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On February 5, 1987, Ted had his first panic attack. Although he’d maintained an unperturbed exterior, always in control, always cool and superrational, inside, he apparently was destabilizing after the events of the past year. Until his first death warrant his life at Florida State Prison had been relatively peaceful, especially after he and Carol and Tina had settled into their weekly routine. The disruption caused by the first warrant was only the first tremor of the crumbling of that existence. The TV movie had brought more public attention, hatred, and unavoidable reminders of the crimes he had put out of his mind for six years. The second warrant had made the possibility of execution real to him - and to Carole. Then Carole had left for Seattle, and Ted’s six-year pattern of Saturday visits with his “attentive” family were over. Bad memories were being dredged up from the past as Dr. Norman visited sporadically, spending several hours each time probing Ted’s recollections, his dark side. He was spending time alone with Diana Weiner. He’d always expected to be permitted time to apply for clemency in the Lake City case after cert. was denied. Instead, he had found himself on death watch again, receiving a stay only six hours before his execution was to take place. Then, to top it off, he’d been wrongly placed in disciplinary status upon receiving the stay and deprived of outdoor exercise - his most treasured privilege. The pressure was mounting, his peaceful existence was slowly unraveling. Even the Eleventh Circuit ruling in our favor and remanding the Chi Omega case for further consideration was not necessarily a great comfort to Ted. For him, the mere resolution of a court case - whether in his favor or not - meant that he was that much closer to running out of legal ammunition.

Ted later told me he thought he was going to die that morning of February 5. He said he has been feeling fine since his release from the DR, exercising as usual, doing yoga, avoiding coffee and chemicals. Ted valued self-discipline. The panic attack hit at six in the morning, without warning. He said he lost his short-term memory; lost all perspective; he felt “waves of adrenaline, terror and panic”; he was trembling and his hands were shaking; he felt “numbness, pinpricks on top of my brain”; he was dizzy, heard echoes, and had ringing in his ears. He writhed on the floor of his cell for half a day before it passed. Subsequent attacks would last longer. - Polly Nelson on Ted’s first panic attack

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America Is German, Facts On America’s Crazy Heritage

49,206,934 people are of German heritage in the USA, making it the largest ethnic group in the US, according to this article based on census. “The largest wave of Germans came to the USA during the mid-1800′s. Today, the majority of German-Americans can be found in the non-coastal states, with the largest number in Maricopa County, Arizona. Famous Americans of German descent include Sandra Bullock, John Steinbeck, Ben Affleck, Jessica Biel, Tom Cruise, Uma Thurman, David Letterman, Walt Disney, Henry J. Heinz of the ketchup brand, and Oscar Mayer of the lunch meat brand, John D. Rockefeller, Herbert Hoover, Dwight D. Eisenhower, Babe Ruth, Amelia Earhart, Wernher von Braun, Kurt Vonnegut, Norman Schwarzkopf, Dr. Seuss, Evel Knievel, Meryl Streep, Kim Basinger, Amanda Seyfried, Harrison Ford, John J. Pershing, Neil Armstrong, Henry Kissinger, and Donald Trump.

  • Diana: I’m proud of you, Spencer.
  • Reid: For what?
  • Diana: Saving that boy
  • Reid: How'd you know?
  • Diana: I told you, a mother knows.
  • Reid: Dr. Norman gave me permission to sleep on the couch in your room tonight if it’s alright with you.
  • Diana: [to Dr. Norman] If anyone tries to keep him in here any longer, I’ll scratch your eyes out. [Reid and Dr. Norman looks at each other.]
  • Dr. Norman: [to Reid] One night only. [then walks away]
  • Reid: [looks curiously at his mother]
  • Diana: It helps if they think you’re crazy. They don’t argue.