They aren’t. Last year October I suddenly got a huge upswing in anons. Telling me I was going to hell for writing Ultimate Spiderman fanfic. Telling me I was disgusting and a piece of shit because an adult shouldn’t write teenage romances (Although where they think Young Adult novels come from who knows).
Then they discovered I ship Pitch Black and Jack Frost as well as Kakashi and Naruto and it all went to hell. I was called a pedophile and had some very disgusting violent themed asks. At one point I was deleting about 15 anon messages a day. Someone told me they’d found my charity and they were calling CPS on me because of child pornography and pedophilia.
CPS did indeed end up showing up. And our lived were a mess. A horrible mess. Our devices were taken and checked through with a fine tooth comb, our browsing history was searched, all our dvds and movies that were not marked were taken.
Keep in mind that I’m a severely disabled person and have two special needs kids. It was awful and traumatic. Thankfully going into it the CPS worker said because of the nature of the report (someone finding my info over social media and not knowing me personally ect) she suspected it was a false report.
The police did ask some questions about my multitude of about 3,000 unfinished story starts I have on my computer and seemed amused and a bit disturbed to find out out some of my pairings but they were all great about it. Said they would make sure not to delete ANY of my stories because writing is a great stress relief.
We were given everything back at the end of the week, everything was clear. No child porn, no pedophilia. My kids drs checks were fine, their psych checks were fine. Although my oldest does still have anxiety but like….we knew that already. No signs of sexual or physical abuse on my children.
The case was closed, unfounded, and CPS closed their case also. However, because of the false claim they were going to press charges against the one who made the claim.
I have no idea how this works or if anything has been done yet. BUT FALSE REPORTING IS A CRIME!!!
It tears up families, traumatizes children to exams that are not needed, and puts innocent people into a terrifying experience. These people put us through this experience just because they didn’t like my shipping preferences. How is this ok? It’s not.
And I hope they are punished to the full extent of the law.
I need to find more Next to Normal blogs and Next to Normal memes because it’s actually my favourite musical but I never really have anything to post about it because there isn’t the same community for it as there is for musicals that were just on Broadway or still are. And that’s just ridiculously frustrating.
what she means: today is march first and as a next to normal fan i literally can’t even. diana’s delusions come back and she leaves dan. natalie and diana finally have a good talk about what happened to gabe and they all come to terms with the reality they have to live in. im so???? fuck
i suck balls at science and can’t remember anything at all from any of my classes but i think it’s one of the most interesting and unfathomable concepts in the world - and in my world, so does wonu so enJOY
wonwoo and his specs gave me this idea and it ki l l ed m e
so i knew i had to write a lil something abt it :-)
ok where do we start
remembered his mama camping out in the kitchen all the time and then heard the occasional “ah!” as she nipped her finger cutting some onions
and raced like usain freaking bolt to the medicine cabinet to reach the bandaids
and the look in her eyes when he quickly patched it onto her
it was just a bit of blood, but 4 year old!wonwoo was still hopped up on the high kitchen counter with one hand on his hip, the other wiping an imaginary sweat drop from his head, and gave a nice long “phew! you’re ok, ma! scared me there”
then proceeded to yell at her with his extremely not-deep-yet voice (om g can u imagine) for not being careful enough and interrupting his power ranger episode
but a few nipped fingers and a million thank-you smooches (“eW MOM gEt awAY i’m 4, i’m too old for kisses) later, jeon wonwoo decided to become a surgeon
bc how is it not cool to sew severed fingers back together???
so through elementary and junior high, he walked into science class everyday with a little hop in his step for his favourite subject and ready to learn about cells and mitochondrial functions and enigmas of the muscle and much more
until he discovered more than just sewing severed toes and ears back together
he remembered his 7th grade teacher talking about how the brain is the most powerful thing in the world, and just a simple nug to the head can send it all crashing down
he also went on to explain that the brain will never be a mystery solved, but those who try will never be short of acclaim
and since then, he delved into the world of neurology
by delved, i mean, dove the fuck into it, then drowned, then woke, then dove some more
through high school, he topped every single one of his bio classes and won every single science award in the school board
HE’S A GENIUS
and also stays in on sunday afternoons to read his bio 4.6 textbook instead of sushi with friends
leading to best friend mingyu’s endless grumbling and whining that they never get to hang out anymore
meanwhile mingyu has his socks and sweaters and clothes all at wonwoo’s place; has a toothbrush there, buys food for his parents, uses the stove at wonwoo’s more than wonwoo does the pOINT IS HE BASICALLY LIVES WITH WONWOO
but everyone around wonwoo knows how much it means to him to be able to make this work
he marvels about science bc it’s a practicality but finds beauty in its enigma and endless endeavours of research and study
(jeon wonwoo is basically a nerd)
(but a hot one)
but yes, all his life, books, textbooks, textbooks, and books are all he’s known
so with all this accumulated knowledge he literally fucking powers through his undergrad and masters programs like. .. … bruh
he then gets accepted into the second top med school in the country boY
and this was such an eye opening experience for him because as much as his undergrad and masters did for him with theoretical aspects of science, he finally got to do hands on experiments and witness clinical trials and watched a live!! open!! brain!! surgery!!
