double-knotted

one time saturn itself sprouted legs and a gender, landed, double knotted his nikes
straightened his rings and held my hand to the soft spot of himself, that place where
his skin bruised the shape of new jersey during that diorama life when we were all fruits
swinging like balls of yarn
trying to unbecome

the earth was a potato with a nickel lodged into its side, then –
i remember that much, and saturn was a peach
                                   i was a something with wings feeding on the nectar,
trying to get the pit where just enough cyanide is stored
            his rings weren’t yet crystallized around the gravity of himself
            his rings were still trying to be a harp inside his hum, then.
            i guess i found something in the way his flesh crooned itself tender
from the inside out, i guess i never forgot the annihilation
i guess i tucked it into my skin condition,
into the way my biology is always failing to replicate the song,
to bring this planet closer
i guess he’s never been mine, but still Saturn comes to me

sprouts cartoon eyeballs, an appreciation for hydrangeas
he grabs my other hand, pulls me down oxford street to the nearest bush, he says

WOW LOOK AT THIS FLOWER RIGHT HERE. IT’S WAVING TO ME, I THINK IT USED TO BE MY EYELASH ONCE AND THEN I WANTED TO BE A REAL BOY. I DON’T KNOW IF I WANT TO BE A REAL BOY ANYMORE. DO YOU HEAR IT CRYING?

saturn is crying

saturn plucks the flower, hands it to me, tells me to keep it safe
i shove it in my nose. i tell him, that’s where i store my love
the rest is somewhere in the ocean

he says HEY ME TOO, ME TOO. I STORE MY LOVE INSIDE A WHALE, because of course he does and then he tells me IT’S TUCKED BEHIND THE STEINWAY OF ITS TEETH, ATOP THE INK BLOTS OF ITS TONGUE. YOU KNOW, I STILL FEEL IT THERE, LIKE A PHANTOM LIMB. I THINK THAT’S WHY I CAN’T LOVE YOU. I THINK THAT’S WHY I STILL WANT TO.

I THINK SOMETIMES I AM STILL SINGING FOR YOU. SOMEWHERE IN THE PACIFIC.

my hand still pressed to his soft spot and now saturn hugging himself to the tune of me, wanting to hold one flower to the bruise of himself but still, always wanting all of the flowers, every flower, and he Loves Me Loves Me Not Today but he Did Once but now saturn lives in the sky. stores his pit in the mouth of a sea elephant
he drowns his love and calls it a whale song

saturn says IF I COULD FIT INTO ANYONE’S NOSE I’D WANT IT TO BE YOURS

saturn steps closer, trips over his shoelaces, he falls to the earth.
somewhere out there, tectonics groan. a car alarm goes off.
i imagine that half of california is falling into the ocean.

— 

saturn’s return, jess riz @ electric cereal

just got all emotional n stuff while editing this poem for a portfolio so i wanted to post it. whenever i read this over i feel better about the events that happened + feelings i had that made me write it. and that’s really cool !!!! i feel lucky that i can make my own medicine

i carry a tongue-tied heart
that has forgotten how
to speak in regular beats.
instead, every second
is a stutter, an
explosion under the skin.
a firecracker bubbling.

is there a scientific name for this?

i carry a land mine
between my cheeks. a
battlefield of lovers
fighting in silence.
mouths that trace each scar
back to the beginning:
the downfall of the
very first star.

keep your eyes open.
we don’t want to miss it.


i carry a fist full of
bad habits.
cigarettes.
bitten nails.
a pair of good running shoes.
an empty bottle of whatever
i can afford at the time,
as long as it burns
on the way down.

quick,
fill my mouth
with the memories of
what could have been.
—  A.Y // double knotted

A Course in Advanced Tie Knots

Here is all you need to know about “advanced” tie knots: they are useless and you shouldn’t wear them.

Above is the absurdly dumb “Eldredge Knot,” but it’s far from the only offender. Rarely does a week go by where I don’t end up with an email about Pratt knots or Winchester knots or Dubble Bubble knots or some other goofy stuff.

Here’s a summary of useful tie knots:

The Four in Hand

The old around-around-behind-over-through. The classic four in hand knot is simple, easy to tie, holds a dimple well, and is appropriate for any situation. It is slightly asymmetrical, which is desirable. It is more flattering to most men, more relaxed and more distinctive. Really the only time this knot isn’t suitable is with a very skinny, insubstantial tie.

The Double Four in Hand

This is the four in hand knot with an added wrap-around, as seen in this video by our friend GW. Useful if you are shorter and need to use up some extra length from an off-the-rack tie, or if you prefer a slightly fuller knot. I use it once in a while to give more structure to the knot of a knit tie.

The Half Windsor

If you’re one of those people who insists on symmetry, go ahead and use the half Windsor (or the Pratt, I guess). Just know that none of the Windsors ever wore the Windsor, half or otherwise. They wear the four in hand for the reasons outlined above. And look better because of it. (The full Windsor should be the exclusive province of Donald Trump and former NFL stars and other people whose goal is to look like a jerk.)

Everything Else

Is silly bullshit.

