dont worry about me im just yeah

anonymous asked:

I genuinely hope you find happiness in England, and I hope the nhs can help you- free healthcare rocks :> <3

ME. FUCKING. TOO. this year has been a /catastrophe/ for me as someone chronically and mentally ill and not getting the healthcare ive needed…

man like the month i just spent in London w Sam was so good and it was so good FOR me…before i left i was so sick, i didnt think id be able to do ANYTHING while i was there…but it was amazing, being able to be with someone i really loved, who wanted to help me manage all my problems without any complaints (they went and bought a ton of food that i could eat before i even got there bc i have weirdly specific dietary needs lmao) and it was just. so nice. we were able to watch out for each other and we both benefitted from it so much. i was still sick, i still had pain and fatigue and anxiety but i also had THEM and they didnt hold any of my disability against me even once. and after a relationship where i was routinely manipulated as a result of the help i needed just to live with my illnesses, it was…world-changing.

and if i could get good health care ON TOP OF THAT boy oh boy we are in business i might actually be able to really focus on my art again and start living the life i WANT 


Eva: we cant come up with anything else to give her?

Noora: like, a card? What if we perform something?

Eva: yeah, yeah!

Noora: something… Moroccan or something?

Eva: something that everyone will remember 

Text: hey chris. do you have any money i could borrow? like 1000 kroner? Its okay if you have less too, i promise you will get them back 1st of july, along with those 750 i owe you already. Its just a top that is on sale now that ive wanted forever. and i dont want to ask mom because ive borrowed so insanely much of her lately

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Part 18 - Young Hearts

Hey guys ! its been awhile. Been pretty busy with studies and work, that I was just physically and mentally worn out.

Last week I was on my way to work, scrolling through JackD as usual, checking out hot guys nearby and I stumbled upon a very cute boy I just couldn’t resist initiating a conversation.

Me : Cute.

Hanson : Thanks. you’re cute too.

Me : So are you studying ?

Hanson : Ya. In design field.  You ?

Me : ( I didn’t reply him for 3 days) (busy working) 

well after the 3 days of course I did reply him saying sorry for late replying explaining etc and both of us were pretty chatty and eventually end up texting on Whatsapp instead. In between the time of us texting each other I felt something to be honest, as we’re both replying our messages the moment we sent, tell about hows your day etc. Getting to know each other.

on Friday night. we were texting the whole night after we both came back from classes. We kinda talk about relationships and he was kinda emotional when we talk about it and I felt sorry for bringing up his unpleasant memories with his past relationships experience so I called his number : 

Hanson : (Sniffing)

Me : Hey… you okay ?

(In silence)

Hanson : yeah. Im okay

Me : Sorry to bring that up.

Hanson : nah dont worry. Its fine

Me : just wanna call to check if you’re okay

Hanson : aw..

and we continue talking over the phone for the next few hours.

Hanson : Hey. Thanks for calling.

Me : anytime Hanson.

Hanson : See ya tomorrow ?

Me : sure. Our bubble tea date.

Got myself a haircut and drove to his place. He was standing there with a black t-shirt, dark brown long sleeves shirt on top, white shorts, his cute face and perfect jawline. As he got into my car. We greeted each other (I like his British accent) and drowning in our own world talking non-stop despite the bad traffic.

Hanson : Sorry if I talked too much

Me : Its fine. I love talking too. I told you I’m all ears for you today.

Hanson : You’re very cute you know ?

Me : (just smiled at him)

As we reach The Gardens Mall, we had our lunch and of course our promised Bubble Tea at Gongcha. We both love bubble tea and he’s favorite was Gongcha while I prefer Koi and I’ve never tried Gongcha before. 

Me : (taking the first sip of my Gongcha)

Hanson : How was it How was it ? (excited)

Me : Erm its good. 

Hanson : (look down and frowned a little) 

Me : No no its good. The pearls is chewy but I prefer Koi’s but the tea here is better !

Hanson : (Smiled) the tea is better ? 

                                                      He’s cute.

While on our way home at 6. I drove him back to my place since its empty. I took a shower, put on my singlet and tight boxers. We were laying on the bed watching some video clips I promised him to watch together. Halfway through the videos I got carried away by the look on his face, just staring at him

Hanson : (Looking at me) What ? (Laughing)

Me : Nothing. (smiling)

Me : Do you wanna watch another one ?

Hanson : I’m a little tired. Do you want to rest awhile ?

Me : Sure.

Covered ourselves in blanket and staring at each other without physical contacts. This is the kind of silence I enjoy being in. As I put my hands on his face fondling his cheeks and ears to the back of his head touching his hair.

