence. He’s almost like Neil’s shadow, if a shadow were prone to sarcastic comments and making sure Neil doesn’t pick too many fights he can’t win.
(Every time reminds Neil of the first. Some kid, one of the ones who’d clearly been given everything from cradle onwards, had decided he was entitled to Neil’s favourite glittery crayon. Neil, in turn, decided he was entitled to the other kid’s juice. And to forcibly take the crayon back, no matter how that would escalate events. Just before it got to any kind of tackle, Andrew turned up - and even though he was short Neil had no idea how he’d never noticed him before - and threatened the kid into leaving it be. Neil had tried to thank Andrew, and he’d shrugged and said, “‘S only fair.”)
(Andrew’s always been the same. All he wants is for things to be fair. Maybe a little more fair for his friends than anyone else, but isn’t that true of everyone?)
“Why did you pick us?” Neil laughs around the mouth of a beer bottle, looking into Andrew’s ever-clear hazel eyes.
“This isn’t gym, Josten,” Andrew replies. “And if it were, you wouldn’t be my first choice.”
“I’m the fastest runner you know. Fact.”
“Less so since you graduated high school. You got lazy.”
Neil rolls his eyes, an over-exaggerated gesture to minimise the world rolling with them. “Whatever, Minyard. Stop avoiding the question.”
“Not my fault your questions are vague.”
Neil would groan if he hadn’t had almost sixteen years of dealing with his shitheel of a best friend. (Even if ‘friend’ has never encapsulated all that Andrew is to him. He’d choose ‘soulmate’, because he’s sure there’s no one else who could ever understand the core of what it is to be Neil as well as Andrew does, but since Andrew rejects Neil’s friendship almost daily and scorns the idea of romance, Neil sticks to ‘Andrew’.) “Andrew. At the young age of… whatever. Whenever. Young. We were young. You stuck up for me so I didn’t get in a brawl with a rich kid who’d have fought dirty when all I wanted was my glitter crayon. And since then you’ve been more loyal than, like, an extremely long-lived dog, right? So what did you see in the dumbass who cared more about his crayon than childhood friends? And… whoever else. I know there were more,” Neil says, turning his grin to Kevin for half a second.
Andrew raises his eyebrows a fraction of an inch, a movement barely visible in the dim light, “Dumbasses who wouldn’t survive a day without me.”
I wish I an “early to bed, early to rise” type of person but I’m a “ok let’s go to bed early tonight, but doesn’t and ok let’s try to get up early but snoozes all of my multiple alarms and goes back to sleep for another couple hours” type of person
… So you deny that 90% of the Earth's population exists? Am I wrong?
i used to run a bar, back in the day. right about twelve years ago now. maybe that’s not what most folks would consider back in the day, but i aged fast. you would too, in my position.
it was a great place down in the south, decent sized joint with a close knit staff. always bustling with business. saw quite a few commotions in that tavern. more often than not, that’s where the town’s rumour mill would catch wind. despite being a northerner myself, the cowboys seemed to like me well enough. i made a handful of friends. god, i loved our cook. great woman, jess.
now, i closed the bar at the peak of its popularity. everyone had their own idea why, some of those ideas being the right one, but— anyway. i left. i got the hell out of dodge. closed the bar as quickly as i could, packed my shit and left as soon as the sun started rising, gossip and friendships be damned.
i just didn’t have any other choice.
i’m always waiting for sunrise these days. i never used to be a night owl, really, i was one of those “early to bed, early to rise” types. sure, sometimes my work kept me up, but i had some semblance of a sleep schedule goin’ for me. i was a productive member of society, for whatever that’s worth now. i suspect it’s nothin’.
i don’t take to the night too well. i find myself waiting in that darkness, sometimes clutching a knife close to my chest. anything i think could hurt someone. something. i don’t look out the window. i don’t do anything but look straight ahead until the first pieces of morning overtake the room, wash it in that grey-blue haze. i always feel like i’m waiting for the other shoe to fall. for the ax to finally land on my neck.
