do not be an imitation of someone else

So Anti’s back. Time to hyperfocus

Today’s episode of Hyperfocus is on what Anti says.

So for any of you who are extremely confused (I was too until I did some hardcore searching), Anti made his grand return in the intro for Jack’s PAX East panel. The reason you may be seeing so many phone- recorded videos is because Jack told people to record it on their phones. But… Was it Jack?

We’ll get to that in a minute.

First, let’s start with Anti’s first words, a voiceover on nothing. Did you miss me?” 

Sound familiar? Oh, yeah.

Dark said it when he came back. I’m willing to bet Anti got similar reactions. I, at least, reacted the same way for both: a little flailing, a little fangirling, and repeating, “Yes, yes I did.”

Next: 

“Look at you all just sitting there, you all thought I was gone. Not worrying about anything. You all thought I was gone, but I’ve been here this entire time, keeping an eye on things.”

Anti, like Dark, wants us to pay attention. The difference here is that while Dark feeds off our attention and needs it (see: “You just need to let me in”), Anti simply craves the attention. As soon as the spotlight was off of him, he got jealous. He lashed out, because he wants to be seen again.

And when he says “I’ve been here this entire time,” that goes along with a lot of theories centered around the idea that Anti really did get rid of Jack on Halloween, and that Anti has just been pretending this entire time. Every glitch and Anti sighting between then and now has been Jack trying to get our attention.

Anti insults us. “Look at you all just sitting there.” He makes us feel at fault. He says we should have been worried. Flashback to Halloween, when he says “This is your fault.” He blames us. 

But he’s been here the entire time, which leads me back to what I said above about Jack telling us to record with our phones. Was it Jack? My theory is, no. If Anti claims to have been here this entire time, there has not been a single moment that it has been Jack since before Halloween. 

Moreover, I think Anti wanted a record of his reappearance, but in a chaotic way. This wasn’t in a video uploaded to Jack’s channel, it was an intro to a live event. Multiple people record this on their phones and share it on Tumblr, and the entire fandom is thrown into confusion and chaos.

Yeah, I’m pretty sure it was Anti.

“You stopped paying attention. Well, I hope you’re happy. You’ve found someone new. You threw me aside. Someone to replace me.”

Again, Dark.

I wanted Dark and Anti to get along, but this right here makes me think that if they ever did meet, it would not be good.

Dark said he’d been “Pushed aside, replaced, mocked.” Most people agree that he was referring to Anti here. Anti had been getting most of the attention, and Dark was a little mad about it. But when Dark got to us, when we let him in on Valentine’s, it satiated his need for attention. He believed that he wouldn’t have to deal with Anti anymore, because he came back.

Anti, on the other hand, not only said “Betrayal, neglect, mistake,” he also said this very cryptic little phrase: “cheap imitator.” 

Most people, again, agree that after Dark came back, Anti got jealous once again. But instead of saying he’d been pushed aside, replaced, and mocked, he’d been betrayed and neglected. By us. He believes that by even looking at Dark, we’ve betrayed and neglected him. He calls Dark a mistake, and a cheap imitator. Not good.

But then this. “You’ve found someone new. You threw me aside. Someone to replace me.”

Again, the only thing I could imagine he is talking about is Dark. We turned to Dark, and Anti is not happy.

“I’m not going anywhere. I’m always there, always watching. You can’t get rid of me.”

This goes back to above, where Anti says he’s always been there. Not much else to say about this, other than he’s always watching.

He sees everything we do. How we react to him, how we react to Dark. He sees every little headcanon we cook up. And he really doesn’t care what we say. Like Fall Out Boy said, “I don’t care what you think as long as it’s about me.”

Here’s a big difference between Anti and Dark. Dark needs us to trust him and even like him for his plans to play out. Anti, on the other hand, just wants us to watch. He doesn’t care about controlling us, because he believes he can do anything on his own. We can’t get rid of him. When he says that, he shows that he truly doesn’t care what we think as long as we pay more attention to him than Dark.

Enjoy the show.”

The first thing that popped into my head was Mark’s Raspy Hill video, which was arguably an early Darkiplier appearance. Although it isn’t canonical or acknowledged by Mark, we all kind of understand it to be Dark. (Sidenote, even back then, before Dark had concrete characteristics, we can still see him trying to make us trust him. More on that if you want it. Hmu.) In that video, Dark says, “Enjoy your stay.”

Enjoy is the key word here. I don’t think either Dark or Anti truly meant that they want us to enjoy in the common sense of the word. They meant to pay attention, and don’t try to leave. No matter what, the show is going to be worth watching.

Edit: I’ve been reminded of Natewantstobattle’s Sister Location song “Enjoy the Show” featuring Jack and HOW COULD I FORGET. And, yeah, maybe Anti threw that little reference in there for kicks and giggles. Anti likes showing up in horror games, doesn’t he? I highly doubt that Anti was making direct reference to Dark, and it’s entirely possible that he was referencing the song “Enjoy the Show,” but at this point it’s impossible to separate Anti and Dark completely. There is undeniable interaction between the two.

