dont get me wrong im still happy for them its just.....idk

I was wondering if any [past or present] Jonerys, Pro-Daenerys fans like myself feel this way.....?

Firstly Id say please be nice i just enjoy analyzing the shit out of fandoms I like, (im a history/polysci major ((with an emphasis on Peace Justice and & Conflict Studies)) all i do is analyze and try to be diplomatic lmao) but considering all they petty drama between both ships as well as pro/anti Daenerys stans ON BOTH SIDES I’m going to be “That Person” and at least ask for people to be respectful/civil, I want to hear from everyone and their metas/what they think which is why i tagged like, all the tags, no matter if you love her/the ship or cant stand it, as long as everyone can keep civil

So firstly I’ve loved Dany both books and show from the beginning. She’s gorgeous, wants to be the best person she can be, and her hair/fashion style game is always ON POINT.  That being said, somewhere around season 5 i think i’ve found my opinion on her cooling a little bit, ep after ep, till now. Like I still like her bc she was my first character love on the show but I’ve def soured in my opinion on her. Maybe it’s because I love learning about the subject that im more baised (im hoping thats the case) but she just seemed to have no interest in actual governance, just the reputation (esp of being the ‘rebel queen’)/the awe/the power/the thrill of the adoration that went along with it to the point where I feel like though she still wants to be a ‘good queen’ or at least wants to be seen that way, she doesnt want to do much work for the title. Like yeah she freed all the slaves and that was a def progressive and awesome move on her part (major props! slavery is sin and im glad someone recognized that who had the power to do something about it) but she didnt handle that aftermath or ensuing problems well at all nor really mulled heavily on the subject to find the best solution. She just got fustrated with pretty basic/common (albeit complex in themselves) issues of standard governance and kind of went agh! fuck this! (obv not actual quotes but that was the vibe I got). And then ESPECIALLY after season 7 her character has kind of nagged at me in the back of brain which i hate but its inherent like its just a feeling i cant help it?? I just dont know why to be honest that Im feeling so negative towards this character i used to love.  The whole ‘ bEnD thE knEe ‘ thing w/ Jon and yet pinning it on Jon’s pride not equally on his and her own was more than a little hypocritical, when hon they can discuss it later like at that point they have two common enemies the WW and Cersei they both want to do away with, and then again with the Bend the Knee or Die bit w/ the Lannister soldiers. In fact the whole sequence before that point felt kind of villinous I dearsay, I mean  deliberately burning the harvest that most of westeros needs for the winter or even strategically not willing to try, and well, nOOt intentionally burn the food considering its winter, the harvest is over (so likely not much is gonna grow in the time being) when she has a G I A N T ass army of her own to think of feeding???? Like i get it is war shit happens soldiers die but the F O O D ? Was that an impuslive in the moment mistake or did she just not give a fuck? And back to the aftermath scene/Bend the Knee 2.0, her speech was again quite hypocritical…and burning dickon?????? not willing to keep prisoners???? either bend or die??? I actually am glad she did away with Papa Tarly bc he was an awful human, but dickon????? a young idealistic man about to loose his father??? the heir to a major ally/house???? And honestly that bend or die strategy is soooooo dumb bc now she cant trust any of them like theyre only bending the knee out of self preservation homie, no one wants to die. they bend  the knee to survive and now they all of the sudden think youre their queen? Nah fam, prisoners were better, all you got are spies in your camps or people willing to backstab you at the smallest promise of coin. And i dont want that for my girl

IDK the whole “im gonna BREAK THE WHEEL,,,,,,,,yet im stating my claim mainly on my housename (aka the predominant force of said wheel for a literal dynasty) and the fact that i can scare people who otherwise are unconvinced bc lets be real westeros has had a bad run of rulers a lot of which were Targs in the past couple decades, into submission bc ill burn you otherwise???” doesnt sit well with me nor does it feel like the character ive been rooting for the past five-ish seasons. She just doesnt seem to put into effort on understanding Westeros, why things go wrong, being self-critical or sharing the blame,thinking on what a “good” ruler would do…. anyone else feeling this way and if so do you think this is just shitty writing? D&D butchering her character? or a new arc for her? perhaps the way shes always been? She just seems like a tantruming child bratty and entitled idk (a beautiful child but still) 

As for jonerys…… im not gonna go into it much but how are other shippers happy????????? I honestly dont understand. I was SO looking forward to this season/this ship. like so much! But it felt so forced? And i know a lot of people claim its cause its rushed but tbh we’ve had a lot of romances in a similar time frame that felt like A C T U A L romances…..even Talisa/Robb who the Northerners will prob compare any of this too were so much better. THIS WAS MY EPIC SHIP DUDE. I feel the dany side of things (took a while but theres def heart eyes) and yet Jon???? He felt hollow. Still does even after sex. Im so disapointed but more than that I cant see the romance or the chemistry. He looks constipated. Hes never smiled like with his teeth around her the way hes done w others he cares deepily about (ygritte, toramund, sansa, even fkin gendry in the first scene they had together). He never reveals anything about himself. And between the “my queen” ep (and remember he was look warm when discussing her to toramund throughout it) and the previous the only thing that changed was that he saw the actual difference dragons made against WW. You could argue she saved them all too but that doesnt make you fall in love w someone out of the blue and also people have saved his ass before and??? Sansa w the vale anyone??? (Not an argument for jonsa js its happened) (though ill admit ive transitioned to loathing jonerys and loving jonsa more as a potential couple in the space of seven eps where if you asked me I wouldve been like PSH u cray. I never thought it would happen in a mill years but D&D ruined my ship and here i am! Shipping aside tho since its best too look at these things as neutral as possible).  Anyways the sigh of his after she left and when he pretended to be asleep…. idk. The only scene that felt genuine and where Jon smiled and it didnt look like a full on grimace and they actually kinda joked around was really nice and at the pit at the finale and if they do a LOT more of basic romance stuff like that I could ship it again but. It was followed by boatsex and boy. 

I was hoping boatsex might rekindle my like for the two together. I could see the chemistry the passion. I was hoping the passion would overwhelm me and make up for the rest. But instead……like there was no foreplay, it lasted 2 seconds, and it was overplayed by brans voice and a reminder of future conflict or at the very least major angst b/w the two. i didnt see the parallel between regear and lyanna playing alongside their scene as anything romantic or that it should be taken as such. and the look they shared…. I was hoping jon would bring it bc Dany’s look in her eyes is like soooo smitten and adorable and say what you will I still have a space in my heart for her and still dont want her to suffer, but again Jon looks like oh shit/constipated. And not in a good oh shit way either. 

There is a bunch more too but Imma stop there bc Im just tired at this point. 

So many things were just….off this season. And it cant all be blamed on the “rushed” time frame. I’ve read the undercover lover theory and hon it makes the most sense (not perfect sense but still, more than what we’ve been poorly spoon fed) but im not willing to believe it just yet. Still, maybe D&D are just butchering a lot of things like making the romance believable and stuff for the sake of time that could be true i guess. But they like to go AHA GOT U so 

Idk I dont find a lot of meta in the jonerys tag bc honestly (((((i think its bc the tag and ship are more popular and theirs more people both good and bad)))) it doesnt seem like snowballing theories is something all fans take really well in the tag at all. But whatever. I really want to know, is there any meta or theories im missing to either validate the icky feeling Im haveing about D or her “romance” or on the flipside anything that might make me change my mind about it? Theories, meta people!

