dr. lawson

mass effect mom headcanons
  • Ashley: “I’m calling the principal” when you tell her your teacher embarrassed you. Made you take karate until you broke your wrist. Gives bear hugs and reads you bedtime stories until you complain you're too old. Has a picture of you as her phone background. Wants to speak to the manager.
  • Liara: Definitely the leaves notes in your lunchbox with pintrest quotes and kisses you on the forehead in front of all your friends. Bought you “Baby’s first archaeology set″ and liked playing with it just as much as you did. Always making you try her new quinoa recipes. Always up to date on the Tea™ “I think you need to take some time to meditate”
  • Samantha: Goes to the pet fair 'just to look' but comes back with 3 dogs and a hamster. Sends you funny pictures of them while you're at school. Only has a minivan ironically and never lets you win at checkers. "I'm totally a cool mum"
  • Miranda: Privately interviews all of your friends (she means the best). Gets your prom outfit professionally tailored. Her relationship advice is always “dump them”. 100% waited for you in the living room sipping wine when you tried to sneak back in after curfew.
  • Jack: “You’re not allowed to fucking swear” KNOWS for a fact you're better than everyone else’s stupid kids, but sometimes gets a little too competitive (translation: banned from PTA for the next 6 weeks) Shovel talks everyone you bring home. Probably cried after she dropped you off for your first day of school. It can be hard when your mom just loves you so much.
  • Chakwas: Argues with your school nurse when they won't give you an Advil. She gets more excited about action movies than you. All she had to do was glare at those kids who were bothering you and you never saw them again. Generally laid back because she trusts you, but its hard not to notice her rolling her eyes when you do something against her advice.
I’ve Got You Under My Skin

Fandom: Star Trek (AOS/TOS).
Pairing: 
 Reader x Bones.
Prompt: Requested by @trekken81 – Bones fluff.
Word Count: 3713.
Warnings:
None.
Rating: Teen+.
Author’s Note: Sorry this took so long, darlin’!  This semester has been kicking my ass.  I hope you like this!  Soulmate AU – tattoos.


I’ve Got You Under My Skin

You take a deep breath as you climb out of the shuttle that has just delivered you to your new post as head nurse on the U.S.S. Enterprise.  Looking around, you’re already thrown by the ship’s grandeur – its shuttle bay alone is easily three times the size of the one on the Enyo.  As your gaze travels back down from the ceiling, you’re met with the sight of the captain, the first officer, and another man standing in the doorway to the rest of the ship.

“Welcome aboard,” he addresses you and the handful of other new crew members standing around you.  “My name is James Tiberius Kirk and I’ll be your new captain. To my right is Commander Spock, my first officer, and to my left you’ll find our Chief Medical Officer, Dr. Leonard McCoy.  I trust you’re all ready to devote yourselves to this ship and its mission.”

You and the others nod and the captain continues with a bright and easy smile.

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These Things Happen |Joe Sugg|

Summary -  could you do one where the girl got pushed/fell and miscarried the baby that she and Joe never knew they’re having?

Word Count - 2,706

Warnings - This story line contains a miscarriage and a still birth.

A/N - I would really appreciate feedback on this story line, as sad as it is, I loved writing this as it’s completely different to anything I have written. As said, feedback would be greatly appreciated. I also changed the story line so that they knew they were having the baby.

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Chapter 1: This Is Just the Start

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Song- “Where Is My Mind” by Maxence Cyrin

The First Day

July 2nd, 10:54 PM

“Alright, sweetheart. I’m going to need you to strip down to your bra and underwear for me.”

I give a sideways glance to the old, ragged lady standing in front of me holding a pen and a sheet of paper with a crude sketch of the human body on it. The room I’m standing in in New Hope Wellness Facility (a.k.a.- the cheesiest and most cringe worthy name for a mental health facility on the planet) is cold and desolate; only a grey cot with a paper liner covering it and a small sink crouched under a medicine cabinet share the space with the two of us. The crude florescent light beams down, bounces off the bare walls, and assaults my pupils, forcing me to squint until the skin of my eyelids block out enough light to focus on her face. I assume that I’m in the medical room of the unit, but the last thing I would ever want is to lay back on that cot and let someone probe and examine me. I’ll attempt suicide a thousand more times before I let that happen.

“This is just protocol for all of our new patients, Katrina. We have to strip you down to make sure you’re not hiding any drugs, alcohol, or weapons in your clothes or undergarments.”

“So, what’s with the sketch, then?” Sandpaper sits in between my vocal cords and I pull my ratty sweatshirt closer to my body, suddenly feeling incredibly exposed.

“Once I ensure you’re not trying to smuggle anything in here, I have to circle all of the places on your body that you’ve cut or harmed. None of this is going to be held against you, sweetheart. This is all just going in your file for the psychiatrist to look at before she begins your evaluation.”

“I still don’t want to take my clothes off.”

“I know, but you have to. I will make it quick, I promise. Fighting this is only going to make it worse.”

I sigh heavily and rip my clothes off at lightning speed, wanting nothing more than to get this over with as fast as possible. The lady makes me hold my arms out to the side as if I’m being crucified and begins to rotate me slowly in a circle, making notes of all the places the emergency room nurse covered the crimson-colored craters I’ve etched into my skin.