i moved back to good ol’ new england afterward, straight into the depths of the woods. i’ve really never been a paranoid person, but i can’t feel safe in a crowd anymore. can’t stand towns, really can’t stand cities. who knows what lurks in the hearts of men?
i do. that’s why i stay the fuck away.
it’s about 6:37am on a tuesday morning, and there are two knocks on the door. soft, in quick succession. an even softer falls against the wood, like it might be a mistake. like someone’s hand was shaking. i hadn’t heard a car, hadn’t seen one in days, even–
i open the door slowly. revel in the creak, how unwelcoming it sounds. my nearest neighbour is a good drive down the mountain, moved here to take care of her grandmother and didn’t relocate when she passed. nice woman with a faint boston accent, emotive dark eyes.
she’s standing on my doorstep, and her hand lashes out to grip the door frame. i don’t see a car. “hi,” she says, and there’s some edge in her voice i can’t identify. some cut to it. “hi,” she repeats. her eyes are wild.
“can i help you?” i ask, carefully measured with what i hope is the right amount of nothing, but she’s already pushing past me, stumbling into my kitchen.
she’s suddenly digging through my drawers, tearing the whole place apart. i notice she’s barefoot as she turns to me and hisses, “phone.”
“where is your phone?” and her mouth is opened like she’s about to say something else, but nothing comes. a choked syllable seems to trail off to its untimely death. she only looks at me. she only looks past me.
a chill passes over the room and when i turn to shut the door, to tell her to get the hell out, i see it. he’s standing stock-still in the yard, hands tucked into the pockets of his coat. the tall figure he cuts is still the same offsetting sharpness i remember from twelve years ago. his eyes gleam like disaster, like doom, like the ax about to fall.
i’m not afraid of him, i find. i’d like to make my morning coffee now. i’d like to have breakfast. i’d like him to leave.
“straightpeoplereceipts,” he practically sings, self satisfied and unbearable. “you deny that ninety-percent of the world’s population exists?”
i take a glance at the woman in the kitchen behind me. something seems to click then, and i don’t look back. i shut the door.
Reconstructed ‘Beehive Hut’ or Iron Age Cell, Kilmartin Glen, Argyll, 15.4.17. This type of early stone hut was largely constructed for religious seclusion by monks and examples are to be found through Celtic kingdoms. It is possible that these structures formed the first early churches during the very beginnings of Christianity in the United Kingdom.
sorry this took a hot minute to write like i said im not good at this!!!
Even wakes up, curled into himself, one leg out of the
comforter, toes touching the floor, and one arm underneath his blue pillow. He
takes a long inhale in, stretching out his body as much as possible and lifting
himself on his elbows. The light from underneath the orange curtains illuminates
the room. Even reaches over onto the floor and takes his phone off the charger.
No new notifications, not that he would have any. He
looks to his right and sees Isak sprawled out on the bed, lying on his stomach.
They had a fight the night before, over something stupid, but went to bed
angry. Even moves the comforter over himself so there isn’t anything in between
them. He wraps his arm around Isak’s middle, running his hand underneath Isak’s
shirt and pulling his warm body closer to his chest. Habitually, their legs intertwine
and Isak pulls the pillow he had been sleeping on closer to himself.
Even nuzzles his nose into the back of his neck,
rubbing it against the hairs to move the tag from Isak’s shirt out of the way.
Isak hasn’t made a noise, until he mumbles under his breath something Even can’t
“Hmm..?” Even hums against him, arm still lay across
Isak, with his eyes still closed, mumbles, “Too hot..”
But he doesn’t move.
“Well I’m cold, baby, so you’re gonna have to warm me
up. That’s just how this works.” Even pulls him closer, kissing the crevice
between his neck and shoulder.
“But I’ll get all gross and sweaty…” Isak breathes
out, voice much clearer now, but still groggy.
