do i dare tag them all

  • Person: which percy jackson character do you hate most?
  • Me: eeny meeny miney no one

daemondarkangel  asked:

Mad respect to everyone doing #tony'swiththomas because I wish I had a perfect voice like Them! I would personally sing "Everything I Know" from In The Heights because it has a personal connection to me. You all are awesome and perfect.

Ayyyy!! First of all, you are right, they deserve all the kudos for putting themselves out there and singing so amazingly!! Second, don’t you dare put yourself down on your singing! We’re all our biggest critics, and I bet you sing that song with wonderful passion. Major props to you and to ALL of you supporting each other! Visit the tag and check out all of the singers!!

anonymous asked:

Rec me a long, angsty, smutty (not amateur), fic. Preferably bottom!h 😅 but I'm really down for whatever plot. Like FWB, Enemies to lovers, head canon, etc. LITERALLY ANYTHING JUST WANT LONG AND SMUTTY AND MAYBE A LIL SAD BUT HAPPY ENDIG AND HARRY BEING FUCKED :( please :( (But I haven't read a fic where one of them was dared to date the other??)

Ok anon. you asked for a lot in this ask! So here’s kinda a mix of everything?? Idk I tried lol. If you want a more specific fic, message me again. But if you mainly just want long b!Harry fics, I suggest going on the AO3 tag Bottom Harry, and then setting the sort filter to word count. That should do the trick! Enjoy :D

baby loves when daddy gets high by octobertwo (cheshirebottom) (60k words) I love her smut! omg its perfect mix of filth and deliciousness! Check out all of her works !!

au set in los angeles where harry sings in dive bars and hooks up with men twice his age; french painter fresh from paris louis may or may not end up being the sugar daddy he’s been looking for.

[alternatively as: louis is a millionaire with a slight affinity for narcotics and harry just wants to be the coney island queen.]

“daddy gets high, but daddy takes care of business.”

You’ll Breathe Me In (You Won’t Release) by LoadedGunn (95k words) A smut classic. Jesus Christ. It’s sooo good mate. So good. 

His first driving lesson with Louis takes place on a Saturday.

Harry stumbles out through the front gate in thrown-on baggy jeans and his ratty Ramones shirt, sees Louis leaning casually against the car, and his knees nearly give out. Apparently “not another surly teacher” meant a drop dead gorgeous twenty-something scruffy guy with shaggy brown hair and cheekbones sharp enough to chop a salad with. Clearly, Robin’s trying to get Harry killed at seventeen.

Or, the AU where Louis is a 25-year-old driving instructor and Harry is a 17-year-old virgin who’s really awful at seduction, except for the time he gets Louis to fall for him and fuck him senseless and take him on kinky adventures.

The Bet by ShellSea12 (61k words) There’s some dare fics out there, I just can’t find them atm. So I’m recommending a bet au. 

Summary: When Louis bets Zayn that he can make anyone fall in love with him in under a month, he doesn’t expect Zayn to pick loner Harry Styles as the challenge. Larry Stylinson AU COMPLETE

Empty Gold by rainbow_kings (148k words) [long, b!H, enemies to lovers]

AU where Louis Tomlinson attends the vigorous, demanding performing arts school: Guildhall in hopes to complete his theatre degree. He is a scholarship student, always having to work twice as hard to prove his worth which has caused him to feel resentment and anger towards his subordinate position.

Harry Styles is the wealthy, naturally gifted actor who effortlessly snatches all the main roles within the class. The complete contrast to everything Louis is.

Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles have had bad blood and despised each other for the two years they attended Guildhall together, making each task a competition between each other.

In the final year, when Guildhall produces and performs an original play, Louis is heartbroken to learn the lead role has been been received to Harry and he’s the second role. He’s mostly terrified, however, when he realises he has to date Harry in the play as their characters. They come together through awkward stage kisses that transforms to hate sex, heated arguments, rehearsal times after lectures and baking carrot cake together.

Time Bomb by ThisSentimentalHeart (291k words) [long, b!H]

“Why exactly are you here?” Louis asked, feigning annoyance and failing pathetically at it.

“My publicist told me I can’t go anywhere near you.” Harry said, eyes still smudged with last night’s eye liner. “That makes you my favorite person in the world.”