Hanson : Do you want to cuddle ? (smiling)

I open my arms wide as he dives into my embrace. Its really been awhile I felt so happy and comfortable, same goes to him. With his head resting on my shoulder. His hands holding my back tightly, smelling me.

Hanson : You’re so nice to hug…

On and off we let out very deep breath as a sign of feeling comfortable hugging each other. My fingers were running across his hair.

Hanson : You smell so good…

Gently. I gave him a kiss on his forehead. 

Me : let me switch off the lights.

I woke up and switched off the lights. Put on my favorite music and lay back down on the bed with him laying right next to me.

Me : (Whispering next to his ears) thank you for coming.

Hanson : Thanks for asking me out too. 

   “The Lumineers : I belong with you. You belong with me in my sweet hut”

Hanson : where do you wanna go for dinner later ? 

Me : (Whispering softly next to him) Anywhere as long as I’m with you.

Hanson : Aww. (Got on top of me and gave me a quick kiss on my lips)

as he lay back down and hide his face into the pillow.

Hanson : (Mumbling) I hope you don’t mind that (Shyly laughing with his face still hiding in the pillow) 

I got ahold of his chin and remove his face from hiding under the pillow and gave him a proper kiss this time. It felt like it lasted forever. Detaching our lips from each other. We were smiling and my hands fondling his face, bring him closer to me as he rest on my shoulders. 

On and off we kissed, hugged, laughed as he burps halfway kissing, laughed as he tried very hard to flirt (he’s nerdy but cute.) and showering me in compliments. 

In the midst of cuddling with the lights off. My eyes were open and doubts were swimming across my mind. In that moment, I felt so vulnerable. As if my heart just turned to glass that it could shatter in any second. But I closed my eyes just enjoying his presence for now. 

Hanson : I wish I could stay..I can do this all night (resting on me) 

It was almost 1am and I said : 

Me : Hey..its late do you wanna go home ?

Hanson : I don’t want to leave…

I smiled at him, woke up from laying down. His hand reaches mine and pull me back down to the bed. 

As we’re really about to leave. My hands reaches for the door knob. He was hugging me from behind tightly whispering : 

Hanson : Can I see you again ?

turns around and hugged him.

Me : Yes you will.

In the midst of silence, all that left heard was our heartbeat, the warmth of our bodies, smell of his that was left on my singlet, the love of his that fills up my tank, the smiled left on my face. 

Hanson : Thanks for spending time with me today (hugging me tightly) I hope I am not draining your energy.

Me : I’m recharging. ( in my most sincere tone)

Hanson : aww. (Look up to me and gave me a kiss)

Me : now let’s go and fill up your tummy !

Despite his small body he could eat big portions even at this ungodly hour. On our way back, I stared at him for a few seconds.

Hanson : eyes on the road boy !

I just smiled

              “Coldplay : Lights will guide you home. I will try to fix you.”

Its hard to not admit that I don’t feel a thing. I’m human after all.  

But we’ll see where this ship will sail this time. 

Come what may. xo

transboyprinxe  asked:

I'm a trans man. I feel awful when i wear my favorite vest because its a feminine cut. I love it, but it makes me feel awful wearing it bc im constantly misgendered. Obviously i dont pass, but i just want to look cool and not worry about being misgendered

Ey man, I know the struggle. I mean, I rarely even pass when wearing exclusively masc clothes, but yeah.

But, recently I started being more cool about being misgendered because I had a ~Realisation~

I might explain this badly

We are raised in a society that tells us “people with this characteristic are of this gender”, and it is forced upon us all our life. And that makes trans people feel like shit. Capitalism benefits from that, it feeds on our misery and doesn’t want to make it better for us.
So basically, people misgender you cuz they dont know better, because that is what they have been taught their whole life

The main part is; that doesnt really change anything, you are a man, and even if someone points at you and misgenders you; you are still a man, they are just wrong. No matter how many times they misgender you it will not change the fact that you are, in fact, a man.
Like, if there is a pen on the floor and someone says it is a marker. It doesn’t suddenly turn into a marker, even if the person is Really convinced it is a marker, it is still a damn pen.

And who gives a fuck about what others think? People will hate on ya and try to label ya as all kinds of different shit, no matter who you are an what you do about it. Be who you are; their oppinions don’t matter.

And if someone misgenders you even after you tell em you are a man, they are an asshole and they can go fuck themselves.

So yeah
Idk hope that made sense
I mean I still get dysphoric and that ache when someone missgenders me but it is getting better. And now less often I feel like someone stabs me with the knife but more angry at the society for spreading Lies.

