Could you do Tom Holland's spiderman with reader being a vigilante and ends up hurting someone with her powers (you can decide what powers) and later confides in him "I feel like a monster sometimes" "maybe it would be better if I just disappeared"? Ily and your blog!!
Thank you so much for requesting! <3
After I told Peter what happened, a silence settled in the room.
I knew he would be the only one to actually understand how I felt, how much of a responsability it was and give me advice on what I should do about it.
Being Spiderman, he was like me. Even if I was more like a vigilante and not a superhero like him. Everyone loved Spiderman, but my fire powers were more dangerous and violent than his spider powers.
“I feel like a monster sometimes" I piped up, seeing as I made him uncomfortable and he remained quiet.
He finally looked up at me, just to glance down again and play around with his hands in restlessness.
“You’re not a monster, Y/N” Peter whispered as though he was afraid to speak too loudly.
“I am, I hurt that poor boy… I was trying to save him, but…” I sighed, trying not to cry at the thought of it. “I guess I lost control of my powers and things got ugly”
“It’s not always easy” My friend told me, looking into my eyes to comfort me. “But this accident doesn’t negate all the good things you did and all the people you saved”
“No, Pete” I sobbed, feeling how the guilt and the fear were eating me away. “Maybe it would be better if I just disappeared”
“No way” Pete shook his head vehemently. “The world needs you, you’re a hero!”
“No, they need Spiderman. He’s the hero, not me”
Peter stood from his bed and held my hand tenderly. I could feel his eyes on me, but suddenly needed to avert my glare from them.
“I won’t let you quit, you’re too good to this world to just quit” His voice was sweet and soft. “You’re the one that gave me courage to be Spiderman in the first place”
“It was a terrible accident, but that doesn’t make you a terrible person”
“Just take your time, recover. And then come back stronger”
I began to cry, unable to hold it in anymore. But Peter held me tight and let me cry on his shoulder.
Turn your attention away from yourself and your own problems to the world around you, to the earth underneath your feet, to your local community, to your friends, to the strangers who live around you, to your loved ones. Discover what you can do to make that world in which you live a better place. These things are very simple actually. It could be a smile, a comforting word, offering a space for a car making a turn in front of you; it could be offering food to someone who is hungry; it can be turning off your television mind control device, and playing with your children or your pets. It could be planting a tree. The list of opportunities to affect the world that is right around you is endless, and then you will find yourself re-connecting to your local community, even as the forces that would manipulate the world try to destroy it. Do understand that there is power in simplicity.
Why I think Komahina is probably one of the most canon ships in SDR
By the title of this blog post, I’ll just be stating my reasons on why Komahina must be one of the most canon ships in SDR. I’ll be starting out my reasons with the most obvious, but it won’t come as a surprise with my later points since the fandom has basically covered over all the points.
Reason number 1: Nagito’s free time events.
At the end of Nagito Komaeda’s free time events, he states that he has Stage 3 Malignant Lymphoma and Frontotemporal Dementia and then he goes on a rant about how it’s lonely to die alone and all he wanted in life, was someone’s love. But as he began to open himself up to Hajime, he retracts all his statements and begins to construct a wall around him once more, stating all he said was from a book he read. Not wanting Hajime to get hurt by his luck cycle, he created a wall, once more. He then went on to say as Hajime was leaving that he, and I quote. “From the bottom of my heart…I am truly in love with the hope that sleeps inside of you.” Now, doesn’t that sound like an odd phrase to say? It was present in the Japanese version, that Nagito says the word ‘aishiteru’ which is a term that even married couples are hesitant to use. Aishiteru, is a Japanese word that means, I am in love with you, as it correlates to what Nagito is saying with the in love with the hope that sleeps inside of you. What Nagito was truly doing, was he was trying to make a confession, but then changed his wording, he was probably afraid of the outcome that were to happen.