Or the one where Louis has everything: a lead role in a giant Hollywood franchise, a glittering new house with an entertaining Irish neighbor, and a steady, normal boyfriend who he probably loves. Louis never expected to become a household name among young Hollywood overnight. He also never expected to find something endearing about the enigmatic rockstar who keeps showing up on his back porch.

you are in love by wildestdreams (207k words) [long, b!H, angst]

The one where there’s late night coffee runs with deep conversations, lots of frat parties with cute frat boys, TV show references, numerous social network interactions, first kisses in the rain and a slow burn love story between two unlikely people.

Thank you,

to all of you Riverdale fans who suddenly seem to be able to acknowledge Jughead’s canon asexuality. What I need you to know, though, and I know you don’t care, only acknowledging it to defend what has happened in the last episode by explaining to me, and the rest of the asexual community that has been standing up for one of the few canon asexual characters we have to represent us, what asexuality is and how identifying as one has nothing to do with your interest in relationships, is outright rude, to say the least.

You’re right, Jughead has only been canonically referred to as asexual, nothing else. And I’m not blaming you for not being able to see this as obvious as an aromantic person, but as such, I would like to tell you that his aromanticism is as obvious as his asexuality. There are multiple examples of this in the comic, basically everything about Jughead is proof.

And I know that someone wants to comment on how that is only a recent addition, how he was ‘gay-coded’ or a ‘woman-hater’ before 2015. And that is true. The latter at least. Jughead is not a gay-coded character unless you’re talking about those denying his asexuality. He was called a woman hater because a teenage boy not being interested in women must mean that he hates them. Sure, maybe not being interested in women means he is interested in men. Only that he never showed interest in men either. Back in the 40s they just didn’t have to mention that, because being gay wasn’t seen as normal. 

Jughead Jones was always a character that stood out from the rest of the Archie gang due to his lack of interest in dating, in contrast to Archie who’s constantly torn between Veronica and Betty. 

So yes, asexuality has nothing to do with your interest in relationships. But Jughead Jones is just as aromantic as he is asexual, so next time you think about telling us to quit complaining about Riverdale’s portrayal of him, remember that unlike you, who wants to ship two fictional characters romantically, despite them having shared such a beautiful friendship for over 70 years now, the reason we complain is because we seek representation. To be heard, and seen. To get a chance at being understood and accepted. I’m not saying you can’t ship them - go ahead and do whatever you want. But don’t you dare tell me that I don’t get to complain about a character that means so much to me because I have seen him reflect me in ways that I never thought anyone else shared with me. And making me realize just how much about me is due to my sexual and romantic orientation.

It’s not about your shipping, it’s about my identity.

Okay but so much of “the discourse” is based on treating aces and aros as privileged groups though.

Like I swear that shows how absurd this entire mess is.

From the start “exclusionists” tried to erase essentially all other marginalized identities of aces and aros, claiming we’re all white, saying “we” collectively harm various oppressed groups (= often said by ppl who did not belong themselves to those groups), frequently declaring individual acs/aros/inclusionists “cishet” when those people were and are not cis+hetero, etc.

They treat problems in our communities in ways you would only in the case of a privileged group. Talking like aces and aros benefit from racism, benefit from sex-shaming, benefit from ableism… while when that shit constantly pops up among their own crowd, that totally doesn’t mean anything important and also doesn’t particularly need to be addressed by them, nope.

They will talk shit about aces and aros as though we have power within society for being ace/aro, they will pull shit like the “dare I say asexual/aromantic” meme, they will attack our positivity tags as though they’re unnecessary at best and as if there are no mentally ill aces+aros this harms and endangers.

They will tell those speaking out against this they’re doing the equivalent of saying “not all men” or “not all white people” when aces and aros are sure as hell not privileged groups.

Ppl will tell individual aces/aros whom they have privilege over in one or several respects they have an oppression fantasy and don’t know how oppression works.

When we say they’re perpetuating -isms against us, “exclusionists” overall laugh at or ignore us. When aces and aros who belong to various oppressed groups say “don’t dehumanize/sexualize us”, they will say “lol this is funny you’re not oppressed”.

They will literally make posts about how aces and aros are all so privileged we must be bored of it and that’s why we as communities do this or that bad stuff.