~ mod Petar

anonymous asked:

I really want to comfort you about this weight issue you seem to have. You're very sensitive about the topic. I find it interesting that you only listened/heard them talk about when they dont eat, but didnt mention anything about them talking about eating or over eating. Your post about their food consumption always makes me worry so much more about you than them. Im sorry youre having a tough time. ♡

asndsjkds yeah sorry ;; i can’t help this, the moment they start talking about not being confident in their looks because they gained weight or that they diet i just,, i get so upset and angry?? usually whenever the topic is brought up i deal with all these bad thoughts the only way i can: proving myself that food is no longer my enemy and that i don’t need to starve myself or diet to be happy by eating well out of spite alsakdsdjfds so even if i react badly and say some worrying stuff i’m as okay as i can be i guess. the worst thing i do these days is over eat whenever something triggers me but other than that i’m fine. i’m not doing any stupid stuff, please don’t worry about me!  

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anonymous asked:

i hate the fact that jk was sitting beside tae while jm was sitting alone when they were eating pizza on the ep2 of bon voyage pls calm me down

Well imma start by telling you not too much about it worry babes. Tae, Jimin, and Jungkook were enjoying all themselves eating thier pizza, and im 99.9% sure that Jimin wasnt feeling left out or not included at all, and was enjoying himself just as much. So yeah dont worry about it :) I mean…. most likely they didnt even think about their sitting arrangement at all when they sat down. Like literally, they probably just walked in and each sat down in a chair. Jungkook wasnt thinking “I need to be beside Taehyung” and Taehyung wasnt thinking “I need to be beside Jungkook” while Jimin was left out. Thats literally just how they sat down so its all g ma friend. 

@dextroamino replied to your post: dumb thing to worry about but im hurtling towards…

my moms first book is coming out in august but she’s definitely still gonna write tons and tons of fics, she just uses a separate but easy to find blog to promote her ‘professional’ writing. ofc she’s writing romantic comedies so its a little different i guess. but you definitely definitely dont have to stop, at most just use a pseudonym for your fics if you don’t want the two identities to be connected to each other

oh yeah its like… doable, im just like… concerned about what people will say if it gets out lmao… it makes me uncomfortable for the same reason that people finding my old drafts of stories would make me uncomfortable if they were getting passed around, w/ the added bonus that a lot of writers look down on fics n shit. idk its not really something worth worrying about right now

anonymous asked:

hey question! is there a way to get in touch with you like,, skype or discord or somethin? you dont have to give them out ofc i just ask bc id love to talk to you more or somethin outside of anon ahah

yeah!!!!! just pop me a message off anon and i’d be happy to!!!
(just a bit worried w discord bc of something that happened recently in the voltron fandom,, y'all know what im talking about)

Shawn Mendes-Bad Reputation

Requested: anonymous
Word count: 700
Warnings: N/A
Summary: *Based off “Bad Reputation-Shawn Mendes”
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You sat a café in Toronto, Ontario.
It was a gloomy rainy day and it made you feel too lazy to make lunch, so you went out.

You didnt mind the crappy weather, so you sat at a table outside that had an umbrella for you to stay dry under.
You sat on a comfortable metal chair and rested your wrists on the table while you texted a friend.

Footsteps thump behind you but you ignore them.
A figure touches the chair across from you.
“Is anyone sitting here?” The young male asked.
“Nope” you respond and look up from your phone.
Its Shawn Mendes!
He smiles, “By the look on your face I can see you recognize me”.
“Yeah. You’re also my ex’s friend” you respond, regaining composure.
“You dont have to worry, Im not a sent spy. I just want to talk” he says and takes the seat across from you.
“What do you want to talk about?” You ask him, curious.
“You” he says.
“Me?” You ask and furrow your brow.
He nods, resting his folded arms on the table.
“What about me?” You ask him as a waitress approaches you two, hair wet from rain.
“Yes, you and your bad reputation” he responded.
The waitress takes out a notepad and smiles, “Can I start you both off with a beverage?”.
“Water please” you tell her.
She writes and then looks to Shawn, whom nods in agreement.
She leaves.