“Then you’d have to take a shower, so, maybe this is
for the best.” Even grins, pulling him closer. Isak turns on his back, eyes
barely open as he scolds him, but breaks out into a quiet laugh.
“You just want me all hot and sweaty so you can join
me in that shower.” Isak turns around completely, staying as close as possible
as he brings a hand to thread through Even’s hair. Even wraps his arms around
him, hand settled onto the small of his back where his shirt rides up.
“Well, of course.” Even gives him a toothy grin as his
eyes crinkle. A smile Isak can’t resist.
Isak smiles sleepily at him, half-lidded eyes, playing
with two stands of Even’s hair. There’s a comforting silence between them. Even
grazes his nose against Isak’s.
“Sorry about last night..” Isak whispers.
“Stop, I’m sorry.” His fingertips travel up his spine.
Isak moves closer, bringing his arms around his back,
letting his face fall into Even’s neck. “I love you.”
“I love you, too.” Even speaks into his hair, placing
a small kiss to his forehead. “You’re really hot.” Even whispers against his
“Even, it is too early for makeup sex.”
“Well for one, it is never too early for any type of
sex, and two, you’re literally hot, your back is sweating all over my hand.”
Even brings his hand out and wipes it on the comforter. Isak puts a hand on his
chest and pushes him back aggressively.
“Eveennnnnauauhhh!” Isak groans, pushing the comforter
off him and onto Even’s face.
Even starts laughing, trying to catch his breath.
“Excuse me, you’re the one who said this would happen.” He watches Isak lift
himself from the bed, making his way to the door while taking off his shirt.
Even sees him walk into the direction of the bathroom and soon realizes he’s
off to shower.
“Hey!” Even jumps out of the bed, trying not to trip
on Isak’s schoolbag. “Wait for me!”
boss’ memo : ive never received so many headcanon reqs about loving and protecting one person,, so good !!! i’m so proud!!
maria isn’t really a early morning kissing type of person, despite being a morning person herself–what she really enjoys are late night kisses! sleepy smooches ! she likes to pepper your face with ‘em as she grows sleepier and sleepier (and gently hums at you when you giggle in response to her affection)
she’s really big on consent, so without fail, you’ll hear a soft, “kiss?” before she leans in,, either that, or “may i…?”
her favorite place to be is with her arms ‘round your waist, pressing you closer to her (from behind or from the front) and her mouth on your neck–she likes the way her lipstick looks on you,,
if you’re busy, she likes to clasp your non dominant hand in her own, turn it over, and kiss the back of it
w/ a s/o who tries to ensure her happiness | s/o who spoils her | when she’s jealous
she can’t think about you for too long, otherwise she may start crying–she’s unsure of what she could have ever done to deserve someone who cares about her so earnestly, loves her so deeply! she’s never known anyone like you before and you surprise her every single time you put her needs before your own,,
she’s not normally the type of person who cries, but she feels safe around you. plus, these are always happy tears
she’s very light-footed, but if it bothers you, she can purposefully make noise when she walks–but either way, she loves embracing you and showering you with soft “i love you”s (sometimes signed, sometimes spoken)
she doesn’t quite know what to do when you buy her things !! she’s always sure to thank you–she understands these are material things but she places an incredible amount of emotional significance for every thing you get for her
(it’s likely that one of her comfort objects is something you’ve gotten for her–especially if the object smells like you)
one of the most frequent things she says to you is “thank you for being kind”
if you’ve also had a rough past, she’s willing to listen if you ever want to talk. she wants to ensure you know she’s there for you just as much as you’re there for her
she doesn’t really like to involve herself in conflicts–not anymore, but despite this, she’s quite protective of you, and will do everything in her power to keep you safe and happy as well
she’s not used to receiving, so she always does her best to show you her gratitude
she does get jealous, but it’s more directed at herself rather than you. if she’s feeling jealous of the attention someone else is giving you / feeling unsure of your relationship in general, she’ll withdraw, she’ll be distant. maria needs assurance that you love her often–and she’s self aware of this.
just little things to remind her that you love her. maybe remembering something she likes, telling her you think she’s beautiful out of nowhere… that helps her lots !
