do not tell me though

anonymous asked:

AkiBen/BenAki fluff? :D or maybe AkiBen angst? ( wonder what would have to happen for there to be angst between these two kotatsi dorks )

Oh there are ways of making AkiBen angst, trust me :P Maybe due to like a Strain power or something Akiyama suddenly finds himself only able to say the opposite of what he means, the problem is even Akiyama isn’t aware he got hit by the power so he’s just suddenly being an impolite jerk to everyone for no apparent reason. Benzai tries to talk to him to see if he’s okay and Akiyama snaps at him, complaining that Benzai’s always bugging him like can’t I have five minutes to myself without you fussing over me it’s so irritating. Benzai’s very hurt by that because of course he and Akiyama have always had each other’s backs and this sudden turn in personality is a complete blindside. He tries to ask what brought this on and Akiyama ends up going on a whole rant about how he always has to do everything and Benzai’s just coasting along on his coattails, like if there’s a situation Akiyama has to be the one taking charge and doing things by the book while Benzai takes advantage of that to sometimes be a bit sneakier and more underhanded and Akiyama doesn’t see why he has to be the boring straight laced one. Plus whenever anything bad happens Benzai’s always so fussy, like Akiyama’s some kid who needs to be soothed and taken care of and it’s just so annoying, Akiyama would like to be on his own sometimes instead of always having Benzai by his side. Benzai’s understandably upset and immediately takes his leave, excusing himself and probably asking one of the other alphabet boys if he can share their room for the night because he’s giving Akiyama what he wants after all, some alone time. Akiyama wakes up the next morning all alone in his room and back to normal, with his mouth tasting vaguely like profanity and horrified at himself for being so terrible to Benzai.

So of course now poor Akiyama’s all flustered and upset wondering if Benzai hates him now, like maybe he won’t even want to be with me anymore and what do I do how can I apologize and he ends up in the kitchen making a million pots of tea in order to calm himself down. Fushimi spots him and just raises an eyebrow, Akiyama gives a sheepish excuse and Fushimi’s like ‘not my problem.’ Except a minute later Benzai comes walking in saying Fushimi-san told him he was needed in the kitchen and then he just trails off when he sees Akiyama there with the tea. Akiyama stutters out Benzai’s name and Benzai immediately turns and apologizes, saying he’ll get out of Akiyama’s way. Akiyama runs forward and grabs his arm to stop him, Benzai’s a little surprised by how forceful he is. Akiyama gives this low bow and just starts with a rambling upset apology, saying he doesn’t know what came over him but he didn’t want to say any of those things, those words weren’t his at all and he’s always, always wanted Benzai there. He can’t even look at Benzai the whole time, just saying he understands if Benzai doesn’t want to see him again but he really wants to apologize because he ruined everything and made Benzai upset. He’s stopped by Benzai’s hand on his shoulder, Akiyama looks up to see Benzai giving him this fondly exasperated smile like I should have known something was wrong when you stopped speaking politely halfway through yelling at me. Akiyama starts to apologize yet again and Benzai just hugs him, breathing in the Akiyama’s scent for a moment as he pulls Akiyama close, totally relieved himself that Akiyama really didn’t just abandon him. When they finally pull away from each other they’re both smiling a bit and then Akiyama laughs sheepishly and asks Benzai if he wants some tea, Akiyama made a lot and all of it is Benzai’s favorite kind.

I stopped using the phrase “white passing” because 9 times out of 10, the person referred to is clearly “of color” and the only people that actually think that they’re white are well… white people.

It’s a bit clunkier, but I tend to just go “[x person/character] has conditional access to whiteness” because when people of color are talking about these “white passing” characters or celebrities, they are usually talking about the access to whiteness or white acceptance. 

(Obviously, this isn’t me telling y’all what to do even though I’m great at that, but like… this is how I feel and some things have been on my dash that reminded me of my feelings.)

707 thoughts

What if when Seven starts pushing you away in his route, what if when it gets really bad, you have option to run away and like Saeran captures you.

Instead of torturing you he kind of brain washes you to sort of forget the bad things Saeyoung did, not as badly as he was.

But slowly you grow to love Saeran (consensually) and the reason he brain washed you was because he didn’t want to see you hurting.

He had loved you the entire time, and seeing his brother hurt you, hurt him. So when Saeyoung comes to rescue you, I have a question.

Who do you choose?

Can someone please explain this to me bc:
  • Guns: *Cause approximately 27 deaths per day in the United States*
  • Right Wing: Banning guns will do nothing to reduce gun violence because the "bad dudes" will find ways to get them anyways!!! What is the point of banning guns?? Un-American. Unsafe.
  • Refugees: *Have literally killed no one in the US since before 1980*
  • Right Wing: We have to ban refugees because one of them could be a "bad dude" and the safety of the American citizen is more important to us than anything :)

When every social media platform you log into has Valentine’s Day DLC spoilers

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2Jae Probably 💕
  • Youngjae: "The stars are beautiful tonight.."
  • Jaebum: "Yeah."
  • Youngjae: "You know what else is beautiful?"
  • Jaebum: *Blushes* "What?"
  • Youngjae: "Coco."

i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

me watching dnp perform the internet is here at the boncas: d-dan and phil who? haha…..never heard of them……….that’s pretty embarrassing though! haha… ha ..

