dont remember what day this was

Why was i gone and what HAPPENED

HI Its mE tess and idk if you noticed but i was gone for a while (again) oops

The reason is BC COLLEGE IS A BITCH I have long af days and sooo much work but yeah

WHAT HAPPEND? you may ask well sit down bc i have some NEWS YALL

ok so remember my crush on blonde boy? Fuck him hes out of the picture.

BUT let me introduce you to BLUE BOY
Hes a very cute guy who goes to the same college as me and hes the best friend of my best friend’s boyfriend ( its confusing i know) and my bff was like “yo tess this cute guy i know goes to your college maybe you should say hi sometime” so i did and hes SUCH A SWEETHEART!!!! hes a big pokemon fanboy and he ALSO watches anime yes!! Hes a ginger but he dyed a part of his hair blue bc he lost a bet so thats why I call him blue boy lol

We went on a “double date” with our best friends and we went bowling lmao. It was fun and he rubbed my back and offered me his jacket bc i was cold (but my dumb ass said no jfc tess)

My bff asked him if he likes me ( bc she really wants us to date lmao ffs) AND HE SAID YES HE LIKES ME IM YELLING!!!

We send each other hart and kissing emojis and he always tells me how pretty i am and how much he likes talking to me lmao hes so sweet

Now he’s coming to my house next Saturday and I’m very nervous lmao bc what if he asks me to be his girlfriend dkksksks

My mom told my family about him even though we arent dating (yet lmao) and shes like “ok i hate boys but if he makes you happy fine just dont fuck up and get pregnant”

Anyway this is what happened when i was gone and YEAH PLS TELL ME WHAT I MISSED BC I WANNA CATCH UP YEYEYEYEYE - TESS

What is a story you have been dying to tell?

When I was 15 years old, I ran away from home because I was pissed off at my parents for a reason I cant remember. I didnt have much money, so I decided to hop onto the skytrain(public transport train in British Columbia) and ride it as far as it would go. I reached the end of the line in less then an hour, and decided I wanted to ride it all the way back again, while trying to formulate some kind of plan of how I wanted to live the rest of my life without my parents or anyone. At the last stop, or the first stop depending on your perspective of it, a girl came on and sat in the row right behind me. I didnt pay much attention to her at first, as I was busy writing my life plan on a napkin. It was a few minutes later that she got up and came sat next to me, curious as to what I was writing. I told her the story, and after a few laughs, we began talking about everything and anything. Her name was Amanda, 17 years old, and absolutely wonderful. She told me she was getting off at the last stop, which was also the first stop, depending on how you look at it. It was also the stop I had gotten on originally, and I told her we would ride to it together. The train ride took less then an hour, and what a wonderful hour indeed.

When the last stop did come, we both knew we probably wouldnt see each other ever again(this was before the days of cellphones, and I was a shy little kid afraid to make moves). As we got to the end of the sidewalk which split in two different directions, she went right and I went left. Before saying goodbye she turned to me and asked me a question that has become a wonderful part of my life; she asked me, “Tell me something you have done, or want to do, that you think I should do? It can be anything, as challenging as you want it to be, or as easy. As long as you give me the rest of my life to complete it, I promise I will do it..” I was confused as to why, but I thought about it, and told her, “Sing a song acapella in a room full of strangers.” She said perfect and asked me if I would like a challenge as well. I told her I did, and she told me, “read, from start to finish, “Ulysses” by James Joyce.” I had never heard of it at the time, but I agreed, and we said our goodbyes.

I have a awful memory, and cant remember most conversations I have with most people. But I remember all of that clearly. You know why? Because of the challenge she gave me. In the 12 years that have past since, I have tried to read that book in over 150 different sittings. Everytime I open my copy of the 780 page monster of a book, I always think of her, and I always think of that day. Ive never been sure if it was her intent or not, but she left her lasting memory on me with that challenge. I soon after learned what she did, was a completey wonderful and amazing thing for me. So I decided to keep it going. Ive met a lot of strangers in my life; some that have become friends, and some, due to living in different time zones and whatnot, didnt. I dont want to just have experiences and then let them go. I want to remember these meetings, and embrace the fact that they happened. So whenever I leave someone who has left an amazing impact of my life, I always make sure to add them to my Ulysses Bucket List. I ask them to give me a challenge, as difficult or as easy as they want it to be, and regardless of the fact that they have done it or not; simply something their heart has had wanted to do.

Some have been easy and fun; I met a man in India 9 years ago who told me to, for a week or a month, cook/buy twice as much food as I intend on eating, and give the other half to a stranger in need. I completed that mission 8 years ago, and thought about that man and the time we had all the way through. I met a girl on a cruise 6 years ago, who told me to jump into a body of water on a slightly cold day, without touching or feeling the temperature of the water first. I did that the very same year. I met a couple at an outdoor music festival a few years ago that told me to wear the most bizarre outfit imaginable and walk through a public place, completely oblivious to the fact that you arent looking normal. I did that task the very next day, at the same festival. Some have been difficult, to say the least: three guys I met in Amsterdam and smoked all night with, told me to go to a mall and give 10 strangers 10 presents. That one took a lot of courage, but I did it a year or so after I met them. It was nerve racking, but at the same time exhilerating leaving my comfort zone. A girl I met on a plane told me to sky dive; Im still in the process of getting that done. A couple I met in Cali on the beach told me to tell the 5 people I hated the most, that I love them and respect them. That one was very difficult because of my stubborness, but ive come close to completing that list many a times(still in the process, 2 more people to go).

