do not even try to dent it

It is just after one in the morning and I wake up at five every day, so tonight is sponsored by “oohhh you’re gonna regret thisss,” but friends.  That episode.  Was.  Off.  The.  Charts.

A condensed list of things I loved, in no particular order:

  1. Kara’s smile when the team trains with her.
  2. Oliver’s insistence that the team keep trying to defeat Kara even when they’re clearly failing miserably and haven’t even made a dent.
  3. Dig throwing up and Oliver coming within an inch of doing the same after Barry Flashes them away.
  4. Felicity asking Dig and Ollie if they’re even sure they found their bad guy shortly before Barry spirits them away.
  5. “I was getting ready to make my move!”  “What move?  The one to the morgue?”  Argument after Barry saves Oliver’s ass.
  6. Old Barry returneth!  Stoked to hear the full message.  Poor guy needs to take a break he sounds so much older than 67.  Take a nap.  Adopt a dog.  Do something nice for yourself, Old Bar.  You deserve happiness, too.
  7. Kara bouncing around naming everyone and filing away their secret identities.
  8. Mick’s “Heat Wave” story and Kara’s reaction.
  9. The “Skirts” nickname immediately collapsing to “Supergirl!” in an actual crisis.
  10. Oliver Queen standing up for Barry repeatedly.
  11. Like when he refused to go in the field without Barry.
  12. And the fact that he nominated Barry to be their leader.  When arguably, Barry is one of the youngest, least experienced people in the room (Cisco and Kara are the only two that jump to mind as potentially younger; Cisco for sure, Kara not sure).
  13. Because he still believes in Barry.  1000%.
  14. Let’s not forget his encouraging little hints when Barry is making his first “leader speech.”  (Kara … training …)
  15. Sara Lance pointing out said encouragements what a gift.
  16. Thea tagging along for sibling saving the world shenanigans and Felicity pointing out how absurdly dangerous it is.
  17. “BEST.  TEAM UP.  EVER.”
  18. Wally West being the greatest ever and finally having an opportunity to shine!  That move where he took down Thea, Sara, and Dig was awesome.  Reminded me of something we’ve only seen from Reverse or Zoom to date.  Really cool to see a good guy using the same trick!
  19. Barry vs. the super half of the Legends of Superflarrow Team and Oliver vs. the fully human half.  Really enjoyed it.
  20. One of my favorite moments was definitely “WE END UP UP THE CREEK.”
  21. “Yahtzee!”
  22. Barry finally learned what happened to Leonard Snart and god the music alone in that scene tugged on the heartstrings.
  23. Also everyone catching up with everyone else!!  I love that Legends of Superflarrow is on the same page now.
  24. The Kara vs. Barry fight was amazing.  Loved the laser strike that pretty much almost annihilated Barry.  Definitely my favorite special effects moment, and there were plenty to choose from!
  25. Barry going up to the alien spaceship and getting promptly wildebeest trampled by them as they break out.
  26. The subdued “Oh, come on” reaction.  Just another day in Central City, huh?
  27. Dude that time vault scene was EVERYTHING to me.  Oliver standing up for Barry was the highlight of this episode.  It was so unexpected and absolutely fantastic.  It’s been Barry vs. everyone else all season, so it was incredibly refreshing to see someone – especially Oliver, especially Oliver – stand up for him.  Defend him.  I loved that speech.  And hearing Oliver open up to Barry about his parents’ deaths was really raw.  He really, really, really trusts Barry.  He loves Barry.  That’s why he sticks with him.
  28. And hey, end of the day?  One of the most heartbreaking moments was Barry running after Oliver when the alien light came down on him.  He was so desperate to get to him.  And so close.  But he just wasn’t fast enough.  The panic and despair in his eyes after was incredible.  For me that was the most emotionally charged moment of Season 3.

The idea for this came during au week and I also wanted to write something for @kickassfu‘s bday a month ago now and holy writer’s block batman.

I quickly realized this could be 10k+ words, so made an attempt to keep this short, telling the tale in brief, loosely-connected scenes. Unbetad and barely read through so i can just freaking post. Let me know what you think. Mostly AU, as I don’t watch the show now.

