dont have time to do all today

anonymous asked:

I've been vegan for almost 2 years now and at first it was great but now I'm exhausted all the time and have no energy to do anything. I went to my doctor today and got my blood tested but I won't know the results till Tuesday. I think I'm going to stop being vegan because of my health. Like I'm almost relieved because ill finally feel better but im scared of what people will say. Vegan ppl will say I couldve made it work and meateaters r gonna be smug. I just dont want to feel like shit anymore

Who cares what people say or think! It’s important to take care of yourself and do what YOU think is going to help!!!! If you have to stop being vegan for health reasons that’s totally fine, I hope things will be okay!

yeah except we literally dont have to specify neo-nazi because none of us are like “blah blah the 1940ish nazi social party or whatever” like nazi in the context of today means neonazi. theres literally no difference. yall keep pulling up words we never even use? like weve never fuckin said “and richard fucknuts the member of the National Socialist German Workers’ Party” lmao like shut the fuck up. you know damn well what nazi means in 2017.

you just want to defend nazism thats what it is. you want to ignore these peoples calls for ethnic cleansing and make up shit that doesnt even exist. People dont have to use neo-nazi to describe the nazis of today, all they have to do is be in 2017 and talk about modern fucking times. if only yall were as concerned with the rise in nazism as you are with semantics you made up maybe more of yall would be stopping fascists from gaining power. just sayin.

yall the same as the folks that wanna call nazis the alt-right. because “thats what they call themselves” yeah cause i really give a shit about what a nazi wants to be called. because i really fucking wanna let them confuse the public and hide the truth of their ideology behind nice suits and new names. shut the fuck up.

03.06.16 | I have spent the majority of today crying from frustration over trying to get everything sorted for everyone else. I havent even LOOKED and all the important things I should be doing, I just dont care right now 😓 Instead I’ve restarted a textbook I read but didnt actualy study, and this time I’m taking notes! Yes that is my Frankie diary I spent a good month bitching about; I’ve decided to give it a chance. ☕️🌧

someone: make a decision

me: 

Nightmares 2.0

(A/N): I’m so sorry you’re not feeling good anon :(

Request: Hey.. I really cant explain how horrible I feel today.. I dont think I can go on any longer like this.. Would you maybe do a Buck Imagine so I can distract myself? Maybe where you’re dating and one time he Comes back from a Mission, finds you asleep on the Couch and bucky adores this sight before he carries you to the bed and cuddles you till he falls asleep as well. In the middle of the night then he Wakes up to you having a nightmare, so he Wakes you, holds you and tells you all will be fine ?

Warnings: nightmares?

Tags: @mcuimxgine


Originally posted by sebuttianstans

    Bucky trudged through the door of his apartment tiredly, an entire day on the run wasn’t easy and he all in all was just happy to be back home. With a sigh he kicked off his boots, already pulling his vest and top over his head as he wiggled his pants off his body. 

    “(Y/N)!” Bucky called out as he had finally stripped himself of his suit entirely. “(Y/N) you home-” He stops yelling when his eyes land on a little clump of human on his couch, curled up under a mass of blankets as said human snored softly. Bucky smiled gently as he gingerly walked around the couch, stopping to crouch before (Y/N), nearly eye to eye with the sleeping human. 

   God, they looked so perfect like this, so precious and sweet, their face rid of any stress that they carried through the day. He couldn’t even begin to describe what it was like to look at (Y/N) like this, without the stress of everyday life, to see an expression of utmost comfort and happiness upon their face and Bucky just couldn’t interrupt that. So instead of waking (Y/N) up to get them to bed he simply slipped his arms around them and carried them bridal style to their room down the hall. 

   (Y/N) whimpered softly as small goosebumps broke out along  their arms, causing them to shiver within Bucky’s embrace. Bucky smiled down at them softly as he gingerly opened the door to his bedroom, hoping the old door wouldn’t squeak. He smiled victoriously when the door opened softly, revealing the warm and cozy room (Y/N) had fixed up for the two. Gingerly, Bucky laid (Y/N) down on the soft mattress, pulling one of the many blankets on the bed over their shivering form.