I just want to reiderate im not trying to hate on anyone or any point of view and I will flag any comment anti one ship or person or another if its plain hateful or rude. I just want to understand it and see what Im missing, esp because of how much I was looking forward to her arc and jonerys’ dynamic and how much the words “falling short” dont seem to cover it. And to see if im not the only one to either have critique on the ship or her character [or even actually change ships]

Also i apologize for how much ive said “IDK” i just….. I DONT KNOW 

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blupjeans is trans representation tho i dont get why people are kicking off about it. barry and lup could also be bi/pan calling it bad bc its het is just not the right way to go about it

im putting this under a readmore because this is more than them being a m/f couple

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any good fanfic recommendations? monochrome or ladybug preferred

Weeeeeeeell, ladybug is a ship that i found cute but I’ve never read any fanfic of it. BUT! If you are searching for Monochrome fanfic believe me I am your woman OwOb

Okay first of all, You’ve got to read @texanredrose​ mono fics which are well known to be numerous and fucking great :


- Fighting for Us : A very long military AU one shot that is always a pleasure to reread =w=

- Speak Now : A one shot semi-canon au that take place after the events of Vol 3 ( way waaaaaay after )  where Blake and Weiss are both idiots stuborn dorks

- Looking Back : A one shot modern AU this time. Blake asked Weiss to prom and got shot down. But maybe there’s more to that~~

- Defector : So this one’s sorta an “what if Blake was still in the wf and  was about to attack Weiss Schnee” AU one shot

- Black Cat Song: This is Hallowen! This is Hallowen!~~ Do you like Hallowen ? Do you like Christmas ? Do you like Nightmare before Christmas ? Well then this fic is made for you! Multiple chapters, mono fluff and angst with happy ending, what more could you ask for =w= ? (IF IT WASNT OBVIOUS THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE )

- Saga of the Dango : Only pure fluff where Blake get jealous of a dango and is ridiculous as always =w= ( with elderburn )

- Pour Enough : A prohibition AU, with Blake as the bartender speakeasy and Weiss as the bar’s new singer. Pretty much love at first sight =w=( even if Blake will deny it hehehe )

- It’s Funnier In French : ( i actually helped a little with this one uwu ) A one shot AU with German runaway Weiss and French Blake “I just used the most terrible pick up line ever and I’m so embarrased” Belladonna

- Of Love and Politics : Modern AU with Weiss as the governor daughter and Blake as an escort. Bonus: Weiss telling Jacques-ass to go fuck himself like the queen she is!

- Wrong Side of Heaven : A. Fucking. Angel/ Demon AU! With Blake as a Fallen Angel and Weiss as a pride Demon, what are you even waiting for?!

- Joint Venture : Blake and Yang both has internships at the SDC after graduation, working under COO Weiss and CEO Winter. And of course these 2 dorks has crushes on their hot boss, while their boss are mourning because they’re sure their cute interns are dating each other

- Loyalty : Read it. Just. Read it. This tex first mono fic ( and first rwby fic ) and also the best entrance in a fandom ever. But before you comment on it and point out incoherences : wait till the end. Everything will became clear.


Okay so that is for all of Tex mono fics. Now if you have already read all of those I advice you @keena-kapu​ mono fics

- Remnants of Heart : A PIRATE AU MONOCHROME FIC! Seriously you have to read it, its awesome =w=

- The Rock AU Monochrome version : Everything is in the title =w=. Also veeeery NSFW  and hot and reeeally great

- “For the last time, I AM NOT JEALOUS!” : Yeeeeah, Weiss is totally jealous hehehehe


You also have some of @redsuitwriter​ fics too :

- Two Kingdoms : A very interesting Medieval AU

- Where Flowers Bloom: Very fluffy, adorable story with elderburn and pyrruby in bonus =w=

- A Mile in Her Ears : Weiss thought she could win against her gf at a game of strip poker. It didnt really turned out the way she wished hehehe

They probably made more mono fics but idk them all so if you do, i would love you forever if you could tell me about them


And @donesses :

- Blake Has a Nightmare :  Everything is in the title except the fact that Weiss comfort Blake like the totally straight gal pal that she is no homo right

- Scars : A pretty good and very interesting retelling of the RWBY canon with mono, nuts and dolts ( and a jaune that i like for once ziuoefhoaeijfoaeid )


And if that still is not enough, here are some of my personal favorite fics :

- Catnip : Heh come on now, what mono shipper doesn’t know Catnip :3 ? ( if you dont, god im so jealous cos now you’ve got so much to read! )

- Weiss vs Zweinophobia : Where Weiss decides to help Blake overcome her “fears”

- Darling we’re chess pieces : By god, please. For the love of god read it. Its a fucking Monochrome one shot modern soulmate AU. But not the kind you might think, and its just soo good hnng

- Winter’s Blessing : Before asking the “big question”, Blake wants to know if she hasthe approval of the great Oschneesama =w=

- An Evening At Malachite’s : Weiss is dragged into a strip club by Yang and Ruby, and though she did complained at the beginning she end up with a pretty good surprise =w=

- Belladonna Lilies : I mean…..why would you want to read that….It’s just a Fantasy Victorian era monochrome AU……with 71 chapters…..and slowburn….nothing to see here right :3c ?

- The House of Belladonna-Schnee : Having four children isnt easy, and Blake and Weiss know that more than anyone hehehehe


Phew, there’s probably a lot I’ve forgot but anyone can feel free to add moar to this list if they want ^^

C: My mom expects me to babysit my siblings when she’s here AND when she’s gone. I get that she’s aging almost 40, works in retail, and shes too tired to do anything most days but its suffocating to me as well. Today she got mad at me because my little brother got into some cheese she was going to use for dinner and i didnt see him. Long story short, shes too tired to raise my siblings directly and heavily relies on me to supervise them in the way a parent would.

More recently i’ve come to suspect that she didn’t want to have kids when she did and it shows. The signs have always been there, but im only now seeing it. She takes responsibility for her choices but she does nothing about her resentment for having kids early seeping into the way she talks to and treats of us.

On top of that, my older brother whose 21 lives here too but is too selfish for anyone to rely on so it’s just unspoken that nobody can count on him, which makes me take on the load that could have been divided between me and my older brother if he wasnt a selfish irresponsible manchild like the father he and I share.

She coddles him and makes threats she never follows through on but doesn’t want to kick him out because shes afraid of what’s to become of him. He couldn’t care less about what happens to anyone else besides himself and has shown her that for years but yet and still, she stans so hard for him. He couldn’t give a shit if there’s no food in the house, as long as he’s eating. He’s also disrespectful, socially unconscious, misogynistic and trash. I think it’s just time for her to let him go. You can’t help someone who don’t want to be helped or at least show appreciation FOR your help. Some people need to learn lessons the hard way and her protecting him from learning those lessons is harming him more than she thinks it’s helping. But she defends herself by saying that “black families dont stick together” and that “were all we’ve got in this world” and I understand that, but he’s not trying to help anybody, he thinks he can step on everyone’s toes and that everyone is not supposed to say anything about it. There has to be a line drawn when you cut people you love out of your life because they’re harming you; no matter how much you hope they get better. He’s not trying to improve our situation. He’s being part of the problem and he does not care. He does not act like he wants go be a contributing member of this family.

