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The Meeting of the Waters

pairing: lin-manuel miranda x reader

summary: lin buys a late 18th century piano during the writing process for hamilton, and when he gets it home, he’s surprised to find there’s a ghost attached to it. reader has been attached to her piano for hundreds of years, and is thrilled to talk about her good friend eliza hamilton with the genius who purchased her piano.

warnings: swearing, and i think that’s it idk do ghosts need to be tagged is that a thing

word count: 5,308

a/n: this is for the @hamwriters write-a-thon day one!!! AH okay i haven’t seen anyone write a ghost AU fic yet, so i don’t know how well received this will be BUT i really like it and i hope you guys do too (if u don’t pls be nice to me i’m fragile)

The lights of the George Washington Bridge glow in the distance, a stark contrast to the dark waters of the Hudson. Lin grunts as he pushes the piano up against the window of his studio apartment, leaning an arm on the top of the piano to peer out at the view.

“To be honest, the piano looked better against the wall,” you pipe up from your perch on the arm of the worn out leather sofa.

Lin spins around quickly, a startled look etched on his face. “Who’s in here?”

“Hi there,” you wave your hand, a small smirk on your face, before you stand. You smooth out your skirts and take a few steps toward him.

“Who are you and what are you doing in my apartment?” He takes a few quick steps backwards as you approach, his back colliding with the wall.

“Relax,” you hold up your hands in a show of benevolence. “I come with the piano.”

Keep reading

I love all of my mutuals

I’ve been meaning to do this for a while, but #procrastination.

Even if we’ve never really spoken I think all you guys are rad af and idk you all deserve the best. Hope you all have a great day xx


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anonymous asked:

"No, I’m not. I’m trying to not give up on what we’ve built. Everyone is currently helping me get to Brad but he seems to be treating everyone the same atm" You do realize that you're making him look like the bad guy? You do realize that you ask for privacy but say this kind of shit? You do nothing but show me that you're the fucking problem. God, I wasn't gonna comment about this at all but all the hate towards Brad makes me sick. He's a good person, so are you I believe. Just act like it.

So the fact that I still defended Brad even though there were problems going on didn’t matter at all? Yes, I know I said one or two things too much when it came to the personal stuff but that’s because I was inexperienced and when you’re hurt you do stupid shit. I know my fault but this is why I made the video I did because people attacking Brad was my fault but it shows how fucking involved people can get (including you from your comment.) You completely ignore that people are even attacking me as well. You know how shitty it is to see people typing comments that say “oh man I’m so glad she’s fucking gone” and all that stuff?

I’m not gonna be rude to you like you’re being rude to me (somehow shows typical anon behaviour when they wanna say something so they go to the most aggressive extent). 

I’d like to say more but from what I think I really shouldn’t have responded to this in the first place. I still will because I’m not scared of defending myself and admitting when I fucked up. 

Okay gather round mermaids and mermen, lets have a little chat. Nothing pisses me off more when I’m working on something and someone runs to go make it, cause then I feel like I’m wasting my damn time. Which leads to me most likely just not finishing it all together. It’s one of the reasons I don’t like showing wips. I also don’t like showing images of unfinished work, but I do it because I know you guys want to see something, and I do like getting constructive feedback. Constructive criticism, the key word “constructive” helps to make better quality content.


Like let me finish my shit dammit, this ain’t a mother fucking race my dude. This is not Americas Next top CC Creator, we ain’t competing. I like to take time on my stuff, so it can be good. I’m about that quality over quantity life. There are a million ideas in the universe, go snatch another one, or at least wait till I’m done with the one I’m working on. Cause you know damn well you wasn’t thinking bout making the shit till you saw someone making it. stop lying.

Also, before somebody try to twist my words, I have no problem with people creating similar things. I completely understand seeing something you like, and wanting to create it, that is not what I am talking about. Being inspired by something is not what I’m ranting about. I’m talking about those of you who are only making something because you want to be the first, or the most popular, most unique…whatever, you will run a make something just because you want to fill those roles so bad. By doing that you are completely disregarding other creators time and effort.