    He would admit the soft bed and (Y/N)’s sleeping form looked rather inviting and he did just get back from a long, tiring mission, it wouldn’t be to crazy to go to bed this early, right? Bucky smiled once again as he slipped in beside (Y/N), gingerly wrapping his arms around their waist so as not to wake them up. Unconsciously (Y/N) snuggled back against his warm chest, a soft hum, nearly a purr, fell from their lips, their shivering ceasing. Bucky himself hummed as he settled against (Y/N) comfortably, nuzzling his scruffy face into their neck.

    He could already feel himself falling asleep as soon as he had walked through the door but now, curled up beside (Y/N), the feeling of their body against his, the soft lights of their room only adding to the rather warm feeling around him only made him feel that more exhausted. With a soft smile and an equally soft kiss to (Y/N)’s neck Bucky finally succumbed to sleep, allowing his exhaustion take him over. 


    It was only a few hours later Bucky awoke to the same sounds of whimpering, this time louder and much more unpleasant. He groaned softly as he rubbed at his eyes groggily, his sleep filled mind still trying to decide what was making such a noise. It took him a total f .2 seconds to shoot up straight, his heart racing as he realized the sound could only be coming from (Y/N). His gaze flicked to the left of his body to see (Y/N) shivering once again, their entire body trembling as small whimpers and pleas for help fell from their lips. 

   On any other given day he’d refuse to wake (Y/N) up seeing as how the last time he nearly got kicked in the throat but now, listening to their sad little cries and watching the way they shivered he’d take that risk over whatever was going on right now. Immediately Bucky hauled (Y/N) against him, one arm wrapping around them to keep them as close to his body as possible while the other ran over their hair in an attempt to soothe them when they awoke. 

   “It’s okay (Y/N),” Bucky had murmured when (Y/N) gasped, signaling that they were now awake. “You’re okay, it was just a dream, I promise you’re okay,” He had no clue what (Y/N)’s dream was about but these were the words (Y/N) usually spoke to him when he had a nightmare so he figured why not use them on (Y/N). “I’ve got you now, everything’s okay doll,” (Y/N) shudders softly as they nearly crumple back against him, sighing in shakily as they do. 

   No one spoke for a bit, the nightmare too raw for both of them. Bucky had never seen (Y/N) like that before, he couldn’t begin to fathom what they were dreaming about and nor did he want to, all he wanted to do was take (Y/N)’s pain away, the same way they had done for him countless times. 

   “You good?” Bucky asks, pressing a kiss to (Y/N)’s sweaty hair. (Y/N)’s breathing is a bit labored and shaky but at least it was returning to normal. With an almost hesitant nod (Y/N) answers the question all the while curling around Bucky further. 

   “I am now,” 

I Should Hate You But For Some Reason I Can't

AN- For princess-of-purgatory-and-bass….I hope you enjoy it:)

 (If you dont like it, or it’s not what you wanted, just let me know and I’ll rewrite it)

((( I decided to do this one so you didn’t have to wait until I finished all the stormy nights imagines….and Im really sorry for the slow updates, between the technical issues and my family having me run around, I haven’t had much time today.)) 


 Do it for him. You thought as you watched the amount on the computer go up….and up and up. You felt your heart slowly breaking as the numbers began to slow to a number too high. Do it for him.

“$960.96.”

Your hands shook lightly as you dug into your bag and slowly took out the money. There goes my paycheck.

“Thank you for shopping at Jet. Please come again soon,” the cashier said boredly as she handed me my change along with my receipt. You smiled weakly as you accepted the coins and your receipt, dropping them in your purse and lifting all the bags into your arms.

Rushing, you made your way back home, where you dropped the bags onto the floor. You sighed in content as the heavy weight was removed from your arms and onto the floor instead. Before you got lazy, you began unpacking, throwing the plastic bags away and tucking the groceries neatly into a large box.

