finally getting back to working on commissions, and winded down the night with this fun sketch of Gem’s chimera form. Been meaning to draw an actual piece of this form for awhile now and finally decided to sit down and work on it. I’ve been very happy with her redesign but I haven’t really gotten to draw it at all. It’s a design I still need to get used to since it juggles a lot of contrasting elements.
Really fast mess of a sketch so far, but it’s got the gist of what I want, so I feel like sharing so I HOPEFULLY finish this later.
Your blog gives me the same feeling of holding hot chocolate while wearing fuzzy socks in the peak hours of the morning when the rain is trickling down and cool wind is sweeping by and I thank you for that.
(it’s long so prepare or scroll really fast if you wanna pass it)
me, 1993, wtf is a gender i wear diapers for god sakes
late 90s, rockin some shades and some crazy sweaters even though i live in FL (still do that to this day)
time jump to… early 2000s, flexin and loving dogs (still doing that to this day wassup somethings never change)
oh wow here comes Middle School™ and the emo phase begins (sadly no pics during the emo phase)
oh shit what up 2008 scene phase yes that is a STAY BRUTAL™ sweater)
then ya boy calmed down a bit and stopped giving a fuck about impressing ppl (idk why I thought being scene was impressive dont ask)
ya boy graduated HS and was free to do whatever to his hair so colors were everywhere but also was the time when his self worth was at his lowest and was dressing and looking how he thought people would want so he could get them to like him (ew right?)
ya boy got his very first mohawk and rocked that shit for a few years
dis is some pics of the year he starts questioning his gender identity and after 6 months of research and “soul searching” decides to start HRT
yo boy is SIX MONTHS ON T !!! and starting to grow facial hair B)
YO BOY IS ONE (1) YR ON T AND JUST HAD TOP SURGERY! but also shaved his head a few months back and feels hella ugly lol
fwd and we are now 1.5 years on T ! Hair is finally coming in and he’s look decent these days.
WHOOOA LONG HAIR WHO DIS!!! YA BOYS TWO (2) YEARS ON T !!! and 1 YR POST OP! Feeling amazing tbh
ooo shit we winding down now yall
ya boy is Two (2) years and 3 months on T and thankful every day that his blood work came back with the all clear to start T, thankful for his support group and friends/family that love and support him (shout out to my sister), thankful for how well he’s transitioned even though it was long and hard on the mental state a lot of the time, he pushed through and came out the other end smiling and happy in his skin. Thankful every day that he can afford to start on HRT, thankful every day for all the support he gets online from kind words to donations that helped afford top surgery + donations I got when he was filing for the name change as well.
I’m posting this in hopes that it helps anyone who needs it. I’m a huge believer in doing things for yourself and making sure your happiness/comfort is always first before someone else’s. I hope it gives inspiration and motivation to those who are scared to transition in fear of what their families will think, in fear of how they will transition, fear of all the nerve wracking things that comes with HRT. Hoping that it shows you, that while HRT isn’t an over night fix, that takes time and a lot of hard days but in the end, you come out on top. It’s still a struggle some days but nothing compared to the days when I was pre-T.
Feel free to message me if you have any questions about HRT with T and I’m happy to answer to the best of my ability!
My name is NIkk and I’m non binary! He/him pronouns =)
concept: cassandra de rolo got some sort of vacation during the timeskip where she went to ank’harel with just her and trish and she was allowed to be a tourist and not deal with politics for a week or so and j’mon sa ord called her up simply so they could commiserate over having to deal with vm while drinking tea