Reason number 2: Island Mode
This is a tiny reason, but all the more important, (and adorable). So, when You hang out with Nagito in Island Mode, using trip tickets, Nagito will make little remarks here and there, giving small hints at his affection towards Hajime. To summarize, Nagito states at the beach when you recommend to take your clothes off, that he doesn’t really mind for you to see him naked. And the usual response if someone were to ask you this, is no. And either at the amusement park or at the beach, he suggests to go back to their, ‘love nest’. Which is a place for lovers to go in peace.
Reason number 3: CD Drama
So, you can find these CD Dramas on YT and such, but a CD Drama is an interaction done by characters, but are usually just done with music, voice acting, etc. As I was listening in, I heard the words Daisuki, directed at Hajime, the word means to like something very much, it’s not as passionate as aishiteru, but it’s close enough. The subtitles said much more descriptive things, such as Nagito saying, “But I won’t give up. I’ll continue to do anything in my power to assist you. Because…I like you, I love you, for being willing to talk to me like this, even after knowing what a hopelessly incompetent person I am…” And quote. But obviously, this confession goes over Hajime’s head. But the meaning is true, Nagito hasn’t said this to ANYONE, he feels this way since Hajime was the only person whom was trying to understand Nagito, the only person willing to talk to him, and that obviously means a lot for Nagito. At the very least, he RESPECTS Hajime, telling him that you’d need courage to even attempt to understand something you can’t, and that, is enough for someone to embody hope.
Reason 4: Nagito’s character theme
So, Nagito’s character theme is called Poison, and in one line, it says, “I love, and want to understand him more than anyone else.” Take note of the him, pronoun. Nagito is not saying them, or even her, he says him. And since all the other guys are weary of Nagito, and took a disliking to him, the only person Nagito could be talking about, is our main protagonist, Hajime, since he was the only one to try and talk to Nagito throughout the game. That in itself, is important to Nagito’s relationship and character.
Reason 5: Chapter 3, the despair disease
This is obvious in itself, but the despair disease prevented Nagito to say anything but lies, he had the lying disease, so it’s pretty obvious too mistake everything he says as a lie. When Hajime went over to Nagito’s room, he was discouraged and forced out of Nagito’s room by, Nagito himself. Nagito kept saying things about how he wanted Hajime to leave, or how he didn’t want too see Hajime’s face again. And that obviously pissed off Hajime, but in reality, Nagito was just lying, and he wanted Hajime to stay with him. The thing that pissed me off about this, is that Hajime should have KNOWN Nagito was lying, and how Nagito wanted Hajime to stay with him, but nope, Hajime forgets that detail, and leaves.
I’m sure there is much more detail into the facts about how Nagito loves Hajime, and how this was already made and how all the points in this was already known to the public, but I just wanted to make this since I can. Oh, and I don’t want anyone refuting this and trying to make a debate against me with my incorrect statements, all I want is too share how I feel about the beloved Komahina, alright?
here’s an actual Hot Tip about talking to the press at protests: if you don’t want to, you don’t have to, but if you’re willing to be quoted under your real name it’s a great idea to go to the protest with an idea of what you’d like to say to the media in mind, because giving a reporter a good quote does help you and your cause. if you can tell them a personal story tying your own life to the issue you’re protesting, that’s even better. journalists are not going to misquote you, we don’t benefit from that.
conservatives understand the power of ordinary people talking to the press about their views and their grievances, there’s no reason leftists shouldn’t do the same.
I kind of understand why Garnet being fused would make Peridot uncomfortable. Note, I understand her reason, I don’t agree with it.
On Homeworld, fusion’s something you do for power, something you do in battle, to win a fight. Homeworld doesn’t view fusion as an act of intimacy; Jasper and the shard experiments both make this pretty clear. So when Peridot, a Homeworld Gem, sees Garnet, a fusion, what does she see? Someone ready to fight. It’s a threatening gesture. To quote Peridot herself, “They’re not even fighting!”
A lot of people keep calling what she’s doing an act of bigotry, but I think that’s taking it a bit far. The canon has established that the Crystal Gems view fusion as an intimate act, and Homeworld Gems don’t, but it’s outside of the show’s canon that you have the “fusion = homosexuality” comparisons; it’s meant to echo and reference it, not literally be it. Is Peridot being rude? Hell yes. Some kind of ‘phobic bigot? Nah. She’s uncomfortable because, to her, Garnet represents a threat of violence; why else would someone be fused, if not to fight?
