do not go in my made by me tag it is depressing

I’m sorry for lagging on all the tags and not responding to some of the asks I’ve been getting. You guys are kind for keeping me in your thoughts and stuff man. I just haven’t been feeling that great recently. I don’t have anything going on in my life and I’ve fallen into depression. I’m just here existing but not really doing anything that I’d consider living. I’m lost and have no idea what I want to do. My parents are pretty incompetent when it comes to talking things out and giving me suggestions. They only bring more anxiety into my life and i wish i could leave but i have nowhere to go. I also feel like i have no marketable skills so it’s hard for me to get a job. That and no experience and motivation makes me reluctant to pick up a job in the first place. I dropped out of school because it made me feel incompetent about my own abilities and no how i have no idea what I’d study if and when i go back. Right now i don’t even have money so that’s not my main concern right now. I just haven’t been feeling well and yea man

This is strange for me because I don’t know many people or have many followers but I’m still going to do it cause it seems fun
Rules: Write 92 truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
(92 is a lot of things, so i’m following suit and adding a cut)
What was your…
Last drink: water
Last phone call: my brother 
Last text message: “sorry, I was with my friends celebrating her birthday.” 
Last song you listened to: Heart attack by 1D
Last time you cried: it’s been awhile. Maybe a month?

Have you ever…
Dated someone twice: nope. 
Been cheated on: no lol 
Kissed someone and regretted it: oh no, I’ve enjoyed all of my kisses 😏
Lost someone special: no, thankfully I haven’t 
Been depressed: it’s an on and off thing

In the past year, have you…
Made a new friend: yes! At my concert 
Fallen out of love: no, haven’t fallen in love to fall out of it 
Laughed until you cried: that’s like every day 
Met someone who changed you: very much so 
Found out who your true friends are: yes, for the better in my case 
Kissed anyone on your followers/following: nah, but I’m willing idk 
How many people from your Tumblr you know irl: none :(
Do you want to change your name: yknow I’ve thought about it but it’s too much effort 
What time did you wake up today: like 8:30
What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 😂
Name something you can’t wait for: The next time i see hqs of Harry. And anything that harry does. 
What is the one thing you wish you could change about your life: my body and my money situations 
What are you listening to right now: My brother and his wife arguing 
What’s getting on your nerves right now: nothing surprisingly

About me…
Nicknames: so many. Booty, tata bug, Kayla, boot boot, i think that’s about it 
Relationship: single as fuck 
Zodiac sign: Gemini 
Pronouns: she/her
Favourite TV shows: game of thrones, bobs burgers, are you the one, keeping up with the Kardashians and I can’t think of anymore 
school: senior in high school 
Hair colour: black 
Long or short hair: short hair 
What do you like about yourself: i enjoy that I’m a generally optimistic person. I make people laugh and I like that. I like that I get shit done when need be and I don’t take any shit from anyone no matter what.

Firsts…
First surgery ever: never had one 
First piercing: ears but that was like forced from my mom. I was like 1 years old. I do want more though 
First sport you joined: gymnastics for sure. I was pretty good at it, then I quit. 
First vacation: Disneywolrd when I was too young to remember. 
First pair of trainers/sneakers: honestly don’t know, don’t care 😂.

Right now…
Eating: i went to the Cheesecake Factory like 30 minutes ago. 
Drinking: nothing 
Listening to: my brother talk about movies 
Waiting for: LATE APRIL, EARLY MAY
Wanting kids: not. At. All. 
Career: something with photography and writing

Romantic stuff…
Lips or eyes: both 
Hugs or kisses: both 
Shorter or taller: taller, it’s not that hard 
Older or younger: older, always. 
Romantically spontaneous: yes!!! Pleeesseee I love it. 
Sensitive or loud: both 
Hook-up or relationship: right it’s looking like relationships. But I wouldn’t mind a hook-up
Troublemaker or hesitant: both

Have you ever…
Kissed a stranger: hahaha of course 
Drank hard liquor: nope. I have a feeling I might soon. 
Lost glasses or contacts: not yet! 
Been arrested: no
Turned someone down: yeah, it’s so hard for me to do cause I feel bad
Cried when someone died: yes, a lot. 
Fallen for a friend: yeah, it didn’t work out well.

Do you believe…
In yourself: depends on what we’re referring to
Miracles: yes, I do. Very much. 
Love at first sight: yeah, you could say that
Santa Claus: hell yeah. Love that man
Kiss on the first date: if it’s going really well then yes, If not then no.
@harry-writings @loveh-styles @dklastyles @weeklyfangirl @gublar @xxoicurlyxx @yrraheestyles @nxarry @nips-and-tats @never-enough-harry @sorrynotharry @trulymadlysydney @bubblecumhxrry @bunkirkharry @black-ink-rose @emulateharry @imagines-for-harry @irresistible-last-first-kiss @inkedferns @cuddlemusclestyles @cheshirepuddin @jawllines @kale-child @yrraheestyles @punkcupcakestyles

Autism Awareness Month is April, and that time sort of sucks for a lot of autistic people because Autism $peaks is terrible. So instead, I’ve decided to celebrate autism, and what better way to do that than with headcanons? Every day of this month – assuming I have the time – I’m going to draw one autistic headcanon!

Yesterday, my depression made it too hard for me to post anything, so today’s a double feature instead.

