Can’t I just shut off? Turn off everything, the good and the bad?
Anything is better than sitting here feeling this bad.
Maybe if I try hard enough I can convince myself that my feelings are gone.
Because right now, I would much rather feel nothing at all.
But it’s not as easy to do as it is to say. So maybe, I can pretend and push it all away.
I need to turn it off, and I need to do it soon.
Because something tells me I can’t survive this typhoon.
My mind is dragging me under the waves and I’m reaching for the surface but my body’s grown weak.
You see i’m no longer going to struggle to find safe ground… why would I when I can let myself drown?