Hello so I first of all wanted to say sorry for not messaging any of you, I’ve was super busy last week with training and preparing for this week where I’ve been away working in swanage for a company called engage4life who run the ncs programme.
I have had the biggest emotional roller coaster of my life. I’ve felt depressed, anxious, tired, proud, happy, but right now words cannot describe what I’m feeling. It has been one of the best weeks of my life.
There were times in the evening where I was tired, I did worry often that people thought I couldn’t cope with my own group but I did. I also had moments where I thought that I was terrible but I’m not. I have next week as well.
My colleague said I was too quiet but my other colleague said that me being quiet is fine as long as I can control the group.
I already miss it so much and I only got back today, but next week I have it again so yay.
I am upset though that the girl who I have feelings for has stopped taking to me because she thought I was ignoring her :(