You KNOW you’re trash when people who want to see you do better stop wanting to help you.

I see my mom as one of those black mothers who could have stopped a trash black man from becoming trash; but somehow was not able to. She tried her best to raise us right but idk. She used to be emotionally/psychologically and physically abusive up until I was 14 but shes stopped being physically and psychologically abusive since. She spoiled me and my older brother with buying us stuff she never had as a kid as a replacement for her having a personal relationship with us. She didn’t try to form a relationship with any of us. None of us have a close intimate relationship with her. I have the closest relationship with her and even i see her as a semi stranger, an acquaintance. Like a much older room mate who pays the bills. I see my relationship with my mom as two black women who sees eachothers struggles and helps eachothers when they can and relies on eachothers for different things because we both know how hard it is to be a black woman. She helps me and I help her. Which contributes to why I think she didnt want kids when she had us.

I witness the emotional abuse she inflicts on my little sister that she used to do to me. I want to help my sis but I just…dont know how. I know how she feels and I feel like I should speak up for her like I wanted someone to speak up for me when I was a kid. She was just like me as a kid. I was really emotionally sensitive and my mom was not and I use to cry really easily from my moms meanness and insensitivity. Now that im older and grew out of that I just see my moms side better. She doesn’t have enough patience to monitor how she talks to us and think about if something she said was too mean or insensitive. She doesn’t have the patience, to my little sisters detriment. But another side of me doesn’t stop it because my little sister doesn’t obey me like my mom raised me to obey her while im expected to be a live in nanny. My mom raised me so rigidly with whoopings with a belt if I misunderstood something she told me to do or if I did something normal for kids to do but she didnt have the patience for. And it annoys me that my younger sister gets away with so much that I would never have at her age. I think that’s why I dont speak up for her and I know its wrong but I think in the end, the biggest problem is that my mom is someone who shouldnt have had kids. Not everyone should have kids just because theyre physically able to and my mom is one of them. Some people just dont have the emotional capacity it requires to raise mentally and emotionally healthy children and my mom is just one of those people. She wants the best for us i know and would die for us absolutely but that’s not enough in order to have a happy home as single parent with four kids each with their own specific emotional needs and some who are special needs and another with mental illness, especially since she doesn’t have the patience and energy to cater to all of our needs effectively.

anonymous asked:

I can see you have a type...

If the type is The Most Knowledgeable And Smart In Their Group But Still A Complete Idiot then yes, definitely, I have a type lmao - seriously tho I dunno if this is specifically about DGM (Lavi and Wisely are pretty similar) or if it’s a general thing, but as far as Wisely goes you might not believe this but over half of the reason why he’s my fave is that he suffers from chronic migraines and I Hard Relate

Anon said: MAKO AND TAiYOu ARE THE CuTEST I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. ALSO KIRI WITH LONG HAIR GIVES ME LIFE.

Thank you!!! Super happy you liked them!!! <3<3

Anon said: You know, apparently in the raws of Chapter 144, Kirishima’s friend calls him “Ei-chan”, not just Ei

!!!!! thanks for the info! I was actually wondering which between the -kun and -chan they had used!!! 

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Look I’m tired of this war between Supercorp and Karamel why can’t you guys just ship whoever you want without spreading hate (IM TALKING ABOUT BOTH SIDES) I’m a karamel shipper everyone who follows me knows that but I LOVE LENA LUTHOR and I’m so happy Katie is going to be a regular next season. I don’t ship Supercorp but I think the kind of friendship Kara and Lena have is hard to find and I’m glad we’re gonna see more of this friendship but all this hate coming from both sides and hateful posts is just exhausting when I read this things (and is hard not to bc is all the time) I find myself sad and all the joy shipping karamel brings me kinda goes way. Look I find it very honorable you guys fighting for LGBT equality and wanting more time on screen that awesome (I personally think that sanvers is a beautiful couple that deserves more time on screen) but you have to understand that is not karamel fans who decide that so stop attacking them for something we can’t control and I love Chris Wood w/ all my heart he’s the most selfless and adorable person I know he talks and fights for the mental illness cause bc of his dad and he’s so strong to talk openly about this his feminist and fights too for the rights of LGBT community so I’m sorry but if you hate him for just being white/straight or bc your ship is not happening sorry but it’s not enough bc you’re hating and spreading horrible things about a beautiful human being. But ok you have the right to no like his character and karamel that’s your opinion and I respect it but don’t think you should say this things about him bc it really hurts especially him(who hardly uses his social media and with all this hate his getting i’m not surprised) and for us fans it sucks you hurt us too bc I’m a fan for a really long time I know the kind of person he is. You guys are hurting a human being a super cute human being not the character bc he’s just doing his job and he has no say in the storyline so pls stop I’m begging you. THE OTHER SIDE NOW in MY FEED I’ve never seen any hate about supercorp or about the LGBT community THANK GOD BC IF I DID I SURE AS HELL WAS GOING TO FIGHT FOR THE RIGHT THING (of course I know that there’re people out there who spreads hate about supercorp too) BUT IS NOT THE ENTIRE FANDOM EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE ITS A TINY PART OF US AND IS STILL WRONG AND IT HURTS I KNOW BUT WE FIGHT THEM TOO BC ITS NOT RIGHT. I told myself I wasn’t going to talk about this ship war anymore bc it makes me sick to see a fandom who are supposed to be supportive and united grabbing each other’s throats like that but the time is passing and more and more hate are being spread I mean ??? LEARN TO LOVE THATS ALL IM ASKING YOU DONT LIKE YOUR FRINDS SHIP THATS FINE YOU DONT NEED TO FIGHT W/ THEM BC OF THAT OR SAY OFFENSIVE NAMES. RESPECT THATS ALL
Don’t say offensive things and spread more hate on this post okay? I’m just trying to idk help maybe try to unite a little THIS amazing fandom that’s all I’m asking thanks.

i have a lot of mixed feelings after episode 13. after this whole season so far, basically.

everything is messy. like, ridiculously. there’s a lot of good ideas, dont get me wrong, but its jumpy and all over the place. lena luthor should have been in the show more consistently, the same way lucy lane was in season 1. lillian luthor should be a more consistent villain like maxwell lord. what about Alex’s dad? the show doesnt even have anything to ground itself to? like season 1 it would always come back to kara needing to be at catco for ms grant and the whole double life thing, this time its like???? whats going on? i want to see kara being a journalist, but its like occasionally mentioned here or there. it wasn’t even looked at in this episode!!!

im angry bc there are so many characters that have great potential and are being sidelined for idk iffy romance? maggie sawyer, i wanna know more about her. lena luthor, james, winn, alex, heck even mon-el couldve been interesting if there’d been more of a focus on world building with daxam. not to mention that kara doesnt even have a story or direction? its legit just kind of random mish mash here and there, she saves the world, im confused.

lol then the queerbaiting. its queerbaiting. its a new type of queerbaiting bc the network is probably aware that they should try and keep their audience by having sanvers as a happy, canon couple but the amount of people who’ve said to me they thought supercorp was canon until they thought otherwise is almost ridiculous at this point. people. who dont watch the show. sayign they legit thought lena and kara were in a relationship. ?????? and i just look the relationship between mon-el and kara has been written so shittily and horribly. they argued in today’s episode and kara made some damn good points and yet she still decided that he was worth a shot? like whaaaaaaat? no girl stay far far away until he’s been written as a better person thx.