And some things, have had an everlasting impact on my daily life. I met a girl at a music festival, who told me that whenever I get mad at someone, walk away, sing my happy song in my head for 5 minutes, go back to the person im mad at with a clam heart and mind, and work things out. Ive made this my way of life. I once met a man at a gym in a hotel I was staying at, that told me “whenever your body and brain tells your that you are exhausted and done…use your heart instead and push out 2 more reps.” Ive made this my motto when working out or working on any kind of extrenuating exercise in which my body demands me to quit. I also use it while working on anything, and while studying. One of the best pieces of advice ive ever received.

There are many others that each brought joy to my life. There are still many tasks I have yet to accomplish, and everytime I think of these tasks, I think of the people that gave them to me. It amazes me how well I remember all these people, while I cant remember so many aspects of even yesterday. These experiences, not only do I take from them a “mission” or a “challenge”, I also take from them a memory of them that never fails to appear inside of my mind. I opened my Ulysses book for probably the 300th time yesterday, and read a few pages, which prompted me to share this story with you today. Im in the final 30 pages of the book, also known as the most dreaded of the read(in the last 40 pages or so, James Joyce doesnt use a single punctuation mark; no periods, no commas, no nothing; a straight 50 page run-on sentence).

I never saw Amanda after that day, nor do I know if she ever did get a chance to sing a song to a room full of strangers. But what I do know, is that she gave me a gift that has never once stopped giving. So wherever you may be, thank you for giving me the Ulysses Bucket List. And I swear i’ll finish it one day. My life advice? Simple: Create your own Ulysses bucket list.

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infodumping about the ocean

this years holocaust remembrance day is very important, given the current political climate. take today to remember the horrifying acts committed against jewish and romani people. take today to recognize the beginning of those same acts forming against PoC in america today. take today to resist those in power however you see fit, and after today, dont stop resisting. i am a jew still personally affected by the holocaust even 2 generations later. every jew is affected by the shoah, but there is a special pain to know what happened to your own family. or worse, not knowing what happened to the unknown people you see in old family photographs. we as a people will never be the same. remember the holocaust today. dont let this happen again.

bad times with adhd:

  • cant read
  • can read, but cant comprehend what ur reading
  • boredom more like Time To Suffer
  • rsd
  • u wanna watch a video thats any amount of time??? thats too long, even if the video is like 10 seconds
  • becoming too aware of how things feel or how u do certain things or just regular bodily functions like breathing or blinking
  • staying up until 4 AM or later for no reason aside from adhd said so
  • that sinking feeling when u realized uve spaced out for most of a conversation and u feel too bad abt doing it to ask the person to repeat what they said 
  • overstimulation
  • meltdowns
  • when u have the motivation to get shit done, but executive dysfunction is like “lmfao nope”
  • trying to get certain stuff done and ur managing ok, but u still get distracted on occasion and u scold urself every time u do but u cant stop urself from doing it
  • the antsy anxiousness that comes with being confined to doing smth for too long
  • “i hope i remember this” u didnt remember it
  • outbursts which cause u to snap at ppl and then u feel bad but u couldnt help it
  • no volume control so ur constantly told to stop yelling but u cant make ur voice quieter 
  • *someone explains instructions and its a rather simple thing* “ok got it” u dont got it
  • getting irrationally irritated over the smallest shit but u cant help it everything is just So Frustrating 
  • “u know what i think im having a good day” and then mood swing that makes u either Super Sad or Super Mad for no reason
  • having what ur gonna say right in ur head but somehow u still space out in the middle of talking and forget what u wanted to say
  • forgetting why u were upset but still feeling upset
  • the sinking feeling of remembering why u were upset and now ur even more upset
  • when rsd is being extremely irrational and u know its bullshit but u dont have the energy to fight it so u just sit there in sadness
  • when rsd makes u self conscious abt stimming in public
  • having absolutely no time perception at all. what even is time ive never heard of that in my life
  • needing to get smth done and u manage to focus, but ur focusing on the wrong thing
  • overanalyzing past stuff thats happened and realizing other shit u couldve said that wouldve helped the situation and damn why didnt u think of that when u were in the situation
  • this is long i should stop now

fanaticfandomfaun  asked:

I am a huge fan of your style! It's absolutely lovely! How long have you been drawing and how did you develop your own style?

 ive been drawing my whole life! (always an odd question for me bc like…. yall stopped drawing after kindergarten? what did you do all day??)

as for developing style, my biggest piece of advice is just! keep! drawing! its been a bit hard to follow my own advice lately because my depression keeps fucking up my motivation and for the first time in my life i just dont feel like drawing, at all, ever. but if youre having similar motivational issues or if youre just starting out and you just arent feeling satisfied with your art, dont give up! the less you draw the harder it will be! i have a personal policy (that i dont actually remember to follow) where even if i dont want to, even if i hate how it looks, i have to draw at least once a day every single day. i swear it will improve your work if you do this. its hard, i know, i havent been doing it, but follow my advice not my example! (honestly im the embodiment of that quote “I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it.” by Lewis Carol)

the other piece of advise i have is honestly…… steal art. 