Sometimes there are instances where creators will be making something popular, and both people will make it, that is also not what I am talking about. Everybody knows where those ideas are coming from, so we know they are not “copying” each other, its obvious they are drawing their inspiration from the same subject. Ya’ll be getting on leahlillith about this and I’m like you do know that second life creators usually get their ideas from real life items right ??? Like I can find so many receipts, because I have so many inspo folders that usually have those items from real life in them lmao. Ya’ll be putting sl on a pedestal so damn high, they high-fiving with God. Same thing for imvu, most of their stuff is inspired from things in real life. Guess what? With those real life people, they were probably inspired by something as well. So whoop there it is, its a big ole’ creative loop 

Again, make what you like and want. What I don’t like is people trying to act brand new off someone else’s “idea.” I put idea in quotes, because most ideas are inspired by something else any ways, its just how the creative process works. You know 100% what I am talking about. But being Inspired and copying something is a very thin line that I think a lot of people in this community have a hard time distinguishing between and I’m just calling it to attention. 

And since I’m on a rant roll. Can we talk about naming conventions for cc?

(we just gonna get this all out the way)

When you name your files, please consider putting things in the file name that will help people distinguish what the fuck it is. Let me use my trash jeans for an example:

Ripped Jeans 01

Trash Jeans


Those are unacceptable naming conventions…


YOU as the person who created it, will know what that cc item is. ME as downloader has 0 idea what the hell those file names are alluding to other than some jeans (except the last one, I have no idea what that is????) If I’m doing a lookbook or simply just looking for who created the item, I wouldn’t be able to find it, and will most likely just delete it. Ultimately it hurts you as a creator, because its just hard to find and distinguish your items for other creators things.

Please put your

creator name

item name

cc type (jeans, skirt, top, dresser, bed etc…)

version number (if you have one)

This will make everybody lives easier and help people find your stuff, which I know you want that !

Okay rant over. Ive been holding that in for year now lmao, clearly my tolerance level is deteriorating. I ain’t calling any names, because you know your own shoe size. These are just somethings that I personally want to let ya’ll know, take it or leave it, it up to you.

Anyways, so how was your day? Doing good today??

“So how many guys are gonna be at this party?”

“About a dozen, maybe a little more.”

“And they’ll all be fucking me?”

“Well, a couple will probably be satisfied with a good blow-job, but most of them will want to breed you.”

“$4,000.  And I leave at 3:00 a.m.”

“Let’s say, $5,000 and you stay until dawn.”

“I don’t know.  That’s a lot of dick to handle in one night.”

“C’mon, man.  You’re a pro.  You can do it.”

:”Make it $6,000 and I’ll do it.”

“Stay until 9:00 a.m. and you’ve got a deal.”

“Fuck it.  I’ll do it for $6,000 and stay until 9:00 a.m.  But, damn, I’m gonna have one sore pussy tomorrow morning.”

“Yeah, dude.  You will.  But you’ll have a nicely replenished bank account, too.”

“Well, there is that.”

film lovers

I need your help! I’ll have to analyze a movie for my cinema class and that movie should have some sort of connection with the urban space or a particular city. I’ll have to explore the intersection between cinema and the city, storyline vs wherever they are, etc.

this is where you come in: I need movie recommendations! interesting movies such as lost in translation (I can’t analyze that one because we’re already talking about it in class) or even la la land (which I also can’t do it because it’s a very recent movie). basically I need a movie that shows a city very clearly and that I can connect its storyline with the city itself. or any movie that you can remember, really. anything would help.

if you guys could reblog this to signal boost I would be very grateful! or if you know any film enthusiast that could help me pls let me know or direct them to this post!

yildiz-blackthorne  asked:

Taehyung doing the tall boy thing whenever Jimin needs to whisper something to him, please discuss :3 +bonus: Tae circling his big hand around Jimin's smol wrist

Sorry, it took me so long to answer. Your asks was more than a thank you lol 

1. There’s nothing really to discuss about the “tall guy” thing cause everyone should know about it. Even tho, it’s hella cute. Jungkook does the same thing but then we get Tae pulling this sh*t 

Like boi bye. Jiminie ain’t that short. (And secretly I think Tae wanted this part with Jimin after the 21st century girl choreo lol)

2. I think it’s with any bigger bts member, that they’re fond of Jimin’s size. (Rapmon playing with Jimin’s smol hands in Bon voyage, etc…)

But since Tae’s known Jimin longer, he’s probably grown to fall in love with it since he’s so much bigger than him. Which is why he always gets a kick out comparing hand/pinky sizes with Jimin. + holding his wrist.