“There’s five left…” 

You gnawed on the inside of your lip as you decided to deal with it later. Taping the box closed, you pushed it into the broom closet with huff. 

“Y/N?” 

Your eyes widened as Tim’s voice rang out and you scarmbled to meet him.

“Happy birthday!” You exclaimed as you tackled the unsuspecting boy into a bear hug. You heard him say something that sounded like, “Itsh nut muh buthduy.”

“What?” He pushed you away as sucked in a breath before talking, “Its not my birthday. Not yet anyways. Not until tonight.”

You rolled your eyes, “Tim, the whole day is your birthday.”

“Well, not necessarily. See-”

“Tim, the whole day is your birthday…and you know what happens on your birthday? You get presents!” You squealed as you pulled him into the living room and pushed him down on the couch before running to you room and getting the small blue box. Just as fast, you returned to a seated Tim and practically threw the present at him.

With an uncertain look, he pulled the bow loose and lifted the lid. “Oh, thanks Y/N…what is it?”

“Its makeup…you know…to cover the bruises and scratches.”

“Oh.”

“Tim, you’re not supposed to like it. No one ever like birthday gifts they dont want.”

“Oh, good. I was afraid you’d get upset.”

You giggled before gently taking the box away from him and grabbing his hands to oull him up. “Ok, so I wanted to wait until after dinner, but Im probably more excited than you are. Come on!”

You pulled him to the closet you had deserted only minuets before. With a grin you pushed him close to the door and stood back. He looked at the door for a second before looking at you. 

“You painted the door?” He asked, feigning excitement.

“No, you dork, look inside.”

He opened the door and spotted the large box. He pointed to it and you nodded before he dragged it out in one swift movement. He peeled back the tape almost as quickly and you realized, that deep down, he was just as excited as you were.

“Coffe beans?” He question as he held up a bag.

“Starbucks Meduim Rost Whole Bean coffee beans.”

“Really?!” He asked elatedly. You nodded, “42 bags.”

He stared at the bag in his hands for a second before suddenly standing and pulling you into a tight hug. You felt him smile into your neck as you laughed.

“Y/N, I love you. No one’s given me a present like this in years.” You pulled away slightly, “Not true. Damian and I picked out a gift on behalf of your family.”

“Another gift?” You smiled and nodded your head towards the shelf in the closet. He grinned at you before pulling away and reaching for the red box on the shelf.

“Y/N?”

“Yeah?”

“Y/N, you let Damian pick this,” Tim said as he held up a white build-a-bear dressed as Red Robin, but in the colors of Robin.

“Press his paw.”

When he did, Damian’s voice sounded from the bear, listing the reasons why Tim wasnt so terrible.

“I feel like I should hate you, but for some reason I cant.”

you know .. i did love you . i loved you so much i couldnt breathe . you consumed my entire being and i guess thats why i let you treat me the way you did . i honestly don’t know what you got out of destroying me time after time but i do hope that you don’t put anyone else through that . i waited . i waited and waited for you . i gave you chance after chance and i left you with every last thing i had and you took it all without a single care in the world . i tried to hang on because i really thought you were worth it . but today i just stopped waiting . i dont want to hear “i miss you” anymore although i hope you do miss me . and you know , once upon a time i would have given my last breath for you to say that . but now i hope you see me so happy that i look like im about to explode and i hope it kills you . i hope you drop to the floor and feel like the breath is being sucked out of you and you realize what you gave up . because i gave you the world and i kept fighting long after i should have stopped and you didnt deserve that
—  daily tumblr quotes (via hannahxhardin)
this is just a remindre

if you fucked up today, thats okyy, youre still smart, and good, and people still love you

if youre in a dark place today, thats okyy.
even if you feel like you cant get out of bed, and all you can do is breathe, thats okyy. you breathe, take the time you need, and we’ll be here when youre ready

evrey'day is a battle. on some, you demolish on whatevre’s ahead of you. on othre’s, you just have to hang on for dear life. eithre way, youre a fightre, strong person, dont forget it.