“What about it?” You say, continuing the conversation.
“You’re rumored to be quite a handful” he says, trying to hide his smile.
“Who’s the lil birdy that told you that?” You smile, already knowing.
He shrugs and sits back in his chair, pretending not to know.
You purse your lips and rest your folded arms on the table.
“All of my friends have seen you naked” he says to you.
You look into his hazel eyes.
“Or…so the story goes” he adds.
“Uh huh” you state, his eyes meeting back.
“I’ve also heard you like to toy with hearts” he added again.
“We all make mistakes, dont we Shawn?” You tell him.
“Of course we do, Im not saying we dont” he assures.
“Then why dont we let it go” you tell him.
Shawn softly giggles himself and shakes his head.
You frown in confusion.
“They believe the outer shell of you. But I know what they dont” he continued, “You’re not really bad”.
“How do you know? All these stories you hear about me…they’re bad” you reply.
“I dont care what they say. They dont know what you’ve been through” he responds justifiably.
“And you do?” You question.
The waitress comes back with your water.
“What can I get you two?” She asks.
“My usual please” you respond.
“Im good, thanks” Shawn says.
“Alright, let me know if you change your mind, hun” she smiles and then leaves.
You turn your head back to Shawn, whom already was looking at you.
“I want the chance to show you how you should be treated” he says.
You sip your water and then respond, “why?”.
“You intrigue me, y/n. If you wanted my attention, you got it honey” he answered.
“That’s unusual. Nobody ever gets too close. You’re playing with lightening, Mendes” you respond.
“Then it will be extremely satisfying to win you over” he remarks.
“And hard” you inform him.
He slightly lifts his chin with a grin,
“I like a challenge”.
“Well good” you state, “Cause you got one”.

[After Lunch]

“I got it” Shawn says, taking the bill from you.
He looks at it and tosses a $10 bill in the mini tab folder.
“You didnt have too” you say as you stand up from the chair.
“I wanted to” he assured you and followed in suite.

You both start walking off the patio as the rain comes to a drizzle. “All I ask is that you dont turn my heart cold” he teases. You stop abruptly, mouth agape. He raises his hands in defense and smile playfully. “We’ll see. I do of course, have a bad reputation” you tease back.


thank you @kittyyaoi, @abyss-poetry, and @robo-girls for replying!! it helped me a bit hvfifvivf

i just. im worried people will get tired of me mentioning this latest slander against sonic and i dont want that. i dont wanna be annoying

like idk. i dont like not defending myself and stuff i like (i also try to be critical of “bad” stuff i enjoy like south park) so whenever i just see sonic getting the normal treatment i get mad and yeah i really do need to vent about it bc no one else understands online and thats just. sad. 

even for not sonic stuff i get mad about i get the urge to vent. and i type up some dumb post on my main but then delete bc i assume no one cares. 

like people tell me all the time to calm down when i get angry about certain “””small””” things i guess in their case and idk it just makes me feel not good bc i do feel like i am being bothersome or getting “obsessed” but i only get mad when i talk, see, or specifically think about it. its not like a i think about this all the time thing

idk im sorry this is all over the place and not good its late and yeah.

The electrician came by and he asked “aye you got any dogs or animals?”

and im like “yeah but dont worry hes dumb and lazy and scared he wont hurcha”

“think you can put him up for me anyway?”

me, casually, “hah yeah sure, allergic?”

“heh something like that.”

me: ?????

so me later after the electrician has left like jokin to husbando “hah yea he was weird like about the dog i wonder if he’s scared of dogs?? what does ‘something like that’ mean when asked if ur allergic???”

husbando goes “oh its cause he’s black.”

me, currently: ?????????????? wtf is our dog racist???????????????

posts like “neck kissing makes me want to commit sins” or “list of tiny turn ons” or whatever confuse me like how the fuck are you turned on by people rolling their sleeves partway up? Are you gonna kill someone after they kiss your neck??? Steal their bike maybe????? I’m worried about those people

English is Full of Really Shitty Metaphors

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It wasn’t something you ever planned. You’re not anywhere near smart enough to plan out something like this. You’re just so fucking lucky you can’t quite believe it.

You guess you might have planned some of it though. You knew staying on a majority troll planet wouldn’t be a good idea once you went through your adult pupation and your blood color became much harder to hide. You’re not a complete fucking idiot either despite how you feel sometimes, so you knew you’d have to get schoolfed on a couple other languages besides Alternian.

There were a couple big ones you figured would be the most useful, Amestrian, English and such. The best way to learn how to have conversations in them was to actually talk to someone who spoke it. Watching movies could only get you so far.

Talking to random shitty aliens online seemed like a good way to go about it at the time.

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BTS as Doctors

JIN: oh are you here because of your ugliness? Oh I can’t fix that now please leave its contagious.

RAP MONSTER: *touches your arm* *accidentally breaks every bone in your body* wait no. NO DONT SUE ME I CAN FIX IT. MAYBE.

JIMIN: an apple a day keeps the doctor away. *everyone starts eating apples everyday*

SUGA: um yeah idk what these liquids do but I’m just gonna stick it all in you okay scream if it starts burning

JHOPE: no no no don’t worry about it you’re never going to die BeCaUsE iM yOuR hOpE

V: you have a severe disease of imnotactuallyadoctorsoihavenoideawhatimdoing so uh yeah just take these pills and you’ll be fine.

