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I’m freaking out I missed 2 days of school and I have so much work to catch up on by Monday and I’ve been working at it but it’s so much I want to cry. I have tests and quizzes that I have absolutely no understanding of the material this week, and my teachers for those classes don’t care. I’m actually about to cry from being so stressed.

the other side of fear pt. 1

“You were great,” Ray assures me twenty minutes later as we’re being ushered down an underground hallway towards, hopefully, an exit from this labyrinth. In the year since my album dropped, I’ve learned that almost every aspect of celebrity is a farce, including television studios. What you see on camera is perfect—beautiful, gleaming, manicured—but behind the scenes, everything’s a mess.

Kind of like my life.

“Thanks,” I say flatly. “Sweaty upper lips are going to be the next big trend.”

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It was dawk that nyight, thewe was a sickenying bwack fog hat cuvwed the chuwch towews. And weeked of stawe incense

TONyIGHT, WACH, TONyIGHT, WACH, TONyIGHT, YOU SHAKE YOUW FIST AT THE SKY UwU

Evewyonye was thewe. And Gwazunyov—

GWAZUNyOV IS DWUNK

Gwazunyov was dwunk

GWAZUNyOV IS DWUNK

I CAN HEAW THE BWASS, WIKE A SCWEAMING FAWCON ;;w;;

When you think of that nyight what do you see?

PEWSPIWATION PEWSPIWATION PEWSPIWATION ON MY FOWEHEAD

PEWSPIWATION
PEWSPIWATION PEWSPIWATION PEWSPIWATION
ON MY FOWEHEAD

AND CÉSAW CUI IS HEWE

Césaw Cui?

CÉSAW CUI, OF THE FIVE

Thewe awe Five composews in Wussia—The Mighty Handfuw, Womantic Nyationyawists, The vanguawd of the nyew Wussian music

Bowodin, Bawakiwev, Mussowgsky, Wimsky-Kowsakov, and Cui

BOWODIN, BAWAKIWEV
BOWODIN, BAWAKIWEV
MUSSOWGSKY, WIMSKY-KOWSAKOV, AND CUI

NyOT COUWT COMPOSEWS! NyOT EWITES WIKE TCHAIKOVSKY! THEY WEWE THE WEAW DEAW! THEY HAD DIWT UNDEW THEIW FINGEWNyAIWS! AND CUI IS A CWITIC! A CWITIC WITH A SHAWP PEN!

“IF THEWE WEWE A CONSEWVATOWY IN HEWW AND IF ONyE OF ITS MOST TAWENTED STUDENTS WEWE TO COMPOSE A PWOGWAMME SYMPHONY BASED ON THE STOWY OF THE TEN PWAGUES OF EGYPT. AND IF HE WEWE TO COMPOSE A SYMPHONY WIKE WACHMANyINyOFF’S
THEN HE WOUWD HAVE FUWFIWWED HIS TASK BWIWWIANTWY, AND WOUWD DEWIGHT THE INHABITANTS OF HEWW” Oh deaw, Sewge ^w^

HE WWITES TEWWIBWE THINGS

“THIS MUSIC WEAVES AN EVIW IMPWESSION”

ABOUT GOOD PEOPWE

“WITH ITS BWOKEN WHYTHMS”

UNTWUE THINGS—

“OBSCUWITY AND VAGUENyESS OF FOWM”

UNyINTEWWIGENT THINGS—

“MEANyINGWESS WEPETITION OF THE SAME SHOWT TWICKS”

GWAZUNyOV IS DWUNK

UNTWUE THINGS

“THE NyASAW SOUND OF THE OWCHESTWA THE STWAINyED CWASH OF THE BWASS!  AND ABOVE AWW ITS SICKWY PEWVEWSE HAWMONyIZATION AND QUASI-MEWODIC OUTWINyES THE COMPWETE ABSENCE OF SIMPWICITY AND NyATUWAWNyESS. THE COMPWETE ABSENCE OF THEMES”

AND YOU AWE NyOT PWETTY ENyOUGH, YOU’WE NyOT SMAWT ENyOUGH, YOU’WE NyOT FUNNY ENyOUGH
YOU’WE NyOT DEEP ENyOUGH, THE BEST YEAWS OF YOUW WIFE AWE BEHIND YOU, IT’S AWW DOWNHIWW NyOW. SO SAD SO SAD. THIS IS AWW YOU CAME TO SO SAD SO SAD SO SAD.

Do you wike the piece?