They literally treat us like a privileged group and the privilege we have is whichever one they find convenient to attribute to us at the time

This post got me thinking so much about how so many in this fandom view Jensen as only a tool to validate some ship and like to disparage him whenever he does/says something that might not go along with popular opinions of certain shippers. And I’m looking in every direction here. There are lovely people among all shippers, but there are appalling ones everywhere too. But what you ship shouldn’t even matter in this regard. What matters is that Jensen should be able to voice an opinion without hundreds of people trying to find some hidden meaning in it or - even worse - a hidden agenda that stems from internalised misogyny or homophobia. You don’t like what he says? Fine. Does it make him a bad person for having a different opinion than you? No.

People should really learn that respect goes both ways. Personally, I would feel rather distressed by so many strangers putting labels on me and trying to define who I am without even knowing me. I think the same goes for most people, especially if it’s done with such frightening dedication. Don’t tell me that you honestly like Jensen and respect him, when you try to present him as a completely different person than he appears to be and call everything he does that doesn’t fit your view on him “fake” and “hiding his true personality”. Because that actually only shows that you like Jensen for who you want him to be, not the person he is all on his own.

I could have added this to my response to the other post, but I think this applies to so many more instances where Jensen got hated on for daring to do/say something that goes against certain ships or doesn’t fit the way people want to see him. And this needs to stop!

Take that post I linked for example and look at the majority of responses and tags from other people. Look how most of them find all these theories about Jensen at least “interesting” and even more taking it as valid facts (even though the OP did say that it’s her thoughts on the matter only). I know there will always be haters who have absolutely nothing else to do than to dedicate all their free time to hate on other people. I don’t understand it, but I’m under no illusion to change that. But I do hope that if more people who like Jensen for the wonderful man he is will speak up, that maybe there will be more awareness about how wrong this behavior towards Jensen truly is.

I’ve recently hit 400 followers and my blogoversary and have decided to list my follow forevers mutual edition. Thank you all for putting up with me and my spotty activity — my shipping antics — and how volatile my muse can be. I appreciate all of you, mutual or not, and look forward to more shenanigans. 

I’ve divided people up into fandom categories, in case you were looking for rad people to follow. 

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420 Followers Special

the long awaited 420 followers special is here~
two things we
’d like to say first before anything else
first, from this follower special up to 666 followers special will be headcanons because we admins forgot keep track of our follower count and WE MISSED IT. so to catch up we
’ll be doing headcanons. sorry. 
second, you can and should now request for
 chirstmas specials since chirstmas is rolling around soon. 
also, we might so a shameless self-promo soon for our other scenario blog.
 


It was once again that time of day where everyone was finally free enough to log onto the chat room. You finally submitted all your final projects and the dreadful exam season has passed, now all that’s left is the even more dreadful waiting time for your results, but for now, you figured it was wise to give yourself a break. With your sleep deprived ass in tow, you logged into the chatroom wanting to tell everyone you’re free now so maybe you guys could hang. 

[you entered the chatroom]

you: helllooooooo

Jaehee Kang: Good evening. 

Jumin Han: It’s a beautiful evening. Tonight, Elizabeth the 3rd looks beautiful as well.

ZEN: -.- dude

you: I’m sleeeepy. I really need to sleep. I’ve only been getting five hours of sleep every night for the past two weeks. 

ZEN: That’s no good! You have to sleep properly or it’ll damage your skin!!

Jaehee Kang: I agree.

you: boooo. hypocrites. 

you: Anyways, I wanted to ask if you guys wanted to hang out sometime. I finished my exams and stuff and

you: I

you: AM

you: FREE

707: fffFREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

707: Hold on! I think someone is coming

ZEN: There’s no way someone’s going to log in just because you said so. 

[Yoosung★ has entered the chatroom]

Yoosung★: guuuuyssss qAq 

707: DENG DENG DENG

Yoosung★: i think i’m going to fail my exam

ZEN: OMG IT WORKED?

Yoosung★: what?

you: o shit whaddup

ZEN: you sound like Seven

Jumin Han: ?

Jumin Han: Is that a new greeting?

Jaehee Kang: Luciel, did you teach her that?

707: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

707: I didn’t know you memed (☞ ͡ ͡° ͜ ʖ ͡ ͡°)

you: o shoot farewell

[you left the chatroom]

You logged out of the chatroom in panic. Yes, you’re a casual memer but you didn’t want to weird RFA out with your hobby so you kept your memes to yourself. Being sleep deprived made you kinda forget you were with RFA and your inner meme came bursting out. You threw yourself onto your bed and rolled around in frustration. 

