dont think i can handle it

anonymous asked:

my mom noticed that there was something wrong with me. she got me the help and i was diagnosed with depression with anxiety and a small eating disorder. (which surprised me because i'm fat) but since i haven't been to therapy since last year and haven't been on the pills since april she doesn't think i have it anymore. she said she wished i could go and enjoy things without worrying about it before. and i'm like i wish i could to. just is my depression gone or is she wrong?

The thing is that depression doesnt really just disappear like that. Thats not how that works really. Theres some cases where you can be okay and not have to take meds anymore because you know how to handle it and maintain it by yourself, but its still there. So just bc you dont take meds or go to therapy doesnt mean you dont have it. I think you should get help again if you need it. Also id like to say that a persons body shape does not define whether or not you have an eating disorder. People can still have a higher weight and have an eating disorder, which is just as valid as those who are underweight.

  • what she says: I'm okay
  • what she means: Can I say my shit? Can I say my shit? I've got lots of shit to say. I've got lots of shit to say. I can't fit my hand inside a Pringle can, I have a huge amount of trouble fitting my hand inside of a Pringle can. I can get my hand like four inches into the can but then I have to tilt the can into my mouth but then a bunch of crumbs have accumulated at the bottom of the can so they all go spilling onto my face. What I'm trying to say is the diameter of Pringle cans is way too small. I'll say it again. The diameter of Pringle cans is way too small. Two radiuses of a Pringle can is way too small. If you feel me, put your hands up, Come on! If you feel me, put your hands up! Look at all these hands that are way too big to fit inside of a Pringle can! Your hands are too big to fit inside a Pringle can, your hands are too big to fit inside a Pringle can. You think you can, I know you can't, you think you can. Pringles! Listen to the people, I am sure ninety percent of the complaint letters you get are about the width of your cans?! Just... make them wider?! I've overdone the Pringles thing, sorry. I want to have a daughter. I want to have a daughter so I can finally have someone around the house who can fit their hands in the Pringle can. Yes, I'm still on the Pringle cans thing! Yeah! I'll move on, alright? But that is priority número uno. I don't go to the gym because I'm self-conscious about my body but I'm self-conscious about my body cause I don't go to the gym. Irony can be so painful. That's a Catch-22. Let's do this! I went to Chipotle, I went to Chipotle, got myself a chicken burrito. I went down the line and I got all these ingredients and at the end of the line the guy tried to wrap the burrito but half of the shit inside the burrito spilled out. He still wrapped it. I was like, dude you should have warned me! You're a burrito expert, you should have told me halfway through: "Hey, man. You might be reaching maximum burrito capacity here" Do you fucking think I want a messy burrito? No one wants a messy burrito! The whole appeal of the burrito is that all of the ingredients are contained within the confines of the tortilla. I wouldn't have gotten half of the shit if I knew it wasn't gonna fit in the burrito! Alright? Look I wouldn't have got the lettuce if I knew it wouldn't fit! I wouldn't have got the cheese if I knew it wouldn't fit! I wouldn't have got the peppers if I knew it wouldn't fit! I wouldn't have got half of it! Like, I'm okay with small mistakes, if you've got no more chicken I'll take pork. But I'll blow my dad before I eat a burrito with a fork. I wouldn't have got the lettuce if I knew it wouldn't fit, I wouldn't have got the cheese if I knew it wouldn't fit, I wouldn't have got the peppers if I knew they wouldn't fit. Man, I wouldn't have got half of it, like half of it, like, half of it, like, half of it, like half of it right now,I think it's time I think it's time, I think that we break this down. I can sit here and pretend like my biggest problems are pringle cans, and burritos. The truth is, my biggest problem's you. I want to please you but I want to stay true to myself. I want to give you the night out that you deserve but I want to say what I think and not care what you think about it. Part of me loves you, part of me hates you, part of me needs you, part of me fears you. And I don't think that I can handle this right now, handle this right now. I don't think that I can handle this right now. I don't think that I can handle this right now, I don't think that I can handle this right now, I don't think that I can handle this right now. Look at them, they're just staring at me like, "come and watch the skinny kid with a steadily declining mental health and laugh as he attempts to give you what he cannot give himself." I don't think that I can handle this right now, I don't think that I can handle this right now. They don't even know the half of this right now, they don't even know the half of it. But I know I'm not a doctor, I'm a pussy, I put on a silly show so I should probably just shut up and do my job so here I go. I wouldn't have got the lettuce if I knew it wouldn't fit, I wouldn't have got the cheese if I knew it wouldn't fit, I wouldn't have got the peppers if I knew they wouldn't fit, I wouldn't have got half. You can tell them anything if you just make it funny, make it rhyme and if they still don't understand you then you run it one more time. I don't think that I can handle this right now (Haa!) I don't think that I can handle this right now (Hoo!) If you think that I can handle this right now (Haa!) Right now (Haa!) Now, handle this right, handle this right, handle this right now.Thank you, good night! I hope you're happy.