A creation of the French pistol maker Charles Francois Galland in the late 19th century, the Velodog was a small pocket revolver popular in France and Belgium in the late 19th and early 20th century. While there were many makers of Velodog revolvers in Europe at the time, most share common characteristics. First, they were small five or six shot double action revolvers, often hammerless and lacking a trigger guard. Instead of a trigger guard, for the safety most Velodogs had a folding trigger, which also made the pistol more compact for carrying. Secondly, most Velodogs were of small caliber. At first they were produced in a caliber called 5.75 Velodog, a 5.5mm (.22 caliber) jacket cartridge similar to the .22 magnum today. Later Velodogs were produced in other small calibers such a .22 long rifle and .25 ACP.
The purpose of the velodog was very specific, for bicyclers to defend themselves against dog attacks. The name “velodog” is a portmanteau of the words “velocipede”, an early type of bicycle (pictured above), and “dog”. While this may seem laughable today, remember that at the time, bicycles were crude, slow vehicles and that 19th century Paris was infested with thousands of dangerous, rabid dogs. For those seeking a more humane solution, 5.75 Velodog cartridges were produced loaded with cayenne pepper.
1. Through and through close contact large calibre gunshot wound involving the left side of the head (region of the left temple) associated with: A. Brain injuries - lacerations and contusions B. Skull fractures C. Subdural hemorrhage 2. Aspiration blood lower airway and lungs
COMMENT: The autopsy findings in this case reveal that the cause of death is due to brain injuries secondary to a close contact, large calibre, through and through gunshot wound involving the left side of the head. This gunshot wound is consistent with self-infliction.
This autopsy is performed in the Jefferson County Coroner’s Office in Golden, Colorado on 04/22/99 at 10:30 a.m. This autopsy is done at the request of Dr. Nancy Bodelson, the Coroner of Jefferson County. The identification was made by fingerprints. Concerning location, this body is identified as #11. Members of Jefferson County Sheriff’s Department attended the autopsy. I am assisted in the autopsy by Mr. Rob Kulbacki.
History: This is the case of a 17-year-old, white male who is allegedly a victim of a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head. The decedent was found dead in the library at Columbine High School, and the death occurred on 04/22/99. No other history is available at the time of autopsy.
External Examination: The body is clothed in a black T-shirt with the inscription “Wrath” across the front; a black glove on the left hand with the fingers cut away; blue-green plaid boxer shorts; black pants with a black belt which have been partially cut away; white socks; and black boots. A large calibre, copper-jacketed bullet is present in the right boot. This is given to the Sheriff’s Officer along with the clothing. Present on the left boot was a red star medallion containing a sickle and a hammer. Black suspenders were in close proximity of the body. This is the unembalmed, well-developed, well-nourished, traumatized body of a white male appearing consistent with the stated age of 17. Height is measured at 74-½"; weight is 143 pounds. Rigor is minimal in the neck and the right lower extremity; absent in the other areas of the body. Faint reddish-purple livor is set over the dorsal aspects of the body with appropriate blanching of the pressure points.