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Ways to Respect Idols!
  1. Do not repost/distribute photos that seem stolen/hacked. This is the #1 way to respect idol privacy. Plenty of pre-debut photos are leaked and I know of one site that has admitted to hacking and/or making fake profiles to gain access to celeb & idol photos before. THIS IS STALKING. DO NOT ENCOURAGE IT. If you see rare/stolen photos, do not participate in the distribution of said photos. It doesn’t matter that other fans post them, you should do the right thing and not post them and let others know that it’s not okay because then others will see this and follow your example. There’s strength in numbers, everyone. We can be respectful.
  2. Do not harass idol family members. For the love of god, just don’t. Don’t send messages to them on Facebook and don’t you dare look up their addresses or try to contact them. That is 100% inappropriate and if you’re not mature enough to realize that then maybe you shouldn’t be on the internet. 
  3. Do not tag idols in sexual posts! I get it, we all have our fantasies and they are idols after all but above all else they are people!!! Say it with me: idols are human beings!! They go to work, they shit, they own animals, they feel things. IDOLS ARE PEOPLE. Sure, we write things on tumblr but do not call idols “daddy” to their face or sexualize them!!!! Don’t tag your fave in a sexual post either. It’s just as disrespectful. You never know what they look at. 
  4. Don’t harass idol partners/significant others!!! We are just fangirls/fanboys. You are not entitled to your bias. Your bias is not an object. You can be as devastated as you want that your bias who probably didn’t even know you existed didn’t want to date you instead of the gf he works with. Say it with me, kids: IDOLS ARE PEOPLE.
  5. Do not crowd/push idols!! While waiting for idols at airports or events, talk to other fans in the area. Make sure you all know what a safe and respectable distance is!! I see this way too often and I understand everyone gets a little excited. Please mind personal space!!! They are human beings!!!!
  6. Don’t ignore/blow off other band members! We all have a bias, but that doesn’t mean you have to be rude or inconsiderate to the other band members!!! If you listen to the band, have all their albums and posters and enjoy going to fan meetings then there is absolutely no reason to be rude to a band member. That makes their entire experience shit. Let them live!! be good to them!!! If you get the opportunity to meet your favorite band and you’re horrible to any members just because they’re not your favorite, you are not a fan. You’re an anti. 
  7. Do not throw things on stage! We all want our bias to notice us, but they have to perform and they are people!!! They are people!!! Yes, throwing a water botte on stage full of water can actually hurt someone!
  8. Do not follow them in public! Give them space! Yes, it’s okay to ask for a photo but if they say no just walk away. Be a decent human being! Don’t invade their personal space. 
  9. Don’t scream at them! I’d be excited too, but no one enjoys being screamed at!! 
  10. Do not grab/touch them!! IDOLS ARE PEOPLE. Would you enjoy being grabbed/touched without your consent? No? Then don’t do it. 

Above all, we need to understand that idols are human beings. You are not entitled to your idol and their existence. It’s fun to watch their work and listen to their music, but please remember to be respectful and kind to idols. They are just trying to live their lives and work. Please understand this if you have the rare opportunity to meet them. BE GOOD TO IDOLS. A lot of idols from other countries have left their families to pursue their careers! These people have to put up with this behavior on a daily basis. The least we can do as fans is observe this behavior and take note of it. Learn from it. Let’s be better fans for our idols! In 2017, let us be more respectful fans. Let’s show our idols just how much we love them! I know we can do it, guys! 

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Break The Ice

After an accident Gray, a professional figure skater has to take some time off to heal and he’s not enjoying it AT ALL. What he didn’t  expect was meeting Juvia, a swimmer who is sick and tired of her career, even less ending up as her coach. Lucy, an aspiring figure skater wanting to freely express her passion, came to realize it was a whole new experience with a pink haired weirdo and his equally weird blue cat by her side. Somehow they all ended up meeting together in the Fairy Tail ice rink. Figure Skating AU


Now, its Juvia turn! Here is the summary of our collab fic, hope you all like it. Its not a Yoi crossover btw i see a lot of tag comments about it, but it is inspired by yoi :D Also included a clean lineart version if anyone wants to color, tag me if you do :)

Gray Ice Skating Outfit (by mist)

Lucy Ice Skating Outfit (by me)

Tags: @watchmist-art @phantompierce-okamoto

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Okay, Mick Rory and Harley Quinn BroTP headcanons:

  • he hardly ever calls her Harley, it’s ‘Pigtails’ and Harley fucking loves it
  • as in, “Hey Pigtails, Snart and I are knocking over a bank, you and Rash wanna come?”
  • Rash is Ivy’s nickname, due to the fact that she gave Snart one the first time they all met, and he finds it endlessly hilarious even though Snart has told him Not to Talk about it
  • has offered to roast Joker alive and provide marshmallows for s’mores while he does it
  • you know those chocolate bars that have chili powder inside? Mick and Harley held up one of they delivery trucks and all of those chocolate bars are THEIRS now
  • is one of the few people Harley can really trust and open up to, and her psychiatrist background helps him work through issues
  • the Legends crew is in Gotham and Harley and Sara are ready to fucking throw down when Mick steps in between and tells them both to knock it off
  • “they’re cool, Pigtails.” “that one’s looking at me like ‘m crazy.” “you are, but cool it, Haircut.”
  • when Snart came back and showed up in Gotham again after his supposed death, Harley hit him really hard with a mallet
  • “ow, Harls!” “how DARE you leave your common-law husband like that and leave him all worried! I TOLD you guys that I do couples’ counseling!”
Party at the Night Court feat. Helion Spell-Cleaver

Azriel: In charge of invitations and RSVPs cause c'mon, a spymaster needs to chill out and what better way to do that if not with some domestic shit?

Mor: super chirpy, ordering everyone around about their wardrobe like “No, are you insane??!! THAT won’t go with THAT in a thousand years! Wait lemme help ya”

Feyre: “All right, who graffitied Tamlin’s Tanline looks like a Tool on the dance floor? (It’s true tho)”

Rhys: Feyre darling, you look absolutely ravishing. Oops sorry Mor, I’ll tell the Palaces to bring in food IMMEDIATELY.

Cassian: *grumbling in the corner about his uselessness*

Elain: Incharge of decoration. No doubts. Goes all Scary Flower Monster™ if something is done wrong.

Nesta: “Why do I have to be here again? You do realise there are gonna be people, right? You really want them to meet me???” *Raises an eyebrow*

Lucien: tagging along behind Elain, trying unsuccessfully to talk to her, and cringing when she becomes Scary Flower Monster™

Amren: DO NOT DARE TO WEAR THE SAME JEWELLERY AS I HAVE UNLESS YOU HAVE A DEATH WISH, DO YOU UNDERSTAND? Oh, and Feyre, here you can borrow this beautiful piece it’ll go brilliantly with your elegant dress


MEANWHILE AT THE DAY COURT

Helion: Hmmmm do I look sexy enough in this toga peeps? *Posing at different angles in front of the mirror*

His courtiers: *puzzled and fearful* yes, my lord. You’ll be the life of the party. Even Rhysand will have a hard time comparing to you.

Helion: *smirking* Good. Bet those three will find it hard to decline my offer now, huh?

anonymous asked:

I dare you to write victuuri with the first tag that you get here: generatorland. com/usergenerator. aspx?id=9094

celebratory supermarket cuddling

“Yuuri, I’m so proud of you,” Victor says as he wraps his arms around his husband’s waist and buries his face in his neck, pressing a kiss to it.

“All I did was pick out a brand of microwave dinners.”

Victor hums and shuts his eyes. “And you did so well.”

Yuuri laughs and is pulled back against him, slightly self-conscious of the shoppers around them. “Do we have to do this every time we go to the store?”

“Any excuse for celebratory supermarket cuddling,” Victor responds, and Yuuri lets out a breathy sigh as he slips a hand under his shirt.

“There’s an….. Er…. Incident on aisle six,” an employee mumbles and Victor and Yuuri face each other and Yuuri wraps his legs around Victor’s waist.

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i can’t believe i’d ever dare to do this but i’ve been tagged in this “stick your selca beside your bias’, who is apparently sculpted by the gods themselves, selca” by @jinmini​ and normally i don’t think i’d ever do this but several users have tagged me as well (i have shitty memory so i can’t remember who did but i do remember @bwink​ tagging me in this self picture thingy) and now i feel bad and- i digress…

anyway, pointless speech said and done, i miss you all and i miss my boys and i can’t believe i’m seeing them in a month so

i’m tagging: @daegucrew@apgujeon@bwipsul​ (because i really really miss talking to you guys) and @joonjuly@jeonsshi@yoonseok@cyyphr​ (because i wanted to see you beautiful people gracing my dashboard with your beautiful existence) and to everyone who’s willing to do this! tag me as someone who tagged you because I would love to see you all ♥

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I am back and I have a very important announcement to make, Me and @watchmist1412​ are co-writing an ice skating AU fanfic called “Break the Ice”. We already have a few chaps ready but most of it is still a work-in-progress, can’t wait to share this story to you all!!