“Can I ask how you ended up in here?” Her voice sounds faint and far away while she concentrates on making sure she marks her paper correctly. I eye her as she makes big red circles on the backs of the thighs, on the calves, shins, tops of the feet, back of the heels, front of the thighs, hipbones… Huh, she’s using a red pen. How ironic.

I clear my throat. Vertigo begins to take over me and I reach out to grab the cot for support.

“I, um, I thought I was going to kill myself,” I squeak, carefully leaving out the detail of the voices telling me to do so. “I called 911 to get myself out of danger.”

The woman stops circling both sides of the ribs mid-mark and looks up at me through her silver eyelashes.

“Well, that’s a first.”

“Excuse me?”

She gently takes my wrists in her hands and moves my arms in front of my body, careful not to dig her fingernails into my torn-up flesh. I’m sure I look reminiscent of a zombie, and to say I feel like one would be the understatement of the year.

“Everyone who ends up in here usually wants to die. You’re the first patient I’ve checked in who landed here because they chose to fight for their life, not end it.” She shrugs indifferently before placing my arms down by my sides and moving my incredibly long, black hair behind my shoulder to look at my neck.

“But I didn’t ask to end up here, you know,” I breathe.

“I know, Katrina. No one does. But, at least you’re not mandated by a court to be here. You can sign yourself out anytime you’d like.” The woman places larges circles around the left arm and both sides of the neck on the diagram.

I shift my weight between my bare feet. “Are there people here who are court mandated?”

“I’m legally not allowed to say, but you’re number three of three patients on this unit as of tonight. It shouldn’t be that difficult to weasel some information out of the other kids here.”

What in the hell is that supposed to mean?

“Alright… You don’t have any illicit or recreational drugs on you, correct?”

I tightly wrap my arms around my almost-nude body and stare at the floor. “That’s correct.”

“No alcohol of any kind?”

I fucking wish.

“No.”

“Do you hold in your possession any over-the-counter medicine that when used incorrectly could bring about a state of intoxication?”

“No.”

“And you do understand that lying about obtaining any of these substances can and will result in a search and seizure of your property by police, an arrest warrant in your name, a fine of up to $250,000, and a potential stay of up to ten years in a federal prison?”

Jesus Christ, is this woman serious?

“Yes, I understand.”

“Perfect.”

She winks at me before capping her pen and placing the diagram inside a manila folder with my name scribbled on the front of it. I throw my sweatshirt back on my body, and as I’m working my leggings up my thighs, her voice catches my attention.

“Hey, Katrina?”

“Yeah?”

“Changing all of that gauze daily might be a nuisance since there’s so much of it, but it will help speed up the healing process of those cuts. And, between you and me, aloe and some Benadryl should keep with itching at bay.”

“Where do I get Benadryl?”

“The psychiatrist will have to mark it on your prescription card for the pharmacy to fill, but if you ask her for some when you talk to her tomorrow, it shouldn’t be an issue. I don’t see why she would object to giving you a small teaspoon every day while you’re here. Her name is Dr. Lawson, but everyone around her just calls her Jennifer.”

Jennifer… Her name rolls around in my head as I snap my waistband on my stomach. Tension that I didn’t even know I had releases itself from my shoulders and I smile at the woman.

“Thank you.” The volume of my voice shrinks down to match how small I feel after standing almost naked in front of someone for so long. I never want to take my clothes off for anyone ever again.

“Just get better, okay?”

I follow the woman out of the medical room and see her swipe her employee I.D. on a keypad to disappear behind a set of industrial double doors close by. I stand there, frozen, watching her through the small rectangular window until her she turns right behind a corner and her shadow fades from view. I know I wasn’t supposed to follow her, but now what do I do?

“Katrina?”

My mom’s voice fills the air and I make a 180 degree turn to find her still leaning against the nurses’ desk in the middle of the hallway, in exactly the same spot I left her before being ushered into the exam room. After calling her in the ambulance on the way to the hospital and leaving a voicemail explaining to her that I was feeling suicidal (again, actively choosing to leave out the part about the voices), she met me in the emergency room, crying and frantic. My mom, as much as she refuses to admit it, always has had a flair for the dramatic, and no matter how much I tried to convince her that I was safest there, that they had patched me up and found me a place to go for a couple of days until I was sure I wouldn’t do something like this to myself again, she wouldn’t sit still or calm down until the doctors spoke to her directly. She spent hours sobbing over the brochures of the facility the nurse gave her and didn’t let go of my hand the entire hour and fifteen-minute drive from the hospital to the facility, much to my dismay. Now, after signing insurance forms and receiving discharge information for when I leave in a couple of days, she loiters around and hovers over me, just like she’s done for the last nineteen years of my life.

“Mom? I thought you would have been gone by now. It’s going to be after midnight when you get back.”

“Katrina, I’m not going to leave without saying goodbye.”

“It’s not ‘goodbye,’ Mom. It’s 'see you later.’ You’ll have gone more time without seeing me while I was at school this year than you will these next couple of days.”

“I know, but this is different.”

“Why? Because you can’t convince yourself that I’m going to be okay this time? News flash, Mom: I haven’t been okay in a long time.” The bitterness in my voice slices through the air and I catch a couple of nurses sitting behind the desk wince at my words. Have they been here since I showed up? Why am I just now noticing them?