Hello Fullmetal Alchemist fandom. I’m sure you’re all partying your pants off because October 3rd is FMA day but I would like to share a story with you if I may.
I came across FMA in April of 2006 & I never imagined the impact the series would have on my life. I’m not even sure what sparked my interest in it. I just know that at that time I was extremely depressed & on the verge of making a third suicide attempt. I was 18 years old & living in an apartment alone. My dad came to visit me one day & my mom said that when he got home he started crying because all I did was sit in my chair like an empty shell of a person. Maybe I was drawn to FMA because it was a distraction at the time.
I do know that episode 8 marked a turning point.
“When I was certain he was going to kill me, my mind went blank, and I didn’t have any hope anymore. And the only thing I could do was scream my lungs out. I felt so helpless, I couldn’t even bring myself to believe someone might save me. Then you showed up, Al. And I realized that if we don’t take care of each other, then no one else will. So I’ll do anything in my power to get our bodies back, even if it means being the military’s lapdog. And we’ll just have to hope our powers are good enough to help us rise above our own limits. Cause we’re not gods. We’re humans. Tiny, insignificant humans who couldn’t even save a little girl.”
I don’t really understand why this quote changed me but it did. It was like suddenly all the storm clouds in my mind were clearing away & I could see a future that didn’t include ending my own life at some point in the near future.
My dad took notice of this & mentioned to me that he thought FMA looked interesting from the adult swim promos for it so we started watching episodes together. Or we would talk on the phone immediately after an episode aired to discuss what happened in the episode. While tinkering with some random objects in my parents garage one day I said something about some metal objects kind of looking like the buckle on one of Ed’s shirts & my dad took the pieces into his workshop & came out sometime later with the buckle that looked just like the one Ed would wear.
I decided I wanted to try to make an automail arm for cosplay & my dad wanted to help me build it. We were both so excited talking together about plans to start making it.
But then my dad got sick. Or rather, found out he was sick & had been for awhile. My daddy served in the Vietnam War. He was a medic. He would go out onto the battlefield & retrieve injured soldiers & treat them & hopefully save their lives. During the Vietnam War a herbicide called Agent Orange was sprayed aerially to destroy the vegetation the enemy used for food & cover. The side effects of the chemicals used in Agent Orange were not known until later though.
In short: The Agent Orange my daddy was exposed to had resulted in him developing bone cancer. The cancer had spread throughout his body & caused him to be in a lot of pain. But my daddy & I would still watch Fullmetal Alchemist together whenever we could. By this time I had bought the DVDs & I would take them along with my portable DVD player when I went to visit my dad when he was hospitalized & we would watch an episode or two together. I was still going through with our plans to construct the automail arm & my dad would help as much as he could in his weakened physical state. When I was ready to start painting parts of the automail I tried various methods of sanding on sample squares of the plastic & would take them to show my dad so he could tell me which one was the best so I knew to use that sanding method on the real thing.
Over these six months as my dad’s health deteriorated I realized FMA had instilled something very important in me: a logical view on death. That everything that lives has to die at some point. Nothing can live forever, everything must adhere to the cycle.
I was excited for October 3rd 2006. It was FMA day & I was looking forward to spending the day watching the anime & reading the manga even moreso than I was already doing on a daily basis. But that was before my mom called me on the evening of October 2nd saying I should go over to her house because daddy probably wasn’t going to survive the night. At this point my dad was in hospice care so he could be comfortable at home in his final days.
The night of October 2nd and morning of October 3rd were absolutely awful. The family had gathered at my mom’s house. Myself, my mom, my sister & her husband & 2 kids. We were all just in an agonizing limbo. Taking turns sitting with my dad & talking to him. But knowing that death was going to come but not knowing exactly when. At one point I went into the room by myself to talk to my dad. He was unable to speak; though earlier he had spoken his last coherent words to my mom telling her that he loved her, but I was told he could hear anything we said to him. I made sure my last words to my dad were “I love you daddy”.
