do you see why i hate my family sometimes

Proud


Darren and Chris are two of the most talented people I know of since like… forever. Their choices weren’t always the best for their career in my opinion but it’s obviously and honestly only my point of view. I love Chris’ books and I’m like suffering from withdrawal symptoms even with Tlos still to end but I’m also like: “Man you talked about Broadway on Larry King why we are still waiting to see you there ( you all know how a pain in the ads I could be with him in JCS)“. And do you wanna talk about Darren’s second half of 2015 and first part of 2016? He’s a wonderful performer but c’mon he was like a substitute in half the things he did except for Hedwig that saved the year alone. 

AND THEY BOTH DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER.

2017 is like the golden year. Tlos movie and Chris directing it: I’m constantly pinching myself since the announce. And Darren’s ACS it’s something that i’m looking forward.

 I’m proud of both of them more and more, day after day. And the funny thing is that when I see something on television with family and friends I’m always like ”oh Chris is able to do this and Darren is able to do that“ and it’s a wonderful feeling having the opportunity to watch people that you admire growing every passing day.

And that’s why I hate, sometimes, see that here they most of the times matter because of the ship and not because of themselves. Not everything is related to them as a couple. it’s more than fair that we support them as a couple but this doesn’t have to be, in my opinion, the only reason of supporting them.

How Varian and Amren Became a Ship Part 8

Thanks to everyone for the feedback. I appreciate it.

Part 7: https://samaykay912.tumblr.com/post/160962741717

Part 4: https://samaykay912.tumblr.com/post/160706632052


Dear Amren,

Yes, I have noticed that the letters are getting longer- probably because we both are venting our bullshit going down. Yes, Cress is supposed to be the spymaster. She’s actually the one who organized the rebellion during Amarantha’s reign- it’s why she became spymaster- she fucking earned it. I wouldn’t tell anyone that unless if they ask though. I definitely don’t want my manhood on a pike on Cress’ balcony. I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t either- otherwise, what would you have to play with?

Anyways, Lucien wasn’t just kicked out of his court because of those he loved- but because of the fact that the people want him as the throne. I believe that he is probably the most kind out of all of the Autumn Court… the residents of autumn, despite what happened to his lover, would prefer him over anyone else within the that court of bastards. He’s smart too… I’m pretty sure that his loyalty is his downfall. He felt loyal to Tamlin and that’s why he stayed. He fears being alone… and is loyal to a fault. You be the judge of his character then.

I hope Nesta treats you decently… if you want me to be honest, she sounds like you. You’re both hellhounds that constantly defend the people you love. Maybe you can find solace in that.

I hate to tell you this, but Tarquin caught me laughing at a letter- he asked questions and I tried to lie to him. But I failed, thank the Cauldron. I hate lying to the people I love. It upsets me… I always feel like when I lie to them, I lying to a part of myself. Brightside, we have Tarquin’s blessing- if that matters to you, (it matters to me).

I heard about the High Lord meeting- is it to fight against Hybern, protect humans or both? I tried to convince Tarquin to go. I hate to say this, but I trust you, you fire drake demon woman.

Wish me luck.

Your friend, Varian

P.S- I figured you were wearing masks, I’m glad I know hypothetically why you would wear them. I hope that one day you won’t have to.

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anonymous asked:

why do you want to end sth you hate instead of start sth you love? i don't want to sound rude i'm just a very curious person

well, I am 23 years old already, and I just can’t afford to restart while still being dependent on my family. to be able to do what I really love, I need to become independent, which means finding a full time job that pays decently - and for that I have chosen to finish this degree, because working as an engineer (or finding a job that is not necessarily related to it, but that requires having a degree of sorts) for a while is the fastest way for me to move out. family circumstances simply don’t allow me to rely on my father’s income for another 4 or 5 years, or how long it would take me to begin and finish something else.

it all comes down to the fact that I really want to become independent as soon as possible, and to be able to ‘spread my wings’ I need this major, because it will open many doors for me - especially internationally, which is what I really want for myself! having an engineering degree is like a golden key to move around countries with more ease, and like I said I am about 80-90% done with it, which is why I just can’t find it in myself to drop it. I am using it to achieve what I truly want, which makes it way more bearable for me :))

Y'know, I love my parents to death, but I hate the fact they’re so nice sometimes. My mom specifically.