“gasp! but Kate,” you say, “stealing art is bad and wrong!!” you say, “i know because of all those ‘art theft is bad and wrong’ posts i reblog!”

look. thats not what im saying, im not telling any of you to try to pass anyone elses art as your own, or use other peoples art without their credit. dont to that its bad and wrong. what im saying is LOOK at other peoples art and copy what they do. copying other peoples art styles is how every artist has learned for centuries. i started out drawing myself as a powerpuff girl or as a pokemon character just like everyone else. hell, i used to straight up print out and trace drawings i found on deviant art, which is a perfectly viable way to learn styles (muscle memory) so long as you dont try to pass it off as your own work then honestly its not stealing.

for example recently i was trying to draw these cat characters i had come up with, and i could not for the life of me draw these cats they were just turning out so ugly,

so i was like “well fuck this, i just need to find a simpler style” and by some kind of MIRACLE, while i was looking up drawings of cats i stumbled across this one blog, daily cat drawings. and it was like, holy shit this is it this is the exact style i need to draw my cats in. so first thing i did was try to follow some of their drawings exactly, not tracing but the closest you can get by sight. 

this is one of dailycatdrawing’s drawings:

and this was my attempt to copy it:

after i felt like i kinda had it down i drew that athena. NOT based off of any one of dailycatdrawing’s pieces, but still using the basics of their style. after that i felt confident enough using this style to draw the rest of my cats and they turned out great! naturally i had to draw hermes again because i couldnt just use such a blatant copy of another artists work, and it turned out even better than before!

which proves my earlier advice about how every single time you draw youre improving! its also important to note that even if you try to copy an artists style exactly you will probably never have it perfectly, and thats a GOOD THING! because it means that you arent truly stealing someone elses work, youre just using it as an example of ONE WAY a drawing can be good. by paying attention to MANY artists styles you can use all of them together to make your own unique style! even trying to copy dailycatdrawing’s style to a T i still ended up using elements from other artists and my own experience to change the style just enough to make it personal. looking at hermes’ face you can tell ive unintentionally taken some inspiration from lackadaisy’s art style, another artist i really admire. 

this turned out way longer than i meant it to, sorry, i always get so caught up in explaining things when people ask for advice. hopefully this helped someone!

sometimes harry puts his hands on his hips

alternatively titled: The Reason I Don’t Sleep At Night

look at this u can see his nipple how iconic

wow baby! pop ya hip! 

How To Flirt With Older Men: a guide by Harry Styles

his lil face he’s so cute what a little enraged duckling

look at his tummy and nipples fhkjhffncmsne 

s a s s 

remember 1d day lol he was so done 

he rly looks like a frog here but he’s cute (even his hand looks similar to  frogs? bye)

i honestly dont even know what this is but he’s working the duck lips and that stance?? only the Best Models can master

iconic amazing spectacular wonderful beautiful 

this isnt even in HD but you can tell he’s doing his Creepy Frog Stare and it’s so adorable i love him

anyways this post is really short but i hope u enjoyed this bc look at him he knows what he’s doing 

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Josephine/ Adaar fuels my life, enough to make a comic and draw sketches of them all the goddamn time.

Also I MIGHT have exagerated Adaar’s size but oh well, the bigger size difference the better am I right?

anonymous asked:

*Patiently waiting for the full story behind the recent klance comic*

we were chillin on the stadium getting ready for roll call in gym and these two dudes and a chick come out (they’re all freshmen if that says anything.) and one dude is always joking around and making gay jokes and what not. and the other one does too. but one day one of the guys (we’ll call him dude 1) has a football and says “hey if i make this into the trash can, then i gotta kiss allura (obviously i changed the name bc i honestly dont remember her name nor do i care) but if i miss then i gotta kiss you” and the whole time the girl was saying no like she doesnt want to be kissed or whatever and dude 2 is just laughin away. (note this trashcan is like. a good 40 feet away from us) but dude one just w i l d l y throws it no where near the trash can okay. so the girl is like “lol yeah go ahead kiss him.” and dude one walks up slowly and bRUSHES HIS FACE AND KISSES HIM. LIKE HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SHOCKED IN MY GOD DAMN LIFE OKAY. and then a few seconds pass and dude two just laughs and goes “BRO THAT WAS THE MOST HOMOSEXUAL THING IVE EVER DONE!!” i was trying so hard not to laugh at this point like h o n e y,,,, its o k a y.

i was looking at the mspa wiki and

this fucking bit. this piece of knowledge gets me every goddamn time i remember it. we dont know how long dave and karkats snapchat streak is but its probably somewhere in the hundreds. for years these boys have been snapchatting each other every single day, without pause. FOR YEARS.

they fucking live with each other

they, presumably, as they both have the same job and spend their free time going on digs with jade and hanging out with mutual friends, spend just about all of their time together

what the fuck are they sending each other. do they snapchat each other while theyre in the same room? while the others in the bathroom? what are they even sending each other? what the fuck kind of content is being shared between these two ridiculous boys?

andrew didnt give me a fuckin davekat kiss but he did give me a canon davekat snapchat streak and im so fucking bothered by it, im so upset, what is going on, why are they like this. they fucking LIVE WITH EACH OTHER. what are they DOING. @ andrew i need answers fucking Please

Partners

Prompt: Hello my love!! Could you do a Steve Trevor Imagine where the reader is an Amazon warrior and when she goes to the real world steve calls her “her partner”. So one day when she first sees a baby she was like “where can u purchase one” and Steve tell her that it’s something you have to do with your partner. So the reader asks him when will they have a baby?? I don’t know if you understand it but it’s okay if u dont wanna do it❤️

AN: This was so much fun to write!!!!!!!!