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Oh, and the sliced neck? Yeah, kind of confirms that Jack is gone. Anti has been in control since Halloween. 

And the gauges? Most likely a canonical character trait. Makes Anti edgier.

The Mimics

Mimic- The Oxford Dictionary:  Imitate (someone or their actions or words), especially in order to entertain or ridicule.

Both Gemini and Pisces, the chameleons of the zodiac, have a very peculiar but humorous way of entertaining those around them with impersonations and impressions, often being able to morph into something or someone else entirely. It can be especially funny when they do so in a sardonic manner, emphasising the idiosyncrasies of the people around them much like a distorted caricature. There is a definite trickster energy to both of these signs, where making people laugh around them fuels them in a way, encourages them on. Their shifts in personality allow them to have many fields of experience, but also bring great laughter into the world.

SO LET’S TALK “WHO’S THE TRAITOR” SOME MORE

If you’ve never read my initial theory post, please do yourself a favor and check that shit out. It is a foundation for the theory that, regrettably, was missing a lot of information that I wasn’t able to get to until I was able to do a reread of the series, plus I wanted to wait for the series to develop a little further. The original post was made right after “Deku vs Kacchan 2” was released, so we’ve had about 30 chapters of development. You might be wondering how on earth 3k words isn’t enough to make my point the first time, but here I am yet again! 

I might sound crazy, but believe me when I say… I am the MOST serious. 

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Wakandan Adventures (2/13)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Words: 3,042 

Summary: Bucky is bored and decides Y/N is the best way to solve that problem. 

Warnings: all fluff and stuff. 

A/N: Thank you for the amazing response to the first part, here is part 2! This one was inspired by Sebastian’s interview with James Cordon last year! Hope you enjoy, feedback is greatly appreciated. Also if you would like to be tagged, just send me an ask/message! 

Tags: @flightofthefantasies  @ipaintmelodies @gondorgirl01  @bucky-on-a-bike  @jarnesbrnes @pickledmoon @moody-fangirl  @ladybrett9 @supernatural-harrypotter7 @i-saved-me @widowsfics @canumoveyourseatup-no @the-witching-hours12-3 @douleu-passion


Bucky was sitting beside you in an office chair, spinning around in sheer boredom. He was trying his best to gain your attention, but didn’t want to speak, so instead he only let out a deep sigh now and then, hoping it would get you to pay him just a little attention. His boredom was taking a toll on him, so he grabbed a pencil, throwing it in the air and catching it again to entertain himself. That didn’t last long. 

“Y/N” he called out, you didn’t react.

“Y/N”

Still no reaction. He let out a deep sigh and slammed the pencil down at the desk hard enough so it would startle you. He was sure to get a reaction out of you and even smiled a bit, but to his dismay, you didn’t even flinch, only continued with your work as if nothing was going on beside you.

“Y/N” he dragged out your name this time and had even gone so far as to start whining. James Buchanan Barnes, the former Winter Soldier was whining.

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Sun x Moon Life Mottos 1/3
  • Aries Sun, Scorpio Moon: "You can’t just sit there and wait for people to give you that golden dream. You’ve got to get out there and make it happen for yourself."
  • Taurus Sun, Leo Moon: "Don't treat others the same way as you don't like to be treated."
  • Gemini Sun, Aries Moon: "Go parallel. Support others because there's room for all of us at the top. If you're lonely and at the top, you're on the wrong top."
  • Cancer Sun, Aquarius Moon: "May the space between where I am and where I want to be inspire me."
  • Leo Sun, Sagittarius Moon: "We cannot tear out a single page of our life, but we can throw the whole book in the fire."
  • Virgo Sun, Taurus Moon: "A word after a word after a word is power. Turn soft and lovely any time you have the chance."
  • Libra Sun, Gemini Moon: "By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest."
  • Scorpio Sun, Aries Moon: "Everyday is a chance to be a better version of yourself."
  • Sagittarius Sun, Aquarius Moon: "Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are."
  • Capricorn Sun, Leo Moon: "I try not to be hard on myself, but if I'm not doing my very best- I will never be pleased with the result."
  • Aquarius Sun, Libra Moon: "Each and every person is focusing solely on their self as they walk down the street, don't worry about how they look at you, worry about how you're looking at them."
  • Pisces Sun, Scorpio Moon: "Kindness is the key to fulfillment for yourself and others, unless someone decides to harm you. In that case when you decide to destroy them everyone knows it was justified."
liebesleid (m) · one

ongoing miniseries |  request: reincarnation au with yoongi.
(—or a story of perpetual unrequited love.)

pairing: yoongi | reader
genre: a lot of angst and drama with a sprinkle of smut.
word count: 7.313
warnings: alcohol mention.
author’s note: a thousand thanks to @lthyl for helping me with the outline, you have the patience of a saint :’D ILY 

⇢ chapters: one | two


Chapter one: dolente.

The same melody repeats itself every dawn.

It is one of those casualties of life you want to deem insignificant, even if it has been going on for years now. Every time you find yourself in that narrow space between dormant and conscious, you can hear the sound of a piano with a clearness that’s almost eerie — as if someone’s caressing the black and white keys right next to your ear, producing a song that resonates in your chest and makes your throat constrict in ways you cannot understand.