I assume you’re talking about this.

Originally posted by minsecretsoul

He just likes how small Jimin is around his hand and Tae grabs it as a replacement for holding his hand. Tae will definitely reach for Jimin’s wrist before grabbing his arm. (Notice how he has a firm grip on his wrist everytime and how he holds Jimin there)

From a more detailed description, it has to do with dominance for the simple fact he likes being bigger than Jimin. Because Jimin does this too, but it’s usuless. (So it seems)

He’s small but it gets his point across. Because as much as some of you guys hate to admit it, Jimin doesn’t let Tae be dominant unless he wants him to.

Exhibit A.

Cmon now, you know he could have got up from that.

But yep, it’s just the greedy fact that he has a kink for being bigger than Jimin. Nothing else:)

(It’ll be great in bed tho *wink*)

athenahyena7  asked:

So like, why the heck did the founders think it was a good idea to put Hufflepuff and Slytherin in the basement?? Like they didn't have any room above ground? Are we the secret children that nobody knows about that they have to hide away or something?

There’s some post on Tumblr somewhere with the founders talking about where to have the common rooms and Hufflepuff is like “guys, why are you doing this. Guys. Why. Why are you making children be in towers. Salazar, that’s a dungeon. Guys. GUYS. GUYS! Screw you, I’m going to be near the kitchens.”

Followers, reblog with a link if you know what I’m talking about?

-Amy (Hufflepuff)

To my Fellow Fanfiction Writers:

So we all know that whenever we put a story out, we’re subjecting our material to all sorts of opinions, ideas and feedback. And while it can be tough, we have to keep an open mind about how people will react to our story and the universe we’ve created. As artists it’s hard to, well bluntly put it, not be sensitive about our shit.


Do you guys ever get that ONE review that really just kind of grinds your gears? Like you wanna just say, “look man feel how you want but WHY are you being so harsh in your review? Just chill and work with me here or at least wait until the end before you completely obliterate what I have going on here?” and it’s hard because you know in the back of your mind that “everyone’s entitled to their opinion!” but geeeze, sometimes there’s just that oooonnne review.

I just needed to rant a bit. And no, I’m definitely not expecting every review to be great, I can definitely appreciate open constructive criticism, but like I said. Sometimes you just wanna tell some people to relax.

Also curious as to how that makes you guys feel, and how you choose to handle it.


George Washington x Reader, Bro!Alex x Reader’s Daughter

Modern AU

Sequel to: Meeting the Family, Becoming Part of the Family, Baby Washington, Welcome to the Family

Author: Lil Laddie

Words: 1392

Warnings: Babies, inexperienced baby sitting, swearing, I don’t know very much about babies sorry

Request: Have you considered writing another sequel for Meeting the Family? Where Alex and the baby bond or going to the distant future where her big brothers beat up boys that flirt with her or the guy who broke her heart? Or both? It’s always up to you, but I would love to read it! -anon

A/N: So, I just did the first part of this with the bonding and I will do another one probably on Tuesday with the boys beating up people that break the girls heart. Sadly, this doesn’t have too much reader in this and I’m really sorry for that. And it’s also more of a Fem!reader and I apologize for that because I do like to make things as unisex as possible. Hope you guys enjoy this though and have an amazing day! Love y’all!

Eleanor was growing quickly and Alex had made it painfully obvious by staying away from her. He still wanted nothing to do to her, meanwhile the other boys couldn’t leave her alone. Besides all the attempt you and George made, Alex refused to spend anymore time with Eleanor than he needed to. That was until he was stuck babysitting her.

“Why am I babysitting her? Can’t someone else do it?” Alex whined, watching you and George get ready for a business party he had that night.

“Sorry Alex, but everyone else is busy tonight.” You smiled sympathetically, ruffling his hair as you walked past him.

