Why am I afraid to lose you when you’re not even mine?
Oh, Grillby... This isn't some failure on your part. Even the best soldiers eventually have to step down. It's never easy to let that go, especially if it was a large part of your life for a while. But it sounds like you more than paid your dues. I know it doesn't feel ok. I know you're probably grieving that part of your life and your afraid of what might've happened. Please listen to Gaster and Sans... to the people who care about you... Please don't blame yourself.