me: idk i don’t think i can love jimin any more than i do already like i don’t think my body mind and soul can handle it


my jimin love meter: *HITS MAXIMUM CAPACITY*

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Got7 Reaction to You Understanding a Dirty Pick-up Line in Korean.

A/N: Everything in Italics are what would be said in Korean, since I don’t actually know the language (but I do know how to say “Furniture,” “Road,” and “Hi,” so I’d say I’m pretty advanced). But for most of them, it is assumed you already know Korean, so I changed it just a bit for the plot to make more sense!


Girl do you have a shovel in that back pocket? ‘Cause I’m digging that ass.” He would say from behind you as you walked slightly ahead of him. Little did he know, you knew exactly what he said, so when you clapped back with: “If I had a shovel, I’d be hitting you with it right now,” he would be a little startled and only a tad embarrassed, and he would try to play it off by avoiding direct eye contact.


You know, Y/N… Pizza is my second favorite thing to eat in bed.” Mark said to you, thinking you wouldn’t understand so he could play it off as a prank. When your jaw dropped, he immediately knew he was in trouble. You slapped him on the shoulder playfully and replied, trying to be as intimidating as possible: “What’s your first favorite, Mark?” He knew not to answer that, though, and just gave you a giggle along with a shrug of his shoulders.


By this point, Jackson knew that you could speak Korean, but now he would just tell you dirty pick up lines to annoy you, if anything. You would be going over what you would be getting at the store later on that day, when Jackson interrupts you: “You know what’s on my list of things to do today?” He paused and raised his eyebrows. “You, Jagi.” You rolled your eyes and continued, like he never said anything.


While at a practice with the boys, you would normally sit in a chair towards the back of the studio so you dont interfere with anything going on. During break, the seven of them were huddled together whispering to eachother, but you didn’t think anything of it until Jinyoung came walking up to you with a smirk, trying his hardest not to laugh. “I just wanted to say that they call my dick ‘The Truth’ because most girls can’t handle it…but I bet you can.” This was obviously a prank, because he knew you could understand Korean, so quickly, you responded: “Sorry, Jinyoung, you can’t handle what you cant see!” This immediately caused fits of laughter from the rest of the boys and even Jinyoung, who wasn’t expecting such a good comeback.


Normally, Youngjae wouldn’t even say things like this seriously. He would mostly tell you super cringey pick up lines to annoy you, but in all reality, you both would just laugh at it. Most of the humor would come from the fact that he rarely says these things, so when he interrupted your casual conversation to say “So, what are you doing tonight besides me?” You both would erupt into laughter and probably exchange a couple more bad pick up lines before continuing on to other topics of conversation.


I honestly believe Bam would be blatantly obvious in this situation. Knowing fully well that you can speak Korean, you to would be talking and when there would be a lag in the conversation, he would say: “Hey, Y/N, smile if you want to have sex with me.” You would try your best to hold back a smile, since what he said was so unexpected. He held a grin the whole time, but when you playfully stated “I never smile around you.” He made an exaggerated sad face, but then made it an effort to try and make you smile, to which he obviously won.


I’m no weatherman, but you can expect a few inches tonight.” Yugyeom would say quietly, looking at you with an exaggerated smirk after looking away from the television in a lobby you were sitting in. He knew you could understand him, and you figured he was just saying this to make you laugh, so of course you had to, but didn’t respond just in case people around you could hear you. You simply slapped his leg playfully while turning away to giggle at how unexpected his statement was.

