drug recovery

Meth has changed my life in so many ways. I thought it made me a stronger person when in reality I was very weak. Weak because I lacked the inability too stop myself when I knew I should have.
See meth is sneaky little bitch.
Because it slowly takes ahold of you. Gradually taking control of your life. You won’t even realize how much it’s changed you, you’ll still believe you have complete control of your life.
Until one day you realize that meth isn’t the only thing making you numb anymore, because just like how you use to get really high when you smoked but that high eventually got weaker and weaker as your body built up a tolerance…
All the effects …the energy, the numbness, the Invincibleness, the never slowing down to eat…all those effects become weaker,
But you don’t even realize it, because you still feel numb right?
That’s because now it’s your own mind that helps numb the world out, or more like makes you not give a fuck, because why?
Because your addicted. After using for so long your brain adjust to meth. It gets use to it being around. Starts depending on it to be there. You get this idgaf attitude about life. You shut the rest of the world out, push everyone trying to help you away…because your brain is dependent on meth now, so it becomes your top priority. You don’t have time for emotional stuff. You don’t have time to consider the consequences of your addiction.
You don’t have time to care what people think.
You don’t have time for emotions period.
So your mind turns those bitches off and focuses on feeding that addiction.


It took me a long time to realize how much addiction was controlling my life. I didn’t wanna believe it. Or admit to it. I still don’t.
Don’t ever fool yourself into thinking you can control this drug.
Don’t allow addiction too control your life

-To all of those who are thinking about trying meth…
-Don’t.
-Any fresh new users.-
-Quit now before meth grabs ahold of your life

Don’t be afraid to ask for help….
Don’t allow the thought of a normal life without meth scare you away from the search for sobriety.

Any person who needs someone
To talk too about anything your welcome to message me, whether your a recovery addict, a currant drug user, or neither

How to keep someone safe through drug addiction

Here are a few things I have learned to keep my partner safe while using. This may be controversial to some people or described as ‘enabling’ but I think knowing what to do and what not to do will save lives for sure.
Drug addiction is a crippling, awful thing and I do not advise anyone to take any drug without extensive knowledge and precaution.
However if you want to keep the people you love safe then these things may really help, especially in life saving situations.

1. NEVER LET THEM SLEEP ON THEIR BACK.
This has caused deaths in many cases because when using opiates the body goes into respiratory depression (slowed breathing) and it makes it much harder for them to breathe and much easier for them to choke if they sleep on their backs.
Wake them up if you have to. Turn them into the recovery position (on their left or right side, hands away from the face, legs crossed) and make sure there is no obstructions in their mouth. Keep checking up on them throughout the night, if you can, invest in a blood pressure monitor just for peace of mind to check their pulse isn’t too low. I know the normal range for my boyfriend, and can see on there if it’s anything abnormal.

2.MAKE SURE THEY GET PLENTY OF WATER.
Whilst using, they are not in a normal frame of mind, ie: breakfast lunch or dinner aren’t going to be a priority when they are withdrawing or high / fully sedated. The ideal amount of water to consume in a day is 2.2 litres so try and get them to have a few glasses of water every now and then. Check their temperature and if needed get a cold flannel to cool them down, this can help with withdrawal.

3. BE AS SUPPORTIVE AS YOU CAN.
This may seem obvious, but those trips to the clinic or the hours trying to score can be really draining mentally as well as physically for someone, especially when they are withdrawing. Knowing you are there for them, holding their hand and being there will make a world of difference. Your love and support will encourage the person in recovery because it will give them something to fight for if they know you are there helping them and shining a small light on a really dark situation.


4. KNOW THE WITHDRAWAL SIGNS FOR YOUR LOVED ONE.
These are a list of basic symptoms my partner experiences and are common as well.
- irritation/irrational anger
- sweating
- nausea and diarrhoea
-panic attacks
-anxiety
-fidgety
-shakes
-high blood pressure
-severe migraines

5. HELP THEM WITH BASIC NEEDS.
What I mean by this is, most people using drugs have pretty bad mental health and are struggling mentally foremost, but this is a catalyst for poor hygiene, bad physical health and emotional withdrawal.
Try and get them to go for a walk every day, even if it’s just for a few minutes. Fresh air and exercise is the best medicine next to good nutrition.
Help them tidy up, wash and clean themselves. It’s likely their living space is going to be dirty so where you can, put things in the bin, get rid of any used needles or bloody tissues and make sure they are tied up in a big rubbish bag and disposed of. Get them any deodorant or nice products to help them with good self care as this can be a real help in recovery as well. When I’m not feeling good a shower and a shave always makes me feel better.
Try and get them to talk about how their feeling, if it’s good or if it’s bad, and just listen. I’m not asking you to be a therapist, just be there when they need someone to share their pain and to emotionally support them. It will do wonders for their self esteem and also recovery.

6. UNDERSTAND YOU MAY HAVE TO PUT THINGS ON HOLD.
Drug addiction is a life long battle this person is going to have to deal with. Just like any disorder or addiction it is going to take a lot of work and a lot of time and effort and a want to get better. This means their needs will have to come first when they are seeking help, especially in the beginning. If you want your loved one to get better you are going to have to accept your me time will be put on hold for a little while and things you have to do will have to be moved around in order to help the person suffering. Remember it is them going through this, but also you, so when you get a chance do take some time for yourself and remind yourself what a great job you are doing by taking care of them in this time if need. You are literally saving a human beings’ life, I don’t know anything more rewarding than that.