“You don’t think I don’t know that?” Mom’s voice raises an octave and she lifts herself off of the desk to face me directly. “Who was the one who dragged your ass to therapy every damn week for the last ten years? Who was the one who administered your medicine to you every single day until you refused to keep taking it? Who’s the one paying for you to be here right now?”

I look down at the white slip-on Vans covering my feet and inhale sharply, working like a madman to keep the anger suddenly building up inside my chest from exploding. I don’t want to hurt my mom again. Not here. Not now.

“I think you should go now, Mom.”

“I’m not leaving here without a hug, Katrina.”

“A hug my ass,” I mutter under my breath.

“Excuse me?” Mom reaches out for my chin and shifts my head upward until I’m meeting her gaze. Her touch sends bugs crawling across my skin and I shriek at the sensation, my voice high and shrill. I violently grab Mom’s wrist and throw her hand off of my body in an attempt to rid of the insects, but even when her touch leaves me, the bugs do not. They pitter patter, pitter patter their way over me, wedge their way under my clothes and into my shoes, and I begin a dance of desperation to try and shake them off.

“Oh god, Katrina. Not this again,” Mom snaps, unamused, rubbing her sore shoulder as if I took to her joint with a baseball bat.

“Get them off of me! Get them off, GET THEM OFF!” I begin stripping myself as a short nurse with blonde hair and red scrubs rounds the corner of the nurses’ desk and assumes a fighting stance in front of me.

“Katrina? Hey, Katrina, sweetheart, can you tell me what’s wrong? What’s on you that you need to get rid of?” Her voice is gentle, soft, and as I look into her baby blue eyes framed by mascara-coated eyelashes, I know she’s not here to hurt me. My adrenaline continues to pump through my body, though, and as I kick my shoes off and do a spin, my gaze finds my mother, who is staring at me unfazed.

“The bugs! Mom touched me without my permission and now the bugs ARE BACK. DON’T TOUCH ME UNLESS I SAY IT’S OKAY, BECAUSE IF YOU DO, THE BUGS WILL COME BACK!”

“Okay Katrina, I can get you some medicine to make the bugs go away, but you’ll need to keep your clothes on for me. Do you mind going into the rec room and sitting on the couch until I come back? Janet can sit with you while you wait if you would like.”

Blondie motions toward an overweight nurse with bad highlights standing behind the station and I nod, jumping and leaping down the hall before entering a door directly to the right of the nurses’ desk. I struggle to find the light switch and flop onto the brown leather couch. Janet follows close behind, pulling up a chair from a round table in the opposite corner and placing it next to me. I wiggle and writhe in my spot as the bugs begin nipping at my skin, leaving sores under my gauze pads. Janet watches me suffer silently while chewing on some dead skin on her bottom lip, and I can’t believe I’m here, my shit show acting as entertainment for the employees of this god forsaken mental facility.

“Janet, just so you know, I’m not crazy,” I grumble, clawing at the bare skin I have left, the little skin that was spared from my blades and from the medical work of the emergency room nurse.

“Katrina, no one here thinks you’re crazy. If we were worried about your psyche, you wouldn’t have been placed on this floor.”

“No, I mean I know that there aren’t actually bugs on my skin, but I’ll be damned if it doesn’t feel like there are.”

Janet scoots her chair a hair closer to me and cocks her head to the side. “Really? Do you know what causes he bugs to appear?”

I nod. “Unwarranted touch. I don’t let people touch me without my permission.” My words are blunt, harsh, and I focus on articulating each syllable to perfection in a lame attempt to take my mind off of the pain.

“And Mom didn’t listen to you?”

“She never listens to me when it comes to that stuff. She always wants a hug, always wants a kiss, always wants to hold my hand, and I get that I’m her firstborn and that she doesn’t know how to help me anymore, but I don’t know how ignoring everything I ask her to do or not to do makes any sense at all… Damn it, WHERE IS THAT MEDICINE?!”

As if on cue, Blondie rounds the corner with a handful of airtight baggies and a syringe filled with a clear, jelly-like substance.

“You’re going to shoot me up with that stuff?” I raise my eyebrows at her as she begins to unwrap all of the plastic.

“It’s just some good, old fashioned Benadryl, but it’s prepped for an IV rather than as an oral medication.”

I squirm around in my seat, unable to follow her train of thought.

“But, I don’t have an IV in.”

“Yet,” Blondie says as she holds up one of the baggies with a little shake. “I’m going to put the needle in and leave it overnight, just in case Jennifer wants any of your medicine administered intravenously tomorrow, okay? If she doesn’t, one of the day nurses will take it out first thing after your evaluation.”

“Ugh, okay. Can we just get this in my system so I can feel NORMAL AGAIN?”

“Yep, it’s all ready. I just need you to stay still for me so I put in correctly. Do you need Janet to hold your arm down?”

Janet looks at me nervously and I soften, mouthing the words “it’s okay” before scooting up to the edge of the couch cushion. She places a large hand on my forearm as Blondie pulls on some latex gloves and disinfects the inside of my elbow with an alcohol pad. I take a deep breath, secretly craving the sensation of a sharp object piercing my skin. My eyes close as I feel the tingle of the needle entering my vein, desperately trying to stop the twisted smile from creeping onto my face.

