does this even make any sense

Rules: Share 11 Facts about yourself, answer 11 questions by tagger, tag 11 people and ask 11 questions for them. I was tagged by @majesticartax! Thank you, you’re so lovely! <3

11 Facts About Myself:

  1. I’ve pretty much been singing since I knew how to make noise. I’ve driven my family and friends crazy with it so I’m a lot more conservative about how often I sing now and because I’ve stopped singing in choirs a lot of people don’t even know I can sing, but I do!
  2. I cannot dance. Seriously. Not even in the modest sense; I’m actually incapable of moving with any sort of rhythm. You know that tiny foot-tap-head-bob thing Haruka does in the first ED of Free? That’s as far as my dancing gets.
  3. My first ever real crush was when I was eight years old, and it was on the girl who lived next door to me. We were really close for a while but then we drifted because she’s a year older than me, and got new friends. She turned out to be a lesbian too, though, so at least my gaydar was always on point.
  4. To this day I’ve never been in a serious relationship, and never kissed anyone! And no, I don’t think of it as a bad thing.
  5. I hate reading/watching romance 95% of the time, but I love writing it. I have no idea why.
  6. When I was little I got carsick really, really easily, so for pretty much any long car ride, my mom would put one of those acupressure wristbands on me and have me chew these horrible orange-flavored carsickness pills. Since I associated both of those things with being sick, to this day I hate having my wrists touched and can’t eat most things that are orange-flavored with getting nauseous.
  7. I’m (hopefully) going to law school in a couple of years, which basically means I’m a horrible boring person.
  8. I don’t care if it’s strong and bitter and entirely black or if it’s got three pounds of sugar and is drowned in cream. If you put coffee in front of me, I will drink it. No question. I fucking love coffee.
  9. I swim, and you’d think that, being a fan of Free! and related so heavily to Haruka, I’d totally be all about freestyle, right? Nope. I hate swimming free. I won’t do it. My motto is “I’ll swim anything but free.”
  10. I have a tattoo! Not sure if I’ve talked about it on here before? But I do have one, and I want so many more. Ugh.
  11. I really want to write a novel. Probably young adult, probably romance. Probably gay. I just have to sit down and feel confident enough to do it.

Majesticartax’s Questions:

  1. If you could be any type of cheese, what would you be and why? Not ‘what is your favorite cheese’, what cheese would you BE? Provolone. I don’t know why. It came to mind first and it feels right.
  2. What is the first thing you remember ever obsessing over? When I was a kid, I loved the movie Bedknobs and Broomsticks. I watched it so often, oh gosh. To this day I remember skipping around my house in Mass and singing Portabello Road.
  3. If someone were to bust into your room right now, what would you scramble to hide? I have roommates, so there’s really no room to hide anything! Haha. But if someone were to come around and stare at my computer I’d probably close the tab where I’m writing fanfic.
  4. What’s the most disgusting sound in the world to you? Any kind of squelching sound. I can’t stand it.
  5. Favorite color eyes? I’m not sure if I have one! I’m fascinated by eyes that are so light they’re nearly clear, though.
  6. Do you prefer to collect seashells or sea glass? Sea glass!
  7. What show should I binge watch RIGHT FUCKING NOW? American Horror Story???? Or if you don’t like scary things, Shameless US!
  8. Would you share a milkshake with me? Of course! The real question is, can we talk about NagiHaru over this milkshake?
  9. Favorite body part to have massaged? (PG-13 answers only :P) Oh man, I laughed so hard at this. I’ve never gotten a massage! So shoulders, I guess.
  10. Would you rather find out the truth about the existence of the universe or discover that your favorite fantasy universe is real? You would be the ONLY ONE who knows these things until you firmly convinced others. I would definitely like to discover that my favorite fantasy universe is real. I mean, assuming fantasy can mean alternate universes in general. I’m not a fan of the fantasy genre, haha.
  11. You find out that you’re given the opportunity to be the absolute best in the world in some form of entertainment. You get to quit your job and do this one thing for the rest of your life and are loved (sometimes hated cause ppl be jel) by millions and millions of people from all different parts of the world. You get to travel everywhere and do this one thing and meet fans and spread joy. What thing have you chosen to be the best at? I guess writing! I mean, I don’t really want to be the best in the universe at anything (that’s a lot of pressure! and a lot of hatred coming my way as well!) but I’d love to be good enough at writing that I could actually make a career out of it and stay doing only that. Writing has always kind of been my favorite thing, so.