It’s a melody you’ve loved ever since day one. It stays deep in your heart even if it keeps repeating itself to the point of annoyance, echoes against the corners of your mind and makes the hairs on the back of your neck stand. It is as familiar as the voice of your mother, as the cool sheets of your bed and the warmth of the shower that prickles at your skin.

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Eldarya Selfie Date: April 27!

Okay, as everyone knows, Eldarya Selfie Day was going to happen at the 15th of March but because of many problems with porn blogs taking advanage of people´s pictures it was delayed, but now that it was found out a way to counter-atack it, we can finally do it!!! \o/

I shall explain the rules of Eldarya Selfie Day!

  • You have to take the selfie of yourself while using something related to your Guardienne´s powers.
  • For example, my Guardienne´s powers has roses invloved so I will take a selfie of myself with a rose ^^
  • In case of mermaids, taking with sea objects- real or not- is a way too!!!
  • And it goes on. It can be something simple, not complicated at all. :D
  • It doesn´t have to be in specific your Guardienne´s power! It can be some physical trait if you do not think of something else :D
  • It can also be something that both ofyou like! For examply music or reading! Pick up a book or earphones and take a selfie with it ^^
  • Guys,let your imagination go wild here!
  • If you are someone who is an expert on make-up or doing hair styles, try to imitate your Guardienne´s hair style and/or make-up!! It´s up to you!! :D

PS: YOU DO NOT NEED TO DO THIS IF YOU DON´T WANT TO! YOU CAN STILL PARTICIPATE BY TAKING A SELFIE OF YOURSELF! THIS ONLY AN IDEA TO SPICE THINGS UP IF YOU WANT!! :D

Now, some more things I need to talk about it. THE TAGS!!! There will be 2 of them: #eldaryaselfieday and #eldaryaselfieday2k17. This way it becomes less messy ^^

Another important thing: If you aren´t aware of what you can do if a porn boot tries to use your photo, please, go HERE! This way, everyone will stay out of danger if we all are carefull of it ^^

Well, that´s it! I will keep reblogging this post once per week until the day comes so that everyone can see it. Please, do reblog this post in order to reach as many people as possible :D

Can´t wait~

Astro Reaction: to you fangirling over them

MJ (Myungjun) :

Originally posted by papajinjin

He’d come home becoming immediately confused, usually you’d come running to the door to hug him but today you hadn’t. That’s when he would hear some music coming from the living room. He would enter confused but chuckle as soon as he saw you. You would be dancing to one of Astro’s songs, often making comments about how great of a person he was - beautiful, caring, and adorable. You wouldn’t notice him until he came up next you to and started doing the same, that’s when you’d get embarrassed and begin thinking of an excuse but he would just peck your lips, silencing all your words.

                                     

Jinjin (Jinwoo):

Originally posted by astrodaily

He would have already known that you were a big fan of his. He’d heard you singing in the shower to their songs and noticed how excited and happy you got whenever they released new music or preformed. It made him glad that you enjoyed their music and appreciated their hard work. He wouldn’t tease you if you ever ended up fangirling in front of him, he’d just watch you smiling and laughing and maybe sneak in some pictures because you were just too cute.

 

Eunwoo (Dongmin) :

Originally posted by chailatteu

At first you were embarrassed to show this side of you to him. Although he had known that you were always a fan, he had never seen you act super excited. That’s because you would always reel in any outbursts you felt.  However one day he would come to see you as a surprise and find you watching a fancam of him dancing, making comments on how great he was and how much he had improved. He wouldn’t be shocked by this but be thankful, that you were one of his biggest supporters. He’d definitely give you a back hug and tell you to show him that side of you more often.  

 

Moonbin:

Originally posted by astrodaily

He’d fangirl with you, over himself and even the other members, you could not stop him. Sometimes you two would be doing your own thing and just to annoy you he would fangirl over what you were doing ‘Oh My Gosh! She holds the pen so well!!!’ When he does you’d hit him on the arm, he’d accept it and move on. But honestly you would never feel weird about fangirling in front of him he accepted it – accepted you entirely.


Rocky (Minhyuk) :

Originally posted by angstro

He loves seeing you fangirling. Whenever you fangirled he would instantly smile because to him it was a kind of compliment. Whenever you squealed watching him dance or recorded his shows just to watch him preform, they were all loving acts he really appreciated. Although he may get embarrassed if you were to do it in front of someone else, he would never get embarrassed of the action itself. He loved it and you too much.

 

Sanha:

Originally posted by mxnbin

This child would one hundred percent begin imitating you. Not to annoy you or make you mad, but because inside he was really happy that you were such a big fan. If you ever made any comment or action that even slightly implied ‘fangirling’ he would immediately copy you, raising his voice up a pitch and exaggerating his actions. At first it annoyed you a little, but after a while you realised he just did it because of his love for you. If you ever fangirl over something or someone else though, watch out.