Fandom: DC


    Man’s World was a funny place. It had changed greatly since you had last seen it. There were roaring machines and funny clothing, and it was so utterly different from what you remembered as a child. It was fascinating.

    “If you keep stopping to stare, you’re going to get run over.”

    You smile at Steve Trevor, and he gives small smile back before motioning with his head. You jog lightly to catch up, and fall into step beside him. “It’s changed so much.”

    His voice is soft, “When’s the last time you were here?”

    You smile, “I was a girl, no older than six. My mother had just fought for our freedom from our oppressors.” He gives you a confused stare, before he simply continues walking.

    That’s when it catches your eye. It’s small, and delicate, and smiling. You make it two steps, before Steve’s hand wraps around your arm and attempts to pull you away. You remain rooted to the spot. “It’s an infant. A baby.”

    “Yes.”

    “I have not seen one since Diana was given to us. Even then, I was not allowed to hold her. Do you think she’ll let me hold her?”

    “Considering she doesn’t know you, probably not.”

    “But I mean the child no harm.”

    Steve winces, “That doesn’t matter here. Mothers are protective of their children.” He takes your hand, and this time you let him lead you away.

    “Is there a place where I can get one? Like Hippolyta got Diana?”

    He stutters for a second before saying, “You can’t have a baby on your own. It’s something you do with your partner.”

    You smile, “Then where do we get ours?”

    He nearly trips, but you catch him by the coat before he hits the ground, “Excuse me?”

    You smile, “You called me your partner in that proceeding with all the men. Why can we not get a child when our mission is done? When this war is over?”

    His cheeks turn a bright red, and he stammers over his words, “Tell you what, why don’t we revisit this subject when we finish the mission.” And without another word he starts walking.

    You catch up, and take his hand, “I want a girl.”

    He stares at you, “Excuse me?”

    “A girl child. I think it will suit us.”

    He sighs, “We’ll save that for the same discussion.”

    You smile, and keep walking, the warmth of his hand reassuring you, and the thought of a child of your own pushing you forward.

This Valentines Day
  • Whether you're spending it longing
  • Fisherman: Would you stop putting chocolates in the ocean? You're probably poisoning the dolphins!
  • Angelica: I DONT CARE HE NEEDS TO KNOW I REMEMBERED HIM
  • Laughing
  • Laurens: Okay, way way mon amay Jeh mapple Lafayette?
  • Lafayette: *chokes on drink*
  • Working
  • Mulligan: If someone asks me to sew one more pair of god damn assless chaps for another "valentines day surprise" I'm swear to god
  • Traveling
  • Madison: Sir you smell like you haven't showered in weeks
  • Jefferson: I know isn't France great
  • Or even mourning
  • Burr: Dear Theodosia, what to say to you...
  • Just remember th-
  • *cough*
  • Just reme-
  • *cough*
  • What is that loud coughing nois-
  • Peggy: AND PEGGY!
  • Oh, right! Ahem
  • Or even being forgotten
  • Peggy: Finally thank y- heYWAITASEC-
  • JUST remember that no matter how you're spending your Valentine's Day
  • Eliza: *opens door to Alexander with a half eaten box of chocolate*
  • You're always loved
  • Hamilton: Mmrph?
  • Eliza: *sigh* I love you too honey
  • ~<3

youmeganatsixx  asked:

you dont realise how great scotland is until you move half way across the world and can no longer get irn bru on tap or speak to random people on the train..i tried it. Dont speak to commuters in Toronto. They think you're weird.

I remember when I was in Southampton when I was 19 and was confused when the Pizza Hut didn’t have Irn-Bru on tap. Like, haha what is this place?

That said, a few days later I was sitting on the bench in the park and a homeless man started talking to me. He was one of the very few people that actually started a conversation first. Nice guy, actually. I gave him the rest of my half-bottle of Irn-Bru (of a supply that I brought with me!) and he said he could see why the Scots drink. I politely declined his offer of sharing his can of Tennent’s Super.

Big cities tend to think you’re weird if you start talking to them randomly on the train, at the bus stop, in the pub. Not in Scotland. It’s like something written into our DNA. I’ve had conversations with people on the streets and invited up to random flats not knowing anyone and been greeted like I was a long-lost cousin. “Oh, I didn’t actually bring anyth-”

“Nae borra, big yin” he said as he launched a can of Tennent’s into my hand “that’s whit we keep the cooking lager fur.”

What a beautiful country you are, Scotland.

