dr. mary malone

Dr. Mary Malone is the best character in The Subtle Knife. She is a nun turned scientist, and that my friends, is what I call dedication. But are two choices that take a lot of work, and she nailed both of them. If she dies in the next book. If she dies, then I am going to find that fucking atheist that wrote the book and show him that God may not be real, but pain is very, very real. 

…But it gradually seemed to me that I’d made myself believe something that wasn’t true. I’d made myself believe that I was fine and happy and fulfilled on my own without the love of anyone else. Being in love was like China: you knew it was there, and no doubt it was very interesting, and some people went there, but I never would. I’d spend all my life without ever going to China, but it wouldn’t matter, because there was all the rest of the world to visit… And I thought: am I really going to spend the rest of my life without feeling that again? I thought: I want to go to China. It’s full of treasures and strangeness and mysteries and joy.
—  Dr. Mary Malone in His Dark Materials: III. The Amber Spyglass by Philip Pullman