“Good, Katrina. That slid right in. Now, this Benadryl might make you feel loopy and tired, but as soon as I inject this, I’ll show you to your room and we can get your bed set up so you can sleep for the evening, okay?”

“Like that will happen,” I snort. “I’ve intentionally overdosed on hydrocodone so many times that my liver metabolizes medicine before it even absorbs in my system. You’re going to need to inject me with my body weight in Benadryl before it knocks me out.”

Damn it, Katrina, stop talking. Quit spitting out your woes to the first person that’s willing to listen. You’ll sound like a nut job, or worse, a charity case.

Blondie places the needle of the syringe into the small blue tube attached to my IV and presses down on it slowly. I watch, entranced, as the liquid transfers from the syringe and disappears under my ghastly, paper-like skin. The area where the IV is inserted begins to warm and the sensation of pins and needles consumes by body, but my brain remains alert and my eyes don’t tire. The bugs immediately begin to die and fall off of me onto the floor one by one until my feet are surrounded with exoskeletons. I exhale dramatically.

“How does that feel, Katrina?”

“Better. Normal.” I lick my lips nervously and look at Janet, then at Blondie. “Thank you for helping me. I’m sorry I panicked on you guys.”

Blondie caps the small blue tube and adheres it to my skin with clear medical tape before reaching her hands out to help me off the couch. I decline her offer and stand up on my own, careful not to step on any of the dead bugs.

“Katrina, that’s our job. It’s what were here for.” Janet smiles softly as the three of us pad out of the rec room and back into the hallway. I glance around for Mom, but no sign of her can be found anywhere. Maybe she finally got the hint and left.

Guilt washes over me now that I’m medicated and stable again. All she wanted was to say goodbye and I wouldn’t give that to her. What a piece of shit daughter I am.

“Okay, Katrina, ready to find your room?” Blondie reaches behind the nurses’ desk and grabs a lanyard heavy with metal keys. I shrug and grab my bags that have been sitting atop the surface of the desk since I arrived and follow suit behind her down the hall opposite to that of the rec room and medical room. She stops at the second door to the left and I glance around, taking note that only two of the doors down the hall have names written on the whiteboards plastered on the doorframe. The room directly next to mine has Stephanie scribbled in stark handwriting, and the room adjacent and across the hall to me has a name sprawled in cursive so swift that I have to squint to make out the name: Grayson.

God help me if there is a boy living on this floor with me for the next week. I will cut his balls off in his sleep if he dares to even get within arm’s length of me.

Blondie messes with the lock, and eventually with a huff, swings the heavy wooden door open. She flips the light switch to the left of the doorframe and I’m greeted with an underwhelming sight: two twin-sized mattresses with small wooden bedframes beds sit inches apart from each other on a white tiled floor. In front of the beds to my left is the bathroom, which consists of nothing more than a shoebox of a shower, a dingy toilet, and a single vanity with a large mirror positioned above it. Opposite of the bathroom door is a large shelf of cubbies mounted to the wall, each about two feet by two feet in size. The rest of the room is barren, the light blue walls screaming for some kind of decoration or artwork to be placed upon them. I feel my shoulders drop as I walk to place my bags on the bed closest to the door. I had hoped it would at least be better than prison. Maybe I was wrong.

“Alright, Katrina, here’s your home-sweet-home for the next five days.” Blondie’s voice startles me out of my thoughts and I pull the cuffs of my sweatshirt sleeves past my fingertips before plopping on the mattress next to my belongings.

“Just a couple of housekeeping rules for you to remember: The water temperature in all of the faucets are controlled by an outside heating source, so don’t expect your showers to be anything more than lukewarm at best–”

“I’m sorry?” I raise my eyebrows.

“We can’t have patients intentionally trying to burn themselves while they’re staying here, Katrina. It’s a safety precaution.”

You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.

“It’s also a safety precaution that we go through all of the belongings you brought with before you claim them, so don’t expect to find any shoelaces in your shoes or strings in your elastic waistbands. They’ve have all been removed. We’ve also taken your shaving razors, any hot tools you would use to style your hair with, and all makeup products. Those aren’t allowed during your treatment, but you’ll get everything back before you’re discharged. We didn’t get rid of anything. We’re just holding onto it.”

Woah, wait a second.

“I’m sorry… I understand taking the shaving razors and my flat iron, but why my makeup?”

Blondie sighs and leans against the door frame, crossing one leg over the other at her ankle. “We see more people with addiction than you’d be able to fathom, Katrina. When they’re detoxing and they’re desperate for any kind of fix, they’ll smash up eye shadow palettes and eyeliner and snort it just to feel something. We can’t take any chances.”

“Yeah, but I didn’t end up in here because of drugs, for God’s sake.” My jaw is clenched so tightly that my teeth grind together as I spit the words out.

“We can’t pick and choose who the rules apply to, sweetheart.”

I shove my hands in between my thighs and dig my fingernails into my flesh, using the pain as a distraction from the anger brewing in the pit of my stomach. They went through my shit without my permission?! They’re thieves. Thieves! They could have stolen anything they wanted and I would never know.