I wish my mom would stop trying to get me to have a relationship with my birth parents.

They didn’t have any part in my raising, so why should I give them the time of day?

Mom says I’m being bitter by not wanting to have them part of my life, and maybe I’m the weirdest adopted kid ever, but I just? Don’t? Want anything to do with them?? Or their families???

You see all these sweet, sappy stories of adopted kids reuniting with their birth parents, but I’ve known my birth parents more than half my life since my adoption was an open one. And I don’t really care for them as it is.

I kinda wish I had never met or known them to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so grateful to be alive and that they chose to sign their rights away and let me be raised in a great home, but they’re awful people tbh.

My mom wants to include their names on my wedding program under the bride’s parents and I’m crying now because I don’t want them included! I have not seen my bio dad or any of his family for 10 plus years! Why should they get such preferential treatment?

These crazy people are lucky I’m even inviting them! So yeah… Excuse the ramblings of the adopted chick, I’m just really over not being in control of my wedding and who I want in my life.

The One

This is my first ever scenario I hope you guys like it! Also thank you so much for 800 followers! I love you all. Since you said you wanted to read my very first scenario here it is! thatproffessionalfangirl 

Pairing: Yoongi | Reader (ft. Suho from EXO)

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: 1,365


“Mom do I really have to go?”I asked annoyed as the hair stylist pulled at my hair. 

“Yes, you have to go honey. This is a very important dinner for your father,” my mom said looking herself in the mirror. I see my family was one of the ten riches family in South Korea and I sometimes hated it. “Yoongi where is your mother?” my mom asked calling the servant. 

My heart raced as I heard his voice,”She’s in the kitchen. Want me to call her up?” 

“Yes tell her to bring your sister too,” she said going to over to me. “Darling why are you blushing?” she asked. 

“I’m not blushing,”I said as the stylists were finishing up with me. 

“You know what to do right? When they ring the bell you go over to them and bring them whatever they want,” she instructed the two women. 

“Mom, can I head downstairs already?”I asked wanting to get the whole dinner meeting over with. 

“Wait for me you’re not going down there without me,” she said adjusting herself for the 100th time. 

“Ok, that’s enough,”I said pulling her away from the mirror as we headed down stairs we were laughing. 

“Look at my two lovely ladies,” my dad said smiling beside him was a guy dressed in a suit hair pushed back. He looked taken aback as he composed himself standing perfectly straight. 

“That’s Kim Junmyeon he’s the co-CEO of his dad’s business,” my mom whispered in my ear.  “He looks so young,” I thought as I looked him over again. I felt another pair of eyes on me as I looked to the right of my dad Yoongi was staring at me and looked down once we made eye contact. 

“Darling this is Kim Junmyeon,”my dad said gesturing the man next to him. 

“It’s nice to meet you. My name is (Y/N),”I said bowing. 

“It’s a pleasure to meet someone as beautiful as you. Please call me Junmyeon,” he said grabbing my hand kissing it. 

I smiled as I stared into his sparkling brown eyes and looked away feeling the blush creeping in. Yoongi coughed causing both of us to look at him. "Sir may I be excused?“ he asked my father. 

"Yes, you may,” he said as he turned to me and Junmyeon,“let’s go eat shall we?" 

We both headed to the dining room as Junmyeon pulled my chair for me,"Thank you.” He nodded smiling down at me. 

“Yeri!” my mom yelled ringing the bell. 

“Yes, ma'am?"Yeri said hurrying to my mother’s side. 

"Can you bring in the food?” my mother said. 

“Already on its way,” she said smiling as the waiters came in with all the food. 

“I don’t think I’ll finish all of that,"Junmyeon said as he watched the trays being placed on the table. 

"Mother always asks for too much food,” I said chuckling. 

“Yoongi where’s the wine?” my father asked looking around for him.

“Here sir,” he said serving my father first and going down the line of guest. 

I was last as he stood behind me he whispered,“Once you’re done meet me upstairs.” I looked behind him confused as he walked away. The whole dinner was spent quietly with a few small talk here and there.

