early-beginnings

anonymous asked:

I think i have quiet bpd & was wondering if I could still have it although I don't dissociate?

According to the DSM, bpd is diagnosed when there is a persistent pattern of unstable interpersonal relationships, mood and self-image, as well as distinct impulsive behaviour, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts. These difficulties are indicated by five (or more) of the following:

  1. frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.

  2. a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterised by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.

  3. identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.

  4. impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g. spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating). This does not include suicidal or self-harming behaviour.

  5. recurrent suicidal behaviour, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behaviour.

  6. affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood - intense feelings that can last from a few hours to a few days.

  7. chronic feelings of emptiness.

  8. inappropriate intense anger or difficulty controlling anger.

  9. transient, stress-related paranoid ideas or severe dissociative symptoms.

I don’t think it matters which symptoms you have, but according to professionals, you must have at least five of the above symptoms.

I SEE YOU PHICHIT.

I SEE YOU POSTING A PIC WITH HEAVY YUURI-VIKTOR IMPLICATIONS, AND THEN YOU TRY TO SNAP A PIC OF CHRIS-VIKTOR WHEN THEY’RE TOGETHER.

I SEE YOU STARTING THOSE SHIP WARS.

I SEE YOU.

I love you

10 Mistakes When Studying

1. “I Don’t Know where to Begin.”

Make a list of all the things you have to do. Break your workload down ito manageable chunks. Prioritize. Schedule your time realistically. Begin studying early, with an hour or two per day, and slowly build as the exam approaches.

2. ‘I’ve Got So Much to Study…And so Little Time"

Preview. Survey your syllabus, reading material, and notes. Identify the most important topics emphasized, and areas still not understood. Previewing saves time, by helping you organize and focus in on the main topics.

3. “This Stuff is so Dry, I can’t Even Stay Awake Reading It”

Get actively involved with the text as you read. Ask yourself, “What is important to remember about this section?” Take notes or underline key concepts. Discuss the material with others in your class. Stay on the offensive.

4. “I Read It. I Understand It. But I Just Can’t Get it To Sink In”

Elaborate. We remember best the things that are most meaningful to us. As you are reading, try to elaborate upon new information with your own examples. Try to integrate what you’re studying with what you already know. You will be able to remember new material better if you can link it to something that’s already meaningful to you.

Chunking: Example: to remember the colors in the visible spectrum, Rog G.Biv –> reduce the information the three “chunks”.

Mnemonics: Associate new information with something familiar.

5. “I Guess I Understand It”

Test yourself. Make up questions about key sections in notes or reading. Examine the relationships between concepts and sections. Often, imply by changing section headings you can generate many effective questions.

6. “There’s Too Much to Remember”

Organize. Information is recalled better if it is represented in an organized framework that will make retrieval more systematic.

Write chapter outlines of summaries; emphasize relationships between sections.

Group information into categories or hierarchies, where possible.

Information Mapping. Draw up a matrix to organize and interrelate material.

7. “I Knew It A Minute Ago”

Review. After reading a section, try to recall the information contained in it. Try answering the questions you made up for that section. If you cannot recall enough, re-read portions you had trouble remembering. The more time you spend studying, the more you tend to recall. Even after the point where information can be perfectly recalled, further study makes the material less likely to be forgotten entirely. How you organize and integrate new information is still more important than how much time you spend studying.

For more follow How To Study Quick!!

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2/∞ doodle series (x)

for @princesa-rafinha

Very Important Historical Fact

i may have mentioned this before a loooong time ago, but wilson (being in his early 30s in the beginning of the 1920s) was born in the early 1890s or late 1880s

and back then, babies did not have gendered clothing. boys and girls alike wore adorable little dresses

but wait!

maxwell is english and he was a grown adult in 1905. that means maxwell grew up in Victorian England and those kids had hats

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“double, double, toil and trouble. fire burn and cauldron bubble”

11.8.2016: a belated october monthly spread!! yes, yes, it’s november, but it’s never too early to begin preparing for the next spoopy halloween? ;DD

“I have 14 children; one was born mute, and the other one became blind at an early age. In the beginning, I spent a lot of time thinking that if I’m no longer in this world, how will they survive?  So I took action, I enrolled my blind son into a local school in Mogadishu, but he had trouble adjusting to it, so I decided to homeschool him instead. I bought him Braille textbooks and taught him how to read. I used to be a teacher before the civil war, so based on my experience, I wrote a book specifically for him and used that as his customised guide for reading and learning mathematics. After a while, he started taking a huge interest in education, so I enrolled him in an upcoming small school for blinds. Because the country was going through a civil war, the school didn’t have the necessary books to teach their students how to read correctly. I donated the book that I wrote for my son, the same book that I taught him how to read and they loved it. I’m an old man; I won’t be in this world forever. I needed to leave something behind that will allow my 2 disabled children to become self-sufficient, that they will be okay in the end. I first married my blind son off, and now he has a son. I believe that if I’m gone, he won’t feel loneliness, the impact of my absence will not bother him and his son can help him once he becomes old himself. God gave us children, but the most important thing is having the understanding that no matter what ailment your child’s suffering from, you have to be there for them. We’ve to support our children.”