“Okay, so, we don’t have a daily cleaning service, which means you’re expected to keep your room neat for the duration of your treatment,” she continues. “We don’t room check, but if any staff member happens to wander down the hall and find that you’re unusually messy, there will be consequences. Also, you’re more than welcome to close your door at night, since the hallway lights stay on for twenty-four hours, but don’t expect it to lock. The lock strictly works from the outside, and the only way to operate it is with a key, which we keep secured.”

I grip my inner thighs harder until I begin to feel a warm liquid soak through the fabric of my leggings. The thick, familiar, dark red liquid that I’ve become best friends with.

“Finally, we have a lax schedule that we follow every day. Breakfast is at eight thirty every morning, and a day nurse will wake you up an hour before breakfast. You’re not expected to get up at seven thirty, but you can if you’d like. Lunch is at twelve thirty in the afternoon, dinner is at seven, and lights need to be out by eleven. That’s not to say you need to be asleep, but you need to be in bed laying down by them. As long as you’re not in therapy or undergoing any kind of evaluations, you’ll have free time throughout the day to do what you’d like as long as it complies with our rules, whether that be shower, sleep, draw, journal—”

“Journal?” I snap my head up and cut Blondie off. “I didn’t know we could write here. If I did, I would have brought my diaries.” For as long as I can remember, writing has been one of the few solaces from the hurricane that constantly churns inside my brain. When I write, the entire world around me fades until my voice is the only thing that can be heard. When I write, I am strong. When I write, I am fearless.

“We have some extra notebooks at the station. I’ll make a note for a day nurse to give you one tomorrow.”

I bite my lip and look back down at the floor, my fingertips grazing over the blood spilling out from my skin and soaking my leggings.

“Alright Katrina, I think that’s everything. Get unpacked and head to bed for me, okay? I’m sure you’re exhausted from the day you’ve had.”

“Yeah, you could say that.”

Blondie pushes herself off of the doorframe and sits herself next to me on my bed. “I’ll be sitting with Janet all night if you need anything, okay?”

I shake my head up and down lazily.

“And Katrina?”

I crane my neck to look at her, some of my hair falling in my eyes in the process.

“We’ll get through this together. I promise.”

I swallow and tuck my hair behind my ear before catching her name on the I.D. clipped to her sleeve. Erica. Blondie’s name is Erica.

“Thanks, Erica.”

It feels like she really means it, too.

***

Song- “Last Smoke Before the Snowstorm” by Benjamin Francis Leftwich

July 2nd, 11:42 PM

“Knock, knock.”

A deep voice fills the air behind me as I’m unpacking my clothes from my duffle bag and causes me to leap out of my skin. I turn to find the source of the noise only to be greeted with the most intimidating creature I’ve ever laid my eyes on loitering in the doorway. My eyes graze over him from his mix-matched sock-covered feet, up his old, baggy sweatpants, across the black muscle tank hanging on his torso, to his tanned face and messy hair. His jaw is clenched and his dark eyed glare gives me a once over before blinking slowly and taking a couple of steps into my room. The closer he gets to me, the smaller I become; he hovers over a foot above me and he smells like sweat and the lingering musk of men’s body wash. He’s a stunning creature, one my eyes haven’t had the pleasure of staring at before now, and I’ve never been more afraid for my safety in my entire life.

“You haven’t written your name on your whiteboard, yet,” he continues while walking to the foot of my bed, eyeing all of the piles of clothes I’ve made while trying to get organized. “A new patient comes in and creates all this ruckus while I’m supposed to be sleeping, and as I peek my head out to see who it is, I don’t even get a name. Now I have to crawl out of bed, sneak across the hall to their room when the nurses aren’t looking, and introduce myself to them in all of my sleepy glory.” Sarcasm drips from his voice as he breaks out into a boyish grin, and I roll my eyes at the sentiment, praying that my adrenaline will stop pumping long enough to get a steady grip on my clothes. Please, God, don’t let him hurt me. Don’t let me die here today. I barely escaped death this morning. I don’t want to have to do it again tonight.

“You must be Grayson,” I choke, my mouth almost too dry to speak.

“How’d you guess?”

I give him a sideways glance as he crosses his arms over his chest, his biceps expanding under his skin with the movement. “I was told earlier tonight that there are only two other patients here, and you don’t look much like a 'Stephanie’ to me. It was just a matter of simple deduction.”

Grayson chuckles and the sound makes me jump again before leaning my back up against the wall for support. “You’ve deduced correctly. I’m Grayson, in the flesh and blood.”

“Mhm. That’s nice.”

“What, you’re not going to tell me your name?”

“Can I tell you after I finish unpacking?” I’m trying to stall giving him any personal information for as long as possible.

“Sure, I’ll even help you.”

No, PLEASE don’t do that–

Grayson’s voice softens and reaches for a pile of leggings. Watching his hands curl around my belongings shoots off sirens in my brain, but I stand frozen as he spins on his heels and finds the cubby I’ve places all my other pants in. He places them down gently in the space before smoothing the pile free of any wrinkles, and as he heads back toward the bed to pick up some more, he finds me staring helplessly at him.