“I’m busy tonight too!” Alex exclaimed, glaring at you and George.

“Really? Doing what? This afternoon when I asked, you said you were going to be staying home tonight.” George said, trying not to lose his patience with him.

“Yeah, until I found out I’d be stuck with her.” Alex growled, just the thought of the baby making him even more angry.

“Alex, what do you want us to do? Make one of the other boys cancel on their plans?” You asked, slowly growing exasperated with the complaining boy.

“That sounds perfect!” Alex nodded, looking at the two of you expectantly.

“That’s not fair to the others. They have been babysitting her every time we go out for the past six months of her life. It’s time you helped out Alex.” George said, pulling on his suit jacket as you grabbed your own coat.

“You can’t leave me with her!” Alex cried, following the two of you into the little play pen where Eleanor was crawling around.

“You’ll be fine Alex, she’s just a baby.” You said, picking up Eleanor from the play pen. “She already had dinner so there’s not much you have to do. Just let her crawl around and play for a little bit, maybe you could read to her and put her to bed at 7:30. Remember to keep the baby monitor next to you at all times.”

“I don’t think I can do this.” Alex gulped as you handed him Eleanor to hold.

“Call us if anything happens.” George said to Alex, before softening slightly as he turned to Eleanor. “Bye bye sweetheart. Be a good girl for Alex!”

The two of you hugged Alex and Eleanor before leaving the house and the two of them alone.

“Ugh, it’s just me and you now.” Alex sighed looking down at the girl who was just staring at the door her parents had just gone through.

“Dada?” Eleanor asked, her eyes starting to well up with tears.

“Yeah, he left you kid.” Alex said, not noticing that Eleanor was on the verge of crying.

“DADA!” Eleanor started to scream and cry making Alex jump.

Alex had no idea what to do. Sure, he had seen the rest of the family take care of Eleanor, but he had never done it himself. He had no experience with babies and started to look around frantically for something to calm her down.

“Um…you want your blanket?” Alex asked, trying to hand the girl he favorite blanket that she quickly denied. “Okay, how about this teddy bear?” He tried again only for the crying to get louder.

He started thinking really of hard on what he had seen the others do. Hercules would usually start humming a song. Thomas would usually started bouncing her and talk in a soothing voice. And Aaron would usually hand the baby to anyone else before running out of the room.

Deciding to follow the other boys example, besides Aaron, he started to bounce Eleanor gently as he paced the room and sang one of his favorite songs very softly. Eleanor slowly began to stop crying and instead look up at the boy that was holding her. Eleanor had only been held by Alex once but, found him very safe to be around.

“See? There’s no need to cry.” Alex said in almost a whisper, the girl in his arms starting to smile up at him.

“Okay let’s go down to the living room so I can watch a movie while you play with whatever the hell these toys are.” Alex said, grabbing a few of Eleanor’s toys before taking her down to the living room.

Alex placed her inside another one of her play pens with her toys. Alex turned on a movie and almost forgot about the small girl crawling around. That was until she started throwing her toys at him.

“What do you want?” Alex snapped, Eleanor giggled at his unamused expression. “Oh, you think it’s funny when I’m upset do ya?”

Eleanor crawled the closest she could to Alex while staying within her play pen. She held up her arms as a signal to be lifted up. Alex sighed and rolled his eyes before picking the small girl up.

“You’re needy, did you know that?” Alex asked, Eleanor snuggling into his chest as he sat back down on the couch.

Alex looked down at the small girl in his arms and couldn’t help but smile. He wouldn’t admit it, but he was warming up the girl. Looking at her smiling up at him, Alex could feel his heart break a little. He had been ignoring this little girl for the first seven months of her life. Strangely enough, Alex hadn’t done a lot with Eleanor that night but he felt a bond with her. She was his baby sister and he felt the need to protect her.

“Ellie, you’re making me go soft. Stop looking at me.” Alex grumbled, hoping to make these feelings of love for her go back to hatred and envy. “Oh god, I used a nickname.” Alex huffed, realizing his mistake.

Eleanor giggled, making Alex look back down at her.

“Well, since we’re going to be here a while, I guess you may as well learn something.” Alex sighed, before moving Eleanor onto his lap to face him. “Repeat after me, Alex.”

