I know I have been posting funny depression memes and at first I was laughing really hard at them. But due to the events that occurred today, I think I might seriously be at risk for depression.
I just spent the last hour crying in my bed. Which I know I joke about doing twenty- four seven. Most of the time I just lay in bed and sad thoughts come and go. Then poof, I feel better later.
But this was a legitimate breakdown in witch for a split second I though about ending my life. I’m still a little in shock from what just happened. I know that suicide is never the answer. But at that moment…
I was acting completely irrational and I would never do such a thing.
However, I can’t draw. I can’t even draw Bliz it’s that bad. Drawing is literally the only thing that puts my mind at ease at the end of the day. (That and dnb off course) But for the past three day, I’ve had this small feeling of dread in the back of my mind. Today’s events just sent me over the edge. Now, I’ve lost interest in drawing.
Not gonna lie. I have always displayed aspects of clinical depression. ( lack of sleep, dismissive interest in most things, impaired concentration, exc.) My parents always kept a close eye on me. However, I was still interested in some things. (drawing, anime, video games)
But over the course of my first and second second semester, I no logger watch anime or play video games. Now that I have lost interest in drawing, this is serious.
It hasn’t been long enough to be classified as clinical depression. But it is prevalent in my family. I’m going to try and find one of those assist groups on campus and see if they can help me. Maybe even call my parents about this before it escalates any further. I really want to get better.
I’m also not doing to good in school right now. Going to try and put more focus into my studies to bring up my grades.
That being said, I’m going to be a little distant from now on. I’ll still reblog stuff to keep my blogs somewhat active. But art wise, I don’t know yet. Might hop on streams to watch other people draw.
For those of you that followed me for Cyber0 and Bliz, I’m really sorry. I’ll continue them as soon as this passes.
He was an avid Potter fan, and expressed his passion partly by working at Universal Orlando Resort in the Wizarding World of Harry Potter - Hogsmeade as a ride attendant on Harry Potter and the Forbidden Journey.
He lost his life today due to the tragic events which took place in Orlando last night.
Events like this, and people like Luis, remind us that it is more important than ever to practice love, bravery, and friendship every single day.
I have a feeling it is going to be slightly underwhelming due to the probably absence of one of the event coordinators. I am sad to say that Burnet mun may not be available to write for the event today due to personal obligations and I am at work all day so activity fluctuates throughout. I will do my best to keep posting/sending memes and focus on the event stuff today but I do need to apologize for the lack of things going on otherwise.
I hope everyone enjoys themselves regardless.
I woke up and rolled onto tumblr about 4 am this morning to find my inbox loaded with rude anonymous messages and I went ahead and blocked the user(s). I am really not in the best mood because unnecessary bullshit like that makes me disinclined to write at all, but since I have organized this event etc, I will be active and participating. I believe the person who sent those was following me and I them, because my follower and following count dropped immediately upon my blocking. You know who you are. Grow up. Ain’t nobody got time for that.
We take a break from our regularly scheduled fluff for this due to today’s events in the civil war two comics (and all during science bros week you evil bastards). AKA this is how Hannah channels her rage
Epilogue to CA:CW
“What do you mean you found Bruce?” Tony hadn’t expected to
use the phone Steve had given him. He’d expected to lock it away and never look
at the damn thing again.
crawling back to Steve Rogers. Not after what had happened. Not after the
secrets he had kept hidden from Tony.
Ban Ki-moon stands in solidarity with the people of Paris who are unable to join a climate march today.
The Secretary-General has donated a pair of his “marching shoes” to be placed at the city’s Place de la République, near the scene of the terror attack of Friday 20 November, and where the climate march originally planned for today was due to start.
After this event, the thousands of shoes contributed will be donated to NGOs working with Syrian refugees.
There is no yoga class at the park today due to the events of the last yoga class that completely leveled the entire park itself and turned the sky a shade of purple deemed illegal ever since. So today’s yoga class will be in the individual cells of each yoga trainee where you will await further questioning, be under strict surveillance, and entirely chained from head to toe and suspended from the ceiling.