Guardian Angel - Lee Daehwi Requested Scenario

who is this for? @aghoese

Word Count: Are You Serious

Genre: FLUFF

Message?: I love Daehwi sm i stg

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BEEP BEEP. BEEP BEEP.

My alarm. 6:30am. Monday. Another start of a week of hell.

I used to enjoy school, every moment of it. My friends, the teachers, okay some of the classes were a bit boring, but I did okay in them. And then, for some unknown reason, all my friends were gone; turned against me. I started failing class and anxiety flared up.

I guess it’s not that bad, it could be physical bullying, which it’s not. Just verbal but to me that hurts just as much. I don’t have much mental strength anymore, I don’t know what to do.

I forced myself up and got ready for school, leaving the house at 7:45 just like I always do for bell to go at 8:25.

I felt scared every corner I turned, like someone was going to be there, ready to taunt me.

I turned the final corner; through the school gates.

I felt my cheeks heat up as I heard them approaching behind me. It’s okay. Keep cool. They’re fine. They’re not going to hurt you.

But today they had other plans in mind as Mina, my ex-best friend, shoved me down, scraping my knee.

It’s just a little scrape Y/N, you can do this. I looked around, seeing if Mina had gone when I made eyecontact with Lee Daehwi. Mina’s crush. Fuck. Shit. I adverted my eyes as quick as I could, trying to ignore the sympathetic look in his eyes.

A few hours later, three periods had gone by. Lunch, two more periods and then we were out of there, it was over for Monday. But that’s not what Mina and her gang had planned. See I was stood at my locker, but my locker was placed in the most convenient place for Mina. Hidden under the stairs. So as I was putting away my books, someone tapped on my shoulder, making me turn round when Wonho, Mina’s friend slapped me hard round the face.

I gasped at the impact of his hand, gripping my cheek. It had never been like this before. I looked around, there was no where that I could escape. As I looked around I felt a panicky sensation rising in my chest, my breathing getting faster and my hands getting shakier. Oh no, god no. Not a panic attack. Not now.

“That was new wasn’t it?” Wonho taunted.

I opened my mouth but nothing came out.

Wonho imitated me by opening and closing his mouth several times.

“Can’t do anything now, can you Y/N?”

I felt my breath getting faster and faster as I saw him raise his fist and heard the bell go for end of lunch.

I winced away, expecting the impact of the hit to affect me but instead heard someone else groaning in front of me and Wonho gasping

I opened my eyes and saw Lee Daehwi in front of me.

“Hold my hand,” he said, giving me his hand.

I looked at him for a second before taking his hand as he shoved Wonho out the way and took me into the ‘recovery room’, usually occupied by people with learning difficulties but empty because of 4th period. As soon as we walked in, my shaking legs made me fall straight to the floor, Daehwi came and sat down in front of me.

“Are you okay? Y/N. Are you okay? Look at me, breath, it’s okay,” Daehwi said, trying to calm my panic attack.

I tightened my grip on his hand, needing something to squeeze.

“Sorry,” I breathed.

Daehwi shook his head, “it’s fine.”

“Your eye,” I said, trying to breath deeply.

“Don’t worry about it,” he said, touching his eye, checking for blood. “Just breath, please. I want you to calm down.”

I took deep breaths and Daehwi did it with me.

“I’m sorry, I don’t actually know how to deal with panic attacks,” he said, scratching his neck with his free hand.

I smiled and waved my hand, couldn’t talk before I was breathing. But when I felt calmed again I turned to him and said, “just you being there is cool.”

He grinned widely.

“But now I can worry about you,” I said. “Shouldn’t you be in lesson, what will your teacher say?! You’ll get in trouble! And your eye! It’s bleeding just underneath! I’ll get a paper towel!”

Daehwi smiled at me from where he was sat as I went and got a paper towel, running it under the tap.

When I walked back over I whispered ‘sorry’ before holding it against the grazed bruise on his eye.

“You know your cheek doesn’t look that nice either,” he commented.

I thought back to the time I was slapped by Wonho, that seemed like a lifetime ago, given what had happened since then.

I held my hand up to my cheek, “It’s never been like that before,” I told Daehwi.

He nodded, looking at me with that same look from this morning.

“It really scared me,” I whispered. “I thought I was gonna get seriously hurt.”

“You wouldn’t have with me there, okay?”

I smiled, “but.. why?”

“Why did I do it? Why you? Why me?”

“All of the above.”

He chuckled, “because you caught my eye around school. Then when I saw them push you over this morning, I had no idea. I thought I was so stupid for not realising that you were hurting. And I vowed that I would protect you.”

I smiled, my eyes filling with tears, “my guardian angel.”

He smiled and nodded, letting me fall into his arms, “Exactly that. Your guardian angel.”

anonymous asked:

"If you want to use a hero or role model as a source of inspiration for your personal growth, you should NOT do so by trying to imitate them." By imitate do you mean e.g. watching your role model attempting something courageously and you finding the courage to overcome problems in your life as well?

No. Inspiration usually involves seeing someone do something you believed was unlikely or not within the realm of possibility and then that can catalyze you to do something in your life that you previously thought was impossible or unimportant. Reflecting on your feeling of being inspired teaches you about how you see yourself, it can reveal the unnecessary limitations in your thinking so that you can improve and become a better person - this process has little to do with the role model, that person was just the spark that opened your eyes to look at yourself more carefully and honestly.