“Hey, love, are you okay? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

Love. Hey, love. The term of endearment shakes me from my trance-like state and I begin to stutter while taking unsteady steps toward him.

“Yeah, I’m okay. I'm—I’m just trying to get used to this new environment, that’s all.”

“I get it. It’s not every day a stranger walks into your place of slumber and offers to put your laundry away for you, all before they learn your name.”

“It’s… it’s something like that, yeah,” I exhale.

Grayson pivots to place another pile into a cubby before facing me again. “To be fair, this is new for me, too. I’ve never offered to help a peculiar, but unusually beautiful girl, with her laundry before I know her name.”

My ears perk up at his words. “What did you just say?”

“You’re not deaf. I know you heard me.”

The room around me begins to spin as Grayson clears my bed completely. I want to help him, I don’t want him to do my dirty work alone, but I also want to scream and run and get as far away from this boy as possible. He’s going to hurt me, I know he is. Why am I not running?!

But, wait, when did the buzzing in my head stop?

The everlasting hurricane that thrashes about inside of me brings a lot of noise with it, and no matter how hard I’ve tried, for the last nineteen years I’ve never been able to shut it off. It accompanies me wherever I go, with whatever I do, and I’ve grown so accustomed to it that I’ve become skilled at ignoring it. Most of the time it’s an annoying buzz, but it times of turmoil, it can turn into a wailing rage that is deafening beyond belief. Suddenly, though, standing in front of Grayson, a boy I’ve known for maybe five whole minutes, there’s absolutely no noise in my head. Nothing. The only sound I can pick up is that of Grayson’s breathing, slow and even, in and out.

Oh my god, did Grayson just turn the noise off?

“All done. Will you tell me your name now?” Grayson’s voice pulls me back to reality, and just as I’m about to open my mouth to answer, Erica pops her head in my doorway.

“I knew I heard multiple voices coming from this room. Grayson, get back to bed and let Katrina get settled in. She doesn’t need harassing.”

Grayson moves his gaze from Erica to me and raises his eyebrows devilishly. “Katrina, it is?”

I nod quickly, lacing my fingers together but unable to break from his stare.

“So… beautiful…” he breathes. Beautiful? He’s lying. This is some kind of sick joke. There’s no way. Me, beautiful? Yeah, right.

“Alright, enough flirting.” Erica waves Grayson toward her and he obliges. “You can bother her in the morning. Right now, sleep will do both of you some wonders. Come on.”

Erica ushers Grayson out of my room, and before reaching behind her to close my door, Grayson turns around to shoot me quick wink. Suddenly, he’s completely disappeared from view, and as I plop down on my bed and throw my face into my pillow, I wonder what in the hell just happened.  Was there some kind of energetic connection or am I going completely mad? Why didn’t I run away? Why did I feel so compelled to stay close to him?

Suddenly, in Grayson’s absence, the buzzing in my brain clicks back on.

Great.


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956orbust  asked:

So please forgive me if you've touched on this elsewhere, but Ive been accepted (class of 2021) this year and I have some concerns with the movement or desire for movement to a more midlevel based medical model. Seeing CRNAs and NPs (mostly) in my area seek equivalence with physicians comcerns me. Do you have any concerns? I know they are well trained and professional providers but I still think the physician should hold a leading role in healthcare. It seems increasingly nurses disagree.

First, congrats! 

Second, this is a great question and something that I have talked about with several of my classmates as well as residents and practicing physicians. I have had a few chances to work with NPs and PAs on my clinical rotations and overall have had good experiences. My PCP currently is an NP and she’s great in her role. I’ve had less experience with CRNAs since I haven’t done an anesthesia rotation and they didn’t have them at the hospital where I did my surgery rotation. 

I think that the system that we are in will always have physicians in leadership roles. However, they are not dictators (or at least they shouldn’t be) they are members of a team. And that team has a ton of responsibilities, from getting a patient’s contact information, to measuring blood pressure, to treating common ailments, to diagnosing the super bizarre and rare. Teams work best when each member is doing the things that they are good at, are trained to do, and are working at the full capacity of their training. In outpatient primary care, which is where I have the most experience, most NPs and PAs are fully capable of seeing uncomplicated patients with very little oversight. That’s great. It’s a great use of resources and can save the healthcare system a few $$$s, which we definitely need. Some are fully capable of seeing complicated patients. It depends a bit on the provider. Some read more than others, some are better at diagnoses than others, some have that knack and that drive. But truth be told, the same could be said of doctors - getting through med school doesn’t make you the next Dr. House. 

I think the trouble comes if people overstep their training and something goes wrong. This is true of all professions, physicians included. If a family doc decided to do a major abdominal surgery or treat lung cancer or do half of the ridiculous MacGyver’ed shit Dr. Lawson does on Royal Pains, that would be way outside his/her scope and if it ended badly, that would be bad news for that doctor. Same goes for a PA or NP. If you bite off more than you can chew and don’t ask for help, you are putting patients at risk. At the end of the day, I think that is really what matters. I don’t care what letters go with your name, if you are mindful and a team player and taking good care of your patients, that’s a win in my book. But if you are a cowboy trying to single-handedly save the world, you’re going to run into trouble.