“Junmyeon is it true that you’re single?”one of the female guests asked. 

“Yes I am,”he replied smiling. 

“(Y/N) is single as well,” my mom chimed in. I gave her a death stare,”Mom.” 

Junmyeon laughed,”Maybe I’ll take you on a date? If you’d want.” 

“We’ll see about that,” I said smirking not really taking him seriously.

“How about this Sunday?” he asked.

“Oh,” I said taken aback,”I don’t think I’ll be doing anything this Sunday.”

“Perfect, ”he said smiling,”I’ll pick you up 3.” 


As the dinner ended all the guest were taken to the main hall where the orchestra was playing softly. “I’ll be right back,” I said to Suho heading upstairs. As I reached at the top of the stairs I looked around for Yoongi. “Yoongi-ah?”I asked walking slowly down the hall. 

He grabbed on my shoulder lightly,”Let’s go to the balcony.” 

I nodded as he took my hand. I noticed how cold my hand felt against his warm one. As we reached the balcony he nervously turned to me,”My mother thinks I’m crazy for doing this but I need to tell you this before I leave.” 

“Why are you leaving?”I asked. 

“I got accepted to the university I want to attend, ”he said smiling. 

“Congratulations!”I said smiling half sad that he’ll be leaving. 

“Thank you, ”he said and took a deep breath,”Anyways to why we’re here. I’m just going to go to the point. Ever since I meet you, when I was just 12 years old, I always thought you were the most beautiful girl I’ll ever see in my entire life. To this day you still are the most beautiful girl well not even a girl anymore you’re the most beautiful woman to have stepped on this earth.” He took both of my hands as he caressed them as a small blush appeared on his cheeks. I probably was as red as a tomato and my heart was bound to explode as he continued,”(Y/N) I’m deeply in love with you. Maybe you only see me as a friend because why would you even fall in love with me? I just wanted to get this off my chest because I promised myself before I leave this place I’d tell you how I feel. How only you make me feel.” 

I could barely talk as all his words sunk in. “If I love you too would you still leave?”I asked. 

“Yes I would still leave because if you love me too,”he said smiling hopefully,”If you loved me too I would have to be able to provide for you. I intend on marrying you if you do love me.” 

I smiled warmly,”You ask yourself why would I love you and it’s the other way around. Why do you love me? You have such a kind heart one of the reasons why I fell in love with you.” 

He smiled widely as he got closer and pulled me into a kiss. His lips were like velvet against mine as pulled on his collar wanting him to be closer. He broke the kiss biting his bottom lip,”You still have to head back downstairs don’t do that.” 

I blushed as I pecked his lips,”Sorry.” 

He smiled as he whispered in my ear,”Once I come back we’ll have time for that. You’ll be my wife and I’ll be your husband.” 

I smiled widely at the thought,”Who said I’ll say yes?” 

“Trust me you will, ”he smirked stroking my back causing me to shiver. 

“(Y/N) you’re mother is looking for you, ”Yeri said knocking at my door. 

“Well there’s my queue. When are you leaving?”I asked as we headed towards the stairs. 

“Four weeks, ”he said holding my hand squeezing it lightly. 

“There you-,”Yeri said and noticed our intwined hands,”So you did do it after all.” 

“Yeri, ”Yoongi said to his younger sister. 

“Told you so, ”she said sticking out her tongue,”Oh but (Y/N) Junmyeon is waiting for you also.” 

“That guy from earlier?”Yoongi asked getting tense. 

“Yoongi there’s nothing to be jealous of you’re the one I want, ”I said reassuring him. 

He smiled widely,”I’ve waited so long for you to say that.” 

As we reached to the hall Junmyeon was talking to the same girl that asked about him being single. “I’ll see you later I have to go help my mom, ”Yoongi said starting to follow Yeri. 

“I think you forgot something, ”I said putting my hands behind my back pouting. 

“Your father might see us and I haven’t prepared the father speech yet. I’m not risking it, ”he said smiling. I smiled as I headed back to Junmyeon not being able to concentrate on Yoongi’s lips still lingered on mine.