I hate it when people say “oh it’s just a phase” when referring to something you really like such as a band. Like excuse you? I’m not some hoe who loves something for a couple months and then completely abandons it.

everything, by design.


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So I’ve honestly had this drawing of Jonathan with his hair slicked back sitting on my computer for like a month because I had a couple other sketches that were going to go with it that I never got around to, so I said fuck it

The best part about this was that when I read the ask for the first time I could hear my dad watching Grease in the basement


random phone screencaps of Lin in Do No Harm because I love this character a lot and he deserved so much better

Things Ravenclaw's tend to do

These are the many things I find myself doing too much, so here’s a list of ravenclaw struggles.

• Procrastinate…… alot (you can’t tell me you don’t because you do. Though if you don’t TELL ME YOUR SECRET)

• Grill their slytherin friend when they are behind in work.

• Which is very hypocritical on our half.

• Make a list of things to do.

• Misplace list of things. (Happens a lot more than you think.)

•we worry too much and normally end up having panic attacks. (Cue slytherin and hufflepuff friend.)

• Make another list, with cheesey ‘you can do it’ and 'just relax you’ll be fine’ notes.

• The more work we have, the more the procrastination levels rise.

• In the end you ignore the list you remade and suffer cause you let procrastination take over.

•*insert sarcastic slytherin friend support and booting you up the butt.*

• Somehow you pull through but suffering with lack of sleep and mental capacity.

• Then get teased cause everything your college friends have said has blew right over your head so you have no idea what’s going on.

Either way your a ravenclaw and whether people like you or not, be yourself because I wouldn’t change you for the world. Everyone is different and that makes you, you.

Love looney lou xxx

Let’s face it – as fans of Korean music, there unfortunately aren’t many places we can get merch that doesn’t scream “LOOK AT ME, I LIKE KPOP.” Speaking for myself, I’d rather wear a shirt out knowing I won’t have to explain “what’s Bangtang?” to everyone I interact with that day. Not that I mind talking about my tastes, but if people who wear Maroon 5, Bruno Mars, or Adele shirts don’t have to do it, why do I have to? Hopefully, you feel the same way.

There aren’t many sites and resources selling merchandise with subtle references to the artists we love, so I created my own. At first, I only planned on buying these for myself, since I have no desire to make a profit off of these (I already have a job, I don’t need two). However, it only seems fair to share it with other ARMYs as well :)

I created a REDBUBBLE so you all, if you’d like, can have merch with subtle hints to Bangtan as well. The six above are a few of the designs already on the RedBubble account, so feel free to take a look!

Each design is available as shirts, jackets, phone cases, table/laptop cases and skins, pillows, mugs, notebooks/journals, bags, and prints/posters of different varieties. I’m willing to slightly alter designs (colors, placement) if need be, and don’t mind taking recommendations. However, I put a lot of thought into the meaning and look of each design (many of them were altered drastically, and some are graphics I never continued, so I have done a lot of reflecting on each one), so the way they are published is how I intended for them to look. I hope you’ll give my work a glance!

Thanks for reading!

RedBubble: HERE

I want to talk to my shrink RIGHT NOW! But it doesn’t work like that, it’s also like 7:00 AM on a Sunday so it REALLY doesn’t work like that, but I don’t want my thoughts to shift too much by Friday, when I do see him again.

I just want to be honest and vulnerable, specifically in terms of:

  • Am I lying to myself?
  • Have I settled? What does this mean to me? I don’t think there’s anything inherently, morally wrong with settling, but I do need to be honest with myself and understand the facts of it which is not always easy to do.
  • Are things as good as I think they are?
  • Do I actually want to be well, more than just expressing it? No judgement around it, but what are the honest facts if I am quasi for the rest of my life? Am I okay with that? Because if so, it means that I am honestly valuing weight and shape over other things. It means I am honestly supporting diet culture even if I loathe it.
  • Has a lot of my anger of late actually been defensiveness?
  • Am I advocating for eating disordered people as much as I’m striving too or am I actually advocating for their disorders? Is it one or the other?
  • Who is more in charge (me vs. the disorder)?
  • (Am I asking questions I know the answer to?)
  • What are the risks of this? What are the benefits? What are the risks and benefits of change?
  • What makes sense in my life? Regarding school, work, timing, finances, etc.?
  • What work does he see me left having to do if I were to push (really push) for a full recovery?
  • Am I going to really push or just talk about it?
  • Is it wisest to do this somewhere better equipped or is it possible to do this as an outpatient with him? Accountability seems to be the biggest piece.
  • If I completely trusted him and my dietitian, what would their steps be?

Questions are just questions, but I at least need to ask them. I want to ask them, but the biggest question is, do I want to do anything with the answers?

I feel so lost in terms of who I am and what I think. How do I trust anything?

Painty dood of Brei