[voltron] TALKING IN AN ELEVATOR DAY

JULY 28TH IS LANCE MCCLAIN’S BIRTHDAY

JULY 28TH IS ALSO TALK IN AN ELEVATOR DAY

but do y’all remember that one scene …

THE FAMOUS ELEVATOR SCENE WITH KEITH AND LANCE ???

@dreamworks WHAT IS THIS SUPPOSED TO MEAN

     ——-  A complete guide to a study routine ——-

Hey heh everyone it’s Tay and here’s a masterpost to become a disciplined individual because that’s what we all lazybones dream of but here’s how to make it come true! ( “•√•” )

                           ——- Making a study routine ——

Check how to make a study routine during exams here.

Step 1.  Write down all the subjects you have on the basis of their difficulty level.

here’s how - If you find a subject difficult or if it has a lot of memorization portion give it 3 points. If you are having any difficulty in a particular topic of a subject, give that subject 3 points too until you understand that topic. I put history here because is has lots and lots of pages to be read and stuff to be memorized.
When study? You are going to have to study these subjects every single day the sun shines.

Next, give subjects which are easy to grasp with little bit of understanding, 2 points. Put the subject with the different topic here too after you understand the topic because if you can’t understand a particular topic, it means you’re not fully confident about the subject itself.
I put maths, since it needs regular practice,  plus biology and chemistry here.
When study? You are gonna study these subjects every alternative day or every day for a short amount of time, say 30 minutes each day.

Finally, give subjects which need very little time to be understood or those which you can do during the free time in class, a single point. I put Sanskrit, Hindi  and English literature here.
When study? You can study these on every weekends and holidays or as said earlier, during the free time in between classes.

Step 2. Boxing in the stuff.

When you are done making the list, use this cute printable by @cmpbls to box in time for every subject. Make this REALISTIC and on the basis of your learning speed.
Leave in space for sleep, eating, shower, pee ( joking joking ;; ), chores, school/college, running/ fitness etc. Don’t forget recreation because your mental health is important too. These can be going out for movies, watching TV shows, creating art, checking social media, making yummy deserts for yourself, getting a long long shower, a picnic with friends and the list goes on.

Step 3. Done making it?

Then start using it! See if you left out any important thing or if your time limit for each subject is a bit less or a bit more. Write all these down somewhere and continue for a week.
At the end of the week, adjust your time for any subject you found uncomfortable with or add any chore which you forgot. Refer to step 1 for this again. Then make a new routine again. Make sure this is perfect because c'mon you don’t want to keep making schedules, do you?

So you’re done making a routine. But what happens after a month or so, can’t seem to maintain it? Keep reading then!

                        —— Maintaining a study routine ——

Step 1.  Make it real.
If you ask me to do 10 hours of study each day, I won’t be able to do it since I’m not use to it. Just like that, knowing your own learning capacity, make your routine so that you’re actually able to put it to use. Put in breaks, shower time, pee time (joking, I was making sure you’re listening haha) and all other chores and stuff. Make it normal and not some idealistic thing which you can’t follow at all.
However, if you do want to improve your learning capacity, go baby steps! For that, increase your study time and decrease your breaks in between proportionally. Then message me about your success! ;)

Step 2. Burnout baby?
Make sure your not just studying and studying 24/7. Putting in breaks is super important as it helps in keeping your focus and determination consistent. Having burnouts will not only decrease your productivity but will also lead to unwillingness to follow your routine. Remember, mental health is as important as your academic status! Go out in the sun with your friends and enjoy nature in its purest form ok?

Step 3. Enjoy, let go a little bit.
Please dont just keep studying 24/7. Have some relaxing days where you take out time for yourself and your pet (yes) and do some self care! Go for a walk, pet a pet, read a book, take a long shower, go out with friends and have fun!

Check out my other masterposts ->

Hope this helps! You can always send me requests for masterposts since my ask box is always open! :^)

Love, Taylor xo

Highschool!AU Haechan

find college!nct (here) & more hs!dream kids will be coming soon!!