By contrast, “imitation” means just mindlessly aping another person because you want to be them and possess the “glory” or “admiration” that they achieved. Imitation is often driven by unconscious issues like envy or self-loathing, where you want to be something else because you feel that you are nothing, deficient, or inadequate, so you try to fill that inner void with something foreign and external, thus denying the true self. For some, imitation can manifest as constant social comparison, where your self-image and self-esteem are largely determined by your status in relation to the people around you, either feeling inferior or superior depending on the comparison, so everything you do is about being better or not worse than someone else, which means you are likely to be wasting time, energy, and resources that could otherwise be directed to fruitful self-development. For some, imitation can manifest as constructing an “ideal” that you try to live up to based on the qualities that you believe can get approval, admiration, or recognition, but that ideal is not who you really are, rather, you are only forcing yourself into that image so that you can get a comforting ego “reward” to compensate for the lack of real self-knowledge. This is like admiring someone else’s shoes so much that you steal them and force them onto your feet even though they don’t fit, it will result in lifelong pain and deformed feet but you take solace in people occasionally commenting on how nice your shoes look.

And another theory about autism.

Listen, so I’ve got a new theory on another factor that could contribute to the reason why autistic people have difficulties with socializing!

Autistic people have a different approach to learning/memorizing new information than most neurotypical people. We tend to be “hands-on”, meaning that no matter what we’re currently learning, we have to do something with it. In order to learn how to tie shoelaces for example, we might need countless repetitions of the actions done by ourselves while other people learn through observation. Other people just watch a few times how someone ties their shoe, they try to imitate the movement they see. But we, in contrast, tend to discover our own way of doing it because we are not good at picking up skills just like that.
If we learn a new information, we have to write/talk with our own words about it or maybe create something else out of it so we can keep it in mind.

When it comes to explaining why people follow social norms in the first place, the theory with the most supporting evidence suggests that norms are internalized by everyone during the process of socialization.
The theory offers plausible explanations for why people follow rules even when they know disobedience would be a wiser decision and many other examples in which following a norm brings more pain than gain.

The thing is, because autistic people learn in different ways, we might not be as good when it comes to learning about social norms as neurotypicals. We may memorize some of them very well (probably as a result of previous punishment because of former disobedience), but we’ll probably always have to put more conscious cognitive effort into this than allistics. At least that’s what I would conclude.

Additionally, we often lack the ability to identify the social cues others send in order to inform us about implicit social norms (and you can bet your ass there are many of those). This could be caused by something completely unrelated, but it could also be the result of a failed learning process as well. What if we struggle with social cues because we just didn’t have the right approach to learning it during the time of our childhood in which we should have done that?

(This would actually be an amazing topic for my bachelor’s degree.)

Coming Back

[[Prompt: An alternative take on the scene where Ryder dies for the second time on the Archon’s flagship, in light of her relationship with Jaal. 

Jaal x Ryder, SFW

Always accepting more prompts!]] 

You could always count on SAM to find the way out of a tricky situation, even if his methods weren’t exactly what Wren Ryder wanted to hear.

“Any idea of how to break out of this?” Stuck within a containment field floating in the belly of the Archon’s flagship, her options seemed limited. Her eyes and mouth could move, but she couldn’t even turn her head to look at Vetra or Jaal, to reassure them that they were not nearly as screwed as they thought they were. Only a little bit screwed. Or a lot.

“The containment fields only interact with living matter. If you expire, the fields around you will extinguish until manually reset.” Though SAM had the ability to speak only to Ryder’s mind, he spoke out loud now, loud enough that Vetra and Jaal could no doubt hear, if she could only turn her head to see what their faces looked like. “As you know,” SAM continued, “my access to your physiology allows me to enhance your vital signs when required. I can also do the opposite.”

There was silence after SAM spoke. He phrased it so calmly, so rationally, as only an AI could. Framed in SAM’s terms, it seemed simple. Extinguish your vital signs, Ryder, and you can get out of this field. You can free Jaal and Vetra. But it was never that simple, was it?

“Whoa, whoa, whoa- kind of don’t want to die today, SAM.” I mean, preferably Ryder won’t die any other day either, but having already died once before, putting her body through that process again seemed unthinkable. There were days her chest still ached and a blind spot crept into her vision, and there were nights she relived it again and again. Flickers of consciousness, memory fading away, Alec’s face as he passed the helm to her, every single nerve in her body on fire… Fuck. Not again.

“After stopping your heart, I would attempt to resuscitate, of course.”

“Any other options?” Attempt. Her mind latched onto that word, turning it over and over again.

“None that I can determine.” If SAM couldn’t calculate a single possibility that didn’t involve Ryder dying, that meant there wasn’t one. It was as simple as that, but laid out in black and white terms, it looked even more bleak.