Head: The scalp is covered by long, thick, blood-stained, brown hair which measures 6" in length at the apex. Present on the left side of the head, in the region of the temple, ¼" above and ¾" anterior to the left ear, is a circular, large calibre, entrance type of gunshot wound. The wound is surrounded by marginal abrasion, and what appears to be powder, although there is extensive drying artifact which makes this determination difficult. There are small irregular tears in the wound margins. The perforated area of the wound measures ¾" in diameter; the stippling associated with the wound. For identification purposes, this wound will be referred to as “A”. Present on the right lateral surface of the head, ½" anterior to the mid-portion of the right ear, is a generally circular exit type of gunshot wound showing irregular tearing of the margins. This wound measures ½" in diameter. No marginal abrasion or powder residue are observed. For identification purposes, this wound will be referred to as “B”. Ears - the ears are intact. Both ears are blood stained. Eyes - the eyebrows are brown. The sclerae are white. The irides are bluish-gray. The pupils are round, measure 7 mm, and are directed anteriorly. The conjunctivae are pale. Bilateral periorbital reddish-purple contusions are present. Nose - the nose is externally unremarkable. The nasal passages contain bloody fluid. The septum is in the midline. Mouth - the lips are reddish-purple with some drying artifact. There is a blonde mustache on the upper lip. The oral mucous membranes are tan and moist. The tongue is reddish-brown and finely granular without evidence of lacerations or contusions. The teeth are in a good state of dental repair. There is a small amount of hemorrhagic fluid in the oral cavity. Chin - a blond beard, fashioned in a goatee, involves the chin. Dried blood smears the forehead; there are dried blood flow patterns extending across both sides of the face in a predominantly horizontal plane.
Neck: The external surface of the neck reveals no evidence of injury. The neck organs are in the midline without palpable masses.
Chest: The chest demonstrates a normal anterior-posterior diameter. No external trauma is present. The breasts are normal male. Palpating the chest reveals no instability. The axillae are negative to observation and palpation. A moderate amount of brown hair is present in both axillae.
Abdomen: The abdomen is flat. No external trauma is present. There is some green discoloration of the lower abdomen due to early decomposition. Present in the right upper quadrant of the abdomen, is a linear, horizontal scar which measures 3" in length. Palpating the abdomen reveals no organomegaly or masses.
Genitalia: A normal appearing male, brown, genital hair pattern is present. The penis is of normal size, shape, and position; respective scrotal sacs without palpable masses. There is postmortem drying artifact on the anterior surface of the scrotum.
Back: The external surface of the back reveals no evidence of trauma. The anus is intact without any unusual dilatation or trauma.
Extremities: The upper extremities are intact. The nails are intact, short, and clean. A silver-colored ring with a black stone is present on the ring finger of the left hand. There is accentuated dark purple livor involving the portions of the fingers external to the glove on the left hand. Present on the lateral aspect of the left hand involving the thumb and middle finger are several small reddish-brown abrasions, measuring 1/8" in diameter. Present overlying the proximal knuckle of the index finger of the right hand is a purple contusion which also involves a portion of the hand, and measures 1-¼" in size. The forearms are unremarkable. The antecubital fossae reveal no evidence of recent needle puncture marks or scars. The upper arms are intact and unremarkable grossly. The lower extremities are intact. Present on the anterior aspect of the proximal portion of the right lower extremity are several tiny healing reddish-brown abrasions. There is a cluster of three yellow-brown contusions on the anterior-lateral aspect of the right lower leg, varying in size from ¼" to 1". Present on the lateral aspect of the left knee is a cluster of three yellow-brown contusions, varying in size from ¼" and 5/8". The soles of the feet are intact and unremarkable grossly.
Also present in close proximity to the body, in the body bag, were the following personal effects: a pierced earring, a silver-colored pocket watch, and a beaded cloth necklace.
Internal Examination: Through the usual Y-shaped incision, a thin layer of yellow subcutaneous adipose tissue and reddish-brown musculature are revealed. The diaphragms are intact and arch to the level of the 5th left intercostal space and the 4th right intercostal space. The peritoneal cavity contains no unusual accumulation of fluid. The lining is smooth, gray and glistening. The viscera and omentum are normally disposed.
Pleural Spaces: The pleural spaces are without any unusual accumulation of fluid. The parietal pleurae are smooth, gray and glistening. The bony structures of the chest are intact and unremarkable grossly. The clavicles are intact. There is no soft tissue injury involving the chest wall. The pericardial sac is intact. The lumen contains 10 cc of clear fluid. The pericardium is smooth, gray and glistening.
Thymus: Eight (8) grams of pink, lobular, firm, thymic tissue is present in the anterior-superior mediastinal space.