A few more hours of agonizing limbo. I had started watching an FMA episode to try to distract myself temporarily. But then at 2:46am my sister came out of the room & said “Ellen, he’s gone.”
I hugged my family & then called the on-call number for my therapist office. The machine system was confusing but about 15 minutes later my therapist called my cell phone to check on me. I wasn’t crying. The death wasn’t sudden. I was able to tell my daddy goodbye. I did know I didn’t want to see his body as they took it away & my therapist thought that was fine since I already had the closure I needed.
In the days after my dad’s death it was rare for people to see me cry. This was the first time anyone close to me had died & even I wasn’t sure how I would handle it. When people asked me about it I would just say that everything that lives has to die at some point. I cried, just not around other people. My mom was concerned about this & feared I was bottling everything up & one day everything would erupt but both my therapist & physiatrist told her that I was simply taking a logical approach to death.
I also became more determined than ever to finish building the automail arm I had started with my dad. I didn’t care if I never wore it for a cosplay or to a convention but I HAD to finish it. And I did finally finish it about a month later.
At my dad’s funeral my FMA pocket watch with “Don’t forget 3.Oct.10” on the inside was passed around & I explained the significance of the date in the series to everyone. Everyone thought the October 3rd thing was a bit eerie. That one specific date.
I am aware that Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood exist but I cannot bring myself to watch it. The series in general brings back so many emotions and memories of my dad that holding back tears is impossible. I also know the manga series has ended but I refuse to read it. The series can’t end for me. I feel like if I finish the series it would put an extra finality on my dad’s death that I cannot go through. But why should I? There’s no rule that requires me to finish a series.
The association of Fullmetal Alchemist with my dad isn’t necessarily a bad thing. I’m glad I could share one last thing with my daddy.
And I can guarantee that I will never forget October 3rd.
And it’s different from a sexual kiss. It’s different from making out. It’s different, a kiss goodbye is more than that, it’s true love, the love that we saw registered on the computer at the end of season five. Jeff loves Annie. That’s different from being compatible with Annie. That’s different from understanding Annie, he loves her. With all of his heart and all of his crotch and all of his brain, he loves Annie. He’s 20 years older than her. Her life is just beginning. His life isn’t ending, but here he is at Greendale. So he has to kiss her goodbye. And she’s clearly in love with him but still searching for herself. I think she’s going from being this two-dimensional type A personality into being a woman. Full control of her faculties and she gets it. She can make these choices. You know, that’s her owning her young adulthood. And so they’re kissing goodbye for now. And they do love each other very much.
Dan Harmon (6x13 commentary)
Okay, it IS great that Dan is saying clearly that they love each other. No denying that.
But there is so much patronizing bullshit in this quote that I am angry about. For starters they’ve literally done entire episodes about how compatible J/A are, and how they understand each other startlingly well and have done since the start. They’re also not 20 years apart in age, but even if they were, so what? There’s not a power imbalance between them, unless it’s Annie with more power. The age difference is not only not a problem for them, it’s one of the things that makes them compatible. (You think any rational 40-year-old woman is going to look at the hot mess that is Jeff Winger and think, I definitely wanna invest in that guy!? As a rational 40-year-old woman I can tell you that the answer is, “Hahahaha NOPE.”) Annie’s relative youth and optimism and energy are some of the things that make her a good match for Jeff.
And by the way, Annie Edison has n e v e r been two-dimensional, and if you think of her that way it’s your own fault. She has this incredibly rich backstory and had already been through so much and overcome some crappy things when she got to Greendale. You chose to never explore any of that, dude. And if you think ANNIE FREAKING EDISON has ever not been in full control of her faculties at any point in the last six years, well, then I don’t know what to say to you. She’s been making her own choices since she was 18 and doing a pretty fucking good job.
ARGH. I love him, but I don’t think Dan Harmon will ever not frustrate me. :-)
with this whole loop thing I think Eren Kruger might be Eren Jaeger...
