I’ve spent so long trying to be white (I don’t even know what it means) because I wanted it so badly, then Chinese because I felt it would be easier, and nothing worked. It’s only recently that I’ve decided it was okay to be in the middle. It’s still weird sometimes feeling like you don’t fit in but I’m getting better at it and this blog makes me very happy to see all of your gorgeous and strong faces, to see that they are actually people like me.
To make things worse, I can’t speak my Chinese family’s dialect, and I’m fluent in Japanese (my major at univ). My most asked question “Why do you know Japanese? I thought you hated each other."