drug recovery

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Hey y'all. It’s been a while since I did an update. I’m almost one month sober again from heroin. I slipped up and used but it’s okay because I’m doing so much better now. I’m happy. I’m 16, living life in st Paul MN, still smoking weed and cigarettes, occasionally take pills. But getting rid of heroin was a good idea for me. It was a bitch though. Still is. I will always be an addict no matter what. For the rest of my life I will be an addict. But now, I can control myself and I’m damn proud of myself for that. Meth began to be a problem for me as well but I quit that pretty quickly. Idk I might wanna do it again though. We’ll see! Love you guys, stay safe ❤

If you ever feel like you should have your shit together and you don’t....
  • At age 15, Mark Wahlberg dropped out of school and lived on the streets after serving time. 
  • At age 18, Drew Carey attempted suicide after being expelled from college. 
  • At age 23, Tina Fey was working at her local YMCA. 
  • At age 23, Oprah Winfrey was fired from her first reporting job. 
  • At age 24, Stephen King was working as a janitor and living in a trailer. 
  • At age 24, Jon Hamm was working as a waiter. 
  • At 25, Walt Disney was told that no one would ever like Mickey Mouse by MGM. 
  • At age 27, Vincent Van Gogh failed as a missionary and went to art school. 
  • At age 28, J.K Rowling was a suicidal parent living on welfare. 
  • At age 28, Tyler Perry was homeless on the streets of Atlanta. 
  • At age 30, Harrison Ford was a carpenter. 
  • At age 30, Martha Stewart was a stock broker. 
  • At age 35, Ricky Gervais made it to TV after getting fired working on a radio show. 
  • At age 40, Vera Wang designed her first dress after failing to make the Olympic figure skating team and to make the editor-in-chief position at Vogue. 
  • At age 40, Stan Lee released his very first comic book. 
  • At age 40, Lucille Ball got her part in I Love Lucy. 
  • At age 42, Alan Rickman got his first major movie role. 
  • At age 44, Bryan Cranston got his first major TV role. 
  • At age 46, Samuel L. Jackson got his first major movie role. 
  • At age 52, Morgan Freeman got his first major movie role. 
  • The founder of Amazon.com, Jeff Bezos, was working at McDonald’s in his 20s. 
  • Billionaire Warren Buffet was a part-time salesman in his 20s. 
  • President Barack Obama was a community organizer in his 20s. 
  • Halle Berry stayed in homeless shelters often in her 20s. 

It is NEVER too late to achieve your dreams. Don’t stress about the future. Right here, right now, you’re doing the very best you can. 

For whatever you’ve done or whoever you’ve been in your past, you are here now. Forgive yourself for anything and everything. It’s the first step in healing. If you forgive yourself, you will be okay.

As a child I was taught to believe addicts are somehow “bad people.” However, now that I am white-knuckling through my own sobriety and recovery, I am finding these so-called “bad people” are my soulmates. Addicts are remarkable people. Addicts fight a war within themselves every single day. Addicts are stereotyped and discriminated against. Addicts are beaten down and made to believe they are weak. With all odds against them, addicts do live healthy lives in recovery, and for that, I am grateful.
When you’re using drugs, you’re driven by this mystical black energy, a force inside you that just won’t quit. And the weaker you get, the more you feed into that energy, and the more it fucks with you. When your spirit becomes dark and your lifestyle becomes dark, your existence is susceptible to infiltration by dark spirits. I’ve seen it so many times with addicts. You can see that they’re controlled by dark energy, the way they look, their appearance, their voice, their behavior, it’s not them.
—  Anthony Kiedis
You wanna know the worst part about coming clean about your drug addiction and getting clean? Anytime you have an ‘off’ day, you get accused of being on drugs and then they assume you’re lying about it.
—  Battling addiction, on the path of recovery

My girlfriend kindly suggested this to me, I’ve been pondering it, tonight I’m going to find that photograph, and start nourishing my little girl.