there will be a day when you find someone, they don’t have to be a boyfriend or a girlfriend, they are just the one person who can make you laugh when you want to cry, they can change your view on the world, they make you loved when you’re at your lowest. they will be your shoulder when tears are falling down your face, they will be your crutch when you are broken, they never let you go a day thinking you are unwanted. the one who makes you the best you can be. this person is your soul mate darling, don’t ever let them go.
But baby, what happened to wanting to hear my voice and how you can’t wait to have me in your arms? What happened to not wanting to say goodbye. Because here I am, in the middle of the night wondering how you could just forget about me. How you could tell me that I am crazy and you are happy i am far. What happened to the I love you and you will never leave? Because here i am, completely alone and no one to tell I love you one last time before i fall asleep dreaming about our future together.
I keep telling myself I don’t love you, it’s gotten to the point where I can lie and I almost believe it but then I see you and my heart starts pounding and all of a sudden I can’t remember why I don’t want to love you, stupid right? I think so because then I remember why I can’t love you. You’ll break my heart, you’ll make me feel loved, happy, and everything else but just when I start thinking you love me too, you’ll leave. You’ll leave and forget all about the late night calls, the good morning texts, & drunken kisses. You’ll leave me and then I’ll be left to pick up all the pieces. You’ll break me so until it’s true, I’ll keep lying.