Eleanor stared up at him blankly as he looked at her expectantly.

“Okay, we will try again. Alex. Al-ex.” He tried pronouncing out the syllables more clearly only to be met with silence again. “Come on! It’s not that hard, Ellie. If you can say Dada and Mama then you can say Alex. Al-ex, Alex, Al-ex.”

Eleanor smiled not even opening her mouth for an attempt.

“Well, I guess some of us are slow-” Alex was stopped mid sentence by the little girl in his lap.

“Awex! Awex! AWEX!” Eleanor started yelling, Alex grinned widely.

“That’s my girl, now let’s teach you what you need to call Thomas.” Alex smirked before pulling a picture of Thomas in front of the girl.


You and George walked slowly into the peaceful house. It was almost too peaceful. You could hear the sounds of a movie coming from the living room.

“Do you think Alex got Eleanor to bed fine tonight?” You asked, the two of you walking down the hallway towards the living room.

“I’m sure he did great. I mean he didn’t call us at all.” George reassured you.

“Okay, I just hope this didn’t make him dislike her anymore.” You said, peeking your head into the living room before giggling. “Actually, I think Alex may have made a new friend.”

“What do you mean?” George asked, following your gaze before starting to laugh.

Alex was lying on the couch fast asleep with a Eleanor snuggled into his chest. He had one arm wrapped around her to keep her from rolling off of him and the couch. The two of them had a happy expression on their face as they slept.

“Should we wake them?” George asked, a large smile on his face.

“No, let’s let them sleep.” You smiled, leaning into George.

“I told you Alex would eventually get over it. He just needed some time to get to know her.” George said, pressing a kiss to your cheek before the two of you headed to your bedroom.

You and George were ecstatic that finally all of the boys loved Eleanor just as much as the two of you did. Everything seemed to finally fall into place. At least until the next morning where Eleanor would start to call Thomas some things you’d rather not repeat. Well, at least they bonded.

anonymous asked:

"#kinda tired of how ppl make tater out to be some child just because he cant speak english very well" THANK YOU I AGREE SO MUCH and your post kind of fueled this new hc I have of one too many assholes chirping tater on the ice for being a "big dumb russian" that the falcs pr team just snaps and releases a feature on the scholarship program tater got started for foreign-born students hoping to go to college in the u.s. and included is a clip (w/ subtitles of course) of tater talking with (1/2)

a grad student in animated russian about the kid’s research project about fucking quantum mechanics and even the other guys on the falcs are like “tater wtf how do you know this shit???” and he just kinda shrugs and goes, “physics is best? there is english idiom i’m thinking of… ‘it grew on me’? yes, grew on me when I was teenager. i’m see physics and think 'okay, tell me how to put puck in net, is good class’” 2/2 

exactly!!!! is tater an overexcitable pupper? yes definitely. but is he also a goddamn adult man who understands complex emotions and things? motherfucking yes. 

and i love that idea of him starting a scholarship program!!! falcs tv does a huge segment on it and it’s a huge fucking deal. also bonus points for tater funding a ton of research projects, writing competitions, etc. 

I'm not trying to sound bitchy but..

▫Do not confuse me for being a celebrity who owes you guys anything. Do not confuse me for being a celebrity that you need to know every detail of my personal life. You will not know my personal life because that is not your business I’m not the celebrity in this situation and making things up about me will get you no where. I know where I live, how old I am, where I was born, who my family and my bf are and especially I know my past. Despite what any fake account tries telling you none of them know my life or why I have done or said things I have. I know my life better than any of you and you will never be let into my personal life understand that.

▫Do not assume who my bf is. I don’t want to hear who I make it out to be, I have never flat out said Ashton is my bf and just cause you take hints that way doesnt make it so. I could be describing anyone. If I say it’s a 21 year old girl from California that automatically makes it me? No I don’t think so..I’m not the only girl in California that’s 21. Take your Bullshit theories else where and let Arzaylea drag your stupid ass again.