the reason i say mixed feelings is bc there is no doubt in my mind that the network, the CW, are forcing the writers’ hand. im a film student, i get how it all works, networks like the CW (which is owned by one of the big hollywood players/companies, Warner Bros.) aren’t about to take ‘risks’ (ie interracial relationships, more up front and centre lgbt relationships, theres other things but i cant think of them rn). its a product. they need to sell it. sadly, the kara mon-el relationship is one. they use sanvers to target the lgbt demographic. it kills me, bc these networks and hollywood majors completely kill decent tv and film for the sake of ratings and money, etc etc. 

supergirl season 1 was completely phenomenal, and i am so disappointed in season 2. 

high schooler! renjun

the third instalment is finally here !!!

i was meant to upload this like h o u r s ago but then i had to help my dad and my batt died

and then i played online,, and i made a new friend !!! so we played together for a while lmao #goals

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anonymous asked:

I'm sorry that the other anon made you uncomfortable and also it's cool that you're busy it's life we all get it (well most of us) but yeah just idk I can't words rn so 💕

Thank you😭😭 I’m really exhausted to the point that I rlly want to cry but ayy its life haha. And yeah it made me uncomfortable bc I don’t really like to show my relationships to others. Sometimes I do it but it’s rare and I usually dont start it ahah, it’s just that Im a pretty private person. I still don’t know who they are tho, made me sad bc I don’t want them to think that they did smt wrong. But yea I decided that I wont answer any of their anonyme ask anymore, if they want to have a private conversation I will be very happy to talk, if they still want to message me anonymously I wont answer, bc this has nothing to do with yall or with my blog
BUT ANYWAY LETS STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS🐿🐿🐿🐿 (also ty for all ur kind messages I’ve read everything and sorry that I wasnt able to answer to everyone!!)

can i have a little vent sesh about my autoimmune disease

im not really looking for advice… just to get it all out.

for those who are reading and dont know: i was disagnosed with an unodentifyable autoimmune disease two years aho that causes intense, full bodied pains, exhaustion, and stomach problems. $2400 in blood tests and they still couldn’t pinpoint what was wrong with me and they won’t know until it gets worse.

Last week zoo camp started. Zoo camp is my most favorite part of the year. I look forward to it starting in October.

Why? because i get to hang around kids who love animals and i get to tell then cool things about the animals and i just play all day. i goof around and make funny faces and animal noises and say ridiculous things all to make the kids laugh… or at the very least… make them think im a teensy bit weird and crazy BUT ITS OK TO BE WEIRD AND CRAZY.

All of that takes the utmost energy to perform- day in from 830 am to day out at 430 pm, 5 days a week, 7 weeks in a row. Pure top of the line quality work… every day because thats what these kids that i have known since they first started zoo camp at 5 years old expect of me. Plus its a new camp every week so its crummy to give your best one week and then be crabby apple seed the next.

I cant find it- my energy or interest in zoo camp. I feel physically tired like i ran a marathon every day. My muscles and joints are constantly on fire. On fire isnt even a way to describe it. It feels like being stung a million times all over. Every bone has rusted to the next. Sometimws i get reaaaalllyy bad stomach cramps like im going to throw up. I can barely think let alone be the happy and excited person i am when i dont have full body aches. i trudge along the day wondering if my leg is going to fall off at the knee because it hurts to bad to walk. or maybe my pelvis will cleave in two. or maybe my hands will just stop working altogether.

I already missed 2 days of work and we just finished the first week of zoo camp. I felt like a total dick today because i had to leave again and we were already short staffed. i barely made it to lunch without feeling like i has to cry.

the team i work with is so damn understanding but… i feel selfish. like i cant keep doing this to them but idk what i am supposed to do. i cant exactly stuck around and sob im front of a group of 5th and 6th graders.

im frustrated. ive been trying a new diet, i cant exercise because it hurts so bad during but WAY WORSE the next day, i cant find a new doctor to take me in because my town only has 2 practices. My doctor refuses to medicate me until they know my kidneys and liver are failing (or some shit like that).

most of all I want to be able to enjoy my favorite time of year again and make all these kids really happy and excited about zoos and animals. im so upset that this is my life.

sorry and thanks for listening. ill probably delete this later.

Yo ok so im on mobile so i cant do a read more and its 3am but ive been thinking about overwatch college au all day specifically for genyatta pls hear me out
Ok so middle school genji would be the equvilent of “before he fucking almost died” genji so hes loud and brash and probably in the anime club
And then i figured the equvilent of him “dying” would be like if he got kicked out of the house. Ive seen a lot of ppl do things were he got super physically injured but i like him being kicked out more. It’d probably be necause of Hanzo or something so like, the end of freashmen year of highschool genji (maybe sophmore? I havent decided) just kidding i just decided sophmore. Genji is kicked out but im not sure why? Genji is trans so maybe like transphobic parents? I dont wanna put genjo through that but it makes the most sense,,, escp if he comes out
So Genji is kicked out end of sophmore year, the year hanzo is a senior and geaduates
Genji’s homeless for a bit and the equivilent of him joining overwatch would be like, him joining video game club? Im still working on this but i want there to be a club that genji joins thats all of the og overwatch members and that gives him a circle of friends, een if hes not very open with them. Also everyones queer so its like a nice little gsa club on top of the video games so genji feels good there. Even though hes not super close to anyone, everyone basically opens up their homes to him so hes like couch surfing for the last two years of highschool. (Mercy, who was a grade above Hanzo, maybe has an apartment and thats where genji frequents the most? Mercy used to be in the club so Genji only knows her through upperclassmen who used to hang with her but the arangment is still better than nothing)
But Genji is also like furiously dysphoric during this time bc thats pretty much what his canon backstory talks about with him “feeling wrong in his new robot body” or whatever, which made him really irritable and anti social. Same goes for this au, so people who knew him before see him going from the guy he was in middle school to this irritable ball of anger and distrust and its a big chane tbh. It prevents genji from getting closer with anyone from the club bc he isolates himself a lot, but he sticks around for the living arangments
He doesnt have the means to afford or attend college and is in a shitty place mentally so he decides to take a gap year after highschool probably. This is probably when he meets Zenyatta, whose a senior from a different school during Genji’s gap year (a year younger than genji) Idk how they should meet? Maybe just, randomly at a park but then they keep bumping into each other and Genji hates it but Zenyatta thinks its fun. Maybe Zenyatta’s school is near Genji’s work so Zenyatta will visit Genji a lot and Genji is like Why Are You Here. Zenyatts gives some cute answer about thinking Genji isnt as happy as he could be and wants to help. Also in case u didnt know Zenyatta is nonbianary (they/them) so they could invite genji so some trans support event? And they hang out after the event and genji starts warming up and they become good friends throughout the rest of Zenyattas school year. (Genji always forgets Zenyattas still im highschool because of how mature they act) Their friendship makes Genjo way calmer and more acxepting of himself, so we see the transition from angry genji to at peace genji
And then zenyatta is like “im going to college, you should try applying to some schools to! So you arent stuck at this deadend job for the rest of your life”
Maybe he gets a scholarship? The kids been through a lot he deserves it, so he gets a scholarship and he and zenyatta end up attending the same school >:3c both freashmen and idk what their majors are its not that important
And i know this isnt really practical but what if all of the overwatch videogame club ends up going there?? And theyre excited to see genji because he seems so much happier, asks him if he’d rejoin the video game club if they started it at the college. (Basically this aus versiom of the recall)
He says yes, invites zenyatta, its a fun time
UNTIL it turns out hanzo also goes to the school and was invited to join the club by mcree (despite never being in the highschool one)
And shit gets tense
Genji and Zenyatta kiss at some point
Are you proud of me