so finally he goes through his internship and residency for a few years at this amazing hospital in the heart of the city and has already become most renown neurosurgeon the hospital has seen in years despite his age
imagine little wonu in faded green scrubs, with a tiny notepad in his hand and occasionally pushing his glasses up his nose, as he scurries around with his resident trying to take notes during rounds
to this hot-ass, confident, head of neurosurgery surgeon that has nurses and residents (even interns and PATIENTS) slipping on their drool for him in his white coat and cerulean blue dress shirt, the top button left untouched (seungcheol had to slap his hand away multiple times during breakfast to keep him from trying to button it again)
but lbr he still trips over his laces bc he forgot to tie them before he left in the morning and buttons his dress shirt wrong under his white coat when coups doesn’t come in the morning to check up on his wardrobe choices for the day
one time, accidentally brought mingyu’s grocery shopping list from his briefcase to the pharmacy rather than the prescription for ibruprofen for his patient jesus christ wonwoo
the point is, knowledge has always come easy for him, the other stuff have not
,,,,,,and then there’s u
science is ur nemesis
the first time you ever stepped foot into your science class in the sixth grade, every word that came out of ur teacher’s mouth, to you, was just a complete ,,,, , , ,what??
and ur not stupid (actually very completely opposite), ur brain just physically, literally, cannot comprehend the concept of science
even if it may be so extremely fascinating to u, chem!!! physics!!!! and bio!!! are allergic to sticking to ur brain so u just learn to avoid science at. all. costs.
remember when i said that jeon wonwoo was a classic genius and a social termite like he’s so shy and weird around new people that he just deflects it at all costs?
WELL NOT YOU
so u went into journalism bc instead of memorizing formulas and using every unit of area in ur brain, ur communication is ur best friend
through high school and university, you were the campus butterfly
you knew everyone and everyone knew you, and any event that needed an mc? a motivational speaker? a presenter? that’s you!
you and best friend soonyoung always do those stuff together and you fell in love with the art of communicating, articulating, and analyzing information, all the while keeping the listeners intrigued and focused the entire time
but unfortunately the years after ur undergrad trying to look for gigs with ur firm has been extremely unsuccessful and it was to the point where u didn’t know if u wanted to stop this or continue bc it was just too low of a demand
until one day!
u come into ur office and find a piece of paper on the bulletin board talking about the new neural clinical trial happening at this huge hospital near u, and they were looking for someone to cover it!
and at first u were like um kk clinic? try? what?