Neck: The lumen of the upper esophagus and pharynx is patent. The mucosal surface is tan and wrinkled. The lumen of the upper respiratory tract contains blood. The mucosal surface is tan and smooth. The hyoid bone and cricothyroid cartilages are intact.
Thyroid: The thyroid is of normal size, shape, and position, and has a reddish-brown, lobular, firm, gross appearance. The cervical vertebrae are intact. There is no obstruction to the posterior nasopharynx or the posterior aspect of the oral cavity. The major vessels of the neck are intact and unremarkable grossly. There is no soft tissue hemorrhage in the neck.
Heart: The heart is intact and weighs 300 grams. The epicardial surface is reddish-brown, smooth, and glistening. Minimal amounts of epicardial yellow fat are present. The myocardium is reddish-brown and firm without gross evidence of fibrosis or softening. The ventricular walls are of normal thickness. The endocardial surface is reddish-brown, smooth, and glistening. Early subendocardial flame type hemorrhages are present in the left ventricle. The cardiac valves are intact. The valve leaflets are thin and fully pliable. The valve circumferences are normal for this size heart. The chordae tendineae are tan and delicate. The papillary muscles are intact. The foramen ovale is closed. The atrial septum is intact. The ventricular septum is intact. The coronary ostia are in a normal anatomic position and widely patent. The coronary arteries demonstrate a normal anatomic distribution with normal gross features.
Aorta: The aorta is intact and of normal course and calibre throughout. The intimal surface is tan and smooth. The wall is thin and elastic. The main abdominal tributaries are intact.
Respiratory System: The lumen of the lower respiratory tract contains blood. The mucosal surface is tan, smooth and blood stained. The lungs are mildly hyperaerated. The pleural surfaces are pink, reddish-purple, smooth and glistening. The lungs together weigh 850 grams. Serial sections reveal soft, spongy, mildly hyperaerated lung tissue showing evidence of vascular congestion, early pulmonary edema, and aspirated blood. The pulmonary arteries are intact without evidence of thromboembolic disease. The pulmonary veins empty into the left atrium in a normal fashion
Gastrointestinal System: The esophagus is of normal course and calibre throughout. The lumen is patent. The mucosal surface is tan with longitudinal furrowing. The wall is thin. The stomach is in a normal anatomic position. The lumen contains 160 cc of yellow-orange, liquid, gastric contents containing fragments of what appears to be potato skins. The mucosal surface is tan with intact rugae. No peptic ulcer disease or tumor are noted grossly. The small bowel demonstrates a normal anatomic distribution with normal gross features. The appendix is present and unremarkable grossly. The large bowel demonstrates a normal anatomic distribution with normal gross features.
Spleen: The spleen is intact and weighs 180 grams. The external surface is purple and smooth. Serial sections reveal a firm, reddish-purple, splenic paranchyma.
Liver: The liver is intact and weighs 1300 grams. The external surface is reddish-brown, smooth, and glistening. Serial sections reveal a firm, reddish-brown, lobular, normal appearing liver tissue.
Gallbladder: The gallbladder is intact. The lumen contains 12 cc of cloudy yellow-brown, liquid bile. The mucosal surface is smooth and bile stained. The cystic duct and common bile duct are intact and patent throughout. The portal vein, splenic vein, and superior mesenteric vein are intact and patent.
Pancreas: The pancreas is of normal size, shape, and position, and has a tan, lobular, soft, partially autolyzed, gross appearance.
Adrenals: Both adrenals are identified. Serial sections reveal a thin yellow cortex and gray medulla.
Kidneys: Both kidneys are identified. The capsules strip easily. The left kidney weighs 160 grams; the right kidney weighs 150 grams. The cortical surfaces are reddish-brown and smooth. Bivalving of each kidney reveals a well-demarcated, reddish-brown cortex and medulla. The renal papillae are normal. There is no calyceal scarring. There is no unusual pelvic dilatation. Both ureters are present, patent, and uniform in diameter throughout.