Notes:

-Other members who werent in the original overwatch group (in game) like the junkers or d.va are from different schools but joined the club regardless

-i think 76 and reaper should either be like way older (a couple grades) and in the club or club sponsers. Reinhardt would be a proffesor, same with hob goblin man

-this part of the au focus’ on genji but like it could be anyone with this same concept? Im thinking of doing a version for the junkers

-what if genji finds out hanzos a big gay and hanzo freaks out bc of internalized homophobia and the fear of being rejected by the family like genji was and thats what makes genji like “im here for you”. Because genji’s wasted so much time on hate he doesnt want that anymore (basically the same as in canon)

-hanzo is still screamimg though like hes convinced genji hates him and he hates himself and hanzos just having a rough time tbh

- i guess thats it im sorry for all of this maybe ill draw s/t for it later or make a reference sheet for everyones classes in relation to one another (ie how d.va and lucio are in the same class and tracer is a class above them)

-byeeeee

boyfriend!kyungsoo

• you always thought he was intimidating bc of that little glare he does every so often so you never talked to him and he thought you hated him which was why he never talked to you

• but it was really just lack of communication and the both of you had this mutual attraction towards each other but couldn’t bring yourselves to say it

• but you’re good friends with jongin and chanyeol and the both of them are just stuck in the middle and have to listen to both you and kyungsoo babble on and on about how cute the other person is and how they wished they could talk to you

• it just reached a point where they got v fed up and was like ‘yo we gotta make them hookup i can’t take this anymore’

• so jongin convinced you and chanyeol convinced kyungsoo to go on a blind date w each other // which was a v V close call btw bc chanyeol doesn’t know how to be lowkey

• jongin wanted to go for something big like that expensive french restaurant downtown that serves fucking escargot and champagne or whatever but chanyeol was like ‘nAAAhhh fham, it’s too much effort, just make em go to the moo milk bar or smth’

• jongin actually wanted to protest against this ‘moo milk bar’ idea but the blind date was so last minute that it ended up getting planned so poorly and later when you both start dating, kyungsoo blames chanyeol for taking his first ever date w the girl he likes so lightly

• the both of you were fuming when you found out that a suggestion that sehun made, just to be a brat, was to make your first date at fucking Subway and chANYEOL ACTUALLY TOOK HIM SERIOUSLY

• but then mama suho came along and saved the day all like ‘nono u idiots, u gotta take her to AT LEAST a sushi buffet cmon’ so everyone settled on that but made suho pay the bill bc he always has the money $$$$

• so you show up and kyungsoo showed up but the second you saw him you were fuckfuCK GOTTA BLAST-

• kyungsoo was v mad at himself for not knowing it would be you bc cmon, who ELSE would they put him on a blind date with

• but more than being angry at himself, he was v angry w chanyeol :)))) and he was just messaging him all like

• ‘chanyeol istg u lil shit do you understand what you’ve just done, dO Y OU UNDERST NA D HOW MUCH SHIT YOU JUST G OT MEIN T O ISTG HOE YOU BETTER PREPARE TO SQUARE FUCK UP BC THIS 173 CM BODY WILL ROUND HOUSE KICK YOU 173 KILOMETRES AWAY FROM ME WHEN I GET BACK’

• everything was just a huge fucking mess, both of you barely spoke a word during dinner, the people behind you had an obnoxious seven year old that just would :)) stop :)))) rocking back and forth in his chair :))) and kyungsoo tripped on his own feet while pulling out your chair to sit just to be a gentlemen

• but you told your friend abt this blind date and you asked her to call you and pick you up in case it was going to shit but the second she calls you, the fucking darth vader theme just resonates throughout the whole restaurant and you’re fumbling your phone bc it was so loud like ‘fuck shit wa itoka y i swear i wasn’t trying to bail out on you i jsut-’

• but kyungsoo is like ‘hold up ,,,, you like Star Wars?“

• so ya you both ditched your meal imMEDIATELY after you both finished it and paid and just went to your unit in your condo to watch Star Wars movies

• everybody was getting so worried but when kyungsoo busted in the dorms looking tired as shit with prominent eyebags, everyone was like ‘kyunGSOO FUCKING SHIT, YOU GOT ACTION RIGHT ON THE FIRST NIGHT !!!!!!’

• ‘wh- what … ????? n- no ,,,, nO o HGO D NO, WAIT LET ME EXPLAIN WE JUST WATCHED MOVIES ALL NIGHT I SWEAr-’

• but that was most probably the best shitty date he has ever been on

• you constantly argue over anakin skywalker

• ‘no, christ, kyungsoo, you don’t understand okay anakin jUST MADE A MISTAKE HE JUST NEEDED A LIL LOVE-’

• tbh kyungsoo couldn’t care less abt anakin, he’s more of an obi wan kenobi person but he only snaps back at you bc 1) you only like anakin bc he’s hot and 2) he doesn’t want to know which celebrities you find attractive other than him

• but really, he tries to avoid ACTUAL arguments as much as possible bc when he gets way too into it, he literally will not stfu and sometimes he talks so much that it results into you crying bc you got so frustrated with him and kyungsoo is just like 'agh fuck :)))’

• v afraid of your parents, esP your father

• when he came over to your house to have dinner for the first time, your dad was generally nice and was like aye whattup and put his hand on kyungsoo’s shoulder as a casual man-to-man welcome and he literally tensed as harD AS a fucking rock

• he was sweating profusely during dinner and your mom was just like ??? u good fham ????

• 'wh- whAT ??? ohOHOH O me ??? im pERFEC T :)) fAntAS TIC ACTUALLY !!! hOoO boy, it suRE IS A LIL HUMID IN HERE OR IS IT JUST ME !! :))))’

• kyungsoo is usually v composed and calm and chill and hella rad but all it took was one dinner to send his walls crashing down

• overall, dinner was a success bc aside from, you know, your boyfriend being a nervous wRECK- he was v v polite and respectful and made his intentions w you clear + your parents liked him bc he was talented

• your parents invite him over for karaoke night a lot and always make him sing open arms by journey // and if they’re feeling pushy, maybe sabor ami

• you call him 'mom’ as a nickname bc cMOn okay, he can cook, sing you to sleep, clean up after your mess, look out after your needs and once you proposed to him w a ring pop

• probably the furthest you ever took this joke was when it was 2 in the morning and you wanted to text your mom who was on a night shift at her work to get you some on sale cereal on her way back home in a couple hours but you accidentally called kyungsoo

• he still brings it up to this day w a scowl on his face and uses that as his excuse every time he does something wrong

• 'okay yeah, i might’ve eaten that last slice of cake in the fridge that was primarily for you but remember that one time you called me at 2am :)))) a night before a concert, mind you :)))) thinking i was ur mom and asking me to get you some fucking honey nut cheerios :))))’

• 'ok listen that was oNCE’

• you guys sing in the shower a lot

• w8 don’t misunderstand, not tOGETHER IN THE SHOWER but when yall have your separate turns both of you sing a lot which causes the other person who’s in the kitchen or smth to hum along :)))