I—
I don’t knyow

AND YOU AWE NyOT PWETTY ENyOUGH, YOU’WE NyOT SMAWT ENyOUGH, YOU’WE NyOT FUNNY ENyOUGH
YOU’WE NyOT DEEP ENyOUGH, THE BEST YEAWS OF YOUW WIFE AWE BEHIND YOU, IT’S AWW DOWNHIWW NyOW. SO SAD SO SAD. THIS IS AWW YOU CAME TO SO SAD SO SAD SO SAD.

AND GWAZUNyOV IS DWUNK

Who is Gwazunyov?

The conductow.

MY DEAW YOUNG BOY. I AM AWEXANDEW KONSTANTINyOVICH GWAZUNyOV

I- I knyow—

THIS WIWW BE WONDEWFUW! THANK YOU owo! DO NyOT WOWWY ABOUT THE WOODWINDS, I WIWW SQUASH THEIW SQUEAKS WIKE GWAPES ^w^ !!

Oh my dear God.

AND THE BWASS WIWW CWASH ;;w;; HAVE SOME WINyE, BOY, HAVE SOME WINyE WET ME WEWAX, WHEWE AWE MY CUFFS?

SEWGE, PWEASE HAVE SOME WINyE, IT WIWW BE AWW WIGHT, THE PWAYEWS, THEY KNyOW YOU

THE HEATEW IS BWOKEN

It was cowd?

NyO, TOO HOT, TOO HOT, TOO HOT! THEY COUWDN’T TUWN IT DOWN AND THE CUWTAINS WEWE MEWTING AND THE WIWACS WEWE WIWTING PEWSPIWATION ON MY FOWEHEAD!

GWAZUNyOV WIFTS HIS BATON WIKE A SPOON IN SYWUP, AND THE AUDIENCE SUCKS IN ONyE GWEAT BWEATH, AND THE STWINGS AND THE TIMPANyI BEGIN, A MIDNyIGHT MAWCH TO HEWW

I weft aftew a few minyutes, I spent most of the concewt on the staiws, I couwd stiww heaw it though muffwed thwough the wawws

What does this music mean to you?

I don’t knyow, It’s supposed to be epic dwama, subwime tewwow, Gweat towwing bewws, wind and wain, Thundew, wighting, scweams, moons, pwanyets, comets >w< astewoids huwtwing thwough space, ecstatic—

Do you evew twy to wwite happy music?

I don’t twy any thing. This is just what happens.

SCOWWED FACES, PAINyED FACES AND THE WOWST—BWANK FACES THIS ONyE WEADS HEW PWOGWAM AND THIS ONyE CHECKS HIS PHONyE. AND AWE YOU SO SMAWW AND STUPID. THAT YOU CAN’T HEAW ANYTHING NyEW. THAT YOUW WITTWE MIND WON’T ACCEPT IT! WON’T SHUT THE STATIC OUT! AND WET THE MUSIC JUST, AND WET THE MUSIC JUST,,

AND THIS ONyE UNWWAPS A CANDY AND THIS ONyE TAKES HEW COAT OFF AND IT TAKES HEW TEN MINyUTES TO TAKE HEW COAT OFF AND THE WUSTWING AND THE NyOISE AND THE NyOISE AND THE NyOISE AND THE NyOISE AND THE NyOISE AND THE NyOISE AND GWAZUNyOV…

GWAZUNyOV IS DWUNK!!!

MY GOD STWINGS UwU
WIWW SOMEONyE PWEASE TEWW ME WHAT MEASUWE WE AWE IN PWEASE! WHAT JUST HAPPENyED? WEWE WE IN SEVEN? TEWW ME HOW DO YOU CONDUCT IN SEVEN? WHAT IS THIS NyONSENSE? WHAT IS THIS?
OH MY GOD IS THIS A FUGUE? FUGUES AWE HAWD, FUGUES AWE HAWD, FUGUES AWE HAWD MOWE WINyE PWEASE MOWE WINyE ^w^

He feews nyothing when he conducts…these sounds towtuwe me (・`ω´・)  How couwd so gweat a musician as Gwazunyov conduct so badwy? I see Cui with his pen and his wittwe pad of papew Wwiting down his wittwe thoughts on his wittwe pad of papew As though what he heaws is even weaw That what his tiny eaws heaw is aww that’s happenying in this woom

DIES IWAE DIES IWWA Vewy good Sewge UwU

DIES IWAE…

Awtificiaw tunyes, sentimentaw and monyotonyous Cwiché and excessive, shawwow viwtuoso popuwist Okay, okay, I’m a B-wist hack owo  You got me >w<

Sewgei?