but .2 seconds later it hits you that thERE’S AN OPEN OPPORTUNITY
and u vow to plow through it as boring as it may be, bc it’s been just sitting there and people haven’t signed up probably cause medical cases are usually a failure and such a bore to talk abt
you need this
so u quickly apply with all the info you need to and two days later, you’re stepping foot into this huge hospital and escorted to the neuro ward to get things started
when u get to the floor ur led by nurse!jeonghan to the head surgeon on this case
i think y’all know where this ish is going
and jeonghan begins asking u a few questions abt the case, trying to gauge where you are with the info, and its safe to say u have nada dirt on this
so he laughs and begins to explain
this was the first clinical trial this hospital has done in 14 years, and despite being a renown teaching and surgical hospital, it has never quite reached its potential on the research aspect
so the new head of neuro, dr. jeON, has decided to go forth with the new clinical trial (an experiment where those with the sickness subjected to the study will volunteer to be apart of the research, using themselves as a way to find a cure) for huntington’s disease, an inherited brain disorder that slowly deteriorates one’s ability to move, speak, function, as brain cells being to die off
he’s already got you so hooked on the case that you begin to wonder why no one at ur firm did an extra bit of research in the first place to snatch this gig
but ur glad anyway CAUSE ITS NOW URS
u probably looked so flabbergasted and numbly excited that jeonghan mistook it for ur cluelessness and nerves, so he goes
“dw, it’ll be fine! dr. jeon here will walk through everything with you anyway, and you’ll basically be with him for the entire course of this trial to document everything, so tomorrow, just immediately head up here”
and knocks on the door labeled “dr. jeon wonwoo, ph.d, m.d., head of neurosurgery”
and for the head of neuro, for someone taking forth in an idea that hasn’t been touched in over a dozen years in such a renown hospital, you did not expect the door to be opened by a
his glasses sat perfectly atop his face as his sharp yet kind eyes rested upon urs
and his white coat and black dress shirt today and nice slim pants and a pair of $200 light brown dress shoes bOI
and when he opens the door and finds ur mouth agape and eyes shining with excitement he feels like a leap in his chest
like who is this beautiful person
and he scolds himself, no wonwoo stop this nOW
and he doesn’t know if it’s bc he hasn’t been on a date in like forever or if it was simply u
answer: it was simply u
but we’ll get to that
and jeonghan notices the tension so begins giggling and retreating from the scene
so wonwoo clears his throat when it’s just the two of you left
introduces himself and you m e l t bc
and you stutter ur name and in his head he’s like o h m g what a pretty name what do i do with myself
so you enter his office and its surprisingly extremely tidy and put together for someone that probably has to worry about so much in a day
and begins to talk about the case with you
and remember the cute and stuttery person that opened the door to see u like 2 minutes ago
bc here’s jeon wonwoo talking about science and his eyes light up brighter than anything you’ve ever seen
he talks about huntington’s first to give you a bit of background as to what it is, and then delves right into his plan
his hands begin to move with his words and he smiles when he begins to talk about how no one has attempted this before and maybe this could make a difference in this hospital, his career, and even medical history!!
and he kinda noticed you blanking when he talked about the logistics of the science so he kinda laughs to himself, knowing that science might not be ur thing
but for some reason, ur ok with science if u have this man talking to u abt it 24/7 ;)))))))
and u take notes on this and he notices ur pretty handwriting so gathers up his GODDAMN COURAGE to ask u a simple question
“so you’re a journalist?”
and u begin to tell him that you loved being able to tlak about something that reflected on someone’s experiences and share them with the world, just liek this one
and he smiles and thanks u, knowing that it must have been difficult to agree to a medical case
u assure him its no problem, meanwhile swooning over his s m i l e
and it’s only been like 30 minutes but u’ve already developed a crush like wow
so for the first week, your conversations are a wholesome mixture of science, stutters, facepalming when u say something cringey and accidentally, and hoping to make the other laugh
in the second week, you begin to meet the patients coming in, taking each of their stories and details with huntington’s
and for the first time, you see how wonwoo interacts with his patients
and that crush that you developed become sso much more - you have this whole new found respect for him as a doctor
with care and intent, he asks his patients abt their day before going right into details of the treatment, knowing that all these people are doing his career a favour and the least he can do before they risk their lives into this experiment is at least be their friend
and even 70 year old women that can barely move anymore still manage to blush at the sound of his voice
u see the way he holds their hand when he’s explaining the process and the courteous nod of his head as they talk to him and u know this man is more than just a surgeon and that he’s just an amazing human
by the third week, your conversations have now transitioned to telling each other what u did last night and what ur planning for dinner tonight
and u know to bring him coffee every morning now
the first time u did it, he legit had STARS in his eyes bc o mg u r so cute
and u guessed it right the first time, that he liked his coffee black with just a dash of sugar
GET THE METAPHOR
by the end of the month, the more you learn about him, the more you’re amazed
you guys become closer and share the passion of wanting to help ppl in some way
and ur relationship now has become a complete budding and teasing relationship and there’s literally never a dull moment with u
ur fav thing to do together is to do acrostic poems
u also take bets on who’s sleeping with who in the hospital
he always wins
“its not fair u OBVIOUSLY know more abt them than i do!!!”