• he always cleans up after your messes

• when you have some friends over and have a makeup night or smth and they leave, your whole room is just a mess with bread crumbs everywhere, maybe some spilt water, and kyungsoo will literally stop whatever he’s doing to help you clean up bc 1) he hates mess and 2) he feels uncomfortable with the sight of you cleaning alone

• isn’t a fan of couple items so when you asked if you could at least have like, something v discreet like couple rings, he was like ,,,,,, yo idk ,,,, if the media and the company finds out about us i ,,,

• this slightly upset you but you gotta understand his point of view bc idol life is hard so you just smile all like lmao right i got you its all good, i didn’t really want em anyway but the idea just sounded cool hahahHA

• but lay awake at night just thinking about it and is all like yo jongin, u up

• so he just kinda chats w him for the next hour or so just contemplating bc he’s just like 'ik she wants these rings man gdi she told me she doesn’t want them bUT I KNOW SHE DOES so like ??? what should i do ???? i kinda want them too they’re cute af but the manager might bust my ass joNGIN DID YOU FALL ASLEEP’

• but one day when you’re both watching those star wars cartoons on teletoon or smth, he’s like hey gimme ur hand and you’re like k and she just kinda slips that ring into your finger

• you’re just kinda staring at it wide eyed and before you can say anything, he’s just like 'w8 ok this is not a proposal, i would’ve given it much more thought than this if it was’

• so he has this habit now that he takes your hand and kisses your finger that the ring is on

• gives you tremendous support in your studies

• when you’re confused w something, he’ll either come over or FaceTime you to help you study or when you’re distracted, he’ll get your focus back on track like what would u do w/o do kyungsoo honestly

• whenever you both watch a romantic drama movie that he’s starring in that has many cute and romantic scenes w his costars, he points at a close-to-kissing scene all like 'i was thinking of you when i had to shoot this okay’ or 'don’t pay attention to this, let’s skip it forward’ or 'im just going to remind you right now that you’re my number 1 and i love you so much’

• and you’re like chill soo, i know

• probably willing to buy you pads or tampons

• literally willing to do anything or try anything for you

• one time he asked you what your favourite dish was and you said smth like idk, beef stroganoff ????

• he was like hm i dont know how to make that and you were like lmao it’s chill, only my mom knows how to make it and if you thought he would let go of the topic so easily, guess what’s coming

• you come back home from school or work, tired as shit and ready to take a nap but the second you enter your house, a smELL SO GOOD AND SO FAMILIAR WAFTS TOWARDS YOUR NOSE AND YOURE LIKE WAIT IS THAT-

• yes fam, it’s kyungsoo in the kitchen cooking your favourite beef stroganoff

• you’re like holy shit and he’s like try it !!! and it tastes exactly !!! like !!! your mom’s !!!!!! and you’re like hey how did you get this recipe, its my moms secret and soo was like lmao i asked for it :))

• he rarely ever cries but the only time you remember him crying was on his birthday and he was in another country on tour so he couldn’t spend it w you but the boys planned smth and next thing he knows, your face is on the big screen on stage and the fans have their flashlights out and waving it all around and everyone including yourself is singing him a happy birthday and he just :’)))))))

• so when the concert is over, the whole fandom knows about your relationship but let’s not talk about that bc its kyungsoo’s birthday and he spent the whole night facetiming you and just expressing his gratitude

• 'i love you so much for this, you know that?’

• 'yes soo, ive only known in the past five times you’ve told me in the last ten minutes’

• he also gives the best hugs

• usually, he’d just lazily snake an arm around your shoulder to pull you close and give you a forehead kiss or smth; kinda like a half hug

• but in times when you haven’t seen each other in long whiles, like when he’s back from tour and you come to the airport to meet him, he will put both hands around your waist and clasp them at your back so you can’t get out and lean back a lil so you gotta go on your tippy toes

• he’s also gonna put a hand at the back of your head and kiss either your temple or your hair

spoilery cursed child thoughts!!!!

- it has been nine years and ten days since i have had a brand new harry potter book in my hands i am very emotional

- seriously there will be spoilers like i’m just going thru the book so bye bye if u aint read it yet

- also i have literally heard nothing about this so if some spoilers are well known i didn’t know!!

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How kpop disappointed me/ exo drama/ the impact in my life

Hello, my name is carol and its 3am, i should be sleeping right now but i found this blog and as reading these confessions i felt a strong urge to confess myself as well.
I’ve been dealing with this feelings and thoughts for a while now, but I cant say anything on my twitter fc (cause the other kpoppers will judge me) and i dont have any friend who would care enough for what i have to say.
So this is going to be long, i apologize.

I was emo, you know? Listened to emo bands and heavy music with screams and shit, and i was always against pop music because it was fake, and it was purely all for the money. So you have no idea how shocked i was when i found myself starting to like kpop.
I met kpop thanks to my best friend at the time (we’re not friends anymore), and she was emo as well, i remember when she would still wear black and dye her hair and talk about Get Scared and Devin Sola on twitter while she was discovering kpop and listening to SNSD. She showed me “I got a boy” mv and i was like…. okay… but nah.
A few months later she left the emo side and got really deep in the kpop world becaming an Exo fan and Chanyeol biased.
I just watched her while i was still digesting the idea that she left our emo world to be a fan of asian people.
I never thought it would happened to me.
But there was this music channel on tv and every week it would have this “ichiban interference” which would show asian music, kpop, cpop, jpop and jrock.

I missed my friend, and i felt distanced from her. So i started to watch that program to see if i could like kpop. And…….. I kind of did. I was just so excited to get back to having something in common with her and i just wrote the names of the groups i have liked while watching the program so i could search it later on.

*funny fact tho, somehow i already new shinee 2 years before i enter the kpop world for real, and even thought i didnt listen to them i would mantain this crush on choi minho and even like his pages on facebook.

The first group i got into was, of course, Shinee, because i already new them and already loved Minho. So until this day they are my babies and my ultimate group.

She was all into Exo and i just didnt really cared for them. But because it was important to her, i gave it a shot.
I entered the Exo fandom right after Kris left. I didnt had any problems to know who was who. Althought at the beggining i had a problem with sehun and luhan and for a while i thought they were the same person lol but that passed.
I also made an fc on twitter to be close with my friend again, which made me later on go very deep in the exo world. And because of all the problems they had, I also suffered a fucking lot being a part of their world.
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As i said before, i was always against pop music because it was purely commercial. The thing that made me accept kpop was when i read about the trainee thing, and how they would work really hard for years and just really dedicate themselves to the maximum to acomplish their dreams. I thought that was very admirable. So i felt like it was okay for me to like kpop, because it was different and they were all very admirable people.
I thought it was a dream land you know? Get accepted in a company, be a trainee for a few years and then debut and become pretty and famous and rich.
But as soon, as me being an exo-l, exo started to fall apart, all of these delusional ideas i had about that lifestyle and this industry, began to crash.

When Luhan left I spend like, 4 weeks crying. No joke, i would start crying in the middle of the night and go running into my dads room so he could confort me.

I dont know how and why but Exo really took the best out of me. I would cry for anything they did. it was insane. But also im very sensible and i do cry a lot so idk.