Jungkook with a chubby girlfriend

  • Love,LOVES, loves your thighs.
  • You guys would meet in a coffee shop
  • Ge spilt coffee on you and offered to pay for drycleaning.
  • Your relationship started from there
  • Words cannot describe how much this man loves you
  • He loves cuddling
  • He loves to be the big and little spoon
  • Likes wrapping his arms around you and have your head on his chest
  • But he loves to have you war your arms around him and he lays his head on your boobs like a pillow
  • Always reminds you at night before bed that he loves you
  • Will list reasons he loves you if you are doubtful
  • “I love the fact that we are perfect for each other. We are literal opposites but work so well with each other”
  • “ i love that i can use your breasts as pillows. They are so big and comfy, but i especially love my marks on them”
  • Laughs when you blush and put your head in his chest
  • You are perfect for him
  • If you have doubts because of yalls size difference he will crush your thoughts
  • “Trust me jagi, i love your size. Its perfect and id love you either way. I love your heart and soul……. and maybe your ass and tits”
  • Now onto the dirty stuff 😉😏
  • Loves making you flustered and a blushing mess by voicing his dirty thought
  • “Baby girl all i can think about right now is my head between your sexy thighs”
  • “I cant wait until we are home so i can be slamming in and out of you while you are scratching my back and moaning my name”
  • Then your knees would buckle and he would chuckle smugly then walk away
  • Dom!jungkook(fight me)
  • Wants you to ride him and and ride his face
  • “I dont know jungkook. I might crush you”
  • “Trust me baby. Im a grown man. I can handle it”
  • Eventually he would convince you to and it would be the best sex you have ever had
  • He loves lap dances
  • Loves your ass
  • All together he loves you to the moon and back
  • You complete each other like pieces of a puzzle
  • Honestly relationship goals

Originally posted by nnochu

so its nice people are recently protesting yaoi/yuri being used in fandom spaces because its loaded and homophobic/fetishizing, however I’m just glad I grew up before I became active in these spaces because man I dont think little 16 year old me could handle being publicly shamed. people assuming the absolute worst def doesn’t help.

 Way back when i was young and used the terms yaoi/yuri I did it because… that’s just what everyone else called it. I wasnt aware of yaoi culture, or what a fujoshi was, or what kind of people yuri was aimed at, that’s just what people called gay pairings. It was like leftovers from a darker time, it was the norm and I guess an easy way to say your pairing was a gay one. It wasnt until I became more involved in lgbt activism when i embraced the fact I wasnt straight like i thought i had to be that I learned how harmful it was, something i dont think a lot of people (mostly kids) will have the luxury of learning about.

basically i wished before people publicly drag someone (whos most likely a teenager) for it they’d explain first. why its bad, why it shouldn’t be said to describe gay people. because hey, not everyone knows these things, when i was young i really didnt. anyways i dont really know where i was going with this sorry

Christine and Chloe eventually convince Michael to tell Jeremy how he feels
Michael decides to do it over text since he doesn’t think he could handle doing it in person

Michael: Hey Jeremy can we talk? 
Jeremy: sure whats up
Michael: This is gonna be hard for me to say but
Jeremy: hey its ok take your time
Michel: I have a huge crush on you and I’ve had it for a few years now.  Sorry.
Jeremy: shit im sorry michael but I dont feel the same im sorry
Michael: Oh right yeah sorry dude didn’t mean to make this awkward haha
Jeremy: you ok
Michael: I’m sure I’ll be fine 

Michael’s crying at this point 
Both Chloe and Christine had convinced him to tell Jeremy because they thought he felt the same
But obviously, they were wrong
Of course they were
Why would anyone like Michael
He was annoying
A loser 
A stoner
And to top it all off now he didn’t even have a best friend 

When Michael tells her, Chloe is all ready to fight Jeremy but Michael tells her to let it go
Over time the group splits
With Michael, Brooke, Chloe, Jenna and Christine in one grou[
And Jeremy, Rich and Jake in the other
Over time the two sides of the group lose most contact
Though Chloe and Jake still talk from time to time 

In his second year of college, Jeremy works out that he is definitely bi after a few nights at a club 
In his last year of college, Jeremy realises that he was actually in love with Michael 
But it’s too late to do anything about that 

Chloe invites both sides of the group to her and Brooke’s wedding  
Everyone shows
Except Jeremy
Michael tries not to let it get to him
But it does
He’s just so angry that Jeremy allowed all of this to become so awkward between them
They were meant to be a team
Player 1 and Player 2
Who cares if it’s platonic or romantic?
He just wants his best friend back

Rich and Jake’s wedding? No Jeremy 

When Brooke has her first kid? No Jeremy 

When Jenna gets promoted to head of her newspaper? No Jeremy 

When Michael is half asleep on his sofa with a glass of wine in his hand after looking after Christine Lohst all day? Of course that’s when he shows up 

Ugh they’re gonna start to shout soon
Oh hell yeah I’ll open it soon
It sucks Chlo left me here alone
Here in this toddler’s battle zone
I feel a headache coming up
Is Chloe ever giving up?
Splash splash splash splash
Throw some water in my face
Now I’m in a better place I open up the door and - 

