A Suicide Meeting
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Warning : Suicidal tendencies
Bucky Barnes sat leaning against the railing of the bridge. The water underneath was violent tonight. His fingers woven through his long chestnut hair, eyes tightly shut - Bucky was in pain.
He wanted to end it all.
He wanted to end it tonight.
But he couldnt find it in him to do so.
He was mentally debating his chances, when he heard it.
It was soft at first, and then it grew louder, more clearer. Bucky opened his eyes slowly, his fingers leaving his hair as he glanced up.
It was dark, but he could make out a figure by the opposite railing. When his eyes finally adjust to the darkness, he saw her.
She was sobbing uncontrollably, her voice cracking with grief.
Bucky sat open mouthed, watching her, almost feeling her pain, on top of his own.
“No…no…NO!” She screamed, before hurling her cellphone into the water.
And the next thing her knew, she was climbing the railing, and he knew this was his cue. He groaned, before jumping up from his position and running towards her.
Just as her hands left the railing, Bucky grabbed her by her waist, almost missing her by inches. She screamed and fought him, as he struggled to pull her back to the bridge.
“Let go !!” She screaming, her hands attacking him.
“Stop it !” Bucky shot back, pulling in one swift movement, and throwing her onto the brigde.
Breathing heavily, he watched her lying on the wooden floor, crying. He crouched beside her, not knowing what to do.
When she finally started breathing normally again, she looked up at Bucky.
“Why did you save me ?” She asked in a whisper.
“I dont know” Bucky said, shaking his head, and looking away. “I just couldnt -”
Bucky stood up again, and helped her to her feet.
“Are you sure you wont try that again?” Bucky asked, narrowing his eyes at her.
“You can never be too sure of that” She said drily.
“Lets get out of here before you get anymore ideas” Bucky said, turning to walk back.
It was so dark, they werent actually able to see eachother clearly, so when Bucky started walking, he felt her walking very close to him, her hand almost touching his.
They walked silently for a while before they reached a more lighted area.
Bucky glanced at the girl, and saw that she was quite smaller than him. She wasnt one of most beautiful girls he had seen, but there was something about her that made his insides tickle.
“Y/N Y/L/N” The girl said slowly. “Thank you, for what you did”
Bucky snapped out of his thought, and nodded.
“Im -” he began.
“James Barnes” Y/N said, her eyes not leaving the road. “I know”
“Well, its not everyday that people recognize me that way - they prefer to call me the -”
“You dont have to say it”
Their eyes met.
“Thank you” Bucky murmured.
He saw a hint of a smile on her face.
“Are you hungry ? We can stop for a snack” Bucky asked, stopping in front of a small cafe.
“Im starving ” Y/N said, nodding.
They entered the cafe, and gave their orders.
“What was the reason ?” Bucky asked.
Y/N blushed, and covered her face with her hands.
“I was stupid” she said, shaking her head. “So so stupid”
“That goes without saying” Bucky agreed, earning a glare from her.
“I ran away from home, with this idiot - whom Im supposed to be marrying tomorrow - ” Y/N began.
“Oh - what happened ?” Bucky asked.
“Well, he took off with someone else, breaking up with me over a text - and not to mention taking all my money”
Y/N said shrugging.
“Im sorry, but seriously -”
“I already admitted I was stupid” Y/N said, her shoulders drooping. “I cant go back home, James”
“Why not ?” Bucky asked.
“Because I ran away !! And stole money from my step-mom !” Y/N said, her eyes wide. “I cannot go back and be Cinderella again”
A middle aged waitress served them their food, and then the table was quiet, except for the occasional clinging and clanging of forks.
“Seriously, this is the best Ive felt in days” Y/N said, smiling. “Thank you -again”
“Dont worry about it” He said.
They were walking again, slowly.
“So, where are you going now ?” Bucky asked.
“I dont know” She said. “I have a friend here in the city. Maybe stay with her for a few days, till I figure out what to do”
Bucky remained quiet for a while. Then mustering up some courage, he said, “You can come with me, if you want. I have an apartment, I live alone”
Y/N stared at Bucky with her mouth open.
“I mean, I can understand if you dont want to - but if you do want to - you can stay for as much as you like - ” He was nervous, and he didnt know if he did it right - beacause he had never done it before.
Y/N was about to cry again.
“Im sorry - I -” Bucky took a step back, staring at the girl in front of him.
“Thank you, James ! Thank you so much ! You did so much for me, and you hardly even know me !” Y/N cried.
“Well, ” Bucky shrugged, blushing. “It comes with some risks…”
“What risks ?”
“I could go ‘Winter Soldier’ anytime” Bucky said, “I could end up killing you in your sleep”
“Oh please” Y/N dismissed him with a wave of her hand. “Dont have much to lose anyway”
“Dont be so bitter” he said, “You havent seen anything. Trust me when I say that”
“I trust you” Y/N said with a smile.
“Lets go then ” Bucky said, returning her smile.
“Hey, why were you on that bridge anyway?” Y/N asked, suddenly stopping.
Bucky gave her an embarrassed smile.
“For the same reason you were there” He said.