Day 11: Artemis Fowl

Artemis shows many signs of being autistic. He doesn’t understand the feelings of others, for one. He describes guilt as alien to him, because he struggles with empathy. He also infodumps a lot - about fairies, about art, about crime… Artemis has a large number of special interests and he knows a hell of a lot about every single one.

Artemis also has a very unusual manner of speaking, which isn’t just because he’s seemingly “precocious”. Finally, his default facial expression is a scowl. Or maybe he’s just bad at expressing emotion.

~Please help if you can~

Ahhhh so I can’t stand having to ask for monetary help, but this is what my life has come to.

My name is Mickey, I am a 22 year old queer depressed transboy, and up until recently I’ve been doing okay for myself without much help but my life has taken a turn this last month and now I am spiraling.

I was let go from my job literally the day before my birthday (yay.) and since then I have been applying like crazy to every job I can even ones I’d despise.

I’ve filed for unemployment, and even though I know I qualify they keep pushing back my phone interview so even though I’ve been out of work a month now I have made no money since then.

I had to take out a loan to pay my rent, and now I don’t know how I’m going to pay it back because I thought that by now I’d be at least getting unemployment checks.

I owe $300 for that loan that helped me pay October’s rent and I need to pay the full amount by November 16th, I need to figure out where I’m going to get the $400 for this month’s rent plus the money for my phone, water, internet, car insurance and electricity which my roommates have been kind enough to spot me for October but can’t afford to do so again for November.

I also will be needing money for my Zoloft and Testosterone, but honestly the way things are going once my supplies run out I may be going unmedicated for a while simply because a roof over my head is more important right now.

My paypal email is mickey.h.smith@gmail.com

Absolutely anything right now would be appreciated!! If you want, you can give me your address after you donate and I’ll make you a flower crown or a quill a personalized thank you card or write a hand written thank you letter, whatever you want!!

If you can’t donate, pleasepleaseplease signal boost! I’m in a really bad place financially and don’t know what I’m going to do about it.

Thank you so much, and if you could reblog this to get the word out I will love you forever!!!!

lmao for anons who are complaining about me being negative they sure are being negative prick wads.

like, if you really don’t wanna deal with negativity, you could always just… not read my stuff. not go on my blog. because i am an anxious mess with depression and that stuff IS gonna come up every so often. it is not my job to make people happy at all times. when i am in a good mood, i will post things that are happy. and if stuff i make makes others happy then that’s good! but it isn’t something i’m required to do.

i have personal tags for a reason so u don’t gotta deal with that stuff if you don’t want to, if it really impacts you that much i’ve made it simple for folks to block it for their own health.

As a reminder, my personal and talk tags are:

#tratser talks about stuff

#tratser replies to stuff

#depression sucks and so do i

I also try to take care in tagging mentions of abuse for blocking purposes, since I know that is definitely a topic many don’t want to see often.

Obligatory 1000 Followers Post

There’s something else I was going to do for this arbitrary milestone, but I haven’t got the stuff yet so it’s a seeeeecret. Ooooo.

To be honest, I’m just surprised you all put up with me. Thank you :)

So. Here are some cool people I follow that I think you should follow, too.
In no particular order:

senseofaspark

brbcheckingmyprivilege

anti-feminism-pro-equality

anti-feminism-pro-ratties

anti-feminism-pro-cats

that1guykaiser

loreweaver

ctrlgeek

gentlemanscientistforhire

rapeandpillagethefucktards

theintjcapricorn

saturniandevil

call-me-douchebag

johnnysjetpack

i-follow-idiots-like-you

roxxi-rocks-socks

goddessof-war

insertsjwcraphere

ohh-balls

dusklunae

jessicafreakingrabbit

paradisemantis

doctorspiper

misstwiztidmuffin

jetpack-johnny

berniecrane

teslacarter

winterhacktavist

vikingalitarian

kweyolempress

skepticalhat

poeticmxnster

jkphilosogamer

azgrimm

havanagilahava

kingwilliamv

punk-flamingos

sobertoilet

blackan08

alaija

wookmuff

meep-the-egalitarian-simmer

theatregreek

deaf-blind

demolishfatacceptance

badbitchesandbigmacs

fitness-fits-me

theclockworkcrow

sometactlesscunt

modestverbosity

the-pete-riarchy

jaythedukeofduwang

thebastardofcasterlyrock

thistooshallpassagain

flynnlives09

minority-privilege

half-ciggarette

sweet-dreams-are-made-of-my-dick

penguin-patronus

whittneydoll

stacevengeance

anime-and-fitness

dismembered-dreams

zerotide

justvladethings

kibosh-josh-mahgosh

livedbody

pro-bees-anti-feminism

ifihadanocelot

mcsnezspicedlatte

brbcheckingmyprivilege

most-depressed-optimist

moreprivilegedthanyou

tabbitcha

thegreygamer

fireb0y

the-darkest-of-souls

illustrativesynapses

fangirl0013

renegadebusiness

the-little-douche-bag

jesskorn6966

rapidashtodatass

bellatrlxx

soshigay

kazeself

breathingfireonsnowflakes

giggles-at-funerals

pradictable

anti-feminist-rayquaza

egalitarianmiafey

matt-ruins-feminisms-shit

 dimittas

I am 100000% sure I’ve missed people so if you think I have, let me know.

Also, this is the first time I’ve done one of these. It’s in no particular order, and fuck your alphabetising standards.

Love you all :) xo