“Wait why are you surprised? This is my house”
“Christine said it was he- oh shit”
“Christine said what?”
“You’re a terrible liar Jeremy”
“But she didn’t say ANYTHING”
Michael raises an eyebrow
“Ok fine well she may have told me that this was her new apartment and so I was stopping in to visit her like I usually do”
“…you usually visit Christine?”
“So are you two…”
“NO NO NO she’s not my type”
“Why are you still here Jeremy? Christine’s not here.  Unless you wanted lil Christine in which case she’s sleeping in the guest room”
“Right yeah sorry.  I’m bothering you aren’-”
“You’re no-”
“I’ll jus-”
“You don’t ha-”
“Uh what?”
“Would you like to come in for a drink?”
“Oh I…”
“You don’t have to Jeremy, it was just an idea”
“No it’s ok I’ll come in”

Michael finds another wine glass
“Red ok?”
“Red’s perfect thanks”

“So Jeremy how’s everything? What are you doing now?" 
“Oh I’m a games developer”
“You don’t look particularly excited about that? That was like your dream job”
“Oh well normally people get really bored when I talk about work”
“Jeremy you’re talking to the guy who was tempted to play apocalypse of the damned with his adopted niece this morning”
Jeremy looks at up that
“Apocalypse of the damned huh? We never did finish it did we?”
“Never too late to continue”
Both of them look at each other and then there’s a quick scramble to the living room

“I don’t know how well it’s gonna work cos I obviously haven’t played it in years" 
“Dude the console doesn’t have a speck of dust don’t lie to me you probably played this yesterday”
“Shut up Mr Games Developer”
The loading screen comes up and it’s just like high school again
Just the two of them
Michael presses start an-
Lil Christine comes in
“Uh hey Chrissie”
“Uncle Michael why didn’t you tell me Uncle Jeremy was gonna be here”
“I didn’t know myself”
“Mom’s gonna be so happy”
Both men look at each other
Michael speaks first
“Uh why?”
“Because mom is always talking about how you two should have been together and now you are!”

Jeremy and Michael both go bright red and neither of them speaks
Michael manages to get some words out  
“Nah Chrissie it’s fine.  Why don’t you back to bed and I’ll come in and see you in a moment”
“But I want to talk to Unc-”
“Christine Lohst - bed now”

"I’m sorry about her”
“She’s not the one who’s apparently been telling her three year old that we should be together”
“Chloe has very strong feelings about what happened in high school”
“So do I”
Michael stares at him, saying nothing
 "I shouldn’t have let your feelings get in the way of our friendship and I’m so sorry that I did.  It was stupid and I hate myself for it"
“Wait shit no don’t say that.  I’m just as much to blame as you are.  It’s not like I really tried to keep our friendship together.  I thought it’d be easier to just let it fall apart.”
“So we’re both sorry and stupid and wish we could be friends again?”
“Then I’m glad to be your new old friend Michael Mell”
“And I’m glad to be yours Jeremy Heere”
“I should probably tell you something though”
“In my last year of college I worked something out - I was an idiot in high school.”
“We already said this”
“For another reason.  I was an idiot because I didn’t realise I was head over heels for you" 
“I’m sorry Michael.  It took me so long to figure it out and I just rejected you in high school even though I felt the same”
“What about now?”
“Do you feel the same now?”
Jeremy takes in Michael
His scruffy hair, his glasses that need to be pushed up, the oversized hoodie he still hasn’t gotten rid of and looks into his eyes
“Well, what about you Michael? Do you still like me?”
Michael doesn’t even hesitate

Adventures In Babysitting

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Request: Can you make one where Bucky and the reader go out on a date night and leave their toddler behind with the rest of the team and then in the middle of their date they start getting all these texts from panicked members of the team because they don’t know how to take care of a child? Btw love your writing and blog!!!  (a/n: thank you <3)         

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Sam: You and Y/N left for your date 20 minutes ago.

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I Hate Missing You~Jeon Jungkook

Part 1

Part 2

Originally posted by yourpinkpill

Another couple of weeks passed and you have gone from fine to completely done. Polly was a mess, and Jungkook seeemed to be ignoring you, pictures of him a few female idols caught you eye. Of course you knew, more liked hopped, he wasn’t doing anything with them. But ever since the pictures went vrial he hasn’t tried to talk to you. It was always you checking up on him, and you were getting fed up with it. His band mates were talking to you more then he was, expecially Jimin and Jin. Every morning they had sent you morning text updating you where they were and how Jungkook was doing. Today was the day the brought up you coming on tour. Polly would stay with your mother but you weren’t sure if you boyfriend even wanted you there.