The thing is, after that i got really hurt you know? Because i thought SM after kris leaving would be more rational about things and would treat the boys better. But no.
And now its Tao’s turn and this one… This one is just extremely fucked up. Because i know, i know very deep in my heart how Tao loves Exo and loves us fans. He was always the one who would try to make us feel better and confort us, and he always promised he would never leave. And now to be where we are now, i mean… It makes me realize how fucked up this industry is behind the scenes.
(As i am young to this fandom you’ll probably say i dont have the right to be this sad and blablabla. But I did watched showtime and i think once you watch that there’s no turning back, you’ll love each boy and cherish them to the maximum. Because i entered the fandom right when kris left, i didnt really cared for him, but after showtime i was like… really sad, and even thought i became a fan when they were ot11, i am ot12 in my heart. You might think i dont have the right to it but i dont care, i know my feelings towards it and i know how much i care about them)


So after that, and also that whole baekyeon scandal (it shocked me that baek and tae lost fans just because they fell in love. I do understand that they didnt handle things how it should’ve been handle but damn, have the fans never experienced falling in love with someone and wanting to share their love with others and show it to people, and how exciting everything is? not to mention baek is young and he always liked tae. I dont like her, and she is older, so i do think she as someone more responsible, should’ve known better), and honestly it really pisses me off how the fandom said it was marketing, BECAUSE GOD FORBIT THAT BAEKHYUN IS ACTUALLY STRAIGHT AND DOES NOT DATE CHANYEOL IN REAL LIFE!!!!!! That is one thing i dont have the patience. Im all up for homossexuality, but to see how hardcore these shippers can be and how the fans suddenly feel like they have the right to dictate the sexuality of their idol and anyone who says “no, he’s straight” is wrong and delusional… I mean… Come on.. Get off your high horse honey. (i dont know if it was markenting or not, i do not care either, i just hated how the fans reacted)
And seeing the korean media and how the netizens criticize everything the idols do that dont go acording to what they belive. And seeing how they are always making big drama out of nothing ( ex taehyung x bigbang). Seeing how the fans deal with all of this, where their idols cant even be themselves that they’ll instantly get criticized (ex: sehun and his comments on ig) …. I really hate that, the fact that the idols (not all idols) cant be themselves completely, they have to follow some rules (probably) to what they can or cant say, and they cant even be free on the internet either as the fans will judge them and the media as well. So I mean, how can I love someone and be fan of someone, that it isnt true? You know what I mean? How can I relate to you? I cant.
I just got so tired, Im exausted to say the least.

I wont say kpop ruined my life, because honestly shinee is still one of the few things that makes me happy and whenever im sad i listen to them and feel better. And Im really happy because Shinee is one group that remains intact, they never have any dramas with their name on it. Its just so peaceful for me to be a shawol. Also being a xiumin, lay and tao biased, they never failed to make me happy, and every time i see them i instantly gain a smile in my face. Also my parents support me much more with me liking kpop than with me liking, as they call it “noises and screams and dirty people who look dead”. Anddd my mom also likes choi minho so its pretty awesome when we talk about him and fight for him as in who he belongs to. (HE IS MINE MOM)

But i entered the kpop world thinking it would be magical and it would only bring joy in my life. But now im at a point where everything is just slowly being destroyed and the land i once thought it was bright and colorful is now all black and white and broken.
Not to mention how kpop took my life completely, i was never into going out (as i have social anxiety and panic attacks) but the fact that i would spend ALL of my daily hours on my fc just talking about koreans and chineses and saving their pictures religiously and spending hours organizing their albuns and stuff (my exo paste have 14 thousand pictures and this is just the pictures i would save while i was on twitter, without downloading any pack or anything)
I just…. this was a really long rant and im still keeping out a lot of other thoughts, this is just a resume basically.
I just wanted to say that im disapointed. There’s no better word than that. I felt like i was promised so many things while entering this world, but as things kept progressing a lot of things happened and my positive thoughts about it were slowly dying, and i compromized so much of myself and my life to it, to now being here, sad and all fucked up thanks to it.
Lately i dont stay on my twitter so much, i rarely enter it tbh. And i just spend my days reading or watching a serie or anything that its not related to asians and kpop because honestly i just need a break from it, a break to digest all of the things that happened in 2014, a break from this drastic change of (my) taste and just trying to deal with the true that it is: kpop is not what i looks like, yes the music is good, yes they look good and happy but we dont know what happens when no one’s around, we only know what we are showed and therefore, due to all the dramas that happened, i myself am incapable of trusting kpop again.
(I even started to listen to my emo bands again, so i could forget kpop for a while. This is what is helping me ‘keeping it real’)
I will always love my groups and will always support them, but I dont wanna go back to the place i was (dedicating my life to it). And now i definitely am more aware of everything, and if anything, one positive thing that kpop did was making me more smart and careful towards my trusting hability.
Thats it, thats my confession, it was really long im sorry. I started writing this at 3am and now is 4am.
*I have a question tho, it was only with me that after kpop i just dont feel atraction to ocidental guys like i used too? I was never really picky when it comes to men but after kpop now i do want them to be someone who take care of themselves, and have a nice skin, and dress nicely. Also i get crazy everytime i see an asian on the street, and i just find them much more atractive than the ocidental person.
*im brazilian so sorry for any mistakes, as english is not my first language.
*please be kind and try not to call me names. I know that for some people i’ll appear like a retarted girl, and maybe i am, but i just really needed to get this out of me. And if you want to know, im 16 and started to like kpop in the end of 2013 when i was still 14.

Owari no Seraph: Unmei no Hajimari pt. 2

Alright i guess since i finished the “common route”(i assume this is the way it would be called, since you had to finish the game once without the bad ends to have access to more scenarios and Mika’s family events other than the first one), i thought about translating more crap. yay!

For the record Japanese is like my 4th language so it’s reasonable to think there are some mistakes but at least the general message is definitely the same, enjoy :’)

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anonymous asked:

Your love for Kookiemonster... I think I'm the only one who can understand. Do you happen to also ship them romantically? Love your blog, keep up with the good stuff😙

i ship them in every way a ship could be shipped tbh slkdfjaogh they’re cute both platonically and romantically and also just like psuedosibling wise cause O_O like namjoon would be so exasperated with kook all the time, helpng him with this hw like hOW dI D YOU NOt t ?? ? l eaR N THIS and kook would literally be that liil pup that followed namjoon around and like nips at his heels when he’s hungry for attention like 

i can just imagine him curling up on namjoon’s bed when he’s feeling not so hot and namjoon coming back from the shower with his back still wet like…. again? aight tell me what’s wrong and kook would be like no it’s stupid and namjoon like it’s not stupid if it’s making u upset now cmon tell me what’s wrong 

and kook would tell him and namjoon would run his fingers through kook’s hair as he spoke just to distract him and by the end, kook would be all settled in namjoon’s chest like the GIANT BABY he is and namjoon would sigh and he like ur getting too heavy for this and kook is like its not my fault you dont work out as much as i do and namjoon like LOL do you feel better at least? and kook like yeah <3 i do… thanks hyung 

OR IDK JUST LIKE KOOK LOOKS UP TO NAMJOON SO MUCH AND NAMJOON IS SUCH A DOTING FIGURE SLDKJAOIGHASLDKJFOWEGHALSDKFJOAGHALSDKFJ BUT HE’S ALSO A HUGE NERD AND KOOK DOESN’T GET IT but he thinks its super cute when joonie hyung gets REALLY excited about things so he’ll like look up random bits of philosophy online just to bring it up to namjoon and listen to him talk foR HOURS or like offer to help hoseok teach namjoon the dance moves and be like LOL you’re so bad at this but you’re getting better and joon like shut ur mouth kid im trying my best and kook like i know, i know and then staying behind to help out some more and like kook being like i’m so proud of you hyung and namjoon just grinning and ruffling kook’s hair like i’m proud of you too kid and kook bLUSHING up a storm cause gosh he hasn’t felt this happy since his parents last praised him for making them proud too and just 

I COULD GO ON FOR FOREVER DO YOU SEE THE PROBLEM HERE 

anonymous asked:

Who are ur fav scenario/gif BTS blogs??