2

Was another morning that I just did not want to leave and go to swim practice.  I don’t know what it is, I think the added pressure of these harder workouts as they prep for their big state meet, and the fact that I was also put in the faster lane during all of this and it keeps my anxiety level high the entire time. 

I get less time to catch my breath as the intervals are shorter.  And it is so funny because today for example the intervals were 75′s.  I kept trying to tell myself even if I really dont get a break after a 75 and have to go right into the next that is only like doing 150 which is no big deal.  But there is something about the idea of being able to stop after 75 even if only a handful of seconds, that mentally crushes you if you dont get that break. 

Then later in the practice we had to keep getting out of the pool onto the deck to do squats.  I have no problem with the squats - but I can not just pick myself up out of the pool like everyone else -  I have to swim over to the wall and use the ladder.  So it just sort of makes you feel your fatness for lack of a better term.  And then being on the deck shirtless and in jammers is also not my comfort zone either - so that was fun.

When it was all over the Coach said, you did a great job today are you feeling better about it than you were on Wednesday.  And to be honest I really was not.  But apparently I am just being very hard on myself because the fact is that I kept up with the other 3 swimmers in my lane today, did the entire workout and no one even realized I was fighting it mentally the whole time.

200 swim/kick/pull

2 rounds

  • 4x75 interval descend 1:20/1:15/1:10/1:05
  • 4x75 effort descend on 1:50
  • ez 50

200 pull, scull every 4th length

50 kick fast

10 squats

100 kick fast

20 squats

50 kick fast

10 squats

100 kick fast

20 squats

dive sprints to half pool, mid-pool fast flip and race home

2050/81,100/318,900

You’re never going to be 100% ready and it’s never going to be just the right time, but that’s the point. It means that every moment is also the right moment. If you want it, you just have to do it.
—  Unknown

oftd featuring. tezri propie

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fanu-chan  asked:

Hi! Today i read your whole comic (beautiful btw, its 6:36 in the morning and i dont regret it) and i love your art style, specialy in the comic, how you can see little by little the smal bits of changes through start to finish, but then i came to look at your tumblr and im like umm? UMHHH?! LIKE OMG WHY DO YOU HAVE SO LITTLE NOTES bc seriusly all of this its really great i love how you balance all the characters so they all have time onscreen :) hope everything's fine to you you right now~☆

Awww thank You so much for the sweet message!!! 8′)  Idk it means a lot to me to hear people actually enjoy what I make here haha

Tbh I often feel like I’m juggling 6 pick up trucks trying to balance this comic out, especially the current chapter because 4 years ago I started it with soooo many subplots it’s a bit ridiculous, but it’s almost over, and all the future chapters are planned to be a lil shorter and more focused so hopefully things will keep getting better!

Me

I make a break from dralloween for what I think is a very important matter: this little girl is me, when I was 7-8 years old. It’s very important because now I finally realized that I was better than today. Through the years, my parents, the other children at school, the teachers, have crushed my personality.
They believed a girl is better if she wears pink, has everything in perfect order, doesn’t have messy hair, doesn’t like wrestling but plays with dolls and draws cute princesses instead.
People bullied me all time and I was lost between who I truly was and who the people thought I should be. Some years ago,  my husband, somehow, saw who I really am and we started a path together. So today I took back my personality. I dont’ want to talk a lot about myself, I just wanna leave you an important message: be who you want to be, love whoever you want to love, do what you want and in your own  time.
Because you are right, you are beautiful, you are PERFECT.
You are perfect and don’t let the people change this truth, you are perfect and beautiful just the way you are and if people don’t accept you… well they are wrong. THEY ARE WRONG, you are not.
Bullying is the easiest way for many people to avoid facing their problems. To be yourself is the bravest,  smartest way to live.
They are idiots, you are awesome. :)

do you ever, as someone with depression, just have those days where its like ‘ok i know i say i dont wanna exist all the time, but today i truly want to die, im tired, i want out’

92 truths

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose however many people you want to tag!

