the posture theory

for @drownedpoet​ and the two anons who asked

  • neil has great posture
  • since he’s shorter than most adults, standing and sitting up straight always gave him a better vantage point to survey areas when he was on the run
  • it also helped when he was younger and had to appear older 
    • so people would stop asking so many questions about why “such a nice young boy was doing things he shouldn’t be"
    • it made things like buying cigarettes, driving, and carrying a gun so much simpler when he wasn’t being interrogated every five minutes
  • breathing was much easier as well in the bulletproof vests he always wore
    • wearing kevlar is a lot like wearing a chest binder, it’s restrictive and makes breathing a pain in the ass
    • sitting up straight was at least a partial solution to this problem
  • not to mention it gave him an intimidating look that kept people at a healthy distance and made sure he wasn’t bothered
  • it also made it easier to jump into a fighting stance in a seconds notice if necessary
  • sleeping back to back with his mother reinforced the habit 
    • neither of them could sleep if there was even the smallest gap between their bodies
    • life on the run from people constantly trying to kill you makes you rightfully cautious and a little bit paranoid, so it’s nice to have the grounding weight of someone you trust at your back
  • he also used to be a dancer, but that’s another au/headcanon
  • andrew, on the other hand, has terrible posture
  • his childhood was spent slouching down trying to disappear and look like less of a target
  • he would sleep curled into himself with his back against the wall so he would be harder to grab
    • it also made it harder for drake to take his clothes off
  • hiding was easier as well
    • getting used to being tucked into himself made squeezing into tight spaces for up to a couple of hours at a time to avoid drake much more comfortable
  • slipping away from being held is about 90% easier when you’re slouched as it allows for quicker movement
    • this didn’t take andrew more than twice to learn
  • andrew never really saw the point of good posture when his body never really belonged to him anyway
    • this is his depression talking, but he doesn’t care
  • i mean what’s the point of worrying about posture when you don’t plan on living long enough to be affected by it?

Hey uhhhhhhh… if a fictive or other headmate feels like “they’re not real”, (and it’s because of the fact that they’re a fictive or headmate), it usually isn’t the same as singlet depersonalization

It’s more like the result of people telling you that you’re just a delusion and the same person as the host and you start believing it and you go “Oh my God my existence is just a lie”

I guess I kinda say this because when I’ve said “I don’t feel real”, people usually respond with the usual responses of “Try grounding yourself by counting objects” when really that makes me a bit more afraid because I feel just like a dissociated state

Like if I say this just tell me I’m real and/or show me evidence that I’m not the same person as the host

anonymous asked:

is Emily okay?? im very worried

she should be okay, it’s just been some nasty health problems causing a strain on her life. i’m sure she’d appreciate it if everyone could be patient while she tries to sort herself out

ill never be enough for anyone ill always want more from others and ill never give them anything god im not enough for anybody im just so fucking useless and so impulsive and disgusting i just want to feel like someone wants me and loves me and wants to take care of me but nobody does nobody wants me or loves me or wants to take care of me and its too much to ask for anyways bc im just a worthless bitch who doesnt fucking do damn anything for damn anyone 

Cute past!Ardyn with his black chocobo *_*
I want to know more about Ardyn’s past life before he became evil guy…