7. RESPECT YOUR LOVED ONE.
What I mean by this is, don’t shout about it to everyone you know that this person is going through drug addiction. It’s terrible enough as it is, without people talking about it and making them feel even worse about themselves. They will be much more likely to use / hurt themselves if they are made to feel ashamed or guilty about their problems. That’s not a place I would wish anyone to be. The people they care most about will be informed, and if that’s you then consider it a privilege that they have chosen you to be someone they can confide in.

8. DO NOT BE AFRAID TO CALL AN AMBULANCE.
If you see any signs in your loved one which worry you or make you feel concerned, do not hesitate to call the emergency services. That is what they are there for.
If someone is nodding out on opiates (heroin, morphine, codeine,
oxies etc) check their breathing and shake them a little just to make sure they are okay. If they go anywhere by themselves whilst high be sure to check on them for example in the bath they could nod out and drown if left alone for too long.
If you know they are on drugs and have passed out on the floor and aren’t responding, check their pulse and immediately call an ambulance. This is when it is essential to get help. Do not hit or try and shake them vigorously as this can cause brain damage. Wait for the emergency services to arrive.

If your loved one is an opiate user, CARRY NALOXONE! And learn how to administer it. Naloxone will completely reverse all side effects so if they are not responding this will bring them back to a sober state but they will be fully withdrawing. Call emergency services straight after administering the naloxone.

I can’t think of anything much more to add other than just to love these people and to treat them as you would anybody else who is suffering and in pain. Your love will help them, no matter how tough it seems, no matter how many sleepless nights and no matter how drained you may feel, I promise you it is worth it when you keep these people safe and alive.

From A, with love x
P.s my ask box is open for any questions or help with keeping your loved one safe through drug addiction.

The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.
—  L.L

For whatever you’ve done or whoever you’ve been in your past, you are here now. Forgive yourself for anything and everything. It’s the first step in healing. If you forgive yourself, you will be okay.

If you ever feel like you should have your shit together and you don’t....
  • At age 15, Mark Wahlberg dropped out of school and lived on the streets after serving time. 
  • At age 18, Drew Carey attempted suicide after being expelled from college. 
  • At age 23, Tina Fey was working at her local YMCA. 
  • At age 23, Oprah Winfrey was fired from her first reporting job. 
  • At age 24, Stephen King was working as a janitor and living in a trailer. 
  • At age 24, Jon Hamm was working as a waiter. 
  • At 25, Walt Disney was told that no one would ever like Mickey Mouse by MGM. 
  • At age 27, Vincent Van Gogh failed as a missionary and went to art school. 
  • At age 28, J.K Rowling was a suicidal parent living on welfare. 
  • At age 28, Tyler Perry was homeless on the streets of Atlanta. 
  • At age 30, Harrison Ford was a carpenter. 
  • At age 30, Martha Stewart was a stock broker. 
  • At age 35, Ricky Gervais made it to TV after getting fired working on a radio show. 
  • At age 40, Vera Wang designed her first dress after failing to make the Olympic figure skating team and to make the editor-in-chief position at Vogue. 
  • At age 40, Stan Lee released his very first comic book. 
  • At age 40, Lucille Ball got her part in I Love Lucy. 
  • At age 42, Alan Rickman got his first major movie role. 
  • At age 44, Bryan Cranston got his first major TV role. 
  • At age 46, Samuel L. Jackson got his first major movie role. 
  • At age 52, Morgan Freeman got his first major movie role. 
  • The founder of Amazon.com, Jeff Bezos, was working at McDonald’s in his 20s. 
  • Billionaire Warren Buffet was a part-time salesman in his 20s. 
  • President Barack Obama was a community organizer in his 20s. 
  • Halle Berry stayed in homeless shelters often in her 20s. 

It is NEVER too late to achieve your dreams. Don’t stress about the future. Right here, right now, you’re doing the very best you can. 

As a child I was taught to believe addicts are somehow “bad people.” However, now that I am white-knuckling through my own sobriety and recovery, I am finding these so-called “bad people” are my soulmates. Addicts are remarkable people. Addicts fight a war within themselves every single day. Addicts are stereotyped and discriminated against. Addicts are beaten down and made to believe they are weak. With all odds against them, addicts do live healthy lives in recovery, and for that, I am grateful.

You’ve come a lot farther than you often think. You’re doing so great! :))

Stop romanticizing addiction

Meth addiction isn’t sexy. Its isn’t cute. It doesn’t make you cool. Its not a fun way of life. Meth addiction is hell. Its torture. Its ugly. Its horrific. Its draining. Its evil. Meth addiction is losing everyone you once cared/loved so much because youve lied, hurt, betrayed, or fucked over in any way possible because you no longer give a shit about a damn thing except for this drug. Its being looked at like you’re total scum & a pathetic human being. Its surrounding yourself with people that only want to use or abuse you. Its losing everything you had & not even giving a fuck because all you need/want is that high. Its sticking needles in your arm in parking lots & public restrooms because you just can’t wait another second. Its putting yourself in the most scariest situations because you needed to stay high. Its taking any risk necessary no matter how absurd or scary because you need that fix. Its losing your worth, morals, pride, dignity & then slowly everything about you is destroyed. Meth addiction isn’t sexy. Its death…

You wanna know the worst part about coming clean about your drug addiction and getting clean? Anytime you have an ‘off’ day, you get accused of being on drugs and then they assume you’re lying about it.
—  Battling addiction, on the path of recovery