I was tagged by: @rosegoldeyelids thank you bub<3 ily

LAST…

[1] drink: water
[2] phone call: Nick!
[3] text message: Nick again..
[4] song you listened to: Helium by Sia
[5] time you cried: today 

HAVE YOU EVER…
[6] dated someone twice: no
[7] been cheated on: no
[8] kissed someone and regretted it:  yes!
[9] lost someone special: yes
[10] been depressed: kinda
[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:
[12] black
[13] burgundy
[14] grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
[15] made new friends: yes and i couldn’t be  more happier!!!
[16] fallen out of love: yes
[17] laughed until you cried: of course!
[18] found out someone was talking about you: yes
[19] met someone who changed you: yes
[20] found out who your true friends are: Yes
[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yeap:)

GENERAL:
[22] how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: My lovely friend Andriana aka @rosegoldeyelids 
[23] do you have any pets: no:(
[24] do you want to change your name: no :)
[25] what did you do for your last birthday: I spend some time with my family and friends
[26] what time did you wake up: like 9 a.m? 10 a.m? it depends
[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: I was at my bf house,watching movies:)
[28] name something you cannot wait for: Summer break! cause i want to visit a friend!!!
[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: 3 seconds ago?!
[30] what is one thing you wish that you could change about your life: living with people who are more open minded and accepting (I leave as it is because i couldn’t agree more)
[31] what are you listening to right now: Versace on the floor by Bruno Mars
[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: no
[33] something that is getting on your nerves: people??!!
[35] elementary: mehh
[36] high school: fine
[37] college: not for me!xx
[38] hair colour: Light brown
[39] long or short hair: long hair
[40] do you have a crush on someone: Yes!!
[41] what do you like about yourself: my hair!? i mean they’re really soft and i love it:)
[42] piercings: only at my ears 
[43] blood type: idk?!
[44] nickname: Jo
[45] relationship status: single
[46] zodiac sign: libra
[47] pronouns: she/her
[48] fav tv show: Shameless- Hit the floor-two and a half men- Dexter
[49] tattoos: no yet!!!
[50] right or left handed: Right!

FIRST…
[51] surgery: never had 
[52] piercing: at my ears
[53] best friend: a boy at day nursery called Andrew
[54] sport: volleyball
[55] vacation: Kefalonia(greek island)
[56] pair of trainers: I dont remember

RIGHT NOW…
[57] eating: nothing
[58] drinking: orange juice
[59] i’m about to: watch a movie
[60] listening to: Paris by The Chainsmokers
[61] waiting for: nothing tbh
[62] want: a hug: yes pleeaseeee
[63] get married: no
[64] career: ???

WHICH IS BETTER…
[65] hugs or kisses: both
[66] lips or eyes: eyes
[67] shorter or taller: Taller
[68] older or younger: both
[69] romantic or spontaneous: both
[70] nice arms or nice stomach: both
[71] sensitive or loud: both
[72] hook up or relationship: relationship
[73] troublemaker or hesitant: either

HAVE YOU EVER…
[74] kissed a stranger: no
[75] drank hard liquor: yes
[76] lost glasses/contact lenses: no
[77] turned someone down: yes
[78] sex on a first date: no
[79] broken someone’s heart: probably yes!
[80] had your own heart broken: yes!!!:(
[81] been arrested: no
[82] cried when someone died: yes
[83] fallen for a friend: Yeap<3

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…
[84] yourself: Yes
[85] miracles: yes
[86] love at first sight: Aha!
[87] santa claus: no
[88] kiss on the first date: yes
[89] angels: Sure:)

OTHER…
[90] current best friend: Kat & Jo
[91] eye colour: brown
[92] favourite movie: Blue is the warmest colour!

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