what I mean:
why does Baz start blushing when he sees Simon Sock-feet. I'm assuming he's seen his sock feet and even bare feet on multiple occasions - they've shared a room for SEVEN YEARS. IS IT BECAUSE THEYRE NOT ENEMIES NOW?? BECAUSE BAZ IS SECRETLY HOPING THAT SIMON SNOW IN HIS SOCK FEET WILL JUST KISS HIM ON THE LIPS AND SEND HIS BODY INTO FLAMES. I DON'T UNDERSTAND. I DONTUNDERSTAMD.
soooooo, I’ve been working on this Fantasy!AU right????
It’s still kinda in construction, but basically, Haru comes from a line of ‘water people’ and it gives him the power to bring water to life. He can’t control it, he can talk to it, but he can never force it to act against its will
Meanwhile you got Makoto who comes from a normal family, but he’s one of those who was born with the Light and that gives certain healing powers. He will be sent to a special academy later to learn how to use them and potentially become a healer. He is still afraid of water and his own powers, but Haru is working really hard to make him understand that ‘water would never hurt him’.
So anyway, I’m having a lot of fun with this so you can expect more of it~ And I have like hundreds of really cute headcanons for this so I gotta find a way to share them all
please tell me more about Susan the 12 foot angel with pigtails
Susan is new to Earth, and she has decided that she likes it. This is a shame because she has descended from the heavens as a herald of the end of days, to speak to her prophet that the people of the world may prepare themselves.
“You could just,” offers her prophet. “You know. Not end the world.”
“We are not ending the world,” Susan replies, in a voice like the ticking of a clock: no words, simply a rhythm that falls into to meaning when you know what she says. “The world is simply ending.”
They are sitting together on the boardwalk. Her prophet is a woman. Susan perhaps looks like a woman too. It’s hard to tell. People studiously avoid looking at Susan. It’s not so much that they can’t as they will never allow themselves to. Susan does not notice this. Her prophet looks at Susan, and that is all Susan needs.
“Boo,” says her prophet. “That’s a lazy answer.” Her prophet takes another bite of her funnel cake.
Susan finished her funnel cake already. But she liked the taste of it, more than she thought she would, and so she reaches a hand into her stomach and pulls it back out to eat it again. “You will need to prepare the world,” Susan says as she chews. She speaks with something other than her mouth and she eats with something other than her mouth, so her prophet is not exactly sure what Susan uses her mouth for. Or if Susan has a mouth. Her prophet looks at Susan to check, gets her answer, and then forgets it the moment she looks away. “If they aren’t ready, they will get left behind.”
“I think after the latest YA fad, we’re ready to handle the post-apocalypse,” her prophet says.
Susan thinks for a moment. “No,” she says. “You are not.”
Her prophet thinks for a moment as well. “You’re kind of a bummer, Susan.”
post-apocalyptic adventure story about a group of people trying to find a place that can only be accessed by solving a series of clues and riddles because one last survivor lives there and they happen to be the only person left in the world with pears in their animal crossing town
“They carried the soldier’s greatest fear, which was the fear of blushing. Men killed, and died, because they were embarrassed not to. It was what had brought them to the war in the first place, nothing positive, no dreams of glory or honor, just to avoid the blush of dishonor. They died so as to not die of embarrassment […] It was not courage, exactly; the object was not valor. Rather they were too frightened to be cowards.” ~ “The Things They Carried,” The Things They Carried, by Tim O’Brien.
So the above is a quote from the first short story in Tim O’Brien’s The Things They Carried, which shares the name of the book and is, of course, the title of spn 10.15.
The story uses some frankly awesome wordplay of ‘carry’ to explore the mental and emotional state of soldiers during the Vietnam war (starting out describing the literal physical things they carry, like guns and backpacks, and moving on to personal items like photographs or letters, then memories of family and lovers, then ideas/stories of lovers and so on - there’s even a line about how they ‘carry on’ at one point, which I enjoyed for the Kansas connection :p).
Though it’s about Vietnam, it seems to me like its descriptions are apt for most soldiers in general, and since Dean is a soldier of sorts I couldn’t help reading with an eye to how the descriptions might fit him.
There were PLENTY of things in the story, and the whole book, that are relevant to Dean imo. But I’ve picked out this ONE thing, because I found it the most interesting. Which is this idea of soldiers being afraid of ‘blushing,’ of being embarrassed about being viewed as dishonourable or cowardly or weak.
It comes up again in a later story, where Tim, the narrator (and author - I assume the book is at least somewhat autobiographical), describes his reaction to being drafted and how he almost travelled to Canada to escape being sent to war. But ultimately Tim accepted the draft because the thought of others thinking badly or him or thinking him weak was too much to bear. He imagines them, his father included, calling him Traitor! Turncoat! and Pussy! and as he describes it -
“I felt myself blush. I couldn’t tolerate it. I couldn’t endure the mockery, or the disgrace, or the patriotic ridicule. Even in my imagination, the shore [of Canada] just twenty yards away, I couldn’t make myself be brave. It had nothing to do with morality. Embarrassment, that’s all it was […] I was a coward. I went to war.” ~ “On The Rainy River,” The Things They Carried
I feel like this fear is Dean’s as well.