Caroline forgets on a Thursday.

The tendrils of sleep feel like they’re clinging to her more strongly than usual, and she scrubs a hand across her face. What is it she’s supposed to do today? She yawns, stretching her arms out, mind racing and trying to grasp on anything and failing. What is she even doing here? She looks at her surroundings - a hotel room, the air conditioner whispering quietly in the corner, the bed soft and plush - somewhere expensive then. She’s alone, no dent in the pillow next to her, which somehow surprises her. OK. Phone? Phone. She picks it up from the end table and swipes it, breathing a sigh of relief when her thumbprint unlocks.

Opening up her recent calls there’s an incoming call from someone named Cam  the day before, as well as a call to a Bonnie, who has ICE next to her name, made three weeks prior. Ok. Not as much information as she had hoped. She opens the messages, finding a similar state. A lot of recent texts with whoever this Cam is, including a rather final sounding ‘Do not contact me again’. Pissed off, she presses call. Clearly Cam is a lost cause, but maybe he? she? can tell her some basic details.

“I told you not to call me ever again.” The voice sounds nervous, almost afraid.

“Yeah well I woke up in a hotel room with no idea who the hell I am or why, so thought maybe you could bend the rules, Cam.” Caroline spits out his name like a curse - she’s scrolling through past messages from him, catching some fervent ‘I love yous’ and heart emojis. How quickly love fades.

She hears a sigh on the other end, then an awkward pause before Cam speaks again. “I am sorry, Caroline. I love you, but I cannot. Talk to Bonnie, your friend.  She will help.” The line goes dead.


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i would like to think fleamont invented sleekeazy’s purely by accident. like he’s messing around in his lab because he’s a wizard and that’s what they do. and the cauldron just explodes. again. fourth one this month. and euphemia rushes in with her do-i-even-want-to-know-what-you-up-to-now expression but she stands there, mouth agape. not because the cauldron made a large dent in the plaster or because he’s flecked with purple sludge but because his hair is flat. FLAT for the first time in the ten years they’ve been married. he spends two years trying to recreate wtf he did and another five tweaking it to make it marketable.


I love Finally in Love, it’s a really good game.  I love the stories, I love the MC I love the music “la-la-la-laa-la-la-la-la-laaa”, I love the characters and I really love Aki.  Like, REALLY love Aki and I started this doll of him last year then never finished it.  In an attempt to get over my funk I thought I’d try and finish him.  I cannot even begin to tell you how much I think is wrong with him.  To the point where I’m not actually sure if I like him now OR if he even looks like him.  In particular there is this weird dent thing going on in his face and I cannot get it out.  I’M SO SORRY AKI!  I LOVE YOU I REALLY DO!

Little Dolly Aki was staring at the plate before him, a conflicted look on his little dolly face.  “What’s wrong?”  the Dolly Maker asked.

“N-nothing.”  Dolly Aki tried to smile and poked the offending item with his little dolly fork.  The look of distain still there.  Looking around and making sure that the Dolly Maker wasn’t looking little Dolly Aki quickly threw the mushroom into a nearby plant, “Mmm.  Yummy!” he said in a very hollow voice, “I love mushrooms.”  He called out patting his little dolly tummy.

Emergency Commission!! PLEASE I NEED YOUR HELP!!

so my laptop was about to fall right (its a mac) and usually i just let it fall cause usually it doesnt even get a dent. BUT FUCK ME, the one time i do try to save my laptop, i grab the screen and i hear a crunch sound as if something just got crushed. and at that moment i was like, fuck why did i do that.

So yeah, please, ill draw you guys anything. I’ll take any price, i will literally take anything. I’ll draw anything. humans, cats, dogs, dragons, hybrids, etc.

i just got my paycheck the other day as well as my refund but im still like 200 short… for fuck sakes, fuck me.

im having a panic attack, because i do all my school work and most of my art on my laptop. i still have my desktop which i use paint tool sai on, so ill be using that to draw the commission for you guys.

