dumb stuff with ink

In the latest chapter of BATIM, Alice tells us that the number one rule of the studio is “beware the ink demon”.

Most everyone knows this rule. Most everyone obeys this rule.

And then there’s Sammy Lawrence, who looks at the rule stating not to get involved with the ink demon and goes

i am so incredibly tired 
of my heart leaping at the 
mere thought of your laugh
because my head knows it’s just
a laugh,
but my heart believes
it’s the cure to the
cracks in its foundation,
and i don’t have the strength to say that
the belief in the ability of your laughter,
while glorious in every single capacity,
will only demolish what little
stability we have left
because my heart has
too much faith in
the facade of a possibility,
and my head
has too little.
—  a.b. - “double negative motivation”
Ramadan Mubarak ♥

To my fellow converts who are

waking up for Fajr
alone in quiet houses,

keeping a beautiful faith secret
from those they love,

starving as the sun rises
for a God-given reason,


bowing before the Almighty
with the pride of knowing
that Allah made them stronger
even if they feel the weakest.

To my fellow converts -
may this Ramadan be the one where you are
and honored
for the person you always were,
and for the Muslim you’ve come to be.


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a german au colection a.k.a. i have nothing to do on a saturday morning

  • dönerladen au
  • pfandflaschensammler in front of fußballstadium au
  • stuck at trainstation because fuck you deutsche bahn au
  • pfandflaschenautomat won’t accept my bottles pls help me also ur hella cute au
  • some fucker is gently pressing their shoppingcart into the back of my knees but oh wow you’re hot guess i won’t shove a broccoli down your throat yet au
  • bäckerei au
  • single parents stuck at kuchenstand of the annual grundschulfest and oh god why is everyone here so cheerful au
  • eisdiele au
  • or oh you’re actually italian and your accent is making my kness weak you’re in public here pleasE THINK OF THE CHILDREN au
  • older siblings at sanktmartinsumzug and oh fuck my little sisters lantern is on fire what do i do au
  • volunteered to show the fifthgraders around and now everyone my age is making fun of me but at least my partner is hot au
  • klassenfahrt zum arsch der erde au
  • sporttag au
  • only two people in the class who aren’t drunk/high/hungover after the zehnerabschlussparty au
  • ‘we’re the only ones below 65 in this café, wanna sit together so that we don’t seem like the last losers?’ au
  • we both just have a cold but now we’re stuck in the wartezimmer on a monday morning surrounded by ten grandmas and we won’t be getting out of here for the next three hours au

1. sometimes the only thing in your way is you (move).

2. you should know this by now: people will always surprise you. you are never the only one - ever. there is someone who feels the same as you (about anything, about everything), someone who will be there when you call at 2 am. people will surprise you - let them.

3. sad truth: you will blink and the moment will be gone. so you can choose: document or be in (or both, but you’ve never been great at multitasking). either way, don’t forget to live.

4. there is always hope.

5. some days are harder than others; some weeks, some months. that’s just the way it is. but you will have family, and friends, and God, and kind strangers, and good books, and sunrises, and thunderstorms - it will be hard, but you will be okay.

6. okay is enough. it will sometimes feel like you need to be doing more than okay, better than okay. but sometimes just okay is enough (sometimes it has to be).

7. leave nice, selfless, comments on people’s social media posts; strangers and friends alike. it will make your heart warm and light, and i guarantee, no matter who they are, it will make their day.

8. simple math: if you give everything and receive nothing you will be empty. so darling, use your words wisely. some people deserve paragraphs; essays, handwritten letters, poems in which the title bears only their name. but others, the ones who take and do not give, the ones that use and use and use, they barely deserve a sentence - do not waste your ink on them.

9. your daydreams are never reality. (there will be days when they come very close)

10. change is inevitable. find a way to deal with it (dance in the dark, dance in broad daylight, cry until you have emptied your soul. scream your curses against the universe, sing about the lonely that is eating you from the inside out - SING. make mixtapes full of songs that still mean something, write letters you actually send, close your eyes and pretend), do whatever you have to do. deal with it (safely. please be kind to yourself and stay safe).

11. drink water. oh man, drink so much water.

12. don’t be so afraid to love. the mixtape you gave your friends gave you, in return, text messages that said “i cried, thank you,” requests for music recommendations, and more text messages that said the things you have been waiting years to hear. don’t be scared to love, because the people you love? they love you too.

13. not everything is meant to be poetry.

14. talk to people. don’t let regret pile up only to find out it was all a misunderstanding.

15. you have a voice, a beautiful voice. you have things to say, and you have the means to say them. fear is overrated; you have a voice - use it.