(Sheikh)

“Waxaan dhalay 14 caruura, labo ka mid ah caruurtay, mid ma hadlo oo hadalka ka xirmay, wuuna ku dhashay. Mid ka kale, indhaha ayaanu si wacan wax uga arkin oo mid kaliya ayuu inyar wax ka arki jiray. Aakhirkii way xirantay oo indhoole ayuu noqday. Mudadaas ilaa iminka waa labada ilmood ee igu warwarka badan, waxaan ka fakari jiray, waa wax siin doona hadii aan meesha ka baxo. Waxaan go’aansaday inaan iskuul ku yaala Xamar qoro wiilkayga indhoolaha, laakin way ku adkaatay dhigashada iskuulka. Laakiin waxaa markaas bilaabay sidaan uu caawin karo. Waxaan u soo iibiyey bugaagta dadka indhoolaha wax lagu baro. Kadib aniga wax bari jiray qaab ka duwan kii iskuulka aan geeyey. Muddo kadib waxbarashadii ayuu jeclaaday. Mudadda aan wax uu dhigayey baan ku qoray iskuul cusub oo lagu talo galay dadka indhaha naafada ka ah. Laakiin, may haysan bugaag ama wax ardayda wax lagu baro. Waddankuna dagaal ahli baa ka socday. Waxaan sameeyey inaan u hibeeyo buuggii aan qoray oo ahaa kii aan wiilkayga wax ku baray.  Aad bey u jeclaadeen. Waxaa kaliya aan ka warwarsanahay waa labada wiil ee aan dhalay yaa kaalmayn doono, wax uu qaban doona hadii aan dhinto maanta. Talaabada ku xigta aan sameeyey wiilkayga indhoolaha gabar ayaan uu guuriyey, wiilna ayeey uu dhashay. Sababta aan sidaas uu sameeyey waxaa weeye, si wiilkiisu uu dhalay berito uu kaxeeyo oo uuna dareemin cidlo. Dhamaan Illaahay baa na siiyey caruurta laakiin muhiimada waxaa weeye inaan fahano sideen caruurteena noloshooda uu gacan qabanayna. Illaahay wuu kugu imtaxaamaya, adna maaha inaad tiraahdid, may wuu indho belay bes fariiso. Maya, waa inaan garab istaagno caruurteena.”

(Sheekh)

You Are My Home

A/N: So…I am one of those people who are already listening to Christmas Music…sue me. I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS. But anyways, here’s a small oneshot. :) 

Dean x Reader

Word Count: 450

Warnings: Fluff 

“Please tell me you are not one of those people,” Dean begged as he walking into the library, shaking his head in amusement as he watched you grin widely up at him, your eyes sparkling knowingly. You raised your chin, brows raised in mock anger as you cuddled further into the leather couch, blankets sprawled around you.

“Is that a problem, Winchester?”

Winter had hit Lebanon early, snow beginning to pile up outside the bunker, leaving Dean to have no desire in driving in the icy cold conditions. Sam on the other hand decided it would be a good time for a little R and R – informing both you and Dean that he would be gone for a few days. As soon as the first few flakes hit the ground, you immediately got into a certain mood – a Christmas mood.

“Yes. Yes it is, considering the fact that there is still two weeks until Thanksgiving, Y/N.” He chuckled, diving underneath the blankets you had piled on and sighed in relief as he nuzzled his face into your neck. You couldn’t help but giggle at the feel of the slight stubble he hadn’t bothered shaving off this morning. This fucker knew exactly what he was doing, knowing you had a weakness for his facial hair that he so rarely grew out. “You’re so warm,” he groaned, squeezing you tightly against him.

“And you’re cold. Geez Dean, did you go outside?” Shuddering slightly, you brought more blankets around the two of you, your legs thrown over his lap. “And bullshit. Thanksgiving has no music – therefore, Christmas music, Dean. Christmas music.” You could feel his lips stretch again, you heart fluttering wildly. It always made you feel giddy when you made Dean smile. The two of you sat there in silence, relishing in the peacefulness of it all. It had been too long since the Winchesters were able to just sit and be, the world having too many problems for them to attend to. But somehow, the holiday season was rolling around and things were quiet for once.

Without realizing it, you had begun to hum along to Amy Grant’s ‘Tennessee Christmas,’ one of your favorites.

“Do you miss home?” he softly asked, fingers intertwining with yours. Gently pulling away from him, you stared into the emerald jewels he had for eyes, could see the small amount of fear and doubt he held in them as he asked you the question.

“No,” you simply answered, taking him by surprise. “When are you going to get it through that thick head of yours, Dean Winchester?” Placing a soft kiss against his temple, he waited patiently for you to elaborate.

“You are my home, Dean.”