“hey babe, dont hate the player, hate the game”
and then u have to keep ur knees from buckling bc bABE ? ?? ? ?
the nurses always comment on how you’ve brought him so far out of his shell and he never really used to talk to anyone besides his patients, but he’s been treating his residents to dinner, helping the nurses out with the paperwork, and it’s only been happening since u came
and u r like
. . ,,, ?? me?
and they’re like yes! do u not notice how red he turns everytime u walk into the room?
you soon learn his favourite colour is blue
his favourite band is my chemical romance
im kiddin g
his best friend is mingyu and he’s a chef
you learn that he has a younger brother and his first ever splurge was buying him and his parents a cottage by the ocean
also that he never really eats at home and he barely ever gets to go home bc of the gruelling hours and so he tends to just eat in his office before he checks up on his patients during night rounds
you also learn that he’s having a housewarming party for his new condo this saturday and was wondering if yoU’D LIKE TO COME ALONG???
by this point, your research was mainly complete and you were a third finished with ur piece on this
so ur like y know what? SURE
and u try ur fucking best not to blush, but as you leave for the night, jeon wonu does a HUGE happy dance in his office before realizing that his walls and doors are glass and peopLE CAN SEE U WONWOO GODDAMn
but he texts u his address with a smirky face
“jeon wonwoo why are u sending me a text w a smirky face”
“idk that was my attempt to be cool did it work”
so it was ur day off on the day of his party and u know wonwoo doesn’t really throw stuff like this cause he only has a “small” group of friends
“it’s only gonna be u and my small group of friends”
“well i grew up with these guys, there are abt 13 of us”
“THIRTEEN ISN’T SMALL”
and usually you’d be fine bc u have no problem meeting ppl but like these are wonwoo’s brothers???
you wanna try so hard to impress these people bc–
wait wonu isn’t ur bf??? WYD
SNAP OUT OF IT
so u slap urself and then take like four hours to find the right outfit and do ur hair nicely
and u show up in ur fav outfit and look bomb asf yas
and he opens the door after u knock
he’s wearing a simple white t-shirt and ripped jeans
head of neurosurgery
in ripped jeans
and as u lose ur words, he also loses his and ur both just standing there clearly REALIZING THAT UR IN LOVE WITH THE OTHER PERSON AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME YOU’VE EVER WORN ANYTHING OTHER THAN PROFESSIONAL CLOTHING AND WOW? SO? NICE?
so he snaps out of it bc yes i’m hosting this party thts right, and brings u inside
you hear a bunch of exclaiming and hushing from inside the rooms and a lot of limbs knocking into the walls as 13 human beings sprint from inside of the condo to mEET THE JOURNALIST THAT JEON WONWOO HASN’T SHUT UP ABOUT IN TWO MONTHS
and they all rush out and ur a bit overwhelmed but introduce urself and then scan through all the faces
you notice nurse!jeonghan, head of pediatrics!chan, his best friend, mingyu, and–
yes ur best friend from uni also happens to have grown up in the same neighbourhood as surgeon jeon and u cant believe ur luck
so hoshi jumps out from the herd of men and tackles you with a hug and u can’t believe this until wonwoo explained he didn’t tell them ur name bc they would go crazy stalker-bitch mode, hence why they were so excited to meet u today
so the rest of the night was spent with everyone being completely loud and tipsy and pushing the two of u together in an attempt to be slick they’re not
and u see the bond that all the boys have and how boisterous wonwoo is around them too and u feel so lucky and ur heart is so full to witness a group of people truly in love and as close with one another
so by the end of the night, as they all leave, soonyoung stops u at the door before he goes and tells u how happy he is that after losing touch post-uni, u’ve managed to bump into each other today again
but he also hugs u and tells u that wonwoo hasn’t shut up abt u
and that he hasn’t been in touch with his brothers in a rlly long time bc of stress and anticipation with this new project
and that although wonwoo doesn’t do this much, he can tell that he’s super comfortable around u and that he seems to glow when he talks abt u
and ur like omg s o noyougn st op po
so after he leaves, you stay behind to help clean up
but you’ve also decided
bc ur project is almost over and the paper is almost finished and ur ok with leaving on this note, regardless of if he reciprocates the feelings or not
u just had to tell him, it was in ur nature to
and u almsot back out but at the door, just as ur about to leave
you were gonna say it
his lips are on urs and god they’re soft and ur eyes just close immediately and his two hands cup ur face, intensifying the kiss, holding u up and taking up ur space as if he owns it and wow, it does things to u