▫Do not assume who my friends are or what I know. I have proven myself multiple times way more than the other fake bitches on here have. Things I say will happen actually happen, as of late I won’t lie I have been not saying as much because I don’t really feel it is deserved. The fact I have proven myself so much and some of you have the guts to question me still while belIrving these fake accounts who can’t and won’t ever prove themselves to you is fucked up. You believe ppl who never show you any form of proof and the one who does you question.

▫Any of my private accounts are not known to the fans so don’t go assuming they are. Since making my blog and how I have been stalked I made extra sure my private accounts are protected. I have been stalked and harrassed and I’m still here because I feel you guys deserve the truth even tho won’t lie sometimes I feel like fuck this all and you can believe the liars see how far it gets you in the end. I don’t need to share anything I do, I do it to be nice and try to let you guys see the truth.

▫I am tired of fake accounts thinking they are exposing me or calling me out. What have they been right about? Almost all of them steal my info and shit and for what? I’m so fake so why do you need to copy me and just twist my words around? I’m so fake but where is your proof? Your quick to ask for mine even tho I have proven myself more than a pic ever could just based off what I know, no regular fan knows and would be right about all the shit I am. Example all this God damn week every day exposing5sos19 claimed pr was going to go down and guess what it never did. Exposing5sos19 claimed she knew the guys news and that was wrong cause the actual news was never even posted. I don’t care if you love me or hate me but one thing you can’t say is I havent proven myself. I am no psychic trust me and I’m not taking guesses at what I tell you guys I actually know it. Look where guessing got exposing5sos19. She was dead ass wrong where as I am always right.

You can believe who And what you want I am done rn. No I am not playing a victim card either I don’t want sympathy, I’m playing the bitch who is pissed off and tired of repeating myself card.

anonymous asked:

How do you guys deal with the lack of object constancy? It's been hitting me hard this month.

Oh boy. I’ve been thinking about this so much recently. I have the object permanence of a 2 month old child.

So for those that don’t know, object permanence/constancy is the understanding that objects or people exist even when you can’t see them. It’s an important stage in child development. Some weird version of it manifests in borderline people and others in that we struggle to remember that we have loved ones or friends or support when they are not around. 

(At least that’s how it manifests for me- shoot me a message if you experience something else!)

I’ve been struggling with it lately after I went home from school over winter break. I was gone for about a month. I texted a few of my friends from school during that time but that’s all. I came back to school in January and honestly assumed that my friends would have forgotten I exist. So when I came back, I was really shifty bc I assumed they wouldn’t recognize me or want to start back up where we left off. I thought I’d have to start over. Long story short they still wanted to be friends and hadn’t forgotten about me. Weird.

I’m not sure this is the standard object permanence issue people face. I’ve never had a problem remembering people literally exist, which I think may not be the issue for others? I have a problem remembering that the people I know exist CARE. I accidentally destroy friendships because I start believing that the other person doesn’t like me anymore when literally nothing happened (happening literally as I speak). All that happened was that we didn’t talk for like a week. 

Ok so how do I fight this? Like most #justmentallyillthings it involves beating back my natural problematic reactions and thoughts.

First off, I honest to god have a list of people who care about me. It’s in my Very Important Happy List Notebook. I wrote down the names of people who I know care about me and can be there for me when I need someone. It’s great bc it’s a physical reminder I can turn to when needed. What’s not great is that I occasionally have to cross off a name when I lose a friend (to the natural ebb and flow of friendship, to death, to my own fuck ups). But this really helps if your problem is forgetting who cares or that anyone cares.

Now if you’re like me, your brain probably still screams at you that the list is a lie. When this happens, or when I’m working without a list and forget anyone cares, I have to take out The Big Borderline Feelings Bat. This is what I beat my unhealthy automatic thoughts back with. There are a few things you can do with it. First, you can beat that shit all the way down into oblivion. Clamp down until you’re not thinking it at all anymore. I’ve become really good at stopping automatic and intrusive thoughts in their tracks, but that is a skill developed over time. It sounds unhealthy, right, but when you have a brain that screams at you to kill yourself 24/7 it becomes a pretty decent coping mechanism. There’s a difference between bottling up emotions that need to be expressed and shutting out your brain’s excess static. 

