do you understand how much i am suffering right now

anonymous asked:

The moment jetwolf posted in her blog "I only remember brightly colored women hugging cat children" I instantly knew that was from a Sailor Moon musical (and thus ran to your blog to confirm, so here I am). And also which Sailor Moon musical it was from. I just amazed myself, woah. Which one of the, like, billions (alright like four) versions of The Legend of Kaguya Island did you watch? I'm randomly guessing the first Revised Version. Also, any fun things from drunktacular jetwolf during this?

We watched THE ONLY VERSION THAT MATTERS, aka the kaiteiban, known lovingly in the circle as “Kaguya K” otherwise known as: 

*INCOHERENT SCREAMING*

So before this happened, Jet ALERTED ME TO A THING I DID NOT KNOW THAT WAS CLEARLY VERY IMPORTANT, AND I’LL TELL IT TO YOU NOW:

Jet loves Rei Hino. 

NO ANON YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND: JET LOVES REI HINO. 

It was like an hour of Jet telling me how much she loves Rei and how important she is to her and MAKING SURE I UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH SHE LOVES REI BECAUSE CLEARLY I DO NOT. 

So we get through that TRIAL AGAINST MY GENERAL PERSON. 

And the above scene is taking place and I am DYING AND FULL OF FEELS. 

And Jet, from the corner: “WHERE’S REI WHAT IS REI DOING RIGHT NOW???”

My life is suffering. 

Things aren’t okay

but that’s alright. There will always be things that aren’t okay. There will always be bad times in your life no matter how good or bad you have it. Pleaese don’t give up because things are bad right now. Please understand that in order to have good things, bad things also must happen. There wouldn’t be much of a point to anything if you just got everything you wanted with no challenge or effort at all.

I understand that in majority of cases this is actually very unfair. So many of you lovely people are suffering and dying inside and there is little you can do about it. I am very sorry for every one of you that has to go through these things. Please know that people care about you. There are people that are willing to support you and do anything they can to help you live a better life.

Because you don’t deserve to have to go through what you are. You are unique and special in your own way, every single one of you. You posses a very complex set of emotions and characteristics that no one else does. You have your very own appearance that (mostly) is unique from everyone else. You are beautiful and you are loved. You do not have to live up to any stereotypial standards of what beauty or normal is. Just because it’s what you always say on tv and in magazines and everything else doesn’t mean that’s the one way you have to be, it doesn’t mean that’s what you have to be, it doesn’t make you any less of an amazing person. You are beautiful becacuse you are unique. Your weight doesn’t matter. Society’s stanards don’t matter. What matters is what makes you happy. You don’t live to please others. If you want to do something, do it for yourself to make yourself happy, not because you wanted to impress others.

You can do anything you want, nothing is impossible if you set your mind to it. The only thing that will stop you is saying you can’t. There are countless success stories of people who had the odds stacked highly against them yet still did what they set out to do.

If you don’t know what you want to do or be, that’s okay. Don’t worry about it. You have plenty of time to think about it. You’re still young and you still have your entire life ahead of you, you have no idea what your life will be like years from now, don’t count it out. There’s nothing wrong with being afraid, there’s nothing wrong with not knowing what you want. Everybody goes at their own pace, some people go faster than others, but that doesn’t make you any better or worse than them. Once again, you are unique in your very own way. Don’t shape your form around others, because then you stop being you; create your own image and in time people will appreciate you for who you are.

I love you. I care about you. I don’t want to see you upset, I don’t want to see you give up. So many others can say the same about you. Please don’t be afraid to ask for help, because everyone needs it at some point. Humans thrive off of eachother and it’s only natural. We need eachother.

Don’t feel bad or guilty if you self harm or have intrusive thoughts or you submit to more urges. Don’t think about how you would be hurting other people if you did this or that or are doing this or that. You are the important one here and you are the one who matters. Next time just remember that you are loved and someone wants to help you be happy and succeed. I believe in you.