“You’ve got to be kidding me, Ryder. You can’t seriously be considering this.” Vetra spoke first, voice steeped in anger. If Ryder closed her eyes, she could imagine the way Vetra would try and clench her fists, the way her shoulders would hunch up just so and her mandibles would clack together in anger. If the situation had been any different, Ryder may even have laughed.

“Not seeing any other options here, Vetra. I’m really not looking forward to dying again myself.” There was too much resting on that single word. Attempt. Attempt. It repeated in her mind in time to her heartbeat.

Jaal finally broke her silence. “Ryder, no.” His voice sounded broken, his customary dry humor replaced by emotion that was purely Angaran, the words coming out strangely, as if choked. “I will not lose you.”

It had been difficult to joke with Vetra, but it was even harder to answer Jaal. “There’s no other way we’ll escape, Jaal. SAM did the math. Besides, he said he can probably bring me back. Probably.” The joke sounded hollow even as she said it, and she cursed herself for it. Stupid Ryder. Maybe you shouldn’t try and joke your way out of every situation.

“I am not confident in SAM’s abilities to bring you back. Ryder, I can’t lose you.” Again, that repetition- he wouldn’t, he couldn’t. It went from determination to something desperate, clinging to this notion and this idea that she couldn’t leave if he just asked enough times, made his voice forlorn enough. It was good she couldn’t see him properly; he was a pink blur out of the corner of one eye, and even that was distracting enough.

“Jaal, remember when you showed me your starmap in your room?” The first time they kissed, but not the last. “When this is over, let’s do that again. Build me one we can use in the Tempest. Make it cover the whole ceiling.” She could almost see it, the way the stars and foreign galaxies would swirl across the whiteness of her ceiling, reflecting pinpricks of light down onto her sheets, a pale imitation of what was just outside the window but so much more vast.

“Ryder…” The fight went out of Jaal’s voice, as if he could slump against the bonds holding them. What else could they say to each other? Her mind was made up, and the job of Pathfinder was so much bigger than what two people shared.

“I waited six hundred years to meet someone like you, Jaal. Stopping my heart isn’t going to stop me.” Bluffing through it made the prospect of pain less.

“All right. Let’s do it!” If she put enough excitement into her voice, maybe SAM would understand.

“Ryder… You’re crazy.” That was Vetra, admiration in her voice plain.

“It has been a pleasure. I love you, my dearest one.” There was no need to say who that was; tears prickled her eyes, but there was so much riding on this.

“I love you too, Jaal.”

“Stopping your heart… now.” And then there was nothing but pain, a pit of darkness she fell into accompanied by nothing. No noise, no sound, no memories. A last flash of thought- if I fuck this up, I’ve fucked it all up, and then…

A truck was hitting her in the chest, pounding again and again. Every part of her body hurt, not with a dull ache but with a sharp prickle that left her gasping.

“Stimulating again.” Blackness came creeping back.

“Why is she not waking up? Try harder!” Jaal’s voice, another hammer to the chest, another wave of black…

And then she opened her eyes, sitting up. Dying the second time hurt slightly less than dying the first time, but there was a moment where she didn’t know where she was, where she wondered why it was so difficult to take a single deep breath.

“Ryder…” Everything came back in a flood. Rising first to her elbows, and then standing, every limb shook, but she could move again. She was free from the containment field, able to face, Vetra, to offer a smile to Jaal that physically hurt her face to make.

“I told you I’d be back. I can’t just leave you here, Jaal. You think I’d cross galaxies, meet my dream man, and then just leave him?” Every word hurt, a knife in her chest. Every step was a lance of pain, but it was already growing dull. SAM was flooding her system with something that took the edge off, and though she knew she would regret it later, Ryder couldn’t stop now. Too much to do, no time to stop.

Limping, she managed to walk over to the console controlling the field, slamming her fist into it and sending her friends to the ground. It would be so nice to rest… If she could just lean against it for a minute, she could close her eyes, get her strength back…

Jaal’s arms were around her, crushing her tight, but it was a good pain. It was the pain of being alive when she really, really shouldn’t have been, his lips in her hair and then at her ear, and then finally finding her mouth. He clung to her but he also supported her, the warmth of his body and the familiar scent of the lotions he used on his skin and the oils he used on his gun bleeding into her mind.

“That’s twice now I’ve come back from the dead. Can’t say the experience is improving,” she choked out, as they stepped away from each other. Then she laughed until she cried, sound faintly hysterical, before wiping off her eyes.

“Let’s go. Let’s do this.” There would be more later, but for now her hand slipped into Jaal’s for just a moment, and she squeezed it. When Vetra’s head was turned, she mouthed the words a second time. “I love you.” For now, it would have to be enough.

Eldarya Selfie Day: Challenge!!

Okay, as everyone knows, Eldarya Selfie Day will happen at the 15th of March and I would like to challenge you all to spice things up!!!

You have to take the selfie of yourself while using something related to your Guardienne´s powers.

For example, my Guardienne´s powers has roses invloved so I will take a selfie of myself with a rose ^^
In case of mermaids, taking with sea objects- real or not- is a way too!!!
And it goes on. It can be something simple, not complicated at all. :D

So guys! You´re are all challenged to spice things up!!!!~

EDIT:

It doesn´t have to be in specific your Guardienne´s power! It can be some physical trait if you do not think of something else :D

It can also be something that both ofyou like! For examply music or reading! Pick up a book or earphones and take a selfie with it ^^

Guys,let your imagination go wild here!