Like this relates to his hyper-masculine image that has been discussed a great deal throughout the show and esp. since Carver’s run. ‘Discussed a great deal’ being an understatement :p
But to give a quick summary - Dean too is a soldier concerned with keeping up an appearance. Not necessarily of being honourable, like the soldier’s O’Brien describes, but of appearing strong, manly, macho (all of which seem to have become synonymous to Dean). And to be/appear otherwise is often shown as embarrassing for Dean, he’s continually shown as embarrassed when ‘caught out’ liking anything in the vicinity of being feminine/unmanly eg. liking Dr Sexy or shown to be hiding his like of such things eg. wearing pink panties.
IMO he also considers his time spent as a demon with Crowley to have been in large part feminine/unmanly/weak, hence his terming of that as ‘embarrassing’ (which is what first made me take notice of the comments about soldiers and embarrassment in the book).
Do I have a point - beyond hey this is a cool similarity between Dean and the soldiers in the book?
Good question :p
I guess… what I like about the connection between Dean and the book’s analysis of soldiers’ psyches is that since the episode title points us to the book and its themes it implies, or perhaps confirms, that this idea of soldiers putting on a macho facade, and thus of Dean doing the same, is a theme the show is very much exploring this season.
And since the book is all about deconstructing that facade, in fact SUBVERTING it by suggesting that in putting on a facade in order to appear brave and strong the soldiers were in fact being the very things they were embarrassed to be considered as (ie. cowardly and weak), it implies that Dean’s facade too is being deconstructed this season :)
Something supported by little things like Dean enjoying the fancy coffee in the small cup that he insists ‘real men’ don’t drink, Dean enjoying Taylor Swift and, of course, the ongoing saga of the cake - little shows of Dean’s feminine/unmanly (or at least non-hyper-masculine) side showing through his macho-soldier image.
Is Dean’s desire to stop looking for a cure for the Mark, to hold out against it as long as he can and then ‘go down swinging,’ perhaps comparable to O’Brien’s soldiers going to war? Dean too embarrassed to try the alternative, fearing he will seem too emotional/feminine/weak if he continues to make his own life and well-being and safety his priority by continuing to find a way out of being Marked, just like Tim felt about trying to find a way out of being drafted.
And if so, if the embracing of macho facades and the path that leads to is to be deconstructed/criticised in spn as it is in O’Brien’s novel, then could it be that part of that deconstruction will mean that Dean embracing the parts of himself he’s been embarrassed/ashamed of (Taylor Swift, the cake, the coffee, his emotions, his feelings for Cas…) will end up being key to him ultimately overcoming and/or controlling the Mark?
Wow, I didn't know there were so many longer sour skittles fics, thanks! What's your favourite (or top 3) from that list?
You’re very welcome! I adored everything on that list, but here are some favorites…
‘cause you’re on your own (in the real world) by canistakahari (E, 26k) Scott only invites Derek over the first time because he thinks he’s lonely. It gets a lot more complicated from there, but to be honest, Scott doesn’t really mind.
My newest favorite, a really beautiful piece that starts in Scott and Stiles’ senior year of high school and they’re facing challenges of applying to colleges and potentially being all separated from each other, and the whole piece is from Scott’s POV, which was fantastically written and a joy to read. There were so many perfect pieces of dialogue that just had me in tears because I would be like … wow, Stiles would totally say that, the little shit, and Derek would say that too and Scott would make them stop arguing by doing this… canistakahari did a really amazing job bringing the characters to life, and this is definitely a piece I’m going to reread often.
you’ve got me looking through blinds by MarauderCracker (T, 10k) Saying that Derek’s first interaction with his new neighbors isn’t exactly pleasant would be an understatement. When he calls his sisters to tell them the story, they laugh for five minutes straight and Cora tells him that he’s “being over-dramatic, I know college boys are bad but they can’t be that bad.” College boys are, indeed, that bad.
This piece had so much great grumpy Derek being put out over his fratboy neighbors Scott and Stiles and the characterization was great and it’s just a lovely college au with established Skittles and pining Derek.
Four Times Derek Hale Was An Outsider (And One Time He Felt Like He Belonged) by bigbootsmanowar (Not Rated, 22k) It’s these little moments where he thinks they might be real friends, where he thinks this is normality he can grip onto and keep. He likes teaching them, likes watching them learn from him. And he’s come to expect their noise of an afternoon, stretching well into the evening. On nights when they decide to stay, he listens to their heartbeats sync up all on their own, waiting until they’ve fallen into sleep until he does himself.
Okay, again with the pining Derek and established Skittles and there’s lots of glorious, glorious angst and it’s very sweet and satisfying when they all get together.