16. you are alive. you are full of LOVE; you have in you the beauty that makes up sunrises, and sunsets, and mid-day shadows, and autumn leaves, and fields of wildflowers, and blurry pictures. you are alive, dear, you are proof that empty can be full, that hopeless can be turned hopeful. all the light that a full moon exists to reflect is carried within you; you hold a world of possibilities. breathe in and let the air shock your lungs; don’t ever forget, don’t ever forget - you are alive, and you are enough.


Dear Me, (things i learned in 2015) / misplacedpens 

things i learned in 2014

song of the executioner’s wife

He has done some awful things but I
Do not love him any less or cry.
For if I did, who would I be
To with him cheat myself of eternity?
Because when he dies, my heart he’ll take,
And in paradise our home he’ll make.
I did not mind much pain or poverty,
For it assured us faithful sovereignty -
We packed up and left and walked and sighed
When we reached the land where angels fly.
So there he is and here I am,
Two dark souls forever wedded in Shaam.

My love, my wife, you’ve waited so long.
Please join me in Firdaws, and sing your song.

     Sometimes I wonder what we have done to jihad.

     What I mean is that I think we’ve turned it into a kind of fad. We hold up our index fingers and decorate things with the Shahada and crack erhabi jokes like it’s nothing, like we’re all part of some über-cool club. While I admit that we ARE part of a supercool club (Islam alhamdoulillah), our self-created erhabi subculture could be a dangerous thing. We run the risk of trivializing this vitally important element of our Deen to the point that jihad will be recognized as nothing more than some hand gestures, white-on-black Arabic calligraphy, and AK47s.

     Jihad is struggle, it is fight, it is strive, it is dedication, it is honesty, it is selflessness, it is compassion, it is perseverance, it is battle. We must ask ourselves… are we properly representing what the mujahideen gave up their lives for? Are we acting with seriousness and sincerity? Or are we using symbols we made “trendy” to make ourselves feel as though we're actually contributing to the fight?

     I understand that this could be taken the wrong way, but please know that this serves as a stern reminder to myself before anyone else. I must right my own wrongs individually and account for them in front of Allah SWT at the end of my life.

     Anyway, just something to ponder about.


i would like to tell a story

I would like to tell a Mujahid’s story, the story of a man and his friends who were here from the very beginning.

    I know people think they know what is he, the Mujahid. But they don’t.

    The Mujahid is a high school student. He loves to play video games and build his own computers and laugh at things on the Internet. But the laughter doesn’t always last long enough to distract him from the absence of his older brother who was martyred two years ago fighting against the people who invaded their land. Later he holds the rifle in his hands, out of school, standing on that same mountaintop for the same cause in Allah’s (SWT) name, and through remembrance, some of the pain goes away.

    The Mujahid is a farmer. He works hard to make an honest living and is a very quiet, soft-spoken man. His words are slow and deliberate, and he pauses often, leaving you wondering what worlds of thought he is sorting out in his mind to let only a few out of his mouth. Fighting was going on several years ago and he hasn’t picked up a gun since then, but with the way things look now, he wonders if he’ll have to dust it off just one more time.

    The Mujahid is a businessman. Well-dressed and normal-looking, he’s polite, diplomatic, and professional in his dealing with you. Because he is so personable and mild-mannered while discussing a preference of tea over coffee, you’re surprised when it is divulged that the quickest and least complicated way to enter Gaza may or may not include a checkpoint at all.

    The Mujahid is a university student. His grades are impeccable, his speech eloquent, and his demeanor will put even the most nervous person at ease. He lives a relatively normal life with friends, a nice house, and two cats that fight with each other constantly. They are funny, he says, yet at the same masking what he felt about his parents’ divorce when he was a child. He has always lived with his mother and adores her, but he has to go soon. Something else is calling, and he must leave his university degree and plans for a career with the woman who raised him, her only son, alone.

    The Mujahid is a construction worker. Though he’s still relatively young, he’s a veteran of a different kind, working every day beside men who will never know what he did in the war. Recently he swore off battle for the time being in an attempt to become a family man. But before he does that, he will have to rid his home of the personal demons that still take up most of the room. He hasn’t slept normally in about three years and nightmares plague him whenever he does manage to close his eyes. He is close to Allah (SWT), he knows this in his heart. The demons, however, do not.

     These are only a few of the thousands of stories, threads in the tapestry of jihad woven from the lives lived by the mujahideen. There are thousands more to tell if only you turn off your television, silence your phone, put down your newspaper… and listen to me.