Why awe you tawking duwing my pewfowmance >w<  this is nyot youw pwace. this is nyot fow you. I don’t want to heaw youw mind wight nyow! What can you possibwy have to say? What is so fucking impowtant about youw opinyion

SOMEONyE IN THIS WOOM IS TWYING TO FEEW SOMETHING! SOMEONyE IN THIS WOOM IS TWYING TO HAVE A BEAUTIFUW MOMENT! WHY WON’T YOU WET YOU THEM? WHY THE FUCK AWE YOU TAWKING TO ME? YOU HAVE NyO WIGHT TO INFWICT YOUW MIND ON MINyE!!

Get out of hewe! Get out! You awe muwdewing souws! You awe stepping on buttewfwies! You awe buwnying fwowews with kewosenye! You awe shitting on diamonds

And that was thwee yeaws ago, And what have you donye since? and what wiww you do fow the west of youw wife?

Lek urip ora usah spaneng-spaneng. Ora usah pethenthengan. Mundak ngelu. Dino iki dilakoni opo anane. Sesuk yo dipikir sesuk. Sesuke maneh yo dipikir sesuke maneh.

Sing wes nikah yo gek ndang fokus ngurusi rumah tangga wae. Sing isih single ya fokus mengejar mimpi-mimpi, cita-cita dan membahagiakan tiyang sepuh kalih. Sing ditinggal nikah ya ndang mangkat ngaji ben ora terdistraksi. Sing wes duwe calon ya ndang cepet dinikahi, mumpung calone durung sadar. Wkwkwk.

Kalem wae. Allah Maha Rileks.

It’s not a dead man’s toe but it will do…

Come little children, I’ll take thee away, into a land of enchantment. Let’s run AMOCK AMOCK AMOCK! It’s just a bunch of Hocus Pocus after all!

WHEN: Monday, October 29th
WHERE: Vanessa’s House
Costume required, doesn’t have to be Hocus Pocus related though.

Everyone’s invited! Also the finger is candy aka it’s edible 

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Dutch Bullying Vocabulary.

Inspired by this post by @blackteaandlanguages

Nouns

  • The bully - De pester, pestkop
  • The bullying - Het gepest
  • The victim - Het slachtoffer
  • The behavior - Het gedrag
  • The violence - Het geweld
  • The abuse - Het misbruik
  • The fight - Het gevecht
  • The insult - De belediging
  • The hit - De slag
  • The push - De duw
  • The pull - De trek
  • The kick - De trap, schop (Dutch), stamp, sjot (Flemish)
  • The pinch - De pits
  • The throw - De gooi
  • The depression - De depressie
  • The anxiety - De angst
  • The fear - De angst
  • The stress - De stress
  • The low self-esteem - Het lage zelfvertrouwen
  • The bad self-image - Het slechte zelfbeeld
  • The torture - De marteling
  • The isolation - De isolatie
  • The intimidation - De intimidatie
  • The imitation - De imitatie
  • The gossip - De roddel
  • The rumour - De roddel, het gerucht
  • The threat - De bedreiging
  • The manipulation - De manipulatie
  • The lie - De leugen
  • The laugh - De lach

Adjectives

  • Agressive - Agressief
  • Psychological - Psychologisch, mentaal
  • Physical - Fysiek
  • Direct - Direct
  • Indirect - Indirect
  • Repetitive - Repetitief, herhaald

Verbs

  • To be bullied - Gepest worden
  • To bully - Pesten 
  • To stand up for someone - Voor iemand opkomen
  • To fight (physically) - Vechten
  • To fight (verbally) - Ruzie maken, ruziën
  • To protect - Beschermen
  • To hurt (someone) - (Iemand) pijn doen, kwetsen
  • To insult - Beledigen
  • To hit - Slaan, meppen (Flemish)
  • To push - Duwen
  • To pull - Trekken
  • To kick - Trappen, schoppen (Dutch), stampen, sjotten (Flemish)
  • To pinch - Pitsen
  • To throw - Gooien
  • To trip - Struikelen
  • To torture - Martelen
  • To isolate - Isoleren
  • To leave out (someone) - (Iemand) uitsluiten, uitstoten
  • To avoid - Ontwijken
  • To call names - Uitschelden
  • To laugh - Lachen
  • To intimidate - Intimideren
  • To imitate - Imiteren
  • To mock - Plagen
  • To belittle - Kleineren
  • To gossip - Roddelen
  • To spread rumours - Roddels verspreiden
  • To make fun of - Belachelijk maken
  • To threaten - Bedreigen
  • To force - Forceren
  • To manipulate - Manipuleren
  • To lie - Liegen
  • To break - Breken
  • To mislead - Misleiden
  • To prevent - Voorkomen