After all that, I don’t think I actually answered your question. Am I concerned about NPs and PAs taking care of patients? No - as long as they are well trained, well read, and willing to ask for help. Am I concerned that they are “taking our jobs” or something like that? No - there are plenty of patients to go around. Am I concerned that our healthcare system is ridiculously expensive, draining for providers, and a hassle for patients? Yes, yes indeed, and if working as a team with other professionals lessens that burden on everyone, then I am all for it.

I know I have at least a few NP and PA followers. I would love so much to hear your insight on this. 

Dear all the WOC representing in these TV shows who constantly receive unwarranted and pointless hate,

“You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be somebody who hates peaches." 

-Dita Von Teese

In other words, don’t change. You’re wonderful. There will always be people who don’t appreciate you. Don’t pay attention to them. Let them think what they please. YOU KNOW YOUR WORTH. And I, among others, know it too. <3

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First appearance of Carol Danvers from MARVEL SUPER-HEROES (1967) #13, script by Roy Thomas, pencils by Gene Colan. Mar-Vell infiltrates a human security base looking for a Kree Sentry, all while pining for Una and thwarting the schemes of a jealous Yon-Rogg (himself a colonel in the Kree service, which makes him even more suited as a later foil to Carol).

CAROL: So, General Bridges…I see you’ve brought Dr. Lawson here…against my best advice…as usual!
MAR-VELL: [That girl! Who is she…and how does she figure into this??]
GENERAL BRIDGES: Dr. Lawson, this is Miss Danvers! Man or woman, she’s the finest head of security a missile base could want!
CAROL: Thank you for that anyway, General! I’m really quite pleased to meet you, Doctor…though I’d rather talk to your face than your back!

I would remark here that Carol’s characterization as assertive, ambitious, and suicidally devoted to the job she considers hers has remained astonishingly consistent over the past four decades. First panel, and she’s already throwing shade at a superior officer.

MAR-VELL: By the way, Miss Danvers…just why did you oppose my seeing the robot?
CAROL: Nothing personal, Dr. Lawson…but, your dossier is still being examined by my security division! If you must know, you’ve always had a reputation as a recluse…even an eccentric! And frankly, after seeing that strange briefcase of yours…! Well…
GENERAL BRIDGES: That's enough, Miss Danvers! Coming, Lawson?
MAR-VELL: Yes, sir! – [An eccentric! If only that's all she suspects!]
CAROL: I’ll see you both later! – [Somehow, I can’t help feeling…that Walter Lawson is hiding something! If he is, I won’t rest till I find out what…and why!]

It’s always been sort of interesting that Carol was conceived as a more or less “civilian” character and only later was repurposed into a superhero, and I’ve wondered before if that’s why she’s allowed to have such a large career and life outside of her costumed identity–in history, at least, if not on the page. She was established with all the hallmarks of her later persona (the slightly aggressive edge, a job linked to security and the military, a role that demands she fight to establish herself in a male-dominated field), although at this point she’s barely a supporting character. It’s also possible that Carol’s career outside of Avenger-ing is allowed to flourish both because there’s little conflict between her interests as a soldier and a hero, and because Carol herself feels so little strife over those roles. She’s not the character who pines for a “normal” life.

Anyway! Happy New Year, and here’s to what I’m sure will be another great volume of Captain Marvel.

Web Of Lies - Falling

Tytuł: Falling (Upadając)

Autorka: Morgan

Link do oryginału: (xx)

Fabuła: To wszystko tak po prostu się nie skończyło, nawet jeśli on tego chciał. I, gdy Louis zaczął się oddalać, on ponownie zaczął upadać.

Połączenie: Harry Styles & Louis Tomlinson (Larry Stylinson)

Od tłumaczki: Strasznie przepraszam, ze zajęło mi to tyle czasu, ale w końcu dodaję dodatek. No to już ostatecznie żegnamy się z tą historią :) xx

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Falling

Harry Styles miał nawrót choroby w 2012.

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Sea Angel (Swimming Sea Slug) - Clione (Pteropoda:Gymnosomata) - adapted to free ocean swimming by the loss of their shells and the development of the foot of the gastropod into wing-like flapping appendages (parapodia).

Liza Roger & Dr. Gareth Lawson

The University of Western Australia, Perth, Australia

Technique: Stereomicroscopy (10x)

Mike shut off the TV and put his head in his hands. Ginny was probably at the hospital. He checked his phone for news; nothing. He wondered if she’d heard his whisper of, “tell me when you know” as she’d been loaded on the ambulance. He doubted she would. Even if she’d heard him, it wasn’t like Ginny to be vulnerable in front of people. He found himself begging, someone, something, he wasn’t sure what, to fix this. To make this not be bad. Maybe it was simply a strained muscle or…

He was being ridiculous and he knew it. Ginny wasn’t the type of person to show when she was in slight pain. For her to have gone down…He swallowed the lump in his throat. For her to have gone down, it would have to be bad.

His doorbell rang. Mike glared towards the door, running through the list of possible people who could be on the other side. He walked over, taking a deep breath before opening it. Rachel was on the other side and Mike was confused by the slight swoop of dread in his stomach as he forced a smile.

“I thought you were back in LA.” He said. Rachel smiled up at him.

“I figured…you wouldn’t want to be alone.” She said. “She was your rookie, after all.”