If you are someone who is an expert on make-up or doing hair styles, try to imitate your Guardienne´s hair style and/or make-up!! It´s up to you!! :D

PS: YOU DO NOT NEED TO DO THIS IF YOU DON´T WANT TO! YOU CAN STILL PARTICIPATE BY TAKING A SELFIE OF YOURSELF! THIS ONLY AN IDEA TO SPICE THINGS UP IF YOU WANT!! :D

anonymous asked:

Could you possibly talk a little bit about tsumugi's character? I see she's in your top 10 fairly solidly. I'm really intrigued to just learn more about her and why you like her

Haha, it’s a little bit difficult to talk about Tsumugi in-depth if you’re not prepared for lots of spoilers. Like Ouma, she’s a fascinating character with tons of interesting points about her, but talking about those points requires breaching on a lot of endgame territory.

That said, she really is an excellent character. She’s high up not only on my ndrv3 Top 10, but she almost made it into my overall DR Top 10 as well (I think she scored #12 or so, the last time I took it). If you’re prepared to handle spoilers for pretty much the entire game, then keep reading! If you’re trying to avoid spoiler territory though, I’d recommend waiting on this one until the localization comes out in September so you can experience things for yourself!

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So, you want to be a calligrapher?

Hi everyone! I’ve gotten a lot of asks about my calligraphy lately, so I thought I’d share some tips with you all! Hopefully this can be of some help! 


What is calligraphy?

Lettering is pretty much just word art using different fonts and creative influences. Calligraphy is a traditional art form which has been modernized through recent years.

Can any average person be a calligrapher? Do I need lessons or fancy supplies?

Yes, anyone can practice calligraphy! Though, one thing that many people overlook when jumping into calligraphy is the process. Calligraphy is a complex art form that may take you a long time to get the hang of. If you’re aware that it is going to take a lot of practice to get the hang of, then you should be okay!

As for specific supplies or lessons, you don’t really need them. I started out by just practicing on scrap paper, and sometimes I still use regular pens to create. If you want your calligraphy to look professional or you want to learn techniques, workshops or worksheets are the way to go. You can find a lot of cheap options online.

Okay, how do I get started?

First off, become familiar with the art. Scroll through Tumblr or Pinterest searches of “calligraphy” or “lettering”. Examine the different styles, the shapes of letters and how they flow. I recommend starting out by learning faux calligraphy. Here is a quick guide to faux calligraphy that you should check out.

Remember: Upstrokes aren’t bold, downstrokes are.

I went from there by imitating other artist’s fonts or styles. This DOES NOT mean I would post this work and claim it as my own. Do not steal any artist’s art as your own under any circumstances.  Working with an artist’s polished work gave me a vision of what my original work should like once I got the basics down. Trying out a variety of fonts and styles eventually helped me find my own style that I was comfortable with and could create original ideas off of.

Once again, just for emphasis, if you imitate another artist’s work for practice, DO NOT POST THIS ART OR CLAIM IT AS YOUR OWN. It was someone else original idea, don’t devalue that.

I would recommend starting out with regular, everyday supplies, like I did. This way you can master the basics first before jumping into more advanced supplies.

Supplies

Once you get the hang of faux calligraphy, try out some more advanced supplies!

Brush pens: Brush pens are my favorite for modern calligraphy. They take awhile to get the hang of, but they look much nicer than faux calligraphy. My favorite brush pens are Small Tombow Brush Pens (hard and soft tips).

Nibs: Nibs are typically used for a more traditional style of calligraphy. I don’t know much about these supplies, but I would recommend starting out with just a beginners nib kit.

Paint: Watercolors are also a great option for calligraphy. Just find a small brush and give it a shot.


There you have it! That’s pretty much all you need to know before jumping into calligraphy. I’m so excited that a lot of people seem to be interested in learning it and have a admiration for the art form. I’m just an amateur, but I hope I was able to help! Feel free to submit or message any of your practice or completed works. I would love to see your progress! It inspires me.

One last thing: If your art doesn’t have a purpose, people can tell. Be authentic. Express yourself through calligraphy. It’s much more wonderful that way.

Keep creating, everyone!

anonymous asked:

Hello!! How did you come up with a drawing style? I'm still kind of a beginner at drawing but I'd like to figure out what I'm looking for you get what I mean?? & also I adore your art! Your one of my favourite artists of all time.

Hello! OMG thank you so much! You’re too nice, now I’m blushing u///u <3
How did I come up with my style? I didn’t, I’m still looking for one. Like, if you want to be an artist you need to prepare yourself to be always insatiable, always reaching for something, always almost there. Oh, and you always want to draw in someone else’s style depending on whose art you’re currently looking at.