Sentences

  • Sophie made fun of Chris for having braces. - Sofie maakte Chris belachelijk omdat hij een beugel heeft.
  • He was pushed onto the ground - Hij werd op de grond geduwd.
  • Alex is agressive towards Nick. They fought yesterday. - Alex is agressief tegen Nick. Ze hebben gisteren gevochten.
  • The teacher prevented the new girl from being bullied - De leerkracht voorkwam dat het nieuwe meisje gepest werd.
  • He suffers from depression - Hij lijdt aan depressie.
  • Julie laughs at Jaimy. - Julie lacht Jaimy uit.

Ik ben aan het wegduwen wat ik in oorsprong nooit zou mogen wegduwen. Alles wat me gelukkige maakte de afgelopen jaren, wil ik nu zover mogelijk weg van bij mij. Omdat ik bang ben. En als ik bang ben dan word ik boos. En als ik boos word, dan ben ik verdrietig. En uiteindelijk duw ik toch weg, wat ik niet weg zou willen duwen. Maar ik doe het. En ik kan niet ophouden. Ik zie geen einde in deze eindeloze cirkel.

anonymous asked:

There was a clip released of Hans Peter Janssens talking about his career and it shows some HD footage of the Belgian production of Phantom that has never been released before (title on youtube :"30 jaar Music Hall: Hans Peter Janssens")

Ooooh, thank you! Also sending it out there to others, if interested. 

anonymous asked:

Hewwo hewwo X3

hewwo!

Hewwo, hewwo? Uh, I wanted to wecowd a message fow you to hewp you get settwed in on youw fiwst night. Um, I actuawwy wowked in that office befowe you. I’m finishing up my wast week now, as a mattew of fact. So, I know it can be a bit ovewwhewming, but I’m hewe to teww you thewe’s nothing to wowwy about. Uh, you'ww do fine. So, wet’s just focus on getting you thwough youw fiwst week. Okay?

Uh, wet’s see, fiwst thewe’s an intwoductowy gweeting fwom the company that I’m supposed to wead. Uh, it’s kind of a wegaw thing, you know. Um, “Wewcome to Fweddy Fazbeaw’s Pizza. A magicaw pwace fow kids and gwown-ups awike, whewe fantasy and fun come to wife. Fazbeaw Entewtainment is not wesponsibwe fow damage to pwopewty ow pewson. Upon discovewing that damage ow death has occuwwed, a missing pewson wepowt wiww be fiwed within 90 days, ow as soon pwopewty and pwemises have been thowoughwy cweaned and bweached, and the cawpets have been wepwaced.”

Bwah bwah bwah, now that might sound bad, I know, but thewe’s weawwy nothing to wowwy about. Uh, the animatwonic chawactews hewe do get a bit quiwky at night, but do I bwame them? No. If I wewe fowced to sing those same stupid songs fow twenty yeaws and I nevew got a bath? I’d pwobabwy be a bit iwwitabwe at night too. So, wemembew, these chawactews howd a speciaw pwace in the heawts of chiwdwen and we need to show them a wittwe wespect, wight? Okay.

So, just be awawe, the chawactews do tend to wandew a bit. Uh, they'we weft in some kind of fwee woaming mode at night. Uh…Something about theiw sewvos wocking up if they get tuwned off fow too wong. Uh, they used to be awwowed to wawk awound duwing the day too. But then thewe was The Bite of ‘87. Yeah. I-It’s amazing that the human body can wive without the fwontaw wobe, you know?

Uh, now concewning youw safety, the onwy weaw wisk to you as a night watchman hewe, if any, is the fact that these chawactews, uh, if they happen to see you aftew houws pwobabwy won’t wecognize you as a pewson. They'ww p-most wikewy see you as a metaw endoskeweton without its costume on. Now since that’s against the wuwes hewe at Fweddy Fazbeaw’s Pizza, they'ww pwobabwy twy to…fowcefuwwy stuff you inside a Fweddy Fazbeaw suit. Um, now, that wouwdn’t be so bad if the suits themsewves wewen’t fiwwed with cwossbeams, wiwes, and animatwonic devices, especiawwy awound the faciaw awea. So, you couwd imagine how having youw head fowcefuwwy pwessed inside one of those couwd cause a bit of discomfowt…and death. Uh, the onwy pawts of you that wouwd wikewy see the wight of day again wouwd be youw eyebawws and teeth when they pop out the fwont of the mask, heh.