  • favorite subject: piano & creative writing 
  • least favorite subject: chemistry 
  • voted most likely to: become a famous game show host
  • haechan is described by his homeroom teacher as ‘popular’, with pretty high grades in all subjects - even the ones he despises, and a personality that’s loud an vibrant it’s only natural that people want to be his friend
  • although he does have a streak of giving back cheeky answers to teachers, never insulting or rude just a bit too sarcastic 
  • but that just makes him even more popular, because everyone thinks he’s hilarious 
  • his parents are both musically inclined so haechan took every music extracurricular class that was available, the piano teacher basically lets him live in the music room
  • some older kids had tried to make snarky comments involving haechan’s talent, but he had confidently told them to buzz off with their low college entrance exam scores and well,,,,they never bothered him again
  • doesn’t skip class often, but when he does it’s totally with jisung and chenle to cause some no good pranks on their friends jeno and renjun
  • and/or to get snacks down at the corner store, the owner is like “hey shouldnt you be in school??” and haechan is like “oh, it’s national government day so no school!” and the person is always like uh,,,sounds legit and haechan just grins
  • has he used his cuteness to get free food from the lunch ladies? yeah,,,he has,,,,much to the look of regret on jisung’s face
  • his other favorite class is creative writing because haechan is imaginative, it’s hard to not notice both his personality and his creativity
  • and he likes storytelling and songwriting, so even if everyone else is writing cheesy romance hs love plots like haechan’s gonna write his dragon slayer robot apocalypse piano playing hero trilogy - just you watch him
  • (what im saying is popular boy haechan probably lowkey loves reading magical books and stuff,,, like he might hate science but do i think haechan loves scifi novels??? yeah,,,,look at him)
  • and you actually have creative writing with haechan this semester, which is funny because ofc you know him
  • your friends are friends with his friends yada yada, but you’ve like never really given him a thought
  • one of your friends had a brief crush on him when you were all freshmen, and you’d agreed - something about him was charming
  • was it the clear, glowing skin? the long eyelashes? the smile that made the room light up? the way you’d made eye contact across the lunchroom and haechan’s eyes , an earthy brown, had sparkled - 
  • ok yeah you totally just thought that “something” about him was charming not like you’d thought about him twice
  • but being in the same room with him for a whole semester changed that
  • and it changed it really,,,, really fast
  • and you weren’t expecting it, coming into class - trying your hardest to listen to other people read their stories, make comments, ask questions
  • but all you could do was sneak peeks at haechan
  • who sat at the desk beside yours, closest to the windows
  • and when a gust of wind would past buy, his hair would ruffle slightly and he’d tap the end of his pencil gently against his lips
  • whenever the teacher called on him, he’d have something so interesting to say and the chance amount of times he’d look your way
  • you had to pretend to be scribbling something against your own notes
  • because what,,,what was happening
  • you had never thought your crush would end up being haechan and not because he was the school sweetheart or the most athletic kid on the soccer team or any of that stuff from the movies
  • you just got,,,,entranced,,,, “he’s a wizard, right?” you once rationalized to yourself in bed but what - no c’mon,,,that couldn’t be it
  • and it wasn’t like haechan didn’t notice,,,,,,
  • he’d always wondered - when you were both freshman and you’d met eyes in the lunchroom during the first couple of weeks of school
  • why had you never,,,looked at him again?
  • it had bugged him, he had even asked mark about it who had graduated and mark just said something about “why do you care? oh,,,,do you like them?”
  • haechan had gritted his teeth “what are you talking about?”
  • mark’s cheery laughter came on the other end “only people ask a questions like ‘oh why aren’t they looking at me?’ when they have a crush.”
  • “you know what mark, i called you for some REAL advice and you’re giving me this baloney. this was dumb, college is making you dumber bye”
  • mark hadn’t been hurt when haechan hung up the phone, he was too busy chuckling over the fact that haechan 100% was interested in you - and just refused to admit it 
  • or maybe haechan was just as confused as you, he would act like you didn’t phase him at all in creative writing
  • most of the time he’d concentrate extra hard on staring out the window, or asking questions about other peoples work
  • because one slip up and he’d have his head down on the desk, hearts floating above his head looking at the way your hair falls over your eyes sometimes, the pretty birthmark on your arm, the cute animals you doodled in your pages when you weren’t listening
  • haechan did NOT want to fall into that hole - he had seen jisung have crushes before and it was never pretty he acted like a total fOOL 
  • but it was hard,,,you were so cute,,, he’d thought that when he first saw you but high school life had got in the way
  • now you sat beside each other????? what the heCK was he supposed to do???
  • you hadn’t told anyone about your feelings, and it was easy to hide you literally never saw haechan in the halls or at lunch - the only period you had with him was creative writing
  • so no one suspected a thing,,,,not until it was haechan’s turn to read aloud his writing
  • and you were secretly dreading it, but it did give you an excuse to finally look at him without seeming weird
  • yet the gnawing idea in your head was just: what if it’s a love poem about someone ,,,,, or some kind of allegory ,,, 
  • it was a dumb thought - but you’re a teenager in love these things always bubble up
  • so on the day off, you briefly considered cutting class but ended up at your desk, watching haechan walk to the center of the board 
  • his story was set in the future, something about a hero who played the piano while simultaneously defeating monster robots - it reminded you slightly of a comic book story line
  • someone had snorted at the idea, but haechan wrote it really well
  • to the point that halfway through the class, and even the teacher were on the edge of their seats
  • and then ,,,, came that part
  • haechans main character, who played piano in a well known orchestra was sitting beside his love interest
  • haechan read,

    “i would sit with them, completely alone in the grand hall. i would read music and they would practice at the other end of the room. the tune they played almost religiously, was one of my favorite. yet, there was never a moment where i could feel their gaze on me. almost as if i did not exist.

    i could clearly remember the first time we met, the canteen had been full of other musicians and orchestra staff. it was bustling, but like in any special moment time had slowed when we saw each other. it was like looking at someone who embodied spring. bright, just as curious and nervous as i. their eyes were a color i could see myself falling in love with effortlessly. but like spring breeze, the moment dwindled for a second and was gone. since then, they have not dared to spare me a glance.”