But if you want to figure out what you’re looking for try to think what art you like the best, what makes you like it more than other, what’s so appealing in your favourite drawings? And then you notice what colours your eyes find attractive, what kind of lines, what sort of details. Do you prefer bright colours or muted? Delicate lines or confident brush strokes? Is there some particular way of lighting you love to stare at? What do you notice first, what your eyes focus on first? Do you like drawings rich in details or simple but expressive, clean or sketchy? What drawings make your heart skip a bit? Why?

Also, look at as many artists as you can, let be inspired by different things and collect inspirations, you can do moodboards with your favourite drawings if you like. You can try to imitate the style of someone else to understand how it’s created. And draw a lot, in different styles, using different techniques, studying the basics in the meanwhile, experimenting, teaching your hand how to behave, maybe it’ll get along with your eyes (it’s a good thing).

All those excercises lead to one aim, you’re putting together your own Frankenstein monster called your art style. Good luck b(~_^)d

Paying the price

Chapter 25

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My whole focus was on Edgar kneeling on the ground in front of me, his gaze so hypnotizing, I couldn’t tear myself away until a sudden movement in my peripheral vision had me swivel my head around, startling me. I straightened up, slowly raising my eyes until I meet my father´s hard stare, signaling him with a slowly shook my head to stay back.

“He`s mine.”

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asphodelum  asked:

Hello ♥︎ I just started reading your blog and... I fell in love with it. I would like to ask you (and I'm sorry if you had done this before, in this case, could you send me a link? 🙈 ) about your "essentials" and maybe some tips for neat, beautiful and cute notes? Maybe some tips on neat handwriting?✎ it would be just amazing! Thanks in advance! ♡♡♡♡

Hello! I’m so sorry it took so long for me to reply :-( thank you so much, that means a lot to me ♥ No, I haven’t really been asked this question before so here are a few tips I live by -

ESSENTIALS/TIPS:

  • I don’t really have a specific set of “essentials,” I love a good notebook but I’m not so picky whenever I buy pads/papers/notebooks. Remember that it doesn’t really matter whether you have an expensive notebook or not, what matters is what you write in it/that you even have a notebook in the first place (a lot of people don’t have the means to buy even a single notebook).
  • While I’m not so picky when it comes to notebooks, I’m incredibly picky when it comes to pens. I believe that the pen used while writing has a direct correlation to the handwriting produced (LOL). I actually don’t like gel pens with too thin a point - this means 0.1, 0.2, even 0.3 pens at times. I use 0.3 Zebra Sarasa pens and 0.38 Muji gel pens and they work really well, but I don’t use them for writing notes; only for lettering and decorating my bullet journal.
  • Find the pen that matches you. In my case, these are Faber Castell ballpoint pens (0.5/0.7), 0.5 Muji gel pens, 0.5 Dong-a U-knock gel pens. I prefer pens with points greater than or equal to 0.4 but I don’t like them too thick, just balanced. Like what I said: the pen you use affects your handwriting.
  • PRACTICE. This really important. I used to suck at lettering - y’all should see what my lettering looked like when I was just starting out. While I’m not saying that I have beautiful lettering now, it’s definitely improved as opposed to what it looked before. I had my classmate teach me the basics and I practiced every day; had him check my work and correct what should be corrected. (Kudos to him - he was REALLY patient with me even though I was probably really annoying, having my lettering checked Every. Single. Time.) I eventually got better as I practiced more. My point is: practice!
  • Regarding practice: don’t get annoyed if you don’t get the results you want on your first try. Practice makes perfect, and as you work on your handwriting/lettering it’ll get better eventually. I know it’s a pain to see mediocre handwriting/lettering every single time you practice, but I swear - it’ll get better. Just keep on persevering and you’ll get the results you want in no time.
  • Use inspiration. See pictures of notes with lettering you like? You can try and practice your handwriting by copying/imitating the lettering in the photo - it’s fun and satisfying, especially as you come close to completely imitating how the person wrote his/her lettering. This way, whenever you letter titles or anything else your hand will literally turn on autopilot mode and because you practiced on imitating someone else’s lettering the result will turn out to be just like theirs. I’ve no idea if y’all even get what I mean I couldn’t phrase it any way else lmao but yup, it worked on me like a charm - I practiced imitating my classmate’s writing and eventually succeeded: I could do my notes exactly the way he did his. He was pretty chill with it; he was even proud I could do it considering the state my lettering was before haha. (I’ve no idea if this is considered ‘muscle memory,’ but yep.)

A FEW POSTS REGARDING HANDWRITING/LETTERING:

When people say fiction isn’t reality they’re really more of saying if you enjoy something like Hannibal & Hannigram despite how unhealthy/abusive it is it’s fine because they’re NOT REAL PEOPLE and no one is ACTUALLY being hurt, it’s not reality it’s a tv show with actors portraying a written script.

If someone wants to imitate fiction that’s a whole ‘nother thing, and you know what else? It’s entirely on them. It is common sense for a mature person to know that fiction is fiction and that you shouldn’t jump out of the window to fly just because Superman can do it. People that don’t understand this have their own problems and people who write ““““problematic”““ fiction aren’t responsible for them.

And I don’t even want to tag this with shaladin because I feel like there’s absolutely nothing problematic about it in the first place, but hey.