Y-Yeah, they don’t teww you these things when you sign up. But hey, fiwst day shouwd be a bweeze. I'ww chat with you tomowwow. Uh, check those camewas, and wemembew to cwose the doows onwy if absowutewy necessawy. Gotta consewve powew. Awwight, good night.

Bapak, aku Ingin Jadi USTADZ

Iseng-iseng oprek-oprek blog dr. Rahmad. Karna niat awalnya ingin cari catatan dr. Rahmad perihal Autoimune. Waktu scroll-scroll cantik tetiba saja menemukan blognya dr. Armando Sidohutomo. Saat itu terlintas dibenak dokter spesialis mata terbaik di Surabaya. Belum pernah diskusi dengan beliau sih, hanya saja dari cerita yang diceritakan dr. Rahmad beliau ini dokter luar biasa. Berasa jodoh aja ketika gak sengaja menemukan blog dr. Armando ((lebay)).
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Scroll-scroll cantik kembali dimulai. Dan….

Teringat Pembicaraan Dengan Putraku ke 2, Ian, saat naik kelas 2 SMA, 6 tahun yang lalu, saat rutin makan malam bersama,
I : Bapak, maaf saya ijin, kalau boleh mau keluar dari SMA 5 setelah kenaikan kelas
B : (makanan di mulut lgsg hambar, datar dan tawar), (Gak kolu nelan) maksudmu ???
I : saya ingin sekolah di Madinah, saya ingin jadi Ustadz
B : (Yang dimulut lgsg tak telan), minum buanyaaaak, sampek keselek) Kamu jadi Ustadz siapa yang ngajak ?? (Nada Interogasi )
I : Gak ada, saya sendiri yang pengen
B : Kamu gak pengen jadi dokter taaah ? Kan kamu pinter, lembut, baik budi bahasamu, ramah sama orang dan bisa banget melayani orang lain seperti Masmu
I : (Sambil senyum) Kan gak sama bapak, seperti Bapak bilang, semua manusia spesifik dan Istimewa
B : (wuik, mak jleb, omonganku dipakai mengcounter aku) (cerdas ! Tapi mangkelno) Kamu kalau jadi dokter akan sangat berguna dan bermanfaat menyembuhkan banyak orang pastinya
I : Dokter menyembuhkan badan, Ustadz menyembuhkan Hati kan Bapak, Insya Allah bermanfaat
B : (Praaaaang, berkeping2 hatiku)(Air mata mulai menetes, aku nelongso anakku gak mau jadi dokter) Sekolah di Arab itu sulit lho, bahasa, budaya beda dan puanasnyaaaaa luar biasa
I : Bapak yang ngajarin, GAK ADA YANG GAK BISA KALAU NIAT MENGGELORA
B : (Mbrebes mili buanter) Nanti kalau jadi Ustadz, penghasilanmu berapaaaa ? Sedikit sekali !!! (Nada meninggi) Istri dan anakmu gimana membiayainya ???
I : Bukannya Bapak yang mengajari hidup mandiri, seCUKUPnya, SeBUTUHnya, dan bahagia tidak ada korelasi dengan harta ???
B : (Aku nangis pelan) Apalagi alasanku supaya kamu jadi dokter ya Ian ?
I : Ikhlaskan Ian jadi diri Ian sendiri ya Bapak, ini pilihan hidup Ian
B : (Nangis banter) Aku mau kamu tetap di SMALA sampai lulus, perjanjiannya gini aja, baru sesudah lulus SMA dengan nilai baik, kamu berhak menentukan kemanapun kamu mau (Wis gak duwe pilihan liyo, tapi berharap bisa merubah niat)
I : (perlahan memeluk dan mencium pipiku sambil ikut menangis) Asal Bapak ikhlas dengan pilihan Ian, Saya tetap sekolah SMALA dan lulus dengan baik, Matur nuwun, pangestunya.
Saat ini dia baru pulang dari Madinah, besar, tegap, gagah, hafal 27 Juz, sudah beberapa kali jadi Imam di banyak masjid, mengisi Khutbah Jumat, taraweh, Buka bersama dll, dan tiap kali aku melihat Ian jadi Imam, air mataku selalu tak terbendung lagi, Ian dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangannya menyadarkanku akan kurangnya pengetahuan dan amalan agamaku, Allah mengutusnya untuk mengingatkanku

Barakallahu fiik untuk tulisannya dr. Armando Sidohutomo. Entah kenapa Ngejlebbb ketika membacanya.

08 Ramadhan 1438 H || 03.06.17 || catatan andromeda nisa