after what feels like an eternity, you part and u look at him with his swollen lips and rosy cheeks and glistening eyes and u almost cried right then adn there
bc wow ur in love with jeon wonwoo and u can’t believe u haven’t even told him that
“i’ve been waiting to do that for so long”
“idiot, i was gonna confess first”
shrugs “i guess i just beat u in everything then”
that gets a smack on the head
until he asks u to stay the night and he can drive u both to work in the morning tomorrow and u agree bc how can u say no and so u end up staying over and wearing his sweater to bed and he lies there in bed literally hyperventilating bc SWEATERS ARE HIS WEAKNESS LIKE WHAT
so u drive into work the next morning with ur hands intertwined and in the corner of ur eye as ur walking in, u see head of pediatrics!chan slap a fifty dollar bill into nurse!jeonghan’s hands
so the rest of that month is spent going through with each patient and stealing chaste kisses in the x-ray viewing rooms and getting teased by everyone in the hospital
even the patients
until by the third month, the trial hits its first roadblock
patient 04 had died on the table just as jeon wonwoo was inserting the second tube, and as surprised as u are that this was the first malfunction with the trial, it hits u nonetheless
hearing the news, u drop everything and go to his office after the surgery
this was the first taste of adversity in ur relationship too and u were curious to see as to how you guys were going to deal with this, esp since ur work was integrated into ur personal life
but u walk in and there he is
eating a freaking popsicle
jeon wonwoo’s patient just died on the table and he’s in here eating ice cream
and u didn’t know if u were confused? angry? horrified?
and u close the door behind u as u walk in and draw the blinds for the glass walls and windows
and as u turn around from doing that, he chucks the popsicle into the bin, walks up to you slowly and drops his head onto ur shoulder
you freeze, unsure if he’s crying or not, but u hear steady breathing and his arms slowly creeping around u and ur sure he isn’t
but u can tell that he’s exhausted and scared, even if no words are shared between the two of u
so you both stand there for god knows how long, holding each other, breathing each other in, releasing all tension and heartache from the day without a single word, just the sound of heartbeats and breathing
until finally he lifts his head, eyes droopy and a small smile on his face, arms still around you, when u cup his face and tell him that ur so damn proud of him
everything is going to hit a roadblock at some point, and this was bound to happen. we entered this knowing that it was science; anything can happen. just hang in there, wonu, we can do it
and that was the first time wonu said i love u out loud
and for all the people that doubted he was going to ever get a girlfriend with his head stuck in so many textbooks, it was the head stuck in the textbook method that even got him here to meet u in the first place SO SUCK IT
and so by the time u finish ur paper and the trial is reaching its end, there was a mixture of patients that successfully responded to the trial and those that didn’t make it
but ur paper gets high acclaim from hospitals across the province for its research and editorial skills
and wonwoo received the highest achievement award from the board for his endeavours with the trial
and after many long and gruelling months filled with work and chaste kisses here and there
you finally have time to take a seat and take in everything
and marvel at wonu as a surgeon and as a human
bc how in the damn world did u ever get so lucky with science??
this,, ,, ,, is so long but enjoy bc i love jeon wonwoo
He wants to know everything. How you got hurt. Who hurt you. Where you got hurt. Was it one of his brothers? LEO NEEDS TO KNOW OKAY GIVE HIM THE ANSWERS THIS POOR BABY IS WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU. You could probably get special treatment out of him for days.
Like Leo, Raph wants to know everything, and if it WAS someone who hurt you, you best believe hE’S GOING OUT THERE AND KICKING SOME MOTHERFUCKING ASS BECAUSE NO ONE HURTS HIS QUEEN AND GETS AWAY WITH IT OKAY SOMEONE DISRESPECTS YOU THEY DISRESPECT HIM
“Babe, sweetie, honey, cutie, LET ME JUST LOOK AT IT PLEASE”
“DONNIE NO I’M FINE” Dr. Donnie is on the case. don’t want that to get infected do we. He’ll also give you the specialist of treatment and totally make you wrap up in blankets w hot coco (even if you have just a bruise.) and for his own piece of mind, just let him look at it.
Funny faces, kisses, cuddles and aLL OF THE JOKES YOU COULD ASK FOR BECAUSE THIS BABE KNOWS THAT LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE. I MEAN LOOK AT HIM YOU’RE TELLING ME HE WONT TRY HIS HARDEST TO MAKE YOU FEEL 100X BETTER