“Y/n you need to do this. You’re both miserable.” Jimin speak making you groan as you chew on your lip. “Jin-hyung I’m right aren’t I?” His question made the oldest boy agree, his head moving and up and down. Skyping your the only logical way for both of the talking to you where it won’t get jumbled.

“He’s right, you need to come met us here.” He says making you shrug, he gives you a glare. “Y/n, come on. We miss you too, this isn’t just for this kid but for us too!”

“Should I tell him? I mean I’m going to be on a pl-”

“Prentend you want a break!” Jimin says with a evil glint in his eye. Your mouth hang open as Jin look at the younger boy. “What dont look at me like that!” Jimin say to the both of you as he sighs. “Okay here the reasoning, you said he hasn’t been talking to you with out you messagung him first, the whole femeale idol shit that happene-”

“Nothing happened there.” Jin cut off when he saw your paniced face making Jimin shake his head.

“No,no, no, no Y/n he loves you.” His words made you nod aa you pet Polly who was sitting in your lap. “Just say you can’t take it anymore, the relationship being like this. That you hate mossing him. And then don’t reply, or answer his calls or ours unless its me or Jin on skype.” You sigh as you look down at rhe puppy. “If you do come we have a ticket for Japan that leaves in two days. 48 hours… you think you can do that?” His question lingered in the air. “Just think of what his face will be like.” At the you look up and nod.

“Just make sure he doesn’t do anything stupid.” You whisper before syaing your goodbyes. “You can do this.” You mumble as you pull up your messages to him.

You: Hey, so I don’t know how to say this.

Seen 10:45pm

Kookie: What is it babe? Do Polly eat something of mine?

Seen 10:55pm

You: No, it doesn’t have to do with the dog Jungkook.

Seen 11:03pm

Kookie: Then what is it? Isn’t it late back home? You should be asleep, baby.

Seen 11:07pm

You: Okay, I just have to say this. I don’t think I can do this. I dont think I can handle not seeing you for months, I don’t think I can handle you calling me panicking anynore. Jungkook I love you, I love you so much. I miss the way you held me while we slept, I miss the way you would sing to me when I had a bad day. I miss your freaking voice and hearing it every single time I woke up. I miss waking up on the weekened to the smell of burnt food, because you wanted me to have breakfast in bed. I miss you. I hate missing you, I shouldn’t have to miss you. But I do. And I hate it. I don’t think I can do this anymore.

Seen 11:10pm

Kookie: Babe no, you don’t mean that.

Kookie:you don’t mean that, you love me. You even just said it. If you love me dont let me go please.

Kookie: No, no,no. Please I get a break soon, I’ll be home soon please don’t so this.

Kookie: Y/n please no, I need you. I need you like the air I breath.

Kookie: Baby, pick up your phone.

Kookie: Why?! Why won’t you stay? Why won’t you keep loving me? I love you to the stars. Please.

You hated doing this, but it felt like something was lifted on your shoulders. You never really said you wanted to break up, you just said you couldn’t do it anymore. That you couldn’t be without him anymore which was the truth, you wanted to be with him. Which was the only lie you were hiding really.

Sugasuga: Wtf did you do? What the actual hell Y/n.

Seen 12:03am

You: I’m not talking to any of you, leave me alone

Seen 12:12am

Sugasuga: Oh hell no. Tell me why the fuck the kid is sobbing into his pillow right now? Why the fuck is he crying your fucking name? What. Did. You. Do?

Seen 12:15am

You: I can’t tell you. Ask fucking jin or jimin. Delet this convo now.

Seen 12:20am

Sugasuga: You better be ready to fix him.

Seen 1:45am

I highly doubt it would be lili, I don’t think she’d do that, and I dont think cole would want to expose his girl, I wonder how lili feels about cole shooting nudity of other women, I mean the human body is art, and not always meant to be taken romantically, I’m just thinking about how I personally would feel about it. I know bre couldn’t handle it, being as that was a reason for their breakup and that was just jealousy and insecurity due to the models without nudity even introduced. I’m not in any way saying its a threat to sprousehart, just as a girl, I can see if lili were to feel a little uncomfortable about cole going off with some beautiful nude model and taking photos of her. what are your opinions?