I think that Eren Yeager is partly reincarnated from Eren Kruger too, meanwhile I still don’t believe the time-loop or the time travelling theory…
Though, thanks to the animal fantasy books I’ve read, I’m okay with the elements about magic, interdimensional travel (not time travel to the past!) and even precognition superpower.
Perhaps both Erens have the power to see the future, and that is possible that in chapter 1, Eren Yeager was seeing future event in his dream, and that girl could be Mikasa Ackerman (I wonder if there would be another new character also called Mikasa in the coming chapters…)
I would like to quote a line from Wings of Fire (my favorite novel series!):
“I could see the future, but not just any future- all the possible futures. Do you understand what that means? I could have guided the tribe along the best path to safety and glory and power and everything else. At each crossroad, I would have known the right thing to do…They could have happened if anyone had had faith in me.” —
(Moon Rising, page 129)
It is said by a character called Darkstalker who has the power to see the future. Maybe Kruger Yeager had caught a glimpse of the future events that a boy called Armin and a girl called Mikasa are important for saving the entire Eldian race, despite Kruger had no idea who they are.
Spoilers of Snk 89 come early today, and I’m still a little bit mind-blown by the new information revealed…I’m glad that I’ve read fantasy novels like Wings of Fire which helps me to overcome the strange feelings after seeing the spoilers…
And here’s my old crossover edit of Snk and WoF~I think Mikasa’s personality is quite similar to Moonwatcher’s from WoF. Btw, Moonwatcher is also a dragon who has the abilities of mind-reading and seeing the future, and she has frequent headache problems too.
‘This is the part where you apologize to me,’ I said, getting angry. ‘You guys screwed up and this is where you make me feel better about it.’
I like to use this tactic on people. It can work. When someone is being rude, abusing their power, or not respecting you, just call them out in a really obvious way. Say, ‘I can’t understand why you are being rude because you are the concierge and this is the part of the evening where the concierge helps me.’ Act like they are an actor who has forgotten what part they are playing. It brings the attention back to them and gives you a minute to calm down so you don’t do something silly like burst into tears or break their stupid fucking glasses.
Farewell sweet earth and northern sky,
for ever blest, since here did lie
and here with lissom limbs did run
beneath the Moon, beneath the Sun,
more fair than mortal tongue can tell.
Though all to ruin fell the world
and were dissolved and backward hurled
unmade into the old abyss,
yet were its making good, for this—
the dusk, the dawn, the earth, the sea—
That Lúthien for a time should be.
One of my favorite love poems ever. Even if the universe ends and everything was for naught, because you lived it was all worth it.
Reminds me of the Nietzsche quote: “What else is love but understanding and rejoicing in the fact that another person lives, acts, and experiences otherwise than we do …?”
Even more powerful since it was probably also a poem for Edith Tolkien. :)
Regina: Thank you...You saw how quick this town was to blame me. But you, you believe I didn't cast that curse.I know that wasn't easy for you.
Emma: Sure it was. I knew you were telling the truth. R: Even though everything that has happened has put me right next to Henry? Maybe this was some super complicated, ingenious plan. E: It wasn't. My super power may not be perfect, but with you Regina, I always know when you're lying. This time you're not. You didn't do it. R: Even though you know I can't leave without him? E: There you go, telling the truth again."
If you understand real practice, then archery or other activities can be zen. If you don’t understand how to practice archery in its true sense, then even though you practice very hard, what you acquire is just technique. It won’t help you through and through. Perhaps you can hit the mark without trying, but without a bow and arrow you cannot do anything. If you understand the point of practice, then even without a bow and arrow the archery will help you. How you get that kind of power or ability is only through right practice.
these people defending klk are hilarious, i had one come at me the other day claiming that i was missing the point because i "didn't understand" what the director was trying to do and that, because utena deals with incest it was "way worse" than klk. they also said, and i quote, "that gurren lagann was feminist because even thought men have all the power in ttgl, women like yoko and nia still hold their own!" like what world are they living in
[nanami voice] liberals! anthy keeps liberals in her closet!
[miki and utena voice] anthy! how dare you, we were wrong to be your friend