1. So double knot your shoe laces and catch the train by yourself to a place you have never been. Get your feet wet, your hands dirty and return home exhausted enough to collapse onto your mattress before any bad thoughts may start to seep in.

2. Plant a peace lily in your bedroom and one day you will wake up to it blooming. Let it be a reminder that your external environment affects your internal one; ensure that both remain peaceful.

3. Start to wake up before dusk and pace yourself around the suburbs. How nice it is to be awake when the rest of the cities asleep. And how nice it is to feel alive before coffee graces your lips in the early hours of the morning.

4. Meditate. You may think that its useless in the beginning but have trust in the process. Release yourself and be vulnerable. You will open yourself to new and enlightened perspectives. You will also train your mind to be calm during times when everything starts to feel displaced around you. You will be thankful once you get the hang of it.

5. Listen to music; both old and new. Let the old remind you of your parents upbringing. Let the old remind you that some things will never die. Meanwhile, let the new show you how things are constantly evolving. Let the new guide you into new ways of thinking and new waves of experience. 

6. Write your feelings down on paper. Not because it serves any particular purpose but because its good to write things down in more tangible ways. If your thoughts disturb you, simply rip them up. This is much more gratifying than deleting posts on any form of social media.

7. Be silly with strangers. You may just meet some one that is willing to make a fool of themselves with you. Get there phone numbers and keep them. They don’t care about what others think of them. They care about connecting, making the most of moments and things that are infinitely more important than how you are perceived by those that know little of you. 

8. Go places and travel. Don’t feel the need to instagram it. Don’t be one of those people that need to constantly prove to others that you are having a good time. Keep those memories to yourself some times. How lovely it is to have a little bit of mystery and intimacy in this world that revolves around proving ourselves constantly. Likes aren’t proof of any thing after all.

9. Smile. When you are sad and everything seems to be daunting and terrifying find the power within to fake a laugh. You will probably end up laughing at yourself for thinking that placebos will work when you are completely aware that it is indeed a placebo. Do it anyway. It is better to try new things that seem ridiculous than to refuse to do so simply out of fear that it will fail.

10. Eat what makes you feel your best. Don’t feel the need to follow a diet trend or be enticed by articles about the “best” dieting miracle yet. Realise that everyones body is different, we are intolerant to different things and thrive on different things. Eat the earth and you can do no wrong. But also be mindful that some of us thrive on natural sugars, whilst others thrive on healthy fats and lean proteins. Decide what works for you and don’t let dogmatic voices tell you that your choice is wrong. 

11. Be kind. Every one struggles, every one second guesses themselves at times and no one knows exactly where they are heading. Once you understand this you will not only be more at ease with yourself, but you will also find yourself being kinder to others. Be kind, always be kind. Be kind to others but don’t neglect being kind to yourself first and foremost. Its a free way of showing we are all connected, that we are all worthy despite our respected differences and that we are all in this together.

—  11 is always better than 10 // R.O
I know one day I will forget the way you felt lying next to me and the way you smelled and the way you didn’t like when your shoelaces were not double knotted because you loved stability and security and I wasn’t able to give you that because I just happened to be the moon who goes through many phases while you were the steady sun who gave me the light to shine. Even though I will never see you again I will always love the way you gave me a reason to shine
—  I wasn’t ready to fall this hard

Double Pentacle, Cedar Woodcarving -by Signs of Spirit on Art Fire and Etsy

MEANING: The upward point of the star is representative of the spirit. The other four points all represent an element; earth, air, fire, and water. All these things contribute to life and are a part of each of us.

The implication of a 5 pointed star with one point down, is of spirit subservient to matter, of man subservient to his carnal desires. While some see this as representing the dark side and consider it an evil symbol, in Gardnerian Wicca (which is usually considered to be the earliest tradition of Wicca still in existence and from which most subsequent Wiccan traditions are derived) the inverted pentacle is the symbol of Gardnerian second degree initiation, representing the need of the witch to learn to face the darkness within so that it may not later rise up to take control. 

The circle symbolizes eternity and infinity, the cycles of life and nature; it contains and protects. The circle touching all points indicates that the spirit, earth, air, water and fire are all connected and becomes a symbol of the holistic relationship between Human Spirituality and the Physical Universe.

So, by combining the two pentacles, we have the lessons of the physical over the spiritual and the self-awareness facing our attachments to the ‘illusions of manifestation’; balanced with the striving of Humanity (earthly elements) to reach for Spirit (the Divine). 

Aside from the symbolic meaning…
Coop’s carving of this piece is truly masterful! He is taking a board that is less then one inch deep and carving 3 separate levels…without breaking the piece…most of the time…

vimeo

An Acute Style Ties a Double Four-In-Hand Knot

A few people have asked me for instructions/details on how I tie my tie.  I included steps in the video, but here are a few extra notes.

0:33 - Pinch the double loop as you pull the long blade through so the loop keeps its shape.

0:44 - Pull the edges away from the knot to get rid of some of the wrinkles in the long blade.  

Enjoy.  

If you wondering, the tie is from Lands End, the shirt is from Modern Tailor, and the watch strap is from the Knottery.