OMFG I WROTE A SHIT TON OMGOGMWSEIVFGWEFNWF IM SO MAD! I WROTE LIKE THE LONGEST POST AND IT JUST DELETED IM GONNA GO CRY..

Omg thank you for asking!! I read a lot of bts scenarios so the post is gonna be long like really long because each writer I tag I follow on my personal blog and I love their writing :D (I’m basically gonna post like all the bts blogs I follow and kinda recommend you some cool scenarios to read and cool blogs to follow :DD)

-Khena

i have to write this all over again..

babyitsbts I love her writing I dont know how to describe it! Like the plot and the drabbles are good from the get go. Sometimes their sad or happy or smutty lol her writing skills are just amazing! You can visualize her writing as if its playing in you head if that makes sense..

an-exotic-writer So I am a sucker for bts au’s (Alternate Universe) and Im currently reading a suga one from this writer and so far I want to pull my hair out because I want to know whats going on! 10/10 scenarios are gold!

anonbangtan whoever writes the jimin smuts..I need to thank them in person because I drown in jimin feels..

bangtan-wishes  Their Don’t Think.. Suga smut like I needed to go to church after that..Just check them out!

bangtnn This writer… For I have sinned is such a good V scenario.. I SINNED READING THAT OMG! Like the way they write Its so beautiful I wish I could write that good!

bts-dreams TBH DARBY IS BAE LIKE TRIPTYCH WTF THAT IS MY FAVORITE SCENARIO ON THAT BLOG!! The way she writes and the plot twists leaves you on the edge the whole time!!!!!

btssmutandfluff these 2 their blog is awesome! In general you should just follow because they are so nice to their followers! (since I had to write this again idk what else I said about them lol)

cold-tuna I love Hobi scenarios because thats my husband;D and the wrong boy is a good read by this writer!! The writing makes me fall in love I cant get enough of their scenarios <3

If you like bts au’s or dark scenarios dvehyun is the queen of that! Her writing is just on another level I swear.. Like she doesn’t play the happy ending story its like despair lmao well most of the time it is I think some are good endings or cliffys

exobtsimagination I love exo and bts so I read a lot of their scenarios idk if they have done this but I love when writers get other members from other groups and put them in bts scenarios I always think its funny Are you nervous is my favorite scenario on the blog :DD check dem outtie

OK exoticarmy127 First of all her voice is amazing I love her covers! Second OMFG Laws of Motion & Attraction is I think the best fanfic I have ever read like the plot was freakin amazing. The story captivated you from the first couple of paragraphs and sucked you in and as she released each chapter like i would be so anxious to read lol it was like supplying crack to the druggy!

haeng-syo-peace for one this writer writes about numerous kpop idols and I love that plus their suga scenarios.. can never get enough of yoon yoon

imtuanwang another kind of dark scenario I read from this writer it was so good called the shadows :D it was a suga scenario toooo! great writer! yoon yoon feels..

keypea she is a lovely writer lol. she writes for exo and bts and some others! i really like when she writes these little drabbles called Different Ways to Say I Love You she uses members from like shinee and got7 etc.

kpopscenariostho I really like their writing because some scenarios are just heart warming and light to read just fluffy lol

modestlydreaming writes for multiple groups ;DD awesome writer its almost 12am my soul is crying..anyways!  the drabbles make me laugh tbh lol and the smut.. no further comment on that tbh you gotta read for yourself

parkjiminsfineass tbh this bae she so awesome like I always check her blog and the other blogs ive listed whenever I’m on my personal blog! I’m always waiting on a new story or update from another one! She’s an amazing writer!!!!!!!! <3 10/10 if she didn’t write scenarios I would still follow of course

picficskpopstyle Cant be friends is my shittt lol this person gives me the taekook feels

I’m listening to 17 right now someone dance with me

baby you are my angel ~

 scenarioslovers Omg her fluffy scenario or maybe its angst.. I forgot lol called love contract is written so good ugh and im dying to know wtf is going on like these cliffhangers arent good for my health!

Lately I have been having yoongi feels and for some reason I only read suga scenarios more than anything and sugascenes is heaven to me one of my favorite suga scenario blogs besides yungiscenarios they got some good stuff to fufill your yoongi feels

writingseoul nothing to say about this writer except read this * ®

MY FUCKINGG BROWSER JUST CLOSED AGAIN OAMEDFWESIFNEWN

since my browser keeps closing im just gonna list the rest of my favorite blogs! im sorry I cant tell yall how much I love your blog and how much I appreciate you writing for us but this fuck ass computer trippin so lol (I literally had paragraphs for each of these blogs telling them how much I love their scenarios.. im so upset.. D:) It wasnt meant to be lol

taetaetown <3 I love where can I find you

textluvaffair <3 I just love all you scenarios

thatonenoona <3 <3 CALLER NUMBA 9!!!!!! AND SALTED CARAMEL

thesammtimes <3 Crash is my fav

uyuagashi-fics <3 Your AUs man

This took me years to write and it kept crashing im crying! (I started about 10pm and its 1:03am..)

Author: limitlessmonster
Title: Texting Blunders
Pairing: AoKise
Genre: Fluff/Slight Angst/Fluff
Word Count: Approx 2400
Summary: Aomine learns the hard way just how easy it is to misinterpret text messages from Kise.

Based off of this prompt and partially inspired by this song.
A/N: Since our muses started off their relationship with text messages, I thought this was appropriate. :D This was supposed to be posted for the muses’ official one year anniversary on 01/30/15, but it’s a little late because I’m a shit who can’t stop procrastinating. I hope you enjoy the fluffy anyway. ;D

Always for this pos, the Kise to my Aho.

On AO3.

It’s a funny thing, going from friends to something else, something more confusing, more overwhelming, just… more.

When it starts, Aomine isn’t sure what it is exactly; he feels odd and awkward and suddenly more self conscious when Kise is around, and Aomine Daiki doesn’t get odd, awkward, or self conscious. Kise seems just as oblivious to it then as he does now. Except now, Kise is more popular with both girls and guys and Aomine really has a hard time accepting the random times he feels like he wants to punch something whenever he’s forced to be around it.

It used to be that his world consisted of two things: basketball and his impressive collection of gravure magazines. He can handle those things, the easy things. He’s learned to live in his bubble perfectly happy with his limited scope of interests. And then one day, Kise Ryouta isn’t just his friend, isn’t just someone he plays one on one with when he needs something more challenging than whatever drills Imayoshi has him doing during practice. Suddenly, Kise Ryouta becomes Kise Ryouta, and Aomine feels a little dizzy and maybe a little sick when he realizes that maybe he doesn’t mind the change at all.

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