My Questions:

  1. What’s your favorite name? Why?
  2. When was the last time you laughed so hard you couldn’t breathe?
  3. What’s your favorite food? Do you know how to make it?
  4. If you could ask an all-knowing person or object any question in the world, and get the full, entirely truthful answer, what question would you ask?
  5. What’s a book you’d recommend to anyone, regardless of genre or subject matter?
  6. Coffee or tea?
  7. Tell me something that you’re really proud of. It can be a hobby, a talent, an accomplishment, etc.
  8. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?
  9. Is there anyone you know that you’d trust with your life?
  10. What’s a question you absolutely hate being asked?
  11. How are you?

I tag: @sierrasuke, @thisisjapaneselunchtimerush, @nezumisbackpack, @captain-of-science, @asexualrinmatsuoka, @12-23am, @roseshell, @ricesolidarity, @sharkinlovewithadolphin, @gomendazai, and @hhyugas. Feel free to entirely ignore this if you’re not up to doing these kinds of things! This one was long … so I totally get it. Haha. 

Does this even make any sense?

My family was always confused with me and my meth use. They would always say “I never could tell when she was on anything because she would go to sleep every night and eat everyday shit I couldn’t tell any difference.” until my mom found a god damn 10 ft hot rail hose. Like really who the fuck needs 10ft of hose?? stupid ass baby daddy does I guess.Lil bitch is always getting me caught up.
Anyways people, back to the point I was trying to make,
I would get high everyday and hide it from everyone. I stayed home most the time and didn’t do a god damn thing and fuck would it get boring. But after three almost four years of dope use ive had one arrest. Unlike my brother who has been in prison 4 times cause he likes to get really really high and do stupid shit like carry around meth labs in his truck. I’m over here like really bro your 40 and im 24 shouldn’t you be teaching me how the game works? Noppppe instead im over here like take a god damn chill pill, relax, sit down, no that car is not following us, no that’s not a cop…second thought maybe you should go bed bro, let your little sister handle shit. Cause your tripping everybody the FUCK out. Anyway my point is be like me..
Not the dude that does stupid shit, the one whose asking to go to jail pretty much. We all no one of them dudes or maybe a couple of them. Ya no, the ones that makes us meth heads look like horrible people….yeah don’t be like that dude.

I think that this scene, right here, is a glimpse of who Sam will become in the future.

Because, see, he knows now. He knows that he has demon blood inside him, he knows that there is supposed to be a celebrity death match and only one of them will live. So he stands over Jake with the steel bar in his hand and he raises it up, gritting his teeth against the pain in his shoulder and in his heart and with the effort–

And he doesn’t do it.

Despite what he is supposed to be, it’s not who he is. Who he really is.He won’t allow himself to become that. He is not a killer. He is not evil. Demon blood or not he is innocent in the very sense of the word. He protects people from the very thing that is telling him to kill Jake. To be the last one standing. And he won’t do it, because it’s not who he is.

And so later, when Sam drinks the demon blood and goes so far off the rails that if Dean didn’t know him, he would want to hunt him, he remembers this. Everything that he does is for love or for the greater good. That’s who he is.

One of my favorite phrases my Creative Writing professor had for when you’re writing fantasy is ‘giving your story a Flux Capacitor’.

Because it’s not real, it doesn’t exist. But the way it’s thrown into Back to the Future, at no point does it throw the audience off or suspend any more disbelief than time travel would. You believe Doc when he says he created the Flux Capacitor - the thing that makes time travel possible, because the universe never questions him. 

So it essentially means like, there are going to be elements to your universe that are just not gonna make any sense, even if you set up a whole system based on it. And the only way to make it work is completely own it. You cannot second-guess your system or else the reader will too. You can give it the strangest explanation, but write it like you own it.  

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“Men are born to sin…What does matter most, is not that we err, it is that we do benefit from our mistakes, that we are capable of sincere repentance, of genuine contrition.” 

The Sunne in Splendour

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 make me choose

jaimeswhitecloak asked: house lannister or house martell

What I don’t get about the ‘resources’ argument is, how exactly do asexuals waste LGBT resources if we don’t need them? If being ace won’t get you kicked out of your home, you won’t need housing. If being ace won’t get you fired, you won’t need the financial backup. If being ace doesn’t put you at physical risk, you won’t need the protective services that the LGBT community can muster.

If, on the other hand, being ace does cause you to deal with any of the above, then the resources aren’t being ‘wasted’ – they’re going toward the safety and well-being of somebody who’s being punished for not being straight. Isn’t that the point of those resources to begin with?

I’m honestly confused how this argument even works. The only way it makes sense is if we’re walking up to a community that we have zero need of, and they’re just going ‘okey-dokey! 8D’ and handing us shit we clearly don’t need. Is that what y’all are trying to say? I’m honestly curious.