Anything even a penny will help. thanks

your finger is calloused
from the feel of a quick release trigger,
it crooks against your thigh,
a reflexive motion.

you still awaken in the middle of the night,
crouched in the corner and the whine
of grenades making your heart roar-

(you laugh in the grocery store
and try to let go of the piteous stare
they herald you with)

you’re a burial ground
of human bones and grief and loss,
you and they are no longer separate people;
you are brother and friend and son and lover;
you’re something more.

you’re a bag of nightmares and memories,
half eaten military rations and dented helmets,
you carry their dog tags in your pockets,
their memories tucked beneath
your ribs.

even the happy memories
do not seem as fun
as you begin to list the names
of the men;

gosh, you wonder when they simply became
names on a memorial wall
and bodies in the ground
rather than those you laughed-

pieces of you,
frail and made from wavering glass,
shatter a little more when you receive
news upon them.

these men will always need you,
just as you will always need them.

—  soldier, my brother | k.e

So, I heard that someone has a beef with me and that the deletion of my blog was a “warning”.

Who on earth has so much energy to spend over another human being (who they don’t even know) that instead of using it all on something useful like on their own personal development they use it to report my account on false claims to get it deleted and cause harm to me?

If that is what happened for real, I have news for that person: deletion of my blog was more of an annoyance than anything else. I created a new blog immediately and I will keep on creating new ones as many times as needed. If they block my ip, well I’ll just come back with vpn. Nothing you do here to annoy me will keep me away because I won’t let anyone to bully me like that. You can’t win that fight if you try that with me.

You need to get really close to me in my private life to even have a dent on me. I challenge you to come to Finland and infiltrate to my small family. No, I dare you to do that. Nothing I do or say online is a secret anymore, I have told my hubby I’m here and all of my close family members know I’m neck deep in the deep end on Hiddleston. Even my clients know that I’m running the news blog, I even state it on my own website and ask them to take a look.

If my blog gets deleted it’s not the end of my world. Now that I know it can happen I have copied the html code of the few posts I’m very proud of to Evernote. Those posts were the only thing that stinged with the deletion, nothing else. Even the news site would go on if it got deleted on tumblr because I have it as a separate site outside tumblr.

What did I do to piss you off? Did I have an opinion that was different from yours? Propably yes. Did I try to diminish your opinions to something that isn’t as good as mine? Definitely not. But if you think I did, then honey, you have some kind of problem with understanding written text. I have always said that I respect the opinions of others even though they might not align with mine. I might not agree with you and guess what: we don’t have to. We don’t have to see eye to eye on anything and I have no problem with that.

If you have a problem with it, then it’s your problem, not mine, and you should do something about it. Like stay away from my blog and not let me (someone who’s most likely on the other side of the globe and totally meaningless in your daily life) take so much space in your personal agenda and daily life. Your personal agenda should concentrate on making your life as good for you as possible. Causing harm or annoyance to others might bring you momentary satisfaction but it won’t last because you really gain nothing from it. It won’t take you forward in your life or it won’t create new opportunities for you or it won’t develop you into anything new. It just keeps you stuck on hate and negativity and you’ll be stuck as long as you can’t see that. Negativity only creates more negativity, it never creates positivity.

Please see that you are capable of so much more than just causing problems to others. You have the ability to do whatever you want to do in your life, you alone hold the keys into a meaningful and positive, prosperous life. You should concentrate all your energy on that, it will give you so much more satisfaction than causing harm to someone else can ever give.

Spend up books

Ok I decided this year to attempt a kind of challenge that I find most impossible to achieve. So much so that I’d be ok even with achieving a small dent into it, but if I don’t start I’m sure I’ll never accomplish it. and if I don’t finish it this year I could attempt to finish it next year.

Anyway, what I want to do is to read all the unread books in my bookshelves.

I will try to not buy new ones before ‘spending up’ those I’ve already have but I already know that that’s impossible, so I’ll be trying to at least keep the purchases to a minimum. 

It is quite manageable, I counted them and they are around 40, 4 or 5 of which I really have no interest whatsoever in reading so I may just give them away and I already know that I read about 30/35 books per year (thanks to goodreads) so I could actually manage it.

who knows. let’s see where I get with this resolution/challenge…..