do you see her scrambling after him

Look at Me...Please. {:Carl Grimes x Reader:} Spoilers!!

Warning: There are spoilers, mentions of death, near amputation, and swearing!

Request:  Can you please do one where the reader is a mess after seeing Carl almost lose his arm so as soon as they get in the motor home, she scrambles to find rags and water to rub the black line off of his arm. And pulls him to the back bedroom is. (There is probably one in there)She’s so frantic that she doesn’t here him say her name at first but then he says her name louder and grabs her hands. She looks up at him w/tears in her eyes. And whatever else you want to add. Thanks! 😊



The smell of blood was thick in the air. It covered the gravel, Lucille, and anyone near to the bodies. Sweat dripped down my forehead and onto the ground as I hunched over. The pain in my head and knees almost made me forget the situation but it was the smell of blood that made me come back to reality. Rick was gone, Abe was dead, and so was Glenn theirs last words ringing through my head. 

“Suck….. my….. nuts.” 

“Maggie, I’ll find you.”

Glenn was my best friend. He was everyone’s light and the purity of the group. I looked to him for wisdom and if there was something I wasn’t sure about, he was the man I went to. Maggie’s ragged breath was in my ear as I felt her arms around me. 

“Maggie. I’m so sorry.” I said looking at Glenn’s corpse. Abe’s blood was splattered on my face and body from Negan’s previous actions. 

“I know Y/N. There’s nothing we could’ve done.” Maggie struggled out. 

“I know. I just…. It happened so fast.” I said letting out a loud sob. 

“Here we are Prick.” Negan’s voice said said breaking through my sobbing. “Let me ask you something Rick- do you even know what that little trip was about?”   I picked my head up and watched as Negan walked around Rick who was crouching on the ground. Rick stayed silent as Negan waited for him respond.

“Speak when you’re spoken to.” Negan said looking down at Rick.

“Okay. Okay.” Rick said saying that he got the point.

“The trip was about the way that you looked at me. I wanted to change that. I wanted you to understand. But you’re still looking at me the same damn way… like I shit in your scrambled eggs, and that’s not going to work.” Negan said making questions fly around my brain.

“What is he going to do?” I thought to myself. 

“So, do I give you another chance?” Negan asked Rick with a smile on his face.

“Yeah. Yes. Yes.” Rick said reluctantly.

“Okay. All right. And here it is, the grand-prize game. What you do next will decide whether your crap day become’s everyone’s last crap day, or just another crap day. Get some guns to the back of their heads.” The Saviors cocked their guns and stepped forward placing the gun on back of my head and the barrel of the gun sat uncomfortably behind my ear. 

“Good. Now level with their noses, so if you have to fire… Pow! It’ll be a real mess.” Negan said chuckling. Negan Looked at Carl and smiled in a very evil way making a shiver run up my spine. 

“Kid. Right here.” Negan said making gestures with his finger. “ Kid…now.” Negan said after Carl didn’t move.

“No please you need him please don’t do it.” I said not able to control the tears running down my face.

“Now don’t you worry sweetheart. I’ll take good care of him.” Negan said looking at me making my cry even more. 

“Carl please don’t go. Let it be me. Let it be me.” I said grabbing Carl’s hand. 

“Y/N I have to go. I’ll be fine. You have to let go now.” Carl said pulling on his arm but it was no use because I had a death grip. “ Y/N You have to let me go. I’ll come back.” Carl said kneeling down, kissing my lips, and taking my hands in his pulling me off him. 

“Please Carl- Negan take me instead you don’t need me. Please I love him. Don’t kill him.” I said sobbing, reaching out for Carl as he walked up to Negan. 

“No you better shush now or I’ll kill him and everyone else.” Negan said directing Lucille at everyone. 

“Okay Okay. Carl I love you.” I said looking down. 

“Are you a southpaw?” Negan asked pulling off his belt. 

“Am I a what?” Carl asked with a hint of sass in his voice. I smiled at the thought of Carl’s face as he said that.

“Are you a lefty?” Negan asked rephrasing his original question.

“No.” Carl answered sternly. Confusion struck me and I was left wondering what Negan was going to do. I looked up in time to see Negan wrap Carl’s left forearm in his belt. 

“That hurt?” Negan asked wrapping it around Carl’s arm several times. 

“No.” Carl said tilting his head to one side as to shake off Negan.

“Should. It’s supposed to.” Negan said opening his eyes wide. “All right. Get down on the ground kid, right next to daddy. Spread them wings.” Negan said throwing Carl’s hat on the ground. I looked down not wanting to Carl being hurt and humiliated in front of the group. Negan’s voice and Rick cries could be heard as I squeezed my eyes shut wanting time to pass. 

Rick’s cries silenced and the sound of gravel crunching under weight was heard. Maggie’s silent cries filled the air as they began to get up wanting to get away from their place on the ground. 

“Y/N.” Carl said from above me. 

“Carl?!” I exclaimed looking up at him in shock. 

“Come on. Let’s get you out of here.” Carl said holding his arms open. I stood up shakily with the help of Carl, of course and looked around at everybody and one last look at the bodies of the people I once called my friends. “Don’t look at that Y/N.” Carl said in a sweet voice, direction my head to lay on his shoulder as we walked towards the RV’s open door. 

“Why did this happen?” I asked picking up my head so he could walk into the RV with me in pursuit. 

“I don’t know Y/N. I don’t know.” Carl said holding out his hand for me to take. My eyes traveled down his arm to the black, straight line of his forearm and for some reason my eyes were glued to that horrid line. I rushed into the RV and frantically searched through the cabinets looking for something to wash it off. 

“You need to take it off! You need to take it off!” I said tears brimming my eyes threatening to spill. 

“Y/N what are you doing. Calm down.” Carl said as I paced the main area. I ran to the bedroom hoping there would be something there as I searched through the drawers. 

“There’s nothing here! How can there be nothing here!?” I asked breathing quite heavily.

“Y/N.” Carl said softly trying to get my attention but I didn’t hear it the slightest. I paced the floor mumbling to myself trying to figure out how to wash it off and visions of the bloodied mess on the gravel that was now stained with blood. 

“They’re gone-”

“Y/N you need to calm down.” Carl said grabbing my arms stopping me in my tracks. “Look at me… Please.” Carl said looking down at me tears welling his eyes. The sight made you let out a loud sob.

“He was going to- He tried to do-”

“I know but I’m still here. I’m okay.” Carl said wrapping his long arms around me.

“Glenn and Abraham they’re gone. They are never going to-”

“I know. I know.” Carl said rubbing my head with his hand trying to sooth me. A loud sob escaped my lips as my knees gave away and I fell to the ground Carl going with me. My chest tightened as the memory of Glenn’s and Abe’s death ran through my head. 

“Why?” I asked myself sobbing in Carl’s arms. 

“I know It’s okay. You’re okay.” Carl said said putting his head on mine. 

“I’m okay.” 

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