Both of our ask box is open if ever you have any questions about this fanfic

Also let me present Lucy’s Skating Outfit inspired by her Leo Stardress that will be appearing in BTI I had fun doing this although i got lazy with fully painting the whole thing so i just sticked to flat colors haha. I also included a clean lineart version so have fun coloring for those who want too and tag me if you do ^_^

Gray’s ice skating outfit right here drawn by mist

Tags: @phantompierce-okamoto


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it’s the second time i try to post this garbage asdfghjkkhfgh i was tagged by my baby @foxistrash for this lil thingy idk thank you sweet pea!! i love you!💘 i also wanna thank all my friends bc i always tag them and i know it’s annoYING BUT i’m annoying myself so >:^) i wanna tag @ukihyunnie @tensdreams @hyunqvwon @changhyuk @playboyjongin @1leeminhyuk and idk whoever wants to do this orz

Derek Luh - That type of girl

Request:  I was just wondering if you could do an imagine where the girl is a Virgin and she and Derek flirt yet he’s a bad boy but she doesn’t want him to think she’s not sexy enough so tries by dressing sexy which makes him angry and tells her to just be her, they might end up doing it later? Sorry if this is too long. Also could the girl be mixed thanks

I started to write it and then realized that I left out the mixed part, sorry about that, I hope you’ll like it anyway!

MASTERLIST

I awkwardly stood at the middle of the lingerie department looking at the many kinds of bras and panties feeling more lost than ever in my life. Lace everywhere, push up tags on the bras and I had no idea which one was the most daring one. I grabbed a pink and a red one with matching panties and basically ran towards the fitting rooms. I felt like I was sinning by trying them on.

I didn’t believe that they would look good on me, but my boobs got so big and my butt looked so much better in the panties that I started to feel like I would be able to do this. I decided to buy the red one and after paying I headed home to get ready for the night.

All I could think about was Derek and that how excited I was to see him. All this fuss was about him and we weren’t even an official couple just yet. But he was the kind of guy that I would have never thought I would ever, like, talk to in the first place, but he seemed to like me for some reason even though he was way out of my league. He was the bad boy with the life I only saw in movies, while I was the eighteen year-old virgin who felt awkward buying lingerie. Even I was ashamed of myself sometimes, I didn’t understand what Derek saw in me, but there was no way I would let him go. And if that meant that I had to wear lacy underwear with daring dresses… then let it be.

I was doing the final touches on my hair when my phone rang. It was him.

“Hey, I’m outside,” he said as I answered the call.

“Come in, I’m not done yet.” I opened the door so he could let himself in as I ran into my bedroom and quickly threw everything into my wardrobe that didn’t belonged to the floor. If tonight was about to get me to another level with a boy, I couldn’t let it happen with all my garbage on the ground around us.

I heard the door closing and he shouted a casual ‘hello’, and I quickly checked myself in the mirror. I looked nothing like myself. I straightened my loose curls and created smoky eyes with the help of a You Tube tutorial, and then there was this dress that covered the minimal of my body with the lacy underwear under it. If I didn’t know that I was looking at myself I would have thought that this was a confident, hot girl. But I knew that it was me and I heard that little voice at the back of my mind telling me that “it’s not you, you can’t fool anyone”.

I shook my head refusing to listen to it and walked out of my room. He was standing in the kitchen with his hands in his pockets, he had his black leather jacket on that looked so amazing I was starting to question his whole existence. As he saw me his eyes went wide.

“Woah, Y/N, you look so… different!”

Well, this wasn’t the reaction I was expecting to get, but better than nothing.

“Do you like it?” I arched an eyebrow trying to look as sexy as I could.

“You look great, yeah,” he said but his voice told me otherwise. I took a deep breath trying not to let it bother me and instead just dropped the topic.

“Let me put on my shoes and we can leave,” I said forcing myself to smile at him. He nodded and I walked out to the hall where I left the high heels I bought especially for this night. I even practiced walking in them since I was more like a sneaker fan.