Anyway, so you can block the thought using distraction, if this is something that pops up so often that you know it’s a false belief and you can shut it up and move on.

But if you’re new to working on this particular issue, I’d recommend working on ways to convince yourself that your belief that people either don’t care or don’t exist is your brain’s lie. Because to be able to shut it up, you need to believe it’s wrong. This list will help. So will looking at pictures of good times you had with these people or nice things they’ve done for you, or whatever proof you have that they exist and do care. 

You can also talk back to your brain. Like actually get into a mental fight with yourself. “No that’s not true. What about that time x did y for me. That only happened yesterday.” What’s important about talking back is that you must be validating. So no “god you’re so dumb you can’t even remember these people exist no wonder you’re so alone.” YOUR INNER VOICE OF REASON MUST BE COMPASSIONATE. If it’s not, this will be harmful instead of helpful. I’m sure you’ve seen the posts out there that say you should talk to yourself like you would a little sibling or even a very cute dog. The point is that you are challenging the nasty automatic thoughts with reality and love. (check yourself before you wreck yourself amirite).

Now if you’re sitting there thinking ‘well how do I even know when I’m having object permanence issues in the first place’ I’d recommend journaling. It takes a long time and a certain amount of distance to be able to recognize your own behavior and the traps you regularly fall into. Diary cards or journaling can help you see patterns which you can then learn to anticipate and counteract. An actual record of emotions and thoughts is helpful when we can barely remember what we ate for breakfast bc there was a rollercoaster of emotion since then and what even day is it I’m so tired of this life etc. It’s something you can look back on.

If this was not at all the issue you are having, I’m sorry for writing an entire novel and please slap me with another ask. I have a tendency to - I don’t even know what this is, ramble? get lost? wax poetic? navel-gaze? (no one can roast me if I roast myself first lmao pls be nicer to yourself than me rn). 

Anyway best of luck to everyone who isn’t sure if their friends are real or imaginary. I find personally the truth is a bit of both.

I’m here for y’all as always,
xx Kat

anonymous asked:

I know that Yoonbum is supposedly this unattractive skinny guy but do you think that he's unattractive due to his gloomy nature, greasy hair, and clothes? This is totally minor but I'm just wondering if there's something about him that attracts creeps like his uncle and the dude at the military

It’s correct that most people’s first impression of Bum stemmed from the gloomy face, greasy hair and smelly worn clothes, which are probably an effect of his mental illness. It’s common to not have the energy/will to keep up your hygiene & basic appearance when you’re constantly feeling like shit from your anxiety, depression, and in this case, bpd too. 

As it usually isn’t a good impression, people avoid Bum & labeled him as creepy, damaging his already fragile self-esteem & further isolating him from the common social circle. That’s what makes Bum an ideal target for his uncle/bullies, as his low self-esteem would make him submit more easily and his loner status would prevent anyone else from busting them.

Chipmunk- Jakob Chychrun

Originally posted by ryanhartman

Ok so I got this anon request for a Chych one and I LOVED IT! Ok so this kid has NO right to be 18. Like… damn man you’re killing me! Ok so enough of Chych loving (jk) but on to the story! Hope you like it anon! Let me know what you guys thing!

Warning: Cussing (light)

Anon request:  hey love! your writing is amazing and i was wondering if you could do a jakob chychrun imagine about him taking care of his gf when she gets her wisdom teeth out? thanks!!


              “I love you,” he stated, grinning widely. You glared at him.

              “Go to hell,” you told him, although with all the packing in your mouth it came out garbled. His smile widened though, understanding you.

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Monsta X reaction to you being affectionate or touchy while sleeping

requested by anon~

hey guys, it’s been awhile since i’ve posted something. i apologize for being super duper later with this request (since i’ve been super busy with two thesis papers, artworks to be passed, and other projects ;-;) i hope you guys enjoy this! credits to the owners for this gifs.


Originally posted by garisanee

Shownu; Shownu was just about to fall asleep when he felt you snuggling your face closer to his chest and wrapping your arms around his waist. It was the first time that the two of you slept beside each other after months of being away. He’d be blushing so hard that he wouldn’t know what to do. He’d actually stiffen by your touch and would be blank for a minute or so. He’d slowly look at you and see you peacefully sleeping beside him while having a smile on your face. Shownu would then break into a sincere smile before hugging you back, nuzzling his head on top of yours and give it a light kiss before drifting off to dreamland.