So apparently all the fanfic writers seem to agree that Ahkmenrah has the fighting skills of a true professional and fights with the sleek, elegant grace of a cat which is cool. But. I offer you instead to imagine all them getting into some kind of scuffle and the whole museum is fighting and then Larry spots Ahk just. Hitting people with the tablet. Which he also uses as a shield. Bullets and stuff just bounce off the tablet. It is indestructible. Ahk is like: “Nice”

ok here’re my thoughts on the quote “there’s not a single witch or wizard who went bad who wasn’t in slytherin”

first, this obviously isn’t 100% true. i think we’ve all established that peter pettigrew is a notable exception, so we can just skip over that.

second, think about who says this quote. it’s ron weasley, first year (i’m pretty sure), before they’re even at hogwarts. this is an eleven year old speaking, one who only knows about people in slytherin from a second hand perspective - what he’s heard on the news and read in the paper and heard from his parents and brothers. seeing as both molly and arthur and all his older brothers were gryffindors, they probably didn’t have any slytherin friends because of the rivalry. so, the only slytherins ron had probably heard of were the ones being locked up in azkaban for consorting with voldemort or the ones his brothers complained about (and he probably also heard his parents’ comments of “oh i went to school with mulciber!! he was nasty”).

and third, and something i’ve been thinking a lot about, is that actually this statement has a very logical explanation. think about the way wizarding society is set up and the way that voldemort recruits his followers. kids are placed into houses based on the traits that they value, not that they possess. this is really obviously seen in the fact that harry wanted to be in gryffindor, so he was put there. he didn’t want to be put in slytherin, so he wasn’t. while he wasn’t really informed enough about houses and house values to know if he “valued” cunning, ambition, etc, the sorting hat obviously sorted him based on what he wanted. and this couldn’t have been something that only happened to harry - i’m sure there were many kids who didn’t even know what they truly valued and were sorted somewhere that they thought had traits they didn’t embody only to find, as the years passed, that they fit right in.

another thing that we see from the books is that what house you’re in is very often the same as your parents/at least one (the black family in slytherin, james saying on the train that his dad and his dad’s dad etc had been in gryffindor, the weasleys, etc). obviously, there isn’t some weird, like, hufflepuff gene that gets passed onto a wizard/witch’s child. so then why does this happen?

if you couple the facts that houses are similar throughout a family and you’re placed based on what you value with the fact that before they turn eleven years old, wizards/witches (especially purebloods) are at home with their parents and possibly a governess/tutor their parents have hired, then this is easy to answer. whatever values the children’s parents had (aka what got them sorted into their house) were pushed upon the child. where else would they gather opinions on the wizarding world? young minds are very impressionable, and people look up to their parents their whole life. and, even if a governess was hired, pureblood families who had pureblood-supremacy leanings probably hired people who felt the same way. so, by the time these kids get to hogwarts, their values reflect their parents’, and they’re placed into the same house. and obviously this isn’t some kind of blanket statement because there’re exceptions to everything but generally this is probably how things worked.

so, it makes sense that all these people who believe in blood supremacy are in the same house. tom riddle was a slytherin, and he was the type to keep a close-knit circle. he liked feeling included, and loved excluding others. it goes without saying that he probably wouldn’t have interacted with people of other houses much. when he started pitching his ideas about blood supremacy to his close friends, they were all slytherins and purebloods (because, honestly, tom riddle wouldn’t have wanted to associate with anyone else). so, when these people had kids, they were sorted into slytherin because of the values they had learned of cunning and ambition, but they were also probably blood supremists because their parents had impressed that idea on them too. 

and that’s why “there’s not a single witch or wizard who went bad who wasn’t in slytherin” is an almost fair statement. it’s not because they were slytherin that they went bad. it’s because over time, the slytherin house gained that value of blood supremacy through teaching and familial values, and so these were the people that voldemort recruited onto his side and who wanted to join. 

all taylor has ever said about other female artists showing a lot of skin is that if a woman feels empowered by it then she applauds that so i don’t know why miley or anybody else is trying to pretend that taylor’s attempting to be this beacon of virginity and purity lmao she does what she’s comfortable with and encourages other women to do the same, even though reporters constantly and very obviously try to get her to talk shit about other women who behave differently to her she refuses to take the bait and instead praises them for doing what makes sense to them so i don’t know why so many people are acting like taylor swift herself is running around hollywood physically covering up any exposed nipples that happen to be flying around 

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 don’t get too close                                                                                                                    it’s dark inside                                                                                                                          it’s where my demons hide                                                                                                      it’s where my demons hide

relationships are scary commitment is terrifying the fact that you love someone so much that you devote most of your life to them and trust them wholeheartedly to do the same is really scary they could shut you down at any time or they could cheat on you or something and after being devoted to them and not sleeping with anyone else and focusing your whole love on them and then having to move on and maybe find someone else and be totally alone i just like man that is scary i don’t know if i could trust someone that much i would freak out