  • for a second you felt something familiar in the scene, then you realized haechan was describing a memory you had
  • the memory of the two of you in the lunchroom during freshman year
  • subconsciously, you were arguing that it was just a coincidence. he didn’t remember that, why would he?
  • but your heart was flipping in your chest, your grip on your pen had tightened
  • you almost didn’t hear the teacher call your name and ask for your opinion
  • haechan’s eyes landed on you and your face felt like it was on fire
  • “i,,,,,,,,,,i really like the scene between the protagonist and his ,,,,,, crush.”
  • you weren’t even thinking straight, but it came out
  • you hide your eyes back onto your paper, too concentrated on hiding your blush to see haechan’s lips turn upward ever so slightly
  • he had thought to himself,,,you remembered this moment too?
  • as class came to an end, you couldn’t get up out of your seat. your legs had turned to jello and you were still overthinking the whole situation
  • when the room had emptied out, even the teacher gone you finally put your hands on the desk and pushed yourself up
  • haechan had been waiting outside the room, he didn’t really konw what to say to you but the look on your face in class had meant something
  • and really, this itching feeling to look at you,,,,,to hold your hand,,,,,to even kiss you was starting to overwhelm him
  • and he wasn’t a patient person, i mean when his thoughts had crossed over to ‘why wont they look at me?’ to ‘they look really cute, kissing them would be nice’ he had decided to write that scene in his story
  • he wanted to know - he needed to konw
  • if what happened that day meant something and if that something was happening now, now in this one period class you had together
  • you didn’t see haechan when you opened the door, your eyes were on the floor and you were muttering to yourself
  • when you heard someone clear their throat and you looked up
  • “h-haechan?”
  • he looked at you and that sparkle from back in freshman year was still there
  • “i dont want to guess, but i need to know. you remember what happened a while ago,,,,,,,,,,what i based the scene off of right?”
  • you could feel the lump in your throat grow, you were late to last period calculus but you couldn’t even use that as an excuse
  • “i ,,, i do. but -”
  • “but, i want you to know that i started feeling it again. what i felt in that moment. i have a,,,,,,,,,,,mark used this word so ill use it too even though,,,it’s,,,corny but whatever - i have a crush on you.”
  • you stand there, backpack slung over one shoulder and your eyes wider than ever before
  • ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,haechan likes you?,,,,,,,,
  • “y-you like me?”
  • “yes, im sorry for saying crush it’s corny but i guess,,, i dont know,,,,it fits the situation?”
  • haechan gives a small shrug, but a smile starts forming on his face
  • the cute, shy one you’ve never seen before
  • “i - i like you too,,,,,,, i just got kind of confused because well i just,,,,, it’s never really,,,,something,,,”
  • haechan nods “something you thought about before?”
  • it’s not like this is middle school or anything, but even as high schoolers neither you or haechan ever had much of a mind when it came to crushes
  • haechan had always found distractions in good friends and music - you had found it in your pasions
  • so it was only normal that liking each other kind of sent you bothi nto mini panics
  • but haechan, has never been embarrassed by telling the truth so it was just a matter of time till he confessed
  • and standing there, alone in the hallway with the muffled sounds of other classes going on , you were happy he did
  • your first date starts that afternoon, you both are too late for your last classes so you sneak off and go into the city
  • neither of you has much allowance, so you scrap up what you’ve got and buy snacks to eat, dropping what change you have into the pal of your hand
  • “it’s not much, but we can go see what it’ll get us at the thrift store?”
  • you nod and follow haechan into a small, underground store that is stuffed to the brim with second-hand items and vintage clothing hanging off the ceilings
  • aside from the trendy adults in the store, you and haechan stick out like sore thumbs in your school uniforms
  • but you completely forget because haechan puts on a large, round straw hat with flowers on it and does an impression of one of your favorite actresses
  • you two giggle over trying on outrageous clothes, digging through old records and books, until haechan pulls an old puppy toy from the depths of some stack and goes 
  • “doesn’t he look like me?”
  • you laugh because the puppy is a slightly washed out red color, but the adorable face with big eyes does sort of remind you of him
  • on he flip side of the dogs ear is a worn out tag, the name ‘cherry’ spelled out in cursive
  • “should we spend our change on this guy?” haechan asks
  • you take him and hold him up “well it’s either him or we share cup ramen in the subway,,,,”
  • haechan and you agree, cherry is worth it
  • and as you walk around till late, the city lights illuminating you two in a soft glow, you hold cherry 
  • and the people walking by flash smiles at you two, a young couple in love
  • when it’s time to go, haechan has to catch the train but you’re getting on the bus
  • he fusses with you over waiting till you get on safely, longenough for your bus to actually get there
  • watching you climb on, you turn over your shoulder and tell haechan to be safe
  • he points to cherry and raises an eyebrow “you two be safe as well.”
  • you nod, and haechan seems to stutter for a moment
  • “see you tomorrow.”
  • you call before the door shuts and the bus stars on its way, haechan watches your figure through a window as the bus pulls away
  • softly, with a smile he answers “see you tomorrow”
  • on the bus ride you stare out the window, holding cherry tightly in your arms
  • who knew haechan’s story would be the reason you two,,,,finally understood each others hearts
  • haechan gets home,,,,,and immediately calls mark