Originally posted by kihn

Wonho; By the minute he laid down beside you, he’d be so surprised when you immediately turned towards his direction and snuggled closer to his body, wrapping your leg around his waist and placing your arm on his chest. He’d actually like this side of you, like literally like like it. At first, he thought that you were acting like you were asleep but then when he waves a hand in front of your face, you didn’t react or anything. This would make him look at you with softened gaze and slowly caress his fingers on your cheek, pinching them lightly since he became really fond of this side of yours. 

Originally posted by sonhyunwoomx

Minhyuk; This boy man would be totally enthusiastic about this. For a couple of nights, he first observed this side of yours and started to hypothesize. He’d casually ask you about it in the day but you wouldn’t answer him directly. Finally, at the nth night, you unconsciously caressed your hand on his chest as you snuggled close to him. It finally came to Minhyuk. You were the type of person to cling on someone when you fall asleep, duuhhh. He’d be all smiles the whole night. He’d immediately pull you into a tight hug which would make you stir for a second but would fall asleep again. 

Originally posted by wonhontology

Kihyun; At first, Kihyun would be totally cool with it. He’d calm his beating heart by the second your lips left his neck. You unconsciously kissed his neck when you were asleep. Kihyun would call out your name but would not receive any response from you. He’d look down and see that you were peacefully asleep. Kihyun would be fidgety, like so bad, that he’d be sweating. His heart would beat really fast and he’d literally stiffen when he feels your hand move. He’d try to decipher what just truly happened before giggling, facing towards your direction and pulling you a lot more close to him.

Originally posted by hyungvon

Hyungwon; Chae. Hyung. Won. would not notice at the first two nights of sleeping beside each other. Whenever the two of you lay your heads on the pillows, both of you would be knocked out in just seconds. Then this day finally came, you fell asleep before him and when he laid down beside you, he felt your arms snaking around his waist. At first he’d be startled but then would breaking into a teasing smile. He’d literally love this. Hyungwon would have a smug look on his face before taking a selfie with you hugging him. 

Originally posted by garisanee

Jooheon; Jooheon decided to write some songs on the bed. He carefully sat down beside you and was about to start writing down the lyrics when you hugged him by the belly. He’d freak out for a moment since he was caught of guard but would smile at the sight of you hugging him. He’d be giggling and giggling while pushing away the strands of hair away from your face. Thousands of lyrics would come rushing out of his brain when you continued to hug him. But then since he couldn’t resist your cuteness, he’d turn off his laptop and sleep beside you with his arms wrapping around your waist. 

Originally posted by altwonhoseok

Changkyun; It’s been a couple of months since he came back. By the moment he came into the room, he saw you fast asleep beside an empty space. He’d lay down beside you and by the second he lays his head on the pillow, you’d immediately snuggle your face onto his neck before placing your hands on his chest. Changkyun would soften at the gesture and would do the exact same thing he’s doing in the gif. He’d stay awake for a couple of minute while studying your face and planting small kisses onto your lips before drifting off to dreamland with you.

anonymous asked:

HA the spoiling Dead fans Tumblr page even SAID that Daryl isn't in love with Carol. They have a bond sure but it isn't romantic and it's just caryl'ers interpreting it as romance when it's not.

Do you want a cookie? Or will your special snowflake award do?

And guess what buddy, I know who you are 😚Anon can’t hide you from IP address searches. Hahah guys I’m pretty sure this is the same person whose been sending every caryl shipper hate like that’ll change our minds about our ship. Should I expose them?

whtaft  asked:

Hey, I just wanted to say how awesome I think it is that you give people info about the potentially upsetting things in fics. It's an awesome service, especially given that there's no SparkNotes for fics. It's a fantastic fandom service that you provide on top of everything else you do. Thanks so much!

It’s no problem! If we can help people avoid getting triggered or squicked out its really the least we can do.

I know we’re not always the best with tagging, but if you guys have any triggers you want tagged, let us know and we’ll do our best!