‘BPD’
Borderline personality disorder (BPD), also known as emotionally unstable personality disorder, is a long term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by unstable relationships with other people, unstable sense of self, and unstable emotions.
There is often an extreme fear of abandonment, frequent dangerous behavior, a feeling of emptiness, and self-harm. Symptoms may be brought on by seemingly normal events. The behavior typically begins by early adulthood and occurs across a variety of situations.
Substance abuse, depression, and eating disorders are commonly associated with BPD. About 6% to 10% of those with BPD die by suicide.

anonymous asked:

can you please explain the symptoms and examples of borderline personality disorder? i really need to know, thank you! (tag this as BPD1)

Hi there!

Firstly, every individual with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is different, and may exhibit different combinations of symptoms. According to the DSM-IV-TR (American Psychiatric Association, 2000), borderline personality disorder is diagnosed when there is a persistent pattern of unstable interpersonal relationships, mood and self-image, as well as distinct impulsive behaviour, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts. In order to get diagnosed with this disorder, you must fulfill at least 5 of the following 9 criteria:

  • Do you have an intense fear of being left alone, which causes you to act in ways that, on reflection, seem out of the ordinary or extreme, such as constantly phoning somebody (but not including self-harming or suicidal behaviour)?
  • Do you have a pattern of intense and unstable relationships with other people that switch between thinking you love that person and they’re wonderful to hating that person and thinking they’re terrible?
  • Do you ever feel you don’t have a strong sense of your own self and are unclear about your self-image?
  • Do you engage in impulsive activities in two areas that are potentially damaging, such as unsafe sex, drug abuse or reckless spending (but not including self-harming or suicidal behaviour)?
  • Have you made repeated suicide threats or attempts in your past and engaged in self-harming?
  • Do you have severe mood swings, such as feeling intensely depressed, anxious or irritable, which last from a few hours to a few days?
  • Do you have long-term feelings of emptiness and loneliness?
  • Do you have sudden and intense feelings of anger and aggression, and often find it difficult to control your anger?
  • When you find yourself in stressful situations, do you have feelings of paranoia, or do you feel like you’re disconnected from the world or from your own body, thoughts and behaviour?

However, there are 526 different possible combinations of BPD symptoms so no two sufferers are alike. I myself have struggled with BPD for many years so I can give you some examples from my life and explain some of the symptoms I struggle with.

  • Black and White (dichotomous thinking) can be a big issue for some sufferers. It is characterized by all-or-nothing thinking, seeing situations or people as either wholly good or wholly bad with little in between, and in inability to simultaneously see the good and bad together.
  • ‘Splitting’ is a symptoms I struggle with, and it’s a term used to describe when a person with BPD flips from believing someone is all good to believing they are all bad - I tend to split on people I am close to such as family/boyfriend as opposed to strangers/acquaintances.  I also split on myself, where all my core values and beliefs about life flip. I tend to either feel immensely superior to humanity, or infinitely inferior and unworthy of existing.
  • Transient dissociation can occur during times of stress or extreme emotion. This can involve depersonalisation (feeling I am not real, not recognising myself), derealisation (feeling the world is not really and everything around me is disconnected. It can feel like I’m watching myself doing things but I’m not actually engaging with it.
  • Moulding myself to suit other people’s needs or how I want to be perceived to fit in. I can act very differently depending on who I am spending time with. I also prefer to have fewer but closer friendship than many different but less intense ones.
  • Impulsivity can be very difficult to deal with, because many people with BPD don’t have the barrier between having a thought and acting on it. For me this can look like very erratic behaviours like randomly jumping in a river, or impulsively spending lots of money, or taking drugs, or impulsively self harming.
  • Emotional intensity - BPD sufferers are described to have ‘the emotional sensitivity equivalent to a third degree burn victim’. It can feel like perpetual psychological agony or emptiness. We tend to feel everything or feel nothing.
  • Warped perceptions in interpersonal relationships can manifest as misinterpreting other people’s words and actions as a personal vendetta against me, and a lot of paranoia!
  • I used to struggle a lot with rage, and would lash out at my family in every sense, for no logical reason. I would just be filled with irrational anger that I didn’t know what to do with.

These are only my personal experiences though, and you may or may not relate to some of these symptoms. If you are worried that you are struggling with BPD or any of its traits I would really encourage you to speak to a mental health professional or a doctor. Many sufferers have chronic suicide ideation, and 10% of sufferers will complete suicide. Please don’t be afraid to reach out if you or someone you know is suffering <3

There is help available for this condition. Although there are no recommended medications for BPD, antidepressants and antipsychotics can help to alleviate symptoms. Therapies such as MBT and DBT have proven to be very successful in treating this disorder.  There are also some useful links giving more information about borderline personality disorder:

NHS - BPD

MIND - BPD

A moment with BPD

Samaritans

If you have any other thoughts or questions please do send us another ask! We are always here for you and you don’t have to go through this alone <3

With love

Imogen :)