  • “i have a stupid crush. you were right. college is making you smarter.”
  • mark just laughs, he saw this coming and asks haechan to tell him all about you 
  • when you end up in class the ext time, you try hard not to smile like an idiot when haechan comes in
  • but to your surprise, he doesn’t hide it all
  • he smiles, sliding into his desk and moving it just an inch closer to yours
  • “how’s cherry?”
  • “fine, did you get home late?”
  • the entire class seems to shift their gazes on to you and the weight of their stares makes you nervous 
  • but haechan doesn’t seem to mind, he just looks at you and says everything was good. clumsily he adds in,,,,if you want,,,,,i gotta show you something after class
  • the thing he shows you is the piano in the schools music room, you never knew it before = but haechan is a skilled player
  • and when he sits down behind it, you think he looks handsome - like some kind of young prodigy - like the character in his story
  • the more you get to know him, the more you see a side of him that you’re sure he hides from others
  • the little that you knew from other people was his popular, sarcasti image
  • but there’s a lot more - there’s someone that wholeheartedly loves music and his friends 
  • it makes you fall for him even harder,,,,,,,
  • haechan isn’t sure how to tell jisung and the others, so he approaches jeno first since he knows he’ll deal with it the calmest
  • “you’re dating,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,what how did we not EVEN KNOW?”
  • haechan shrugs “you guys are kind of oblivious.”
  • jeno frowns at haechan’s joke, but congratulates him nonetheless
  • now when isung, renjun and chenle find out ,,,, it’s a whole different ball game. there’s a lot of shouting. renjun even goes “haechan, you have a heart? you never told us!”
  • when you meet them, they all have some story to tell you about haechan
  • and haechan just ends up chasing half of them around, threatening to reveal their own secrets to their parent if anything
  • jeno, who stands beside you watching this unfold leans over and goes “he says he’s really happy these days thanks to you.”
  • you even get to know jaemin, haechan’s close friend whose on a break from school 
  • haechan is a half-decent cook, you find out when you try to have a picnic and your homemade lunch is nothing like his
  • you end up discarding your pitiful sandwich for whatever haechan has in his fancy lunch box
  • dates with him are always a surprise and goofy
  • the amount of times you two use the ‘cute highschoolers with no money’ charm is uncountable - free popcorn at the movies? check. extra fries at burger king? check compliments from people on how you two will only get better looking from here on out? weird, but check
  • you don’t even need money to be happy, honestly you and haechan can make it fun no matter what
  • from running by the sea, backpacks discarded in the sand and the early fall wind blowing the waves up close as you yell when haechan pretends to jump in
  • to taking cute pics of the puppies in the puppy cafe windows
  • heck, once haechan gave you some flowers before first period and you were like how’d you get these,,
  • and he had told you that he just “got them” when in reality he part-timed for a friends cafe on the weekend to get some money for a gift
  • you and him meet up at the public library to try and study, but get distracted because you text each other even though you’re a foot apart
  • ‘hey, chemistry sucks’
  • ‘you know what doesn’t suck? my cute face’
  • ‘agreed’
  • haechan sends you memes he made of jisung himself
  • you keep asking to meet mark because, most of the dating advice haechan gets is fro him but haechan is just like ‘mark’s a loser,,,,,,,,,,but he’s my big brother and he’d say something to embarrass me.’
  • you do meet mark when he comes back on college break and he does tell you something embarrassing. it’s that haechan doesn’t shuttup about you. 
  • haechan teaches you some songs on the piano, you two stay late after school and the music teacher entrusts you with the keys to the room
  • but it’s nice, to be there with him in the soft evening glow of the sunet - no noisy kids in the halls, just you
  • your first kiss is outside of the music room, with haechan’s hand on your waist and his nervous laughter afterwords, because he’s confident but ,,,,,,a first kiss is really something else
  • but you reassure him, when you kiss him a second time before getting on your bus home and haechan walks to the subway, dizzy with glee
  • haechan doesn’t do pda persay, but he does do little things that are cute
  • he’ll lay his hand flat on your desk, looking at his textbook like he didn’t just do that and you’ll giggle and hold his hand or play with his fingers
  • one time you kissed them and haechan blushed deeper red than you thought was humanly possible, but he likes it,,,
  • other cute quirks; calls you nicknames that have to do with your clumsiness, compliments you when you least expect it, sends you his favorite instrumentals when you say you can’t fall asleep because he knows they can calm you down, has your favorite snacks memorized so he know what to get you without asking, haechan would probably read your horoscope to you everyday if you were into horoscopes like he’s that kind of boy
  • also if you’re ever upset by something or someone, haechan has the kind of skills that will uplift you in ways you never thought possible. with possible jabs at what made you upset here and there
  • he might be ‘sarcastic’ to some people, but with you he is nothing but truthful and gentle. he can make jokes and be playful, but his love is real and strong and if anyone hurts it - he goes after them like bad blood
  • always ends his texts with “stay safe” if you’re going anywhere
  • and totally leaves his cardigan on purpose on the back of your chair in class if he sees that you’re cold
  • mark: can’t believe you’re soft for someone haechan
  • haechan: im not,,,soft
  • mark: their name in your phone has three heart emojis next to it  
  • haechan:,,,,,,,,,and yours has three poop emojis now goodbye
  • (he is soft for you tho, fyi ^^)