JUNGKOOK: *punches your arm* oh you look hurt let me examine it. Oh btw that will be 500000000 dollars thank you come again

i’d like to thank all time low

id like to thank alex - my idol, my inspiration, my rock, a fiance, someone who is not an official american citizen, and a person who has really impacted my life. i would like to thank him for being my shoulder to cry on when im feeling down and for being someone that can manage to make me start my day with a smile. everything from his missing you speeches, ugly ass cheetah print glasses, his relationship with lisa, gross hair dye, and his dedicated love to this band. he tought me that its all going to be ok, with songs like missing you or therapy that i can relate to and make me feel just a little bit better about myself. after 13 years of being in this band he has never given up on them, his music or his fans even if they were never frequently radio played, and i admire him for that. he brought me into this fandom in which i have met some of my best friends and i have gotten to have the time of my life at their shows. he makes me so incredibly happy. id like to thank him for never giving up on me, and ill never give up on him. 

id like to thank rian - my sunshine, the true underrated fav, and an avid coffee drinker. he taught me to try and enjoy life, and to smile as frequently as i can. he lives life to the fullest and has dedicated every part of him to his girlfriend cassadee, and together they taught me that it is possible to love someone so greatly. he has the cutest laugh and seems like such a genuine person. when one of his closest friends passed away he managed to put on a smile and go out on stage and give it his all, and i really look up to him for that. he also seems like he gives the greatest hugs.

id like to thank zack - someone who finds happines in exercize and hawaii, an amazing vocalist, and a kind soul. he taught me that its ok to by shy and not very outgoing. also not to judge someone on how they may appear. they may be quiet, but they could be one of the coolest people you have had a chance to meet. he really appreciates his fans and takes he time to individually tweet or write to every single person who supports him and his clothing line. he is a wonderful person who likes to give back. his smile is contagious and i dont understand how it couldnt make anyone the happiest person on earth. keep living life and killing it on that bass.

id like to thank jack - a problematic fav, baltimore ravens lover, and 5sos enthusiast. jack always knows how to make me laugh. with his stupid jokes and cruel humor he manages to find a way to cheer me up. he teaches me no to care what people think about me and to live in the moment. dont worry about if youll regret it tommorrow, just do what you enjoy today. he also showed me that peoples physical appearences can dramatically change in a few years. he is a great example of that.

so yeah, id like to thank these four boys from baltimore for making me so happy. i love them all.

Sammy Imagine for anon:)

First of all yaaaay! a Sammy imagine 2nd i already have major sammy feels so writing this just made them worse!! 

I was sitting down on my bed just finishing studying when i got a text from my boyfriend Sam.

Sam: “Hey Y/n wanna come hang out at my place? :)”

Y/n: “Yeah of course im on my way just give me 5 minutes”

With that i got up and put on some sweats and a blue tank top. Now i know what you’re thinking, ‘Y/n, why are you going to his house? Actually why are you dating? Hes a bad boy who takes weed and gets drunk! And you’re such a good girl with good grades!’ well first, you dont 'take weed’ you smoke it, second, hes not as bad as people think. Hes actually really sweet. You just gotta give him a chance. Plus i did all my studying i think i deserve a break. 

You hop in the car and drive over to his house,  once you get there you open the door knowing that he never locks the door and call out his name “Sammy, im here” “Hey babe im in the living room” you walk into the living room and kiss his cheek as you sit next to him “Hi baby, what are you watching?” “Some movie called 'The Call’.” halfway through the movie you rested your head on his chest, you were so lost in the movie that you didnt even notice that he was staring at you. “What?” you blushed “Nothing i was just admiring your beauty and thinking how lucky i am to have you all to myself” he smiled and gently kissed you, you kissed back. The next thing you know you’re sitting in his lap making out. He wraps his arms around your waist and lays you down on the couch, he slightly lifts your shirt rubbing small circles on your hips. At First you dont give it much thought thinking thats all he was going to do, but once he lifted your shirt up a bit more you tensed and he pulled, “You ok Y/n?” “Y-yeah” you stutter “Its just..that know i.. im sorry, im just not ready to go that far. it makes me uncomfortable..” you frowned embarrassed. “Hey, hey” He whispered grabbing your face with his hands making you look him in the eyes “dont worry about it. im sorry for rushing you. if you want we can just sit here and cuddle and watch your favourite movie?” you giggled and pecked him lips or maybe we can continue our little make out?“ Sam smiled and began kissing you again.