Bladder: The bladder is intact. The lumen contains 20 cc of clear yellow urine. The bladder mucosa is tan and wrinkled. The prostate, seminal vesicles and testicles are intact and unremarkable grossly.
Musculoskeletal System: Other than the injuries to be described under the head, no other significant injuries are observed.
Lymphatics: No gross abnormality.
Venous System: There is no evidence of hepatic vein, renal vein, or portal vein thrombosis. The superior and inferior vena cavae are intact.
Central Nervous System: Reflection of the scalp reveals wound tracts in the soft tissues involving both the left and right side powder staining of the soft tissues comprimising the margin of the wound tract on the left side of the head. There is also a contusion measuring 1-½" on the apex of the scalp. There is a circular perforation which is beveled inward involving the left temporal bone. There is a circular perforation which is beveled outward involving the right temporal bone. Numerous fractures radiate from the circular perforations. Removal of a portion of the calvarium reveals no epidural hemorrhage. 40 cc of subdural hemorrhage overlies the right cerebral hemisphere and on the undersurface of this hemisphere. There is no subarachnoid hemorrhage. There are contusions on the undersurface of both temporal lobes. There is a wound tract across the undersurface of the brain, involving both cerebral hemispheres in the temporal and frortal areas. The brain demonstrates laceration and some pulverization of brain tissue involving the previously mentioned areas. The brain weighs 1500 grams. Serial sectioning the cerebral cortex, the midbrain, the pons, the medulla, the spinal cord, the cerebellum and the pituitary reveals internal injury to the brain involving the anterior aspects of both cerebral hemispheres involving the frontal and temporal areas; and there is injury to the midbrain with predominantly contusion. There is no evidence of any underlying disease of the brain. Examination of the base of the skull reveals a transverse basal skull fracture that involves both temporal fossa and interconnects across the sphenoid bone in the region of the sella turcica. C1 and C2 are intact. The odontoid ligament and odontoid processes are intact. Removal of the dural on the left side of the head reveals powder staining (soot) in the margins of the dura adjacent to the perforated area of skull.
Blood: I obtained two gray-stoppered test tubes of blood from the heart.
Urine: I obtained two gray-stoppered test tubes of urine
Gastric Contents: I obtained two gray-stoppered test tubes and one red-stoppered test tube of gastric contents.
Vitreous Humor: I obtained one gray-stoppered test tube of vitreous humor.
Bile: I obtained one gray-stoppered test tube of bile.
Approximately 100 grams of liver and kidney were also obtained and will be frozen.
Hair: I obtained random samples of scalp hair and pubic hair. I obtained scalp hair adjacent to the wounds involving the right and left sides of the head.
Nail Scrapings: I obtained nails scrapings of both hands.
Blood: I obtained one yellow, one purple and one red-stoppered test tube of blood from the heart.
All of the trace evidence, with the exception of the blood samples, are given to the Jefferson County Sheriff’s Officers upon completion of the autopsy. The blood samples for any evidentiary need are going to be stored along with the toxicology specimens for up to a year.
X-ray Examination: Revealed no evidence of retained bullets.
Wound Summary: The wound of entrance is designated wound “A” in the region of the left temple. The projectile penetrated the cranium through the left temporal bone; extended across the undersurface of both cerebral hemispheres; exiting the head through the right temporal bone. The perforated area on the left side is beveled inward; the perforated area on the right side is beveled outward. Powder is associated with the wound on the left side of the head. The projectile traveled left to right slightly front to back and slightly downward. The characteristics of the wound are consistent with a large calibre weapon; with a close contact range of fire; consistent with self-infliction.
The wound is consistent with 9 mm ammunition.
Heart: Normal histologic features.
Lung: Sections reveal intra-alveolar edema.
Liver: Sections reveal moderate autolysis.
Kidney: Sections reveal moderate autolysis.
Spleen: Normal histologic features.
Adrenal: Normal histologic features.
Thymus: Normal histologic features.
Thyroid: Normal histologic features.