I jumped into them and walked back to Derek smiling, showing him that I was ready to leave.

“Are you going to wear those?” he asked pointing at my shoes with furrowed eyebrows. That was the point where I felt all my confidence vanish by his words.

“Why are you asking?” I whispered faking another smile.

“It’s just… I have never seen you in anything else than sneakers.”

I exhaled sharply collapsing to a stool giving up. I wanted to be a girl who looks good enough for a guy like Derek, but I guess I horribly failed.

“I feel so stupid,” I whispered closing my eyes. I kicked the heels off and wrapped my arms around myself.

“Hey, don’t say that. Why would you feel stupid?” he asked stepping closer to me and gently unwrapped my arms holding my hands in his.

“I just… I thought this is what you like,” I said nodding down at myself.

“What do you mean?”

I sighed looking up at the ceiling not really wanting to look into his eyes and see the pity that I was about to receive from him.

“Derek, just look at you and then me. I’m not the type of girl who gets to date a guy like you. This,” I gestured at myself, “was my miserably attempt to become someone I wasn’t, but I failed, I’m sorry. I wouldn’t blame you if you didn’t want to see me again.”

I was mentally getting ready to get dumped before we could even become a thing. I really felt like an idiot thinking that this would work somehow.

“Okay, Y/N, this was the stupidest thing I have ever heard. What is this type of girl thing? Where did you get this?” he asked putting his hands to his hips.

“I just looked into the mirror, no big deal, Derek,” I rolled my eyes.
“You have to forget it really fast, because it’s bullshit. I don’t believe in labels, and you shouldn’t too. I wanted to date you because I liked the way you were before all these stuff,” he said nodding at my dress and then glanced down at my shoes. “I don’t give a fuck what type you are or I am, this is not High School Musical, okay?” he asked with a slight smile that made the corner of my lips turn up a bit too.

“Okay,” I nodded.

“I like the clever, funny girl with the sneakers that I met two weeks ago and I asked her out, not this girl with the ankle twisting shoes and stuff. Don’t get me wrong, you look amazing, but it’s not you and I’m more interested in you.”

I nodded slowly taking in his words. He was right, I shouldn’t have make such a big deal out of this date.

“Now go and change, I want to see your sneakers,” he chuckled helping me jump off the stool. He didn’t have to tell me twice, I ditched the hot girl dress and put on a shirt with a pair of jeans and my sneakers. I may had not looked hot, but at least I was me.

The date was amazing, he took me to a sushi restaurant, since he couldn’t believe I had never been to one, then we took a long walk that would have been miserable if I stayed in those heels. He even kissed me and we walked hand in hand, I felt like a little girl in love. Despite his bad boy look he really was an amazing person.

He walked me home and we stood at the door kissing like a high school couple, my fingers laced through his hair and his hands sneaked under my shirt. His touch felt amazing on my skin and I wanted more. I needed more.

“Do you want to spend the night here?” I asked blinking up at him as I opened the door and stepped inside waiting for his answer.

“Only if you want me to,” he smiled. I nodded and he walked in, I closed the door behind him and a moment later we continued from where we stopped.

We headed towards my bedroom and soon enough our shirts were gone. His lips felt like magic on my skin as he placed kisses all over my neck and shoulders. I knew that I wanted to take this step with him, but I had to let him know that I had never been with anyone before.

“Derek,” I whispered with my eyes closed as we were lying on my bed.

“Yeah?” he murmured between two kisses on my chest.

“You have to know something.”

Hearing it he stopped and lifted his head so he could look into my eyes.

“I-I… I’m a virgin,” I said trying not to stutter like an idiot. A small smile formed on his lips and leaning down he softly kissed me.

“I know,” he said surprising me.

“What?”

“Y/N, you are like an open book to me. I could tell it the first time we talked. You are the most innocent person I have ever met, and I mean it in a good way. So if you don’t want to do anything tonight I’m perfectly fine with just being with you and sleeping.”

I bit into my bottom lip feeling touched by his words. He was the sweetest guy ever and I felt like the luckiest girl in the world to have him as my first time.

“No, I want it. I want it with you,” I said looking at him. He stared at me for a moment giving me the chance to change my mind, but I had no intention of turning back. Because I looked at him and saw an amazing person that I wanted to hold on to.