“Is.” Mike corrected. “The season’s not over.”

“Mike.” Rachel gave him a smile. No it was the smile. The smile that always grated on his nerves. The smile that she always gave him when she knew better. When he was wrong. “The news is saying its pretty bad.”

“Are you a doctor now?” Mike surprised himself with the harshness of his tone.

Rachel blinked up at him before sighing. “She hasn’t been released yet. Best case scenario, she probably ends up on the DL list for-”

“What the hell was that broadcast?” Mike snapped cutting her off. Rachel blinked at him.

“Excuse me?”

“That broadcast that just aired, you basically sat there and told the entire world that her career was over.” Mike hissed. “Would you have done the same thing if she’d been a man?”

Rachel scoffed. “Are you seriously going to question my stance on women’s rights?”

“And you compared her to Serena Williams and-” Mike was furious. “She’s a baseball player. You should have compared her to other baseball players. It’s what she would have wanted you to do. I’m willing to bet it’s what she asked you to do.”

Rachel took a step back. “I get that you’re mad that you didn’t get to see a no hitter and that it messed up the game-”

“Baker’s bigger than the game, Rach.” He snapped. “She’s one of the most dedicated and talented players I’ve ever come across and if she’d been a man no one would be eulogizing her career like you just did. You never liked the fact that she did things the way she wanted to, not the way you thought she should. She didn’t give you the exclusive after that locker room rape case. She forgave Al after the video came out instead of crucifying him and now when she couldn’t deliver a no hitter and had the audacity to be human and get injured you decided to shame her. Because she wasn’t your perfect feminist agenda puppet.”

Rachel stepped back as though she’d been slapped. “Oh…” She said, nodding slowly, backing away. “I see.”

“What?” Mike growled.

“You know…” She shook her head. “I’m not sure why I thought this time you’d be different.” She looked at him sadly. “First time around I lost you to the game and now…” She swallowed. “I guess I’ll always be a place holder for you.”

“Rachel-”

She held her hand up before turning and leaving.

The hospital room was dark. Ginny hadn’t gotten her results back, but from the look on the nurse’s face as she’d wheeled her back into the private room, things weren’t looking good. She’d asked the staff to keep everyone out. She didn’t want anyone to see her like this, and yet… Faced with being alone with her thoughts she was regretting that decision. She replayed every moment of the day, trying to figure out where things had gone so wrong.

She almost jumped out of her skin when the door opened.

“I hope you have jello.” Mike said as he came into her room. “Because otherwise I will never forgive you.”

Ginny blinked at him in surprise. “Aren’t visiting hours over?” She asked, frowning as she noted the large wrapped package behind his back. “And what’s that?”

“There’s a few perks to being a hometown hero, Baker.” He said, walking over to her tray table and grabbing the jello and spoon. “I smiled at the night nurse and she let me in.”

Ginny cleared her throat.

“Oh right.” He pulled the large object from behind his back and put it on the tray table. It was covered, but from the shape, it looked like a bouquet.

“Flowers?” She asked.

“God no.” Mike opened it. “It’s one of those edible arrangement things. With chocolate. I figured you wouldn’t want fruit after the traumatic experience you went through.”

“Traumatic experience?” Ginny mumbled.

“Missing out on my speech.” Mike said, plopping himself down and opening the jello. “Believe me, it was one for the ages. We’re talking Independence day level awesome.”

Ginny blinked at him. Mike froze, the spoon halfway to his mouth, his eyes narrowing. “No way.” He said. Ginny shrugged, then winced as a pain shot through her shoulder. “Please tell me that this is a set up for an old man joke and that you’ve actually seen Independence Day.”

“Mike, I was born in 92.”

“And it came out in 96 so you have no excuse.” Mike said, lowering his spoon. “This is a crime. This is unAmerican.”

Ginny laughed, settling down on her pillows. “I didn’t have the time, Mike.

"Time? You were 4. What life pressing issue could a 4 year old have? Not enough imaginary tea for your imaginary tea parties?” Mike shot back. Ginny looked at her hands and shook her head. At 4, she’d already picked up that ball. She’d already inadvertently set herself on the path that would land her here. All that work…gone. What would her father say.

“Baker.” Mike’s voice seemed far away. “BAKER!”

She gulped, snapping into focus. She was crying; when had she started crying? “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t apologize.” Mike said, putting aside his jello and getting up. Sitting next to her on the bed, he pulled the tray over. “Chocolate? It’s good for you.”

“Thank you, Dr. Lawson.” Ginny said, wiping her eyes and leaning her head on his shoulder. She knew they were skating on thin ice, but Mike being there, drove away the angry buzzing in her head. Mike put his head on top of hers and chuckled.

“Don’t think I don’t know what you’re doing.” He said. She froze. “You’re not getting any of this jello.”

Ginny let out a sigh of relief and wiped her eyes. “Trust me, Lawson. I’m not taking your jello.”

“Then why else would you be cuddling with me?” Mike said, innocently. “Unless…you like the beard pillow.”

Ginny groaned, covering her face. Mike laughed. “I hate you.” She muttered.

“No you don’t” Mike said. “And whatever happens now…you’ll be okay, Baker. We’ll get through it.”