Stomach: Sections reveal early autolysis involving the gastric mucosa.
Brain: Sections reveal fragmentation and intraparenchymal hemorrhage.
Entrance Wound A: Sections are of skin revealing a central deeply penetrating wound associated with a few scattered fragments of powder residue in the deeper margins of the wound.
Dura: Sections reveal scattered foci of powder residue adhering to one side of the dural surface.
Blood Alcohol - Negative
Blood Drug Screen - Gas chromatography/Mase Spectroscopy
Warnings: Mentions of death, drinking, an obscene amount of fluff
Pairing: Dean x Reader
Summary: Reader is a cop that was shot in the line of duty. As part of her physical therapy, she picks up boxing at the local gym in town, On The Ropes, owned by two brothers, Sam and Dean Winchester. Dean is just as taken with her as she is with him, but she thinks of herself as broken because of her job and injury. Can Dean make her see things differently?
A/N: The places I mention (except Mother Mary’s) are places that I visited often as a child and now as a mom, I bring my own son there. None of the images I have used are mine, credit goes to their artists.
“Well Sweetheart, are we gonna fight or make out? Cause I am getting some real mixed signals here.” He winked at you and you considered it, but all the gear made it near impossible for any kind of contact.
“Maybe after a shower” you leaned down, taking a over exaggerated sniff “cause you stink.” And you rolled off of him.
Dean stood, taking his gloves and gear off, then helping you with your own. Once you were free and clear, he crashed his lips to yours, the intensity of it taking your breath away. You had to pull away before you ran out of oxygen, resting your sweaty forehead against his.
“Yeah, well you stink, too.” He mumbled as he helped you to your feet.
“Nice comeback, D.” You laughed and leaned up to kiss him once more before stowing your gear and hitting the showers. You couldn’t wait for some real sparring.
It was Thursday and with only one week until your mandatory leave was over, you had really stepped up your game at the gym with Dean. He knew this was what you needed and he really was helping you get there. Things have been only slightly awkward since the incident in the ring last week. Both of you preferring to ignore what happened instead of admitting your feelings. Emotions just got in the way.
“Hey, Y/N! Can I see you in my office for a minute?” Dean called out to you as you exited the locker room.
You made your way over to his office. This could go one of two ways; either he hadn’t seen enough improvement and wasn’t going to recommend your return to work to your PT or he felt you were there. One way or another, your time at the gym, and with Dean by extension, was coming to an end. You weren’t sure how you felt either way.
Alright, I still have to do work so I’m calling it a little early for me! Typing is hard in an ambulance lol. Thanks @elleleuthold for doing these sprints! I had a lot of fun continue my challenge from yesterday (found here X) I
I’ve been reading high fantasy so forgive the slight…formality?? in this one! Consider it an experiment:)
Isolde grows up alone. It is a strange thing to grow up alone; it leaves you strong in curious ways and weak in even curiouser.
She learns from her mother the strength of water, the malleability, the presence. At school she stands on the playground like a ghost, watches the other children play, and doesn’t question why none come near her. She imagines it’s why the neighbors never look her mother in the eye, why Isolde must do all the talking at the grocery store, why her father has relatives but not her mother.
She views her father as the exception in her life. The one who sees her and her mother. His eyes seem to always be locked on her mother, always watching, and Isolde imagines that the look in them is love.
It’s not until she’s twelve that she discovers that love doesn’t exist.
She finds the lie buried in the backyard, right where her drunken father had claimed to have buried it. The recent years have been hard, money tight in the city, never enough warmth to go around. It’s made her father drink (he tells her that her mother is the one who makes him drink) and the drink makes him cruel.
He is often cruel.
So she stands in the dark, the little hours of the morning while her father sleeps off inebriation and her mother stares at the walls of her cage, and holds the lie in her hands. It’s soft and sleek and oily all at once. It smells like salt and power and the sea.
She knows her mother